ill release real music sometime i promise

stop ! let me grab my backpack

i don’t wanna be late to my class again

honors been waiting since last november 

when we had to quarantine for a term 

had to keep the doors clean. in return

we would spend 14 days alone

only seeing four teens if were 

lucky enough to see a friend 

up in morning we would spend 

our time right online 

doing assignments 

RUN IT BACK !!!!!11

let me digress 

to when we were young, not scared of anyone 

don’t know where the time went

took a nap now it’s 2021

one more day

one more day

until i gotta say

“ooh, moma OOOOOH ! 

do you like my cap and gown?

ooh mama, OOOOOOH

are you proud???” x2

he said with a mask on

he can’t believe he’s already at the finish line

but before he packs up

he’s gotta pass one more class

i don’t wanna go

i don’t wanna go act like i’m happy 

about a cap thrown in the air 

don’t know if i’ll last long in the

real i world

fear the world x2

practice my penmanship 

while my pity’s pending in a

pretty small penny sized penitentiary 

that i call my brain. i don’t plan to plead 

for a plodding pace in life 

i just wanna say

i just wanna say 

one more day

one more day

until i gotta say

“ooh, moma OOOOOH ! 

do you like my cap and gown?

ooh mama, OOOOOOH

are you proud???” x2

class of 2021

as the wind passes through

bacon pancakes cover

The main guitar is taken from Goonnights' song "sober"
link: https://soundcloud.com/goonnights/sober-ft-ever

The lead guitar in the second half was recorded by 2045
link: https://soundcloud.com/sc2un-sh4re
link: https://soundcloud.com/2045

Struggler is written about a sort of cycle I go through a lot, and trying to break it, but failing.
I always end up falling into slumps of creative block, and I always try way too hard to get out of it, and I always end up feeling horrible.
This song is also indirectly about me and my new alias, with some lyrics specifically referencing and responding to "To Disappear" which was a very difficult song for me.

As for this new alias, there's a full post on twitter, I'm sorry for deleting everything so suddenly, it was a really silly decision. "Rapture" will always be available on bandcamp for free.

remix stems:
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1L6wVfOrNyYRWd7d7iVrHIA5V-PZnGjcb/view?usp=sharing
(162bpm, idk the key)

As always, Soundcloud isnt the best listening experience (specifically butchers the high end on this song), try spotify or youtube or something
The mixing is definitely intentionally a little messy, the vocals are a little quiet on purpose, I really enjoy the sound this song has, but I can agree it might not be for everyone.

[LYRICS]

And Oh, I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive
And Oh, I might struggle and I might die

So tell me, is this healing?
Or it's a cycle that's repeating
And I need to know
If I'm gonna be here

Thickened Water
And Tarot Smoke

I guess I can feel it now
My gums are melting away
But they continued

And Oh, I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive
And Oh, I might struggle and I might die
So please don't disappear
Don't leave me in a shallow river

Struggle 'til I die

Struggler

Listen to Run Away (You're to Blame): https://ffm.to/asrunaway

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Lyrics:
Pacing back and forth
I don't want to go to war
I can feel the cold
I forgot to bring a coat
Wishing you would call me back
Just to break the wind again
You've left me to feel alone

From the bottom of my heart
I'll run away
I'll take my time and erase your name
I'll read between the lines
I'll take what's yours and mine
And I will throw it all away
And you're to blame

All the tears I've led
All the towels that have bled
All the floors I've feared
For you to leave me just this year
I don't want you to go
I scream your name beyond the road
What's it like to be alone

From the bottom of my heart
I'll run away
I'll take my time and erase your name
I'll read between the lines
I'll take what's yours and mine
And I will throw it all away
And you're to blame

Run Away (You're To Blame)

come on i'm sure
it always gets better
so stop this damage
i know it hurts
he left so soon
but i know he'll manage

he'll come back, and he'll be him again
i don't know if i still want to be friends
its not enough, its not enough, for me to pretend
its not enough, its not enough

and i dont know you anymore

your white lies, your white lies
leave with fright lines
i cry when light up with the sky
i almost died but i feel alive
it left me with fright lines
it left me with fright lines

i scratched up my old identity
fell in love so everyone could see
the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me
caught up on emotions i didn't need
locked away for a summer of secrecy
the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me

the fright lines

the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me

the fright lines

the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me

the fright lines remind me
the fright lines remind me

only last year
did we talk together
how it'd get better
we were right here
i looked at you
and you said you met her

im sidelined, waiting looking in
i cant tell if we even still are friends
i want it back, i want it back, and see you again back
i want it back, i want it back

and i dont know you anymore

your white lies, your white lies
leave with fright lines
i cry when light up with the sky
i almost died but i feel alive
it left me with fright lines
it left me with fright lines

i scratched up my old identity
fell in love so everyone could see
the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me
caught up on emotions i didn't need
locked away for a summer of secrecy
the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me

the fright lines

the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me

the fright lines

the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me

fright lines!

listening to my album nearly 8 months on ive sorta grown from most of them but i still think this song is one of my best ever i also pyut it on spotify cuz idk im silly

Growing Legs

special thanks to @phritzmusic for the gorgeous strings 

i miss the woods - examining my relationship with the woods near my house, and cataloguing my history of going out to sleep in them, in a hammock.

lyrics:
i walk throughout the birches
on the appalachian trail
i comfort all the oak trees
that the cloud's fellow fell
i strain to sight a dogwood
with its pus covered tail
i sleep with matted heartache
and the kiss of ivy veil
and the bugs are there
and the birds are there

i wake to bismuth lake lap
and a speedboats strident flare
i press my cheek to cotton
so the wind's not lonely there
i peek above the windbreak
and feel my shadow bare
but i dont feel like crying
cause the hammock stroked my hair
and the bugs are there
and the birds are there

i step to pass the threshold
of sacrament dune stair
and feel his heavy hand press
against my tepid air
i open up the doorway
and breathe his thickened air
i finally feel a dreamscape
it cradles my despair
and he lives in there
but the woods are there
and the bugs are there
and the birds are there

i miss the woods

download/pwyw

indigo awning - i miss the woods

happy new year :)

things will really pick up this year

mirror

el otro día nos juntamos con la nía e hicimos esta tontera @ni4a4a

lyrics:
me miro al espejo y parece que esto fuera una trampa
si espero más tiempo no sé si me llegará la calma
mi cuerpo contra mi alma
yo vs yo a ver quién se salva

y creo que no
es tan difícil pero no
puedo callar este ruido tantas
ocasiones que se contrastan
yo vs yo a ver quien se salva

salí a buscarme y no me encontré
termine mirando el espejo otra vez
y estoy perdida rescatándome
mis reflejos quieren morir, y aquí está todo bien

déjame aquí, evitando sufrir
corte en las manos no aprendo a vivir
estoy empezando a pensar
que aún queda de nuestro plan
que aún queda de nuestro plan

me miro al espejo y parece que esto fuera una trampa
si espero más tiempo no sé si me llegará la calma
mi cuerpo contra mi alma
yo vs yo a ver quién se salva

y creo que no
es tan difícil pero no
puedo callar este ruido tantas
ocasiones que se contrastan
yo vs yo a ver quien se salva

yo vs yo (ft. d3adgrl)

my song about not being there for you

--

It's hard to be in the middle
It cuts you up, it's so sharp
But love couldn't be as simple
As stumbling your way through the dark

If I could be as comforting would you start
Giving me a room to get in your heart?

I'm trying to hide these emotions
Heart race in the back of your car
And that time that we went to the ocean
I wish I had taken you more far

If I could be as comforting would you start
Giving me a room to get in your heart?

--

art generated using dall-e

borderline lovesick

math rock y otros ruidos

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yo vs yo (ft. d3adgrl)

buzito

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