pc: matthew florez

Lyrics:

(yeah, I just... I don't know.)
(maybe)

It's almost summer; we're getting green.
It's getting warmer and you're with me.
I'm only halfway into this dream.
I'm waking up now-not to be mean. 

I don't wanna run away too fast.
So I'm gonna fade,
fade away,
into the darkness. 

I don't wanna make this last.
I just wanna stop,
stop, I thought we weren't gonna be serious.

But when I'm with you I get so bored.
And when I'm with you I'd rather be alone.
But when I'm with you I get so bored.
And when I'm with you I think
"oh lord what have I gotten myself into?"

BORED

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Lyrics:

It's been three years.
I know more than I ever did but,
I've known you for three years.
All I know is what somebody said.

Tell me why I'm crying now.
Tell me why you let me down.
You don't know that you matter to me.
I'm tired, it's late, but i'm up at 3:00. oh

I wish I didn't care.
I wish I didn't care.
I'm apathetic about everything but you.
Don't know you but 
It's been three years.

It's been three years.
One of which we didn't speak 
I haven't seen you in three years.
Always talk and plan but never meet.

Tell me why I'm crying now.
Tell me why you let me down.
You don't know that you matter to me.
You don't fucking know that you matter to me.

But I don't care,
I love you,
I hate you,
I don't know you,
But they do,
They love you,
They know you,
I wish I knew you too.

I wish I didn't care.
I wish I didn't care.
I'm apathetic about everything but you.
Don't know you.

I wish I didn’t care.

3 YEARS

dedicated to Sylvia Rivera and Marsha P. Johnson
guitar: katie gleason
pc: matthew florez

Lyrics:

Lay down your head next to mine.
Talk low and soft as we recline.
Feel our veins pumping overtime.
Rest easy knowing you are mine.

What a day to be.
Everything is golden.
What a day to see,
our love is free and bold and folded in the hands of a dream. 

If It wasn't now, we wouldn't love.
So just sit still and stare above.
Even though we still have it rough,
They’re wrong and darling we’re enough.

What a day to be.
Everything is golden.
What a day to see,
our love is free and bold and folded in the hands of a dream. 

It’s like dam that’s gonna break, just needs to let it go.
The world is changing faster than it spins, at least I hope.
But on a summer day when life is feeling twice as cold,
Beauty unfolds in your eyes and I know things untold.

What a day to be.
Everything is golden.
What a day to see,
our love is free and bold and folded in the hands of a dream.  

I'm living in the hands of a dream.
Love and love, and love in you and me.

to sylvia,

pc: matthew florez

Lyrics:

Stop myself.
I can't stop playing scenes about how we played out.
Can't stop myself.
I can't keep killing time by writing it all down.

You didn't cast, I didn't bite, 
but I chewed us like gold.
I'm in the past, eternal night,
These nights are getting old.  

If I could go back to the night when we lay on the road and stared at the sky, everything was all right.

Back to the night, that for me, never ended and turn off the streetlights...

I wanna,
go back to the night,
go back to the night 
go back to the night. x4

Stop myself.
I can’t stop droning on. It’s getting loud.
Can’t stop myself.
I can’t help wondering what I even cry about.

I want you to know that I’m letting go.
I’m silver not gold.
I wanna watch the sun come up because,
these nights are getting old.

If I could go back to the night when we lay on the road and stared at the sky, everything was all right.

Back to the night, that for me, never ended and turn off the streetlights...

I wanna,
go back to the night,
go back to the night,
go back to the night. x4 

If I could go back to the night when we drowned in the darkness.
I can’t remember where.

Back to the nights when I thought I was loveless. 
I was scared.

Back to the night, that for me, never ended.

Back to the night, that for me, never ended.

I wanna,
go back to the night,
go back to the night,
go back to the night. x4 

I know we’ll never meet again.
I’m making sure of that.
From the start we were an end.
Of all the words, I’ll take the last.

back to the night

lyrics:

I bought a new pair of shoes.
Cause i felt like i’m coming loose.
Maybe it’s all of the bruises,
or maybe it’s something i choose.

But nonetheless i regret it.
He clicked the tab but i let him.
Apparition with an income.
But i don’t care i just let it happen.

I spent all the money i saved.
I guess that’s just how i behave.
You say that I’m just complaining,
but things is just something i crave.

I’m gonna go to the store
searching and hunting for more.
And you would never believe it
I just lived the same day as before

I love love love love material things!

Hey, wanna go to the mall?
I wanna go too.

I love love love love material things!

material things

lyrics:

I'm underwater.
don’t ask me where I’ve been.
I'm underwater.
only catch is i can’t swim.

all us kids with our blinding teeth, 
always win but we never wanna leave,
cause we are lonely, 
we are lonely, 
oh, i’m so over this. 

and it's nice, nice, nice, that you wanna talk to me, 
but my chest don’t have a heart 
so i’ll count another 3, 2…. 
nice, nice, nice that you wanna talk to me,
nice! nice! nice!
nice! nice! nice!

we’re underwater. 
don’t ask us where we’ve been.
we’re underwater.
only catch is we can’t swim.

all us kids with our blinding smiles, 
always loving but we’re all liars, 
cause we are lonely, 
we are lonely, 
oh, I'm so over this. 

and it's nice, nice, nice, that you wanna talk to me, 
but my chest don’t have a heart 
so i’ll count another 3, 2…. 
nice, nice, nice that you wanna talk to me,
nice! nice! nice!

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NICE!

lyrics:

I can't stop thinking about you.
I can't keep worrying about you too. 
A small heart echoes in a big room,
but it's falling short.

All the niceties, all the branches,
reaching far but never touching hands.
All I wanted: you to want yourself,
and that heartbeat felt cheap,
I don't need clarity.

The summer's creepin up on us so 
go on, fly away, enough just
stay with me.
The summer's creepin up on us so
go on, turn the music up and 
stay with me.

Let's get blue.

It's getting late now, 
we're driving in your car.
We're out of state now,
moments, but we go so far.

I miss the A.M.s too but on the other side
of that cell phone the light's not coming through.

The summer's creepin up on us so 
go on, fly away, enough just
stay with me.
The summer's creepin up on us so
go on, turn the music up and 
stay with me.

Let's get blue.

You say that you remember every street.
I remember talking about where all the roads meet.
Where we end our time in this state of mind
and grow old. 
I'm terrified.

We sit outside my house for hours and dream of going in.
I say to take another turn and it gets us lost again.

Let's get blue.

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blue

lyrics:

Run through snowy parking lots last winter,
In shopping carts-
back when the times were simpler.
You might think that I’m apathetic, 
How many years have passed?
and all those fears, they last. 

Grain and polaroids, obscure aesthetics,
and nothing really matters-
cause it’s all poetic.
The light flickered off for a minute.
It’ll fix itself right?
Yeah it always does. 
Goodnight-

To all of the late black market ventures,
and going to the park- 
dancing on the benches.
The lush green leaves of spring. 
It’s getting cold again,
but it’s not even 3 A. M.

Our hearts don’t warm like cinder,
that’s why we gotta stay indoors 

I’m not going home till the morning.
(all the preachers and the products,
they all want me to see them)
I’m not going home till the morning.
(and the boys that said they love us,
the call went out to leave them) 

I’m not going home till the morning.
(this routine is getting tired now,
it’s far too much commitment)
we can’t remember who we are now,
time’s not so consistent.

But most of all I want it back,
back when we cared 
and when we sat 
under the trees greener than me 
and talked bout nothing we were free.

We've undergone some minor change
but we can't leave we're underage 
and I still want to watch the stars 
and think about the passing cars.

Our hearts don’t warm like cinder,
that’s why we gotta stay indoors 

I’m not going home till the morning.
(all the preachers and the products,
they all want me to see them)
I’m not going home till the morning.
(and the boys that said they love us,
the call went out to leave them) 

I’m not going home till the morning.
(this routine is getting tired now,
it’s far too much commitment)
we can’t remember who we are now,
time’s not so consistent.

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lyrics:

i see you walk into the room before you notice me 
i love the way you
that look, the walk, your eyes, 
the sounds you make when you float by
i love the way you

i'm thinkin again that i wanna go back and make some shit up
i'm writing a story
but now that you're in it i wanna 
let the sun touch me like it makes up your whole body, yes
i'm writing a story
i'm writing a story

I don't know what language you're speaking
just show me something i can believe in
i dont know what else i should say so i'll lay here 
like i don't even notice x4

i saw you walk into the room some time ago, i thought
i love the way you 
pianos struck, i was young and i was blind and 
i love the way you

i never let you in, you know me, i'm not real
i'm a liar
but now i'm writing for myself and it's alright
i love the way you

i'm thinkin again that i wanna go back and make some shit up
i'm writing a story
but now that you're in it i wanna 
let the sun touch me like it makes up your whole body, yes
i'm writing a story
i'm writing a story

I don't know what language you're speaking
just show me something i can believe in
i dont know what else i should say so i'll lay here 
like i don't even notice x4

i don't even know how i feel
all i have is time
i'm running out, 
and(of) this stainless steel head-love of mine

i'm countin leaves from my bedroom to find the line
maybe then, maybe then
you'll be mine

i'm thinkin again that i wanna go back and make some shit up
i'm writing a story
but now that you're in it i wanna 
let the sun touch me like it makes up your whole body, yes
i'm writing a story
i'm writing a story   x2

I don't know what language you're speaking
just show me something i can believe in
i dont know what else i should say so i'll lay here 
like i don't even notice

I don't know what language we're speaking
just show me something i can believe in
i dont know what else i should say so i'll lay here 
like i don't even notice x4

maybe this time i'll notice

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notice

lyrics:

im running out of time
im running out of nice things to say about it
is that a crime?

and you know i wanna go back to the moment,
for the moment,
im fine

we took a walk outside
it was a long time ago and these streets of mine took us by surprise

and you know that 
i cant even remember which moment i wanna go back to
and romanticize again

i thought we'd never stop running around out here
but now this dark blue sky has turned into violet fears

turned into violet fears

is this the life we lose?
our minds are filled with this
it's all we know
how could we confuse?

but im just lost
out in the open 
the clouds all glowing shades of red and blue

and you know that 
i cant even remember which moment i wanna go back to
i just cant choose

i thought we'd never stop running around out here
but now this dark blue sky has turned into violet fears

turned into violet fears

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violet fears

flower pc: matthew florez

lyrics:

you've got sunlight in your hair,
let me brush it out.
and the birds all flock around you like an old friend
they know you well no doubt

and you've got a face like an ocean 
so blue- like a fountain pure.
the last time there were this many flowers in one place it was Eden

you're a garden boy
love in you
give me all your words
you're a garden boy 
life in you
garden boy 

in the spring you come around again,
the living left to live.
the weeds have tangled us so tightly 
bound by dandelions 
vines of ivy and forgiveness

and you've got the earth in your footsteps,
and i haven't lived that long.
and you know your way in the brush 
so you cut me a path

you're a garden boy
love in you
give me all your words
you're a garden boy 
life in you
garden boy 

love and love and love and love and love
love and love and love and love and love

garden boy

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garden boy

lyrics:

we all live to "ribs" on repeat
holding on to the edges of our bed sheets,
we play our hearts through an aux cord
fabricating love and going overboard

i lost myself on a summer day
i was alone and it was years ago
but i was falling out of place,
and like, nobody noticed but somehow everyone knew
and it's kinda like that right now, but it's not me, 
it's you

where'd you go?
(it's like we never left at all)
where'd you go?
(i cut back to 10 months ago)
where'd you go?
(not how this was supposed to go)
where'd you go?
my love it's time to come home. 

i haven't seen you in a long long time
the mysteries of life are already losing their shine
i wish that i could rewrite the thoughts that go through your head
but all i have is a pen, some sad ideas, and my bed

don't do this to us we love you too much
darling don't do this to me i...

where'd you go?
(it's like we never left at all)
where'd you go?
(i cut back to 10 months ago)
where'd you go?
(not how this was supposed to go)
where'd you go?
my love it's time to come home. 

you haven't heard that song in a while
oh, why do i keep playing it if it drives us so wild?
and you're living off reassurances that you're not gonna die
it's alright, just let me know

where'd you go?
(it's like we never left at all)
where'd you go?
(i cut back to 10 months ago)
where'd you go?
(not how this was supposed to go)
where'd you go?
my love it's time to come home. 

where'd you go?
(this life is unremarkable)
where'd you go?
(our time is irreplacable)
where'd you go?
(i guess i just need you to know)
where'd you go?
my love it's time to come home. 

where'd ya go?

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where'd ya go?

lyrics:

my life is blue and yellow,
upstairs with a Makeshift Halo.

turn the music up louder,
drown me out so I do not hear my thoughts.

Makeshift Halo

we're so old in my father's car.
i'm so cold and going so far.

turn the music up louder,
let the speakers fry
i don't give a fuck!

and we might be angels
in a Makeshift Halo.
we're barely people,
much less your saviors

you got the weight of the world on this cardboard ring
while I'm still writing songs about being young and doing nothing

you say to make a choice, but I feel like I'll sink
what if I don't wanna choose?
i haven't lived yet-
i can barely think

my life is blue and yellow
(you're so sad that it's not even that bad)
what the hell does that even mean?
(they're just words pretending that they're going to be heard)

turn the music up louder,
sway in time with me so we don't have to grow up

and we might be angels
in a Makeshift Halo.
we're barely people,
much less your saviors.

we are not your angels
no more Makeshift Halos.
more than anything we're strangers
to the world we're saving

my life is blue and yellow
(they're just words pretending that they're going to be heard)
what color is yours
(they're just words, just words, just words)

you're so sad that it's not even that bad
they're just words pretending that they're going to be heard

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Makeshift Halo

lyrics:

the night i met you at the billionaire house party 
I was too cool, lying right thru my teeth.
you shook my hand and it was murder in the first degree,
premeditated at the billionaire house party

Uh oh! Now i’m doing self portraits daily,
oh, won’t you please come and save me?
my mind wrapped up in chalk pastels
i’m telling you to take me home
i’m telling you to take me home

we were an exhibit at the billionaire house party
I was posed like a Schiele. Dance II, Matisse 
you took my hand and we called out at the bourgeoisie aristocratically

Uh oh! Now i’m doing self portraits daily,
oh, won’t you please come and save me?
my mind wrapped up in chalk pastels
i’m telling you to take me home

Oh no! analyzing like an early cubist,
obsessive like a new wave movement,
I used last night to write this song 
i’m asking you to take me home.

i’ve written you into my diary
and i’ve spoken through the iterations of my face
taped to my wall.
oh, I feel too fast, i move too much.
but worst of all, I’m lying 
oh, i’m lying about it all

uh oh, i’m still doing self portraits daily,
when you gonna come and save me?
my mind confined to your every move 
am i ever gonna make it home?

Oh no! analyzing like an early cubist,
obsessive like a new wave movement,
I used last night to write this song 
i’m asking you to take me home.

fuck that! i just wanna go out to dinner
nevermind that i’m a beginner
i drew your face to clear my head 
now i’m never gonna make it home.

i’m never gonna make it home

Billionaire House Party

this is a poem about a poem about me
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LYRICS

[Verse 1]

I’ve been writing a poem about a poem about me
I’ve been bleeding out words lately
Handwriting my hurt baby

Not a work that I’m proud of, you know
I’d never read it to anyone else
And it’s just as well
You’d never get through it yourself

[Pre-chorus]

(Part 1)
We read our verse aloud
(Part 2)
I tell you what mine is about
(Part 3)
I’m sorry for writing that line
(Part 4)
I didn’t mean anything
Write it again
Don’t know why I’m stuttering

[Chorus]

I wrote you a poem cause I can’t find the words to say 
(Hey, hey, hey)
I’ll read it again cause it’s different than yesterday
(Mm, uh, hah)
I’m sorry that I just can’t say it
But it’s all in my head and you won’t hear it anyway

[Verse 2]

I’ve rewritten this line a hundred times, it’s all wrong
No intention or clarity
Like I’m writing to nobody

Maybe I am
Is this script overplayed?
And if you were here, what would I say?
This book of poems is already fading away

[Pre-chorus]

(Part 1)
We read our verse aloud
(Part 2)
I tell you what mine is about
(Part 3)
I’m sorry for writing that line
(Part 4)
I didn’t mean anything
Write it again
Don’t know why I’m stuttering

[Chorus]

I wrote you a poem cause I can’t find the words to say 
(Hey, hey, hey)
I’ll read it again cause it’s different than yesterday
(Mm, uh, hah)
I’m sorry that I just can’t say it
But it’s all in my head and you won’t hear it anyway

I know I’ve already said this, but

I wrote you a poem cause I can’t find the words to say 
(Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey)
If you’re reading it right then you know that I’m fucking afraid
(Mm, uh, hah)
I’m sorry that I just can’t say it
It took me this whole damn refrain just to say that

[Outro]

I wrote you a poem cause I can’t find the words to say 
(I wrote you a poem, it reads)
I wrote you a poem cause I can’t find the words to say 
(Roses are red, violets are blue)
I wrote you a poem cause I can’t find the words to say 
(Nothing gold can stay)
Oh, I wrote you a poem cause I can’t find the words to say

I Wrote You a Poem

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LYRICS

[Verse 1]

I know I shouldn’t have gone out that night
There’s only two things I remember
They were shocked into my memory
And one’s the road
The other one is you

I stumbled into my room
Flipped on the light, looked to my left
And there you were
And you looked back
Demanding that I see you
And you were crying

[Chorus]

And I felt like it was my fault
And it was
Oh
Woah, I watched you mouth the words along with me
I’m sorry

[Verse 2] 
Now you follow me all the time
And I can’t tell if it’s poetic
But I’m trapped between the silver and the glass
And I love you
And you don’t care

I’m still thinking about that night
My eyes were locked on you for hours
Plead insanity
I don’t know why I treat you like I do
You never cry
But you were crying

[Chorus]

And I felt like it was my fault
And it was
Oh
Woah, I watched you mouth the words along with me
I’m sorry

And I felt like it was my fault
And it was
Oh
Woah, I watched you mouth the words along with me
I’m sorry

[Outro]

Now the sky is turning violet
It’s beautiful to watch with you
I’m teary eyed and you’re silent
The violet dissolving to dark blue
Oh

I Love You (I'm Sorry)

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LYRICS

[Verse 1]

I wanna be so thin that I can fit under the door between us 
(Thin)
And see you even when I’m sleeping

My ribs are growing larger 
And these clothes just don’t fit right anymore
(My ribs are growing larger)
But it's all for you my love

I saw it in the mirror and I wrote it down to send to you
(I saw it in the mirror and I wrote it down to send to you)
If I could hollow out my cheeks, my body
Where would I make space for you?
(Where would I make space for you?)

[Chorus]

And I don’t mean to romanticize
But I’d disappear right now if it would make you love me

I only eat when I’m around you 
Making circles on my plate
I’m saving space my baby

[Verse 2]

I took a piece of candy from a gallery I went to in Chicago 
(A gallery I went to in Chicago)
I saw a guard restock the pile

So, I stood around for hours
(Untitled, untitled, untitled)
Watched the mountain shrinking smaller
Paced in circles

Threw away my piece cause I 
Imagined it was me
People leaving with my body in their fists

They should let the pile shrink, I thought
But that’s not what the artist wanted was it?
(How the fuck could we know what the artist wanted)

[Chorus]

And I don’t mean to romanticize
But I’d disappear right now if it would make you love me

I only eat when I’m around you 
Making circles on my plate
I’m saving space my baby

My brain replaced its voice with yours
So now I’m tasting every word
As if it’s all that I need

I only eat when I’m around you 
Making circles on my plate
I’m saving space my baby

[Outro]

My brain replaced its voice with yours
So now I’m tasting every word
As if it’s all that I need

I Only Eat When I'm Around You

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LYRICS 

[Intro]

Morning
Hey
Are they listening?
I think so
Where did you go last night?
I don’t remember
Okay
 
[Verse 1]

I would like to watch you sleep
I’m installing a mirror onto my ceiling

[Chorus]
But you never close your eyes
And your stare looks just like mine

Are you still there?
Yeah

[Verse 2]
I would like to watch you fall apart
You’re biting your hands and calling it fine art

[Chorus]
You’re an artist, aren’t you? So, paint
Or did that all float away?

(I wanna watch you sleep)

But you never close your eyes
But you never close your eyes

[Bridge]

Do you think they’re still listening?
No, I don’t
You’re the fucking worst
I know

My brain replaced its voice with yours

[Outro]

You never close your eyes
I wanna see you close your eyes
Why can’t I see you close your eyes?
I wanna
I wanna
I wanna

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