in the river

Yon - Modest

@silversxo

Your pockets doing standup
Yeah I swear they too fun
I ain’t gotta lie now
Yeah I see you too dumb
Watch me as I light up starting off a new day
We ain’t leaving no crumbs yeah I see you too late

Count me up them bandz on a call with your friends coming over
Yeah I took your girl through the mall just to show what I’m on

Just to show her all the right spots yeah

I could take you through the night like a tourist
Yeah you said it wasn’t easy but I know it is
I’m with the birds you could think I play for Norwich
Too sick now I’m talking to new

Oooou
I ain’t gonna say that word
Enter heaven at seven eleven 
Posted on the curb
I hear you talking all that talk still don’t go to work
I see looking at the bag yeah like this your first

I said it ain’t personal 
Yeah I always keep you around but you disposable 
Can’t tell my plans I don’t know what I want you for 
Gotta keep it down (shh) 
keep it on the low
I just hopped out the car with some drank on the go
I just told the chauffeur we ain’t gotta try to go home

No you cannot lose me yeah we got too boozy
No you cannot fool me once you don’t know me
Pockets staying on me Yeah I keep it lonely 
I just got some new swag yeah I’m just gone store it

Oh my god
I say oh my god

Count me up them bandz on a call with your friends coming over
Yeah I took your girl through the mall just to show what I’m on

Just to show her all the right spots yeah

I could take you through the night like a tourist
Yeah you said it wasn’t easy but I know it is
I’m with the birds you could think I play for Norwich
Too sick now I’m talking to new

The North (prod. silver & filip)

There

Produced & Mixed by https://soundcloud.com/shinjinv
Written & Art by https://soundcloud.com/bydion

It had to be me that chooses
Cause it’s really only me that loses
There’s no guards watching this gaol
You don’t have to live inside that Vael
It had to be me that chooses
Cause it’s really only me that loses
There’s no guards watching this gaol
You don’t have to live inside that Vael

Rather dead than dead wrong
Had some bad times turned to good songs
If you could would you change your life’s tale?
Would you live inside the grey Vael?
I was scared of nothing it’s all fear
I was looking for the answers they’re all here
Good try even if they had all failed
Took the trophy for myself now it’s all Vaeled
Now I’m all Vael

It had to be me that chooses
Cause it’s really only me that loses
There’s no guards watching this gaol
You don’t have to live inside that Vael
It had to be me that chooses
Cause it’s really only me that loses
There’s no guards watching this gaol
You don’t have to live inside that Vael

It takes a risk to take a risk
I told em take whatever they want, they ain’t take a thing
Was hiding myself from myself and that means everything
Wear the Vael everywhere feels like a wedding ring
How could it be anything else?
To let it win it would mean that I’m losing myself
It’s funny how I thought it’s over and nothing would help
And nothing did help me except ending Vael itself
Now I’m Vael itself
But, In the Vael it’s all grey
I tried to turn it red, I tried to turn it blue
They tried to tell me about the things that I should do
But you don’t know about the things that I’ve been through

It had to be me that chooses
Cause it’s really only me that loses
There’s no guards watching this gaol
You don’t have to live inside that Vael
It had to be me that chooses
Cause it’s really only me that loses
There’s no guards watching this gaol
You don’t have to live inside that Vael


Vael (prod. Shinjin)

Produced & Mixed by https://soundcloud.com/shinjinv
Written & Art by https://soundcloud.com/bydion

If I kill it I feel like that’d be too nice of me
Just because I suffered doesn’t mean that I think they should too
But I’m only human, who knows what I’ll do?
(You know what I’ll do, you know what I’m going through)
I’m the prince
I pulled it out the stone, therefore I exist
I’m sorry for the texts that I miss
I’m sorry for the friendships that I miss
I was busy, I was trying not to kill

What’s the problem? let us know
Contradictions aren’t allowed we can not let no body go
Brightest stories ever written in the darkest ink I own
I could end the suffering but that might hit too close to home
I mean it’s true
What’s my problems to someone I never knew
It’s old to me, but all for them, I’ll make it new
I’ve heard the tales bout the grounds I’m stepping through
There's nothing special bout my life but just for now it’ll have to do

If I kill it I feel like that’d be too nice of me
Just because I suffered doesn’t mean that I think they should too
But I’m only human, who knows what I’ll do?
(You know what I’ll do, you know what I’m going through)
I’m the prince
I pulled it out the stone, therefore I exist
I’m sorry for the texts that I miss
I’m sorry for the friendships that I miss
I was busy, I was trying not to kill

Who sits atop it isolated?
Who sits as cold as life, who makes decisions this impatient?
There’s lots of notes that I’ve played perhaps it’s time I face it
Who’s this, I’m asking? the one I’ve alienated...
The stage is set, it hurts to partake in truth
I’m mourning for someone I never knew
Round of applause this one is all for you
I became the prince that they needed me to 

I’m the prince
I pulled it out the stone, therefore I exist
I’m sorry for the texts that I miss
I’m sorry for the friendships that I miss
I was busy, I was trying not to kill
If I kill it I feel like that’d be too nice of me
Just because I suffered doesn’t mean that I think they should too
But I’m only human, who knows what I’ll do?
(You know what I’ll do, you know what I’m going through)
I’m the prince

The Prince (prod. Shinjin)

Produced & Mixed by https://soundcloud.com/shinjinv
Written & Art by https://soundcloud.com/bydion

What’s this feeling I been having?
What’s this feeling I been having, lately?
What’s this feeling I been having?
What’s this feeling I been having?
What’s this feeling I been feeling, it’s probably nothing probably
They know me well there is no way they’re hiding something from me
Thanks for having me tonight I’m feeling so adjusted
Did I just open my mouth even I feel disgusted
What’s this feeling I’ve been feeling
Can’t escape the thoughts I’m in the hotel room just reeling
Open up a window is it hot or cold? don’t know
What’s this feeling I’ve been choosing, what’s this choice that I’ve been making all alone

Whats this illusion am I fed up? Keep my head up? yeah I guess…
You could do it even better? Go ahead and be my guest
Where’s euphoria? Cause lately I am over being stressed
When’s the results coming in cause I am over taking tests
Don’t reach out to me cause I am not in a state to reply
I been at the fair for so long, oh that’s only in my mind
In the distance building nothing buildings up, it’s made of nothing
If delusions are of grandeur then this reality's bluffing

What’s this feeling I been having?
What’s this feeling I been having, lately?
What’s this feeling I been having?
What’s this feeling I been having?
What’s this feeling I been feeling, it’s probably nothing probably
They know me well there is no way they’re hiding something from me
Thanks for having me tonight I’m feeling so adjusted
Did I just open my mouth even I feel disgusted
What’s this feeling I’ve been feeling
Can’t escape the thoughts I’m in the hotel room just reeling
Open up a window is it hot or cold? Don’t know
What’s this feeling I’ve been choosing, what’s this choice that I’ve been making all alone

I’m starting to think if I live by the sword I’ll die by something else
That was real as fuck when Crow said “all you’re killing is yourself”
Prophecy was never real but I’ll make sure that it’s fulfilled
We can’t live with our regret so that feeling has to be killed
Layers only getting heavier the longer that it’s used
"What's the point of changing anything, you’re only gonna lose"
Truth is losing something old creates the room for something new
Truth is if it meant survival, I’d convince you of it too

What’s this feeling I been having?
What’s this feeling I been having, lately?
What’s this feeling I been having?
What’s this feeling I been having?


What's This Feeling (prod. Shinjin)

Produced & Mixed by https://soundcloud.com/shinjinv
Written & Art by https://soundcloud.com/bydion

Once in a life time? I like my chances
Prorsum always, knights and lances
Wait till you're dead to start giving it up
There is no after, we’re living up it
Once in a life time? I like my chances
Prorsum always, knights and lances
Wait till you're dead to start giving it up
There is no after, we’re living up it

Are you stupid or what? I’ll make an assumption
Turn my whole life into a private function
Real life moments seeing this stuff
You get what you want If you need it enough
I’ve decided my story will be about victory
Step on a devil that don’t mean shit to me
Kill all pretenders I’ll try something new
The flames so hot that it’s actually blue
One story about victory
One small man and his will to win
One nobody and his chance
One nobody that you’ve never met
One somebody you can’t forget
One nobody who changed himself so in a way everything’s changed

Once in a life time? I like my chances
Prorsum always, knights and lances
Wait till you're dead to start giving it up
There is no after, we’re living up it
Once in a life time? I like my chances
Prorsum always, knights and lances
Wait till you're dead to start giving it up
There is no after, we’re living up it

Real grove shit what’s up goes down
No ig, I’m I.G. right now
Tapped with the roots that’s under the ground
So I keep my head high when I’m walking around
No words needed we knock on wood
The world's everything that you wish you would
Wait too long and you’ll wish you could
Never did what’s good, I just did what I should
They said live your life and wait till you're dead
Get judged after everything’s been said
Long ass story's gonna get read
But I’m here right now judge that instead
Never been you but I’m getting the gist
Black fletching go past like mist
If I send an arrow it never gets missed
How’s chivalry dead if we exist?

Once in a life time? I like my chances
Prorsum always, knights and lances
Wait till you're dead to start giving it up
There is no after, we’re living up it
Once in a life time? I like my chances
Prorsum always, knights and lances
Wait till you're dead to start giving it up
There is no after, we’re living up it

[We're alive right now, we're living it up
We're alive right now, we're living it up
We're alive right now... we're, we're]

Once In A Lifetime (prod. Shinjin)

Produced & Mixed by https://soundcloud.com/shinjinv & (co-prod) https://soundcloud.com/availover
Written & Art by https://soundcloud.com/bydion

On the ships, wearing sails
Tried to change our course but it was to no avail
They almost OD’d… I O3’d
The building has been built, the procession must proceed
It's inevitable I mean
High battlements? You should see the stakes
They wanna go to war? well we’ll meet em at the gates
I’ve given everything I guess this is what it takes
The heraldry has one tree and its fended off the snakes

Simplest life, that’s all that I lead
I’ll never see the shade but I still will sow the seed
The ending draws near can’t you smell it on the breeze
Acceptance is a burden that I’ve learnt I want to need
The hours turn to weeks, the strong become the weak
We’re at the town square and they’ve come to see me speak
Tree roots, engraved into my palms
They know me everywhere I go it’s like my coat of arms

On the ships, wearing sails
Tried to change our course but it was to no avail
They almost OD’d… I O3’d
The building has been built, the procession must proceed
It's inevitable I mean
High battlements? You should see the stakes
They wanna go to war? well we’ll meet em at the gates
I’ve given everything I guess this is what it takes
The heraldry has one tree and its fended off the snakes

Just take a breath, who knows what happens next
I promise to protect you till there’s metal in my chest
Till where that fight happened has been washed away by rain
Created from the ground, so in the ground I shall remain
I’m from a place where the paintings never dry
The doves are bringing peace but the Crows will never lie
I'd rather die knowing that the grapes have become soured
The truth is there is nothing much worse than a coward

On the ships, wearing sails
Tried to change our course but it was to no avail
They almost OD’d… I O3’d
The building has been built, the procession must proceed
It's inevitable I mean
High battlements? You should see the stakes
They wanna go to war? well we’ll meet em at the gates
I’ve given everything I guess this is what it takes
The heraldry has one tree and it’s fended off the snakes

Inevitable (prod. Shinjin & Avail)

Produced & Mixed by https://soundcloud.com/shinjinv
Written & Art by https://soundcloud.com/bydion

I don’t want your roses, I’ve been tending to my garden
Keep on begging for a reason, but you need to beg my pardon
All this sacrilege I witness, it’s no wonder I’m astounded
All this deviation from it, don’t you know where it was founded ?
I don’t want your roses, I grow my own in the garden
Keep on begging for a reason, but you need to beg my pardon
All this being scared for nothing, may as well be for scared for something
All this hoarding and protecting time to open up and give and give and...

Put the destination first and that’s all you’ll ever get
This was all just an idea but that’s so easy to forget
All the hate gets weeded out and through the Grove you’ll grow the truth
Ofc I still rock my TNs I can’t forget bout my roots
Back when we had no money to even catch the train
I got opal on me now tell them coppers check my chain
There’s no therapy for us but we've been working all the same
There’s no respite here for us so we’ve walking through the rain

I don’t want your roses, I’ve been tending to my garden
Keep on begging for a reason, but you need to beg my pardon
All this sacrilege I witness, it’s no wonder I’m astounded
All this deviation from it, don’t you know where it was founded ?
I don’t want your roses, I grow my own in the garden
Keep on begging for a reason, but you need to beg my pardon
All this being scared for nothing, may as well be for scared for something
All this hoarding and protecting time to open up and give and give and...

You’ve been looking for the path and didn’t realise you were on it
They asked who was on the track and didn’t realise we were on it
Im like if the fountain’s to the east then I’m what’s left of it
That one hill looks beautiful but would you put your death on it ?
Would you put your life on it? Intertwine your life with it?
Quick decisions to be made happens in less than a minute
Do you really have to ask me? You know me.. the sacrificer
I’ve been looking at my life, I think I’ve earnt the title Lifer 

I don’t want your roses, I’ve been tending to my garden
Keep on begging for a reason, but you need to beg my pardon
All this sacrilege I witness, it’s no wonder I’m astounded
All this deviation from it, don’t you know where it was founded ?
I don’t want your roses, I grow my own in the garden
Keep on begging for a reason, but you need to beg my pardon
All this being scared for nothing, may as well be for scared for something
All this hoarding and protecting time to open up and give and give and...

Roses (prod. Shinjin)

Produced & Mixed by https://soundcloud.com/shinjinv
Written & Art by https://soundcloud.com/bydion

Can’t, can’t sleep
All I pray for is the end of the week
All I need is for you not to speak
In this tunnel that I’ll never get to leave
Can’t, can’t sleep
Have you ever felt the cold therein
It’s a battle that I just can’t win
Another long day I put it in the bin

You can run and run away
But you take that with you anyway
You’ll forget and wait and wait and wait
But it all comes back and it all comes back no matter what
Close my eyes
But it finds its way to my mind
Hear the rain drops falling outside
Until it’s finally…(Shh) goodnight

Can’t, can’t sleep
All I pray for is the end of the week
All I need is for you not to speak
In this tunnel that I’ll never get to leave
Can’t, can’t sleep
Have you ever felt the cold therein
It’s a battle that I just can’t win
Another long day I put it in the bin

The sky’s sinking in, it spins in a spiral
Attempts at avoiding the things that are vital
The heart in my chest almost jumps out my ribs
There’s so much to forget I forgot to forgive
It’s torture
It’s easier to walk on water
Send the shadow over me if you might
All I wait for is… goodnight

Can’t, can’t sleep
All I pray for is the end of the week
All I need is for you not to speak
In this tunnel that I’ll never get to leave
Can’t, can’t sleep
Have you ever felt the cold therein
It’s a battle that I just can’t win
Another long day I put it in the bin

Can't Sleep (prod. Shinjin)

Produced & Mixed by https://soundcloud.com/shinjinv
Written & Art by https://soundcloud.com/bydion

Clean the slate by hand
Smile every chance I can
We got choice for choosers
We got uses for the users
There were days I wish I could forget bout what I wish I could
There’s days I think about other days I was thinking bout
Clean the slate by hand
Smile every chance I can
We got choice for choosers
We got uses for the users
There were days I wish I could forget bout what I wish I could
There’s days I think about other days I was thinking bout

Another Lifer shows their face, we bring Murder to their place
We survive and end despair, that’s connection in the air
Who’s the warden that’s been watching? Who’s the sullen that betrayed us?
In the garden where they made us, we want life, you wanted famous
One hand is all that I’ll need I’ll end the history right now
Don’t you step another foot if you’re not bringing hallowed ground
Don’t you bring those losers round us they aren’t allowed in the town
Not everything’s gonna be easy sometimes up means goin down

Clean the slate by hand
Smile every chance I can
We got choice for choosers
We got uses for the users
There were days I wish I could forget bout what I wish I could
There’s days I think about other days I was thinking bout
Clean the slate by hand
Smile every chance I can
We got choice for choosers
We got uses for the users
There were days I wish I could forget bout what I wish I could
There’s days I think about other days I was thinking bout

The years I’ve given to this life, I think that it got the best of me
I don’t know if I could change it, I think it was destiny
Our life’s like this Roundtable, you’ve been sitting next to me
Tried to hit me with the curse but you keep on blessing me
If I get the word from Shinjin then I know it's factual
Put the words into the stone so you know it’s actual
Another stupid day wasted but at least I tried to
You thought that I could do better, but you know I’m fried too

Clean the slate by hand
Smile every chance I can
We got choice for choosers
We got uses for the users
There were days I wish I could forget bout what I wish I could
There’s days I think about other days I was thinking bout
Clean the slate by hand
Smile every chance I can
We got choice for choosers
We got uses for the users
There were days I wish I could forget bout what I wish I could
There’s days I think about other days I was thinking bout

Clean Slate (prod. Shinjin)

We got too much
Know what I’m bout to say
We act a fool, trust
Pick just what you want
She cannot choose oh my god
Still we rush through the night this nothing new
Come back to this side

We got too much
Know what I’m bout to say
We act a fool, trust
Pick just what you want
She cannot choose oh my god
Still we rush through the night this nothing new
Come back to this side


Pulled my hoodie down too low im stuck in Sherwood walking round 
No need to rush cause theres enough for you and them to go around 
No need to fix what co-exists
No photographs were taking picks 
Cut out the lows were in the mix 
No words are needed shit just clicks 
My heart will go on even if I’m never there 
I’ve traded in my motivation for despair 
Keep the distance at a distance 
Keep me round just for assistance 
All the the figures turn to figments 
All the colours turn to pigments 
I step right in and fall for it everytime
I guess I am the only thing outta line 
It’s yours? it’s mine? I guess we’re waiting to see
I let it go in the river and it came right back to me 
Mhm mhm 
I like to suffer I guess
I’m not watching where I step I don’t know what’s coming next 

We got too much
Know what I’m bout to say
We act a fool, trust
Pick just what you want
She cannot choose oh my god
Still we rush through the night this nothing new
Come back to this side

We got too much
Know what I’m bout to say
We act a fool, trust
Pick just what you want
She cannot choose oh my god
Still we rush through the night this nothing new
Come back to this side

Clean Slate (prod. Shinjin)

Dion

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