Guardin favs

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trippin over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is haunted
it's been like this since the start
all good things must fall apart  
i swear that this house is haunted

trapped in between these halls
asbestos inside the walls
it's getting harder to breathe
and lately i'm in the dark
unaware of where to start
i'm falling hard with the breeze
so tell me the truth are we both really losing our minds
in this state of delusion it's easy to lose track of time
and the hands on this clock haven't spun even close to align
-ing but
they'll come around (x4)

'til then i'm
trippin over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is haunted 
it's been like this since the start
all good things must fall apart  
i swear that this house is haunted

am i really here?
am i not?
is there anywhere that i ought to be
i ain't tryna stay here with these oddities
and honestly it's getting kinda hard to breathe
and hard to speak when barred with teeth
my tongue sittin in my mouth but it's hard to speak
i fall asleep with every fragment haunting me
my dreams turn to nightmares where they're calling me
like hey hi hello it's me how you doing
i'm a ghost to this place amidst of these ruins 
trippin' over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is fucking haunted

trippin over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is haunted 
it's been like this since the start
all good things must fall apart  
i swear that this house is haunted

haunted (prod. young taylor)

glass +guardin (noahmadethiss)

featuring @sewerperson
produced by @prodjody

highway (ft. sewerperson)(prod. jody)

prod. @remghost x @irby314

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we drink
we sink
we fall behind
it's all okay
it's all alright
the things you say
don't leave my mind
it's all okay
it's all just fine
i'm reminded of days
when the time wasn't raced
had my eyes to the sky
with my hands on your waist
i'm alive under rays
with the light in my face
but a ghost in the rain
with no name tag or plates on my car

i can see the shadows
dancing in the backyard
reaching for the stars
light up my reflection
chase me with your flashlight
you'll be running far
this was never worth it
we were never perfect
pretending we are
so drink until you're silent
laugh until you're smiling
hide another scar

she woke
he smoked
they talked it out
is that what love is all about
the things that come
out of your mouth
are vile when
you scream and shout
it's the fear of the unknown
that leads to eschew
all the rational choices
revolving round you
and the silence is scary
when matched with the truth
can we come out alive
or is death coming soon

as you weigh out your options
you then realize
all the pain you've endured
with no tears in your eyes
i'm amazed by the power
i hold deep inside
for some reason i'm here
for some reason alive

i can see the shadows
dancing in the backyard
reaching for the stars
light up my reflection
chase me with your flashlight
you'll be running far
this was never worth it
we were never perfect
pretending we are
so drink until you're silent
laugh until you're smiling
hide another scar

perfect (prod. remghost x irby)

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i should've wrote you some letters i'm sorry
i think bout it all of the time
and i miss how things used to be
when you lived closer & i wasn't so hard to find
and i wish that i would've called on your birthday
i knew that the day would arrive
i was drunk and i fucked up my foot back in philly
guess karma was right by my side

eugene

prod. @jolst

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what am i supposed to do
when everything makes me uncomfortable
and my goals are always optimal
but everything just feels impossible 

you took advantage and left me alone in the dark
i spent every second exchanging that pain into art
you waited for silence and sought to tear me apart 
i hate what you've done to me running free in my heart
my sense of direction is severed in seventy parts
this compass is broken and you knew that shit from the start
your lack of compassion was passively stored in compartments
i wreak havoc while you hide in your apartment

what am i supposed to do
when everything makes me uncomfortable
and my goals are always optimal
but everything just feels impossible

once upon a time this shit was right
but right now i'll not feelin all too nice
my heart is heavy frozen under ice
the warmth of whiskey cloaks my fucking spine
you stare at me with fingers intertwined
while we just sit in silence acting fine
i hate how everything just took a dive
we're hanging on just trying to survive

what am i supposed to do
when everything makes me uncomfortable
and my goals are always optimal
but everything just feels impossible

you took my light
you took my shine

follow jolst

impossible (prod. jolst)

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fake friends mother fucker what's new to me
not much yeah truthfully
i've been tryna find my grind
yeah i'm tryna stay on mine
but this bullshit brutally
destroying me
ain't nobody give a fuck bout me
just bout the music i'll wait till i leave
give me my flowers and say something sweet

eyes on the prize of handling my emotions
rise with the sun embodying all the potent
smoke till i cry i'm sippin another potion
i wanna die decapitation my notion
hi it is i i'm trying to stay focused
this little light gon shine when put in motion
fall from the highs it's heaven when i'm alone
but i do not like just sitting inside at home
the weight of the world dislocated my shoulders
i'll probably throw this song inside a folder
forget about it till i get older
guess i could drop this shit in october
forfeit my mind my life is now over
thanks for the times we had we're much closer
now that i'm dead not worried about exposure
hope that you hear this song & get closure

for a reason

prod. @sorrow_bringer

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waking up's easy, falling asleep isn't even a fucking option
i'm laying out on the roof
tell god to come get me, i'll pack my bags real quickly
i'll catch that flight, when it's leavin', i'm leavin' too
dreamin' of moments where i ain't have no opponents
all my components assembled outside the booth
you were a phone call away, i guess your number has changed
and you weren't home on that day or something

i've been tryna gain control of my life
open up these blinds so you can dissipate the limelight
only time will tell if i'm unwell inside of my mind
tripped fell into hell and now this television sounds like
we got more to conquer
so get up outta your bed and get your shit outta your locker
we ridin' back to the seventh floor, realigning your chakras
put soul inside your body, we leavin' the past behind us

this is all i wanted from the jump
just a friend that i could talk to bout anything off the cuff
been plottin', no hesitation, the future ain't lookin' rough
i wanted it so i did it, made symphonies outta cuts

we were back at home and it was gettin' hella cold
used to pass out when the sun come up but now we gettin' old
'member summers back in 2015, we was actin' grown
built a bridge to terabithia made outta sticks and stones
had that fire pit though i'll admit, you built that on your own
brought that bedsheet out my room, we made a flag & called it home
hit that bottle with some gasoline to pass between our souls
if we make it all that glitter's fucking gold

rain, rain, go away, you fucked up another day
i was feelin' fine but then you took me to another place
we go back and forth for fourteen minutes in my hideaway
now i'm headin' north just tryna answer who am i today?

i've been tryna stay in line, gotta figure out the truth
i don't like the way i hide, i much rather be with you
full eclipse, skippin' pebbles in the water off the roof
i don't mind, rain or shine cause my skin is waterproof
go inside, hit the wine, coraline on the tube
what do i do when i feel like my life's set on loop?

follow sorrow bringer

waterproof (prod. sorrow bringer)

aim @ ur heart

huge thank you to anthony for working on this one with me
go show him & his band this wild life some love <3

lyrics
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and we live just to die
so i pray i'm alright when i do
i'm shooting stars at the sky
not a crow left in my point of view
in the midst of a fight
throwing jabs till i knock out a tooth
if he pulls out a knife
and gets rid of my life
will the righteous ignite me with truth
(cause)
i will hide somewhere behind the dark that casts into
a room that thrives with blinding lights unwinding onto you
if only for a second i'm infected by the hue
please just promise me your honesty cause honestly i hate all that i do

and it lives deep inside
building homes in the holes of my heart
i've set my sights to the light
but i've been paranoid from the start 
red dot beamed on my forehead
deep breath this'll be a night you won't forget
cold sweat dreams terrorizing my cortex
woke up drowning outside on my porch steps
the waters been rising for years
hypnotizing my peers
into thinking they know me
but i live in fear
that they don't quite appear
to the likeness instilled in the old me
i swallow my tears
wander outside for years
with the hope that a god will come smite me
replenish these gears
cut my body with shears
make sure nobody's near even slightly

blue lights flash in the distance
red light stop i don't listen
projectiles from a piston
couldn't do it by myself need assistance
pink matter painted onto the concrete
think of this gunshot as a downbeat
red dot beamed on my forehead
this'll be a night you won't forget

it lives where i live (prod. anthony del grosso)

prod. @remghost + @sshinju

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just remember you said that you want this
be honest you harness control of the rest
and if i can recall could've swore that you promised
by august we'd talk bout what's best
indecisive dishonor is lurking upon us
it's still living on in my chest
i could talk but you just wanna walk in a circle
you got what you wanted instead

and you're crawling
all the way back to your home
all is falling
down to the river below
how appalling
you're someone i do not know
please stop talking
anxiously waiting to go

how exhausting this cycle is constantly running
behind every program you have
and in order to escape control alt delete it
you cut your whole friends list in half
cause they walk with a switchblade a knife in their pocket
just plotting their way to attack
but their collars stay crooked their colors start bleeding
unfolding their plan to collapse 

oh no
it happened again
guess he wasn't a friend
oh no
these industry men
with their shiny words said

music video

centipede (prod. remghost x shinju)

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yeah we cruise through life
with our grip held tight
if only time could tell
cause our fears just might
collide with dreams we had
all these paths offline
if i could make more sense of things i like
regardless
i create what i feel inside
this thera-peutic place where my tears all dried
it's blissful seasons change & the time flies by
i always feel so strained and i don't know why
be honest
how many mother fuckers do what you do?
you got everything you want but ain't nobody got you
they're so amazed by the constant drops, the plays & the views
but i'm deranged, fucking insane, spittin my pain in the booth
it's a mad fucking world we chasin pennies & truth
can you believe i fucking made it dodged a box & a suit
i'm just a boy from outer space who ain't got nothing to lose
so imma chase away the pain with 40 ounces of booze

[hook]
cracks in every wall
but they ain't ever seen me fall
they ain't ever seen me fall
shootin like a star
yeah your planet ain't that far
you'll be home by monday

i burn a blunt & bridge the gap to what is left
i'm upset cause half my childhood was theft
it's apparent that my scars all tell a story east to west
but i can't tell it cause i'm occupied by beds i overslept
in a second i'll feel fine, but in a minute i'm depressed
all these voices in my head been telling me what to do next
is there any fucking answers underneath the skin i'm dressed
in i always think about it till i say nah & forget
there's evil locked inside me but i don't know where it went
so i practice tying knots in case the thoughts inside my head
leave me manic watch me panic bout the past until i'm dead
all because some fucking loser touched my dick when i was ten
yeah they say men can't be raped but i'm a victim in the end
let it shake up my whole world until the day that i ascend
it's a blessing and a curse but what's worse is most men
do not open up about it till they start to comprehend
fuck

[hook]
cracks in every wall
but they ain't ever seen me fall
they ain't ever seen me fall
shootin like a star
yeah your planet ain't that far
you'll be home by monday

yeah we thrown in the ocean
deep end swimmin with a pocket full of potions
vices to commend the fallen ones that lost their focus
i'm a toy solider moving weight in slow motion
oh shit
i'm losing focus
how the fuck you fix it with a bottle and some roaches
you ain't been yourself & it's been noted by the hopeless
they look up to you & you've been stuck in a hypnosis
no sis
i ain't drunk that's bullshit
i've been chasing dreams and getting money on the road shit
i cut off my friends by being anxious on some ghost shit
i don't like myself and i don't even think i'll post this
fuck another track about myself you probably know this
i can hardly breathe but you're too dense to even notice
is it a.d.d. or apathy of all i know
this year has been the worst for me but i don't like to boast
chyeaaahhh so

[hook]
cracks in every wall
but they ain't ever seen me fall
they ain't ever seen me fall
shootin like a star
yeah your planet ain't that far
you'll be home by monday

monday (prod. astoriablvd)

a lil throwback/unreleased track from 2018

produced by @sorrow_bringer

lyrics
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i can play pretend too
bump deja entendu
brand new system in my whip like
shawty on my dick
and a 40 on my hip
no flex but the sauce just ri-ight
in my timmy turner fit
with a blunt up on my lip
might just steal your bitch outta spi-ight
i'm feelin' sorta sick
might throw up on my kicks
askin' who here got a li-ight?

but my life ain't what it seems
i make all my tracks inside my bedroom smoking trees
choking on the smoke i'm tokin' potent with no ease
off the coast of comfortable and i just scrapped my knee
falling for another one i bless her when she sneeze
can i bust soliloquies like rip to steez
i'm been doing fine i guess just rollin' with the breeze
and some commas in my bank account don't matter much to me

i can play pretend too
bump deja entendu
brand new system in my whip like
shawty on my dick
and a 40 on my hip
no flex but the sauce just ri-ight
in my timmy turner fit
with a blunt up on my lip
might just steal your bitch outta spi-ight
i'm feelin' sorta sick
might throw up on my kicks
askin' who here got a li-ight?

i just wanna ride my bike
all around the park until it's dark i'll take a hike
had to leave my house today cause i don't really like
living with toxicity the demons to my side
i just wanna throw my phone off every near by cliff
hear it hit the pavement as i'm pullin' on my spliff
drive so far away so you can't see me when i spit
open house is over could you pack your shit & dip

i can play pretend too
bump deja entendu
brand new system in my whip like
shawty on my dick
and a 40 on my hip
no flex but the sauce just ri-ight
in my timmy turner fit
with a blunt up on my lip
might just steal your bitch outta spi-ight
i'm feelin' sorta sick
might throw up on my kicks
askin' who here got a li-ight?

timmy turner fit (prod. sorrow bringer)

lyrics
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take a breath and count to eight
you're home again & safe
the windows locked in case
say you love what i create
i wish i felt the same
it's only my escape
they say it's not too late
but i accept this fate
this trains become defaced
the monster hunts his prey
the scent of pure decay
it seeps & starts to stain
the seams all start to fray
let's stay inside today

the wind begins to blow
as trees all fill with crows
& watch you as you go
another night alone
we drink to stay afloat
it's closing up my throat
when words do not express
the feelings i compress
they cast beyond my head
& all the lights do fade
the darkness lends us shade
we cease to find our way
let's stay inside today

take a breath & count to eight
you're home again & safe

welcome home (prod. anthony del grosso)

another lil throwback/unreleased track from 2020
never got around to finishing this one
but i thought i'd drop what i had

@prodbartes

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fought my way through half of november
i was sick & then i got better
you came back to start a new chapter
i was scared for what would come after
the lights went off cold nights in december
held you tight our hearts burn like ember
called your cab & left you my sweater
all these things i wish you'd remember

all these things i wish you'd remember (prod. bartes)

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do not sell yourself short on what you bring
incomparable to those that believe
oh the time has come
to break bones and bleed
out the pores it flows
spread onto the leaves

the road in front of me's
one of recovery
cover the shelves
hide all the cutlery
coloring subtly 
suddenly
i don't feel quite like myself
real slowly
i'll begin twisting and folding
stripping off layers of clothing
just like a spider i'm molting
i do not know where i'm going
remote location withholding
onto the past it's revolting
i think my brain is corroding
shh this levels still loading
frozen now this game's corrupted
i'm on a path toward destruction
this road is closed for construction
sorry that i'm disappointing

the contortionist (prod. anthony del grosso)

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start stating the obvious
take weight off of the audience
you're blistering and calloused
in your worn out shoes
forge the path you stagger down
in hopes that you'll come back around
it's cold inside these hand me downs
but i'll pull through
start stating the obvious
take weight off of the audience
you're blistering and calloused
in your worn out shoes
forge the path you stagger down
in hopes that you'll come back around
it's cold inside these hand me downs
but i'll pull through

am i dancing on the edge
or is the edge really imaginary
falling short of breath
i'm reading into what's unnecessary
does this mean anything
cause i am unsure
i'm closing my eyes
becoming one with the decor

substance i need something
i've been floating feeling nothing
i'm in search of what's inside me
several people in my body
i don't know them
they've been lying
twisting cables
falsifying
gripping onto what is left
i'm trying hard to just forget
the person that i am waiting for
once everybody's left ignored
am i deranged for feeling torn
i am i
i am i
is it okay to close my eyes
for i'm afraid of what i'll find
tucked under tape that's stuck inside
holding on
holding on

this is not imaginary
i can feel it flow
trickling inside of me
whenever i'm alone
porcelain my face
& ivory beneath the bone
deep beneath my bones
my absence was temporary
please pick up your phone
sorry for the gaps in conversation
i was stoned
certain i was trying
now i'm dying real slow
guess it's time to go

and now the scars that haunt your mind
capture and hold onto your eyes
lock them in place for one last time
here we are
here we are
for when you wake up you will find
all of the things you've left behind
start to configure and allign
i am i
i am i

one with the decor (prod. anthony del grosso)

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baby don't forget
things aren't always certain
in due time i'll come inside
and hide behind the curtain
lately i forfeit
succumb to the surface
i've got quite the habit
of telling myself i'm worthless

safety harness me into the mainstream
snip on these straps till i'm dangling
over the heads of the people who i put my trust in
trusted you but now even that's busted
adapting quick well adjusted
you make me sick i'm disgusted
functionality is vital when your future spirals
down a path you've been tryna follow
evidently i'll be hollowed out and placed in piles
it's the price that you pay to smile
they don't like it when i'm speaking out
here we go again you done freaking out
yeah this cold ass world got me freezing
i guess i'll keep dreaming now
it's like this huh

baby don't forget
things aren't always certain
in due time i'll come inside
and hide behind the curtain
lately i forfeit
succumb to the surface
i've got quite the habit
of telling myself i'm worthless

do not forget
it's important
things could be much worse
and surely time will sort it
please don't forfeit
it's important
life is beautiful
in time i'm sure you'll learn that
all we know is we're comfortable
at the rate that things are moving we in slow mo mo
take it with a grain of salt cause we still grow grow grow
planting seeds inside this garden
we ain't finish what we started no

baby don't forget
things aren't always certain
in due time i'll come inside
and hide behind the curtain
lately i forfeit
succumb to the surface
i've got quite the habit
of telling myself i'm worthless

forfeit (prod. anthony del grosso)

s/o to deckabeats & alsbeatz for bringing this one to life
& s/o to you for stickin' around! it's guardin szn!

lyrics
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clock strikes twelve it's all over after
distant memories of disaster
full eclipse the sky's falling fast
we're all dead by dawn  

i guess the goal is
to set my body back beside my soul
cause i guess really all i wants control
this world is ugly but we paint it gold
i've lost my discretion a decrepit hole
sits inside my body where i tug and pull
and pull and pull
your life code was patched
with a fine tooth comb
all the lights were detached
i guess nobody's home
in your bed lies a match
where the fire was thrown
i don't like where this goes
can you leave me alone
(cause when the)

clock strikes twelve it's all over after
distant memories of disaster
full eclipse the sky's falling fast
we're all dead by dawn  

i don't wanna do this
feeling like i got to
channel what i'm bestowed
pushing on the gas
till i'm drivin real fast
when i crash imma reload

enter the void

distant memories (prod. deckabeats x alsbeatz)

Thank you for everyone who has supported me and my friends! i will miss you flowars <3

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flowars x guardin x yung van - lavender dreams (Prod. charlie c)

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