Demo: I'll Be Okay
Written by Caitlin Cusack
Symphonic Arrangement (ideas that need work)

Lyrics:

VERSE 1
There’s a battle raging in the streets but it’s nothing like the war inside my mind
The victories and losses inside me, the casualties pile up
This season has been the hardest yet but the good and the bad news is this:
everything comes to an end.

CHORUS
I’m gonna be okay
I’ll be okay
Everything, everything, everything will be fine
Cuz I’ll be okay
I’ll be okay
Not everything, everything, everything will go right
But I’ll be okay

VERSE 2
Mirror on the wall look into my eyes
they tell no lies, as hard as they try
They are love, they are pain, they are whole, they are shattered
Strength embodied by force
As gales of wind threatened to break my limbs
Now I need a magic mirror to my soul to remind myself who I am

CHORUS
I’m gonna be okay
I’ll be okay
Everything, everything, everything will be fine
Cuz I’ll be okay
I’ll be okay
Not everything, everything, everything will go right
But I’ll be okay

BRIDGE
It’s time to reconstruct the city,
no longer wallow in the ruins
of the battle grounds within my mind
Left behind inside
The memories in my mind
They repeat and repeat and repeat

BRIDGE MANTRA
The well traveled walking paths of memories that repeat in my mind
must not become paved roads

They won't be, they won't be, they won't become paved
They won't be, they won't be, they won't become paved
Roads of memories that repeat my mind
They won't become paved roads

It’s time to forge a new path
Find the strength inside
Leave the battle behind

FINAL CHORUS
I’m gonna be okay
I’ll be okay
Everything, everything, everything will be fine
Cuz I’ll be okay
I’ll be okay
Not everything, everything, everything will go right
But I’ll be okay

Demo: I'll Be Okay (Version 2: Dramatic Symphonic Ballad)

Demo: Waste My Time 
Written by Caitlin Cusack
Rehearsal recording performed by Caitlin Cusack (piano, female voice) and Casey Huls (male voice)

VERSE 1 
All the nights I chose to waste my time with you
Where do they go when you go 
If they only left me when I leave you
Why do I want to waste my time with you 
What is it that brings me back around (back around)  (x3)
when I can’t see forever with you anyway
What if I haven’t seen forever with you in any way 

CHORUS
But I wanna waste my time with you 
I wanna waste my time with you
Why do I wanna waste my time with you (time with you)
Tell me why I wanna waste my time with youuuuuuu
Why do I wanna waste my time with you (time with you)
Tell me why I wanna waste my time with youuuuu
You- ooooooo (x4) 

BRIDGE
One thing I know is I can’t get a read on you 
You’re all over my mind and it clouds what I know is true 
You got me wondering the reason why 
You know I like you but you don’t even try 
Whyyyyy
Do you think I’m not worth your time 
Do you know I think you’re wasting mine 
Am I flying too close to the sun
Will I burn up trying to make you the one 

CHORUS 
But I wanna waste my time with you
I wanna waste my time with you
Why do I wanna waste my time with you (time with you)
Tell me why I wanna waste my time with youuuuuuu
Why do I wanna waste my time with you (time with you)
Tell me why I wanna waste my time with youuuuu
You- ooooooo (x4)

Demo: Waste My Time (bright pop, musical theatre, female & high male duet)

Demo: 3 AM
Written by Caitlin Cusack and Zach Forsleff
Demo with electronic production ideas

Lyrics:

VERSE 1
1am home again another night without you 
2am sad again so I go for the bottle  
3am thinkin how did I ever love you
4am hurt again…can’t sleep without you

PRE-CHORUS
Can’t you see how hard I try 
Trynna keep you by my side 
I know you got dreams but please don’t leave me behind 

CHORUS
I said I’d follow you but not if you won’t take me with you 
I’ve been here all along but now it’s just like you’ve forgotten 
Everything I said, everything I did, everything we left to get here
But I didn’t know that 
you’d leave me 
 
VERSE 2
The clock is ticking 
Will you take me with you
Or will you leave me
Stuck at 3am 

The clock is ticking 
Will you take me with you
Or will you leave me

BRIDGE
3AM thinkin how did I ever love you  (x4)

CHORUS
I said I’d follow you but not if you won’t take me with you 
I’ve been here all along but now it’s just like you’ve forgotten 
Everything I said, everything I did, everything we left to get here
But I didn’t know that 
you’d leave me

3 AM (pop bop demo with electronic production)

"Waiting"
Performed live by Caitlin Cusack (piano, vocals) and Zach Forsleff (guitar).

"Waiting" - Live Performance

Quiet My Mind has tracks inspired by a hugely life altering brain injury and loss of loved ones. Caitlin is known to navigate themes of grief, growth, love, and loss in vivid storytelling with catchy melodies and shiny production.

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Hi, thanks for finding me and thanks for listening. I hope my music brings you light ✨ 

A little bit about why I’m here: 
On my 26th birthday, I got a concussion that turned my life upside down. It triggered chronic pain and migraines that made it literally hurt to play piano and sing, caused me to lose my jobs, and stripped away all life as I knew it. 

On my 27th birthday, my Mom unexpectedly passed away from a cancer we discovered only two weeks prior. This was three years after my Dad passed away after battling the rare disease Multiple System Atrophy.

The depth of these losses was unbearably dark. But it led me back to music.

As I fought through my brain injury rehabilitation, I started songwriting to heal and find joy. Now I hope sharing my music will bring joy and light to others - even in the darkest times. I promise, the darkness doesn't last forever.

On my 30th birthday, I released my first single "I'll Be Okay" !! 
It's my anthem of hope that represents the uphill battle I've faced with brain injury and grief.

I released my debut EP, Quiet My Mind, on my 31st birthday. You can stream that anywhere now or download it from my website!

You can find out more about my music at caitlincusackmusic.com

You can read my concussion blog at caitlincusack.com

Caitlin Cusack

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