Written by Caj Flow
Produced by Jammy Beatz

[LYRICS]
There ain’t a drug or medicine that’s gonna save me
Take my brain out for a spin, I bet you’ll f*cking hate me
I’ll be stuck with my anxiety forever maybe
I’ll go back to therapy, back to therapy
Why can’t I function alright?
No I can’t be perfect, I’ll just be hurting you
‘Cause I’m wasting your time
No you don’t deserve it, I can’t be worth it
And there ain’t a drug or medicine that’s gonna save me
Take my brain out for a spin, I bet you’ll f*cking hate me
I’ll be stuck with my anxiety forever maybe
I’ll go back to therapy, back to therapy

Spending all my days in bed, with no energy
Cooped up, trying to fight the demons in me
‘Cause I can’t recognize, who I am inside
But I’m dead inside, you know I didn’t get it right
You don’t understand all this sh*t will never end
You’re giving me a chance, but I’ll let you down again
No I’m not your friend, all I do is just pretend
Only time I’m honest’s when I’m picking up the pen
Who am I? Another lost one seeking paradise
How can I believe in that? I struggle just to feel alive
I can’t even sing this sh*t then look at you right in the eye
I’m just wearing a disguise

Why can’t I function alright?
I can’t be perfect, I’ll just be hurting you
‘Cause I’m wasting your time
No you don’t deserve it, I can’t be worth it, no
And there ain’t a drug or medicine that’s gonna save me
Take my brain out for a spin, I bet you’ll f*cking hate me
I’ll be stuck with my anxiety forever maybe
I’ll go back to therapy, back to therapy

b2t (letter to my anxiety part. II) [DEMO]

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• Written/Produced by Caj Flow: www.instagram.com/cajflow/
• Co-written/Performed by Goodnight Cassius: www.instagram.com/gncassius/
• Mixed/Mastered by 5PiECE: www.5piecemusic.com/
• Artwork by Heston Godby: www.instagram.com/hestonmilk/

Screwin' Me (feat. Goodnight Cassius)

written, produced & performed by cajflow: https://www.instagram.com/cajflow/
mixed & mastered by 5PiECE: http://www.5piecemusic.com/
artwork by Heston Godby: https://www.instagram.com/hestonmilk/

Love Again 2018 (c) Johnson, Anthony C.
inquiries: cajflow@gmail.com

LYRICS
no written warning
for what you’d do to me
your whispers are golden
phone ‘til the morning
i cherish our moment babe
I know you feel it too

when you done with me, go chase your guys
then you want, then you want me back in your life
gimme my, gimme my peace girl please decide
i don’t play them games no more, no more

i’m not the wisest man
when you look in my eyes again
will you tell me that we’re just friends
girl, look in my eyes again
we’ll fall in love again
love again x5
girl, look in my eyes again
we’ll fall in love again

highway to hell, but i'm sitting on the sidewalk
i don’t wanna know about it wish that you would lie more
realness or fake friends, what you recognize more
how you never find another man that you could die for
remember when we chilled in the park, and then the beach
all I got left’s a broken heart and a beat
girl, I know you leaving, so why you bother with me
why you bother with me

when you done with me, go chase your guys
then you want, then you want me back in your life
gimme my, gimme my peace don't change your mind
i don’t play them games no more, no more

ain't nobody quite like you
throw dirt throw it back at you
ill somebody call a doctor
'cause i don't know myself when i'm without you
ain't nobody quite like you
throw dirt throw it back at you
throw dirt throw it back at you

i’m not the wisest man
when you look in my eyes again
will you tell me that we’re just friends
girl, look in my eyes again
we’ll fall in love again
love again x5

Love Again

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written, produced, performed, mixed/mastered by Caj: www.instagram.com/cajflow/
additional vocals by Azim Apurbo & Shilpa: www.instagram.com/azimapurbo/
artwork by Heston Godby: www.instagram.com/hestonmilk/

LYRICS

[Chorus]
Baby take me to Kerala, Kerala
You know I can’t get enough, get enough
Lately girl I miss you, and I know where to find you
Baby take me to Kerala, Kerala
Oh Kerala, Kerala, na-na-na
Oh Kerala, Kerala, na-na-na
Oh Kerala, Kerala, na-na-na

[Verse]
Oh what could I do when you brought my smile back it’s been so long
I’m crazy bout you so I’m putting them feelings into your song
Babe, you’re the right one for me, stay the whole night now with me
Oh you’re the right one for me, gon’ be alright no-no-no

[PreChorus]
I could never describe the way I’m feeling
It’s like you’re stuck in my mind, you never leave me
Baby with you I feel some kind of way
Used to being alone, but now I need you
I could never describe the way I’m feeling

[Chorus]
Baby take me to Kerala, Kerala
You know I can’t get enough, get enough
Lately girl I miss you, and I know where to find you
Baby take me to Kerala, Kerala
Oh Kerala, Kerala, na-na-na
Oh Kerala, Kerala, na-na-na
Oh Kerala, Kerala, na-na-na

[Outro]
Oh, Kerala
Would you mind na-na
Would you mind na-na
Would you mind na-na
Oh Kerala

Caj Flow - Kerala (Acoustic)

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This project has been made possible by the government of Canada and the Foundation Assisting Canadian Talent on Recordings (FACTOR).

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Written/Produced/Performed  by Caj Flow: https://www.instagram.com/cajflow
Written/Performed by AD1B: https://www.instagram.com/okadib/
Performed by Keely Valentine: https://www.instagram.com/keelyvalentine/
Backup vocals by Harper Bennett: https://www.instagram.com/harperlbennett/
Additional guitar by Azim Apurbo: https://www.instagram.com/azimapurbo/
Mixed & Mastered by 5PIECE: https://www.instagram.com/5piece/
Artwork by Ba6ix: https://www.instagram.com/back2ba6ix/

can't stop missing u (feat. Keely Valentine)

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This project has been made possible by the government of Canada and the Foundation Assisting Canadian Talent on Recordings (FACTOR).

written, produced, performed by Caj: https://www.instagram.com/cajflow
written, performed by Erratiks: https://www.instagram.com/erratiks
mixed & mastered by 5PiECE: https://www.instagram.com/5piece
artwork by Ba6ix: https://www.instagram.com/back2ba6ix

LYRICS:
 
[Caj Flow]
Oh I know something ain’t right 
Oh I know something ain’t right

Here we go again, it's no surprise
Another day, another week just went by 
And i know in my head something ain't right 
Got everything but i'm still dead inside
Here we go again, it's no surprise
Another day, another week just went by 
And i know in my head something ain't right 
Got everything but i'm still dead inside

I told my girl i ain't a bad guy, but i am a sad guy
Confident but quick to break down like i did last night 
Maybe thats a problem that got started in a past life
You can see my mood is quick to switch just like a flashlight 
Count on me to turn a nice dream into a nightmare
Never talk about my feelings so I’ll sing ‘em right there 
Push you all away ,yeah I know it ain’t fair
Deal with shit alone, even though you might care

Here we go again, it's no surprise
Another day, another week just went by 
And i know in my head something ain't right 
Got everything but i'm still dead inside
Here we go again, it's no surprise
Another day, another week just went by 
And i know in my head something ain't right 
Got everything but i'm still dead inside
 
[Erratiks]
 Seasons go by, but some shit never change
 Now our love’s washing away with the pouring rain
 No else else to blame I bring myself to the ground
 Gotta get up out the water cos I’m bout to drown
 Broken on the inside my brain needs some first aid
 Scared that I’m gonna let you down in the worst way

[Caj Flow]
Here we go again, it's no surprise
Another day, another week just went by 
And i know in my head something ain't right 
Got everything but i'm still dead inside
Here we go again, it's no surprise
Another day, another week just went by 
And i know in my head something ain't right 
Got everything but i'm still dead inside

dead inside (feat. Erratiks)

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Stream BUTTERFLIES on all platforms at http://hyperurl.co/butterfliesbycaj

written, produced, performed by Caj: https://www.instagram.com/cajflow
mixed & mastered by 5PiECE: https://www.instagram.com/5piece
artwork by Ba6ix: https://www.instagram.com/back2ba6ix

Caj Flow Music (c) 2020

Caj Flow - butterflies

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CREDITS
written & produced by Caj Flow: http://instagram.com/cajflow
back-up vocals by Tony Niu: https://www.instagram.com/t__o_n__y/?hl=en
additional production + mixed & mastered by Mour: https://www.instagram.com/beatsbymour/
song artwork by Ba6ix: https://www.instagram.com/back2ba6ix/
lyric video by Adnan: https://bit.ly/39d33j2

LYRICS:
Oh damn, here we go again
You make my girl worry and you push away my friends
You make me sick and cancel all my plans
Will you ever end, anxiety ’til the end 
Oh damn, here we go again
You make my girl worry and you push away my friends
You make me sick and cancel all my plans
Will you ever end, anxiety ’til the end 

We gotta have a talk about what you to do me
You causing pain left and right it ain’t new to me
Swear to god the shit you’re doing now is cruelty, truly

Why the fuck do you wanna get me stressed out
Showing up on a day when I got less doubts
You keep me up, all I wanna do is rest now, rest now

Oh damn, here we go again
You make my girl worry and you push away my friends
You make me sick and cancel all my plans
Will you ever end, anxiety ’til the end 
Oh damn, here we go again
You make my girl worry and you push away my friends
You make me sick and cancel all my plans
Will you ever end, anxiety ’til the end 

Masquerading as a friend but now I know you’re a fake
You won’t ever let me go until there’s nothing to take
Til I got nothing to lose, and you’ve got nothing to break
Til the day I’m off this planet you won’t give me a break

Last week, why’d you give me all these panic attacks
You spend your days tryna hurt me where’s your empathy at
You can name your price I just want my sanity back
I wrote this letter for you, hoping you’ll be hitting me back

Oh damn, here we go again
You make my girl worry and you push away my friends
You make me sick and cancel all my plans
Will you ever end, anxiety ’til the end 
Oh damn, here we go again
You make my girl worry and you push away my friends
You make me sick and cancel all my plans
Will you ever end, anxiety ’til the end

Caj Flow - letter to my anxiety

Following years honing his skills behind the scenes as a producer/songwriter, Toronto-based Caj Flow discovered his voice as an artist in 2018. Showcasing his diverse cultural heritage and maverick instincts, he seamlessly transitions across genres, merging contemporary pop, hip-hop, and R&B.

Caj has independently released a multitude of singles, all self-produced, written, and recorded in his basement, until his breakout single “Kerala” reached international success, peaking at #6 on Spotify’s “India Viral 50” chart and earning recognition on the UK’s BBC Asian Network & Rolling Stone India. He then touched the hearts of a growing & dedicated fanbase with his indie pop hit "butterflies". Expanding his repertoire, he continued exploring a variety of emotions through his music, from the hard-hitting introspective "dead inside" to the playful "compromise", before releasing his debut French-language single, "MONEY À L'ÉTRANGER" to critical acclaim, earning him his first Spotify editorial placements, in "Nouveautés francophones" and "Fresh Finds Canada".

In 2024, Caj teamed up with Ashavari to deliver "CIRCLES!", a pop-punk anthem. As he continues building on his momentum with more independent releases, his knack for producing and co-writing in various musical genres has made him a sought-after collaborator in his multicultural home city of Toronto, and across the globe.

Caj Flow

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