You know there's no easy way to tell you so no one will 
We know what you are
You're probably playing it safer than I did with a knife
As you speak to me with a straight face
I know you're right behind me
And a target is positioned on my back

Doors have closed in my favor
It's the kind of thing you don't realize til later

Each day the answers the same
But each day it gets a little more gray
With gray being a good thing, hey
It's all in what we don't say

Take a seat if you think you're better than me
This is anger ignored
It is what it is

Oh your luck will run out and when it does it won't be special
We know you're self-proclaimed
You're setting fire to the straight and narrow with your gaze 

Evil like this comes in pairs
Your life will be forgotten, this I swear
You can't keep running you'll tire out
When all you needed was sleep anyway

Take me up and dig me a hole
Stick me in the ground or the undertow
Second chances don't mean a thing when you've already took mine
You took it so naturally I thought it had been your life, ah
Nothing great is to last forever
I had hope but it never got better

Each day the answers the same
But each day it gets a little more gray
With gray being a good thing, hey
It's all in what we don't say
Your secret is safe with me
But each day it gets a little more gray
With gray being a good thing, hey
It's all in what we don't say

There's only one way for there to be order
Give the word to murder and murder
And murder and murder and murder

It's the kind of thing you don't realize til later

Each day the answers the same
But each day it gets a little more gray
With gray being a good thing, hey
It's all in what we don't say
Your secret is safe with me
But each day it gets a little more gray
With gray being a good thing, hey
It's all in what we don't say

Winter Demo twenty seventeen

Winter Demo '17

Anger Ignored

I will end here knowing
Don't try to forget what I mistook as inspiration
It doesn't satisfy or work
I am prepared to paint over my unconfident reflection
It doesn't satisfy 

You left me face down 
I'm floating looking at all the fish in the sea
And none of them are good enough
But they remind me of you
You cross the line and you dot the I in team
More often than not I'll expect your irony

Yeah
My ceilings dripping from the sacrifice you made from the top floor
Against the grain
You think you're justified for this
You're to blame
When my soul is a sorry state, much like Alabama
I'll find meaning in the worst intentions
You invitation was set in flames as soon as it came
I'm begging yall: Don't believe the hype
Don't believe it

You here with me was such a brighter picture
Before it turned to winter
Don't believe the lie
Don't believe the lie

You left me face down 
I'm floating looking at all the fish in the sea
And none of them are good enough
But they remind me of you
You cross the line and you dot the I in team
More often than not I'll expect your irony

You're all parasites on the walls of forgiveness
Oh how I enjoy wiping the floor with your smile

Do I listen or learn?
The silence said it all
It's come down from the air to settle in a place I'd rather it not

Just what if we hadn't fought?
Is it better to have loved and lost?
I've stayed up late tryna get this right
They've told me what to do
Do I listen or learn?

I'm in too deep
I'm just too naive
The mirror is what separates us it seems
I'm in too deep
I'm swallowed by your shallow beliefs
I need to remember one last thing to preserve my positivity

Our last encounter was less than par
I wanna know how out of sync we are
Was I to push past the signs that stood in my way?

You left me face down 
I'm floating looking at all the fish in the sea
And none of them are good enough
But they remind me of you
You cross the line and you dot the I in team
More often than not I'll expect your irony

You're all parasites on the walls of forgiveness
What have I traded for happiness?

What have I traded for happiness? 
It wasn't worth it
What have I traded for happiness? 
It wasn't worth it
It wasn't worth it
Worth it
It wasn't worth it
Tell me "What's another night on the inside of a locked door?"

Spring Demo '17

Left For Dead In A Room Of Old Friends

Can we slow it down for just this once
Girl I don't mean to be a bother
But this isn't how I operate
And I've been meaning to tell you

For quite some time now
Before it got too far
Before it got too late now
This is killing me
You're not ready for this
You're not ready

Now all the flowers in your hair have withered
And you're expecting me
Well I'm not expecting you, at this time to leave
You broke what already broken and you should really quit holding your breath
Because your words are so far from what they mean
From what they mean

Vestiges hinder progress
I'm in the process of forgetting you
At the end of the night I realize I have no control
It's not irreversible
I won't play your games anymore
I will tear it apart
Your image is nothing anymore

Cuz all the flowers in your hair have withered
And you're expecting me
Well I'm not expecting you, to even try to resist
You broke what already broken and you should really quit holding your breath
Because your words are so far from what they mean
From what they mean

Vestiges hinder progress
I'm in the process of forgetting you
At the end of the night I realize I have no control
You lie to yourself
An allegory of sorts
Find the truth in what you won't expect
Girl you gave me the key but forgot holes to breathe
You could not matter any less

As I think of words that rhyme for you
(You always lose yourself in other people's requests)
It's not enough to say a few lines

The darkness will get lighter
The sun will rise, I'll see it in your eyes
I swear
She thinks she'll run away unnoticed
I hear it's cured better that way

The chain is only as strong as the heartstrings
If you can't tell, I tried things your way

It doesn't matter what was said
I can't trust a person
I can't trust a 
It doesn't matter what was said
I can't trust a person like
I can't trust a demon like that

Now all the flowers in your hair have withered
And you're expecting me
Well I'm not expecting you, to even try to resist
You broke what already broken and you should really quit holding your breath
Because your words are
Your words, they mean nothing

(It doesn't mater what was said
Vestiges hinder progress
Quit holding your breath
It's not enough to say a few lines
This isn't how I operate
And I've been meaning to tell you 
You're not ready)

Flowers In Your Hair

Take me back to a time where I still had control
No one could tell me what I couldn't do
And I still had you
I could see your plan and where I fit in
I've fallen away from you so take me back to when I thought I knew you

Follow me
My footsteps are not hard to see
The effect is always what you'd least expect
I'm wasting my time on you differently
To hear you in my heart I walk through the mist

Be the cause of my revolution
My head is lifted high in confusion
You tell me more is the solution
Kill my dreams or they will kill me
Kill my dreams or they will kill me

And I'll let your light guide me
And I'll wait until, well just as long as you promise you'll find me
And return me back to what I was

He opened my eyes and told me I don't have to die
The inevitable end in my reach

Take me back to when the future wasn't a place I wanted to stay
Stuck in the past now seems like pure naivety

Take me back
Everything was much better then
I used to ride on pity without a second wind
Stay true to what matters in the end
I'll put a stop to the tour before it even begins

Be the cause of my revolution
Kill my dreams or they will kill me

And I'll let your light guide me
And I'll wait until, well just as long as you promise you'll find me
And return me back to what I was before I met you

In the end I cantve any regrets
In the end I cantve any regrets
I saw nothing when my life flashed before my eyes
Have I really lived?
If i can't believe in myself can you really expect me to believe something bigger?

I won't preach the remedy
I've learned, been forced, to consider this joy
I bit my tongue when I was young
You think you're perfect cuz you haven't been tempted yet

Your rising star is fading slowly
Do what he couldn't do
Your rising star is fading slowly
Do what I couldn't do

Take me back to a time where I still had control
No one could tell me what I couldn't do
That's when I thought I knew you

Take Me Back

If I tell you one thing then why go out of your way expecting something different?
I've got my fingers crossed that maybe someday you'll understand
I'll tell you baby I'm on your side
Even if you hate me

Let's start with the facts
You want me dead
Heart as black as your hair
Eyes wide open with fear
Panic sweeps over you like a ghost every time I get close
I accept the way you feel but you need me
It's tough out there with no one looking up to you

I turned my back once before and look where that got you
Best intentions were all I brought
But I couldn't shake the thought of a sacrifice of my time to save your life
Lonely in paradise until we reunite
I came back to the same place but not the same night sky
There was a time when stars fell from your eyes

You tear me wide open
Your words break me in the best way possible
You make me weak
I question who I am

Let's start with the facts
I see the way you sleep so stressed
You think there's a monster under the bed
But it's just me
I tried to be a step ahead
Keep showing off your scars and they'll find the flaw in your armor
I had to find it to keep it covered up

As I swerve out of the way of your car I couldn't shake the thought of a sacrifice of my time to save your life
Lonely in paradise until we reunite
I came back to the same place but not the same night sky
There was a time when stars fell from your eyes
But not tonight

We all have things to hide
But now you're making them up
I followed you outside
Distracted you from what was real

I'm in the shadows to make sure you're safe
I'm your protector
Taking your demons out before you even see them
Maybe that explains why you'll never stop being suspicious
I'm doing my best
I'm your protector
But you thought the real danger was
Real danger was me

Until we reunite
I came back to the same place but not the same night sky
There was a time when stars fell from your eyes

I turned my back once before and look where that got you
Best intentions were all I brought
But I couldn't save you

Your Protector

This stor../This story’s ending with a question
Was it meant to be answered anyway/ Some things are better left alone 
Our chapter started with such promises
Take me back to when we knew everything/ Oh yeah

It’s too late to turn back now/ It feels like I’m just another face in the crowd
Tell me one more lie and I’ll be gone
Two strikes and a sinking ship/ The water’s rising much too quick
I didn’t want this war/ but I didn’t start it

No I didn’t start it/ No/ No
No I didn’t start it

Histor../ History’s useless when you can’t learn from the past
Broken predictions inevitable/ When standing on sinking sand
Yeah, Selfishness is self-destruction/ Why are you so reluctant to bring forth change
Second chances are turning me black and blue
Please learn from this/ Please learn from this/ Please learn

It’s too late to turn back now/ It feels like I’m just another face in the crowd
Tell me one more lie and I’ll be gone
Two strikes and a sinking ship/ The water’s rising much too quickly
I didn’t want this war/ but I didn’t start it

I didn’t start it/ It’s too late, too late to turn back now
I didn’t start it/ It’s too late, too late to turn back now
Our chapter started with such promises/ It’s too late, too late to turn back now
Our chapter started with such promises/ It’s too late, too late to turn back now

Keenum demo

Turning the Last Page (Just to Find Another One)

So I ask myself
Is it pointless to travel back in time?
Add it to the list of things that I, I don't know

Of course I blame you for everything that's gone wrong
It's not me, girl, it's you
You make me not want to drive home
‘Cause on the way the red sign says stay
The only one I go out of my way for
And you'll wave and I'll smile
Ok, kk, just shut up
I never had your heart shaped box
Ok, k just
I never wanted your secondhand smoke
You lost that on your own

Is it pointless to travel back in time?
To undo mistakes is not my style
Never believe a self-defined bad liar
Add it to the list of things that I
There are things that I, I don't know

For me to fix what was broke was a mistake
You did a three-sixty when you said you'd change
Hear the sound: My heavy heart breaking my back
Does it even make a sound?
Three cheers for half a year
Ok, kk, just shut up
You think that I don’t know

Is it pointless to travel back in time?
To undo mistakes is not my style
Never believe a self-defined bad liar
Add it to the list of things that I
There are things that I, I don't know

Stay the same in blaming your shortcomings
The self-administrated remedy did nothing to numb
I don't believe your diary is empty
A voice that never spoke ‘cause all they did keep her plenty numb
The survivor's guilt's not worth remembering
And better yet the guy I hated doesn't even exist

Is it pointless to travel back in time?
To undo mistakes is not my style
Never believe a self-defined bad liar
Add it to the list of things that I
There are things that I shouldn't miss

Music and Lyrics by Fauer
Mixed by Keenum

Summer Demo '19

The Only Thing Worse Than Not Knowing

My fingertips are holding onto you
Tighter than I ever could hold with both my arms
Tears, so many tears
Red couch, blue eyes
Just pull yourself together
Better now than later, I thought

Strip comfort away
Over the counter heart break medication
Realizing I’m not in love
Stuck in the moment again and again
It’s hard to see you now
It’s tougher than she’s ever known
How do I let you down?

Just hang me out to dry like I left you
I must have burnt the bridge I relied on
I ran straight to the flames

Storms don’t uproot small trees
Quitting while we are ahead
Before distance takes me from you
I don’t want to fade away and I know that will happen
So to save this future I’ll deracinate

Sunken eyes, timeless tries to get this right
I taught her how to feel wanted
Fingers crossed she'll still be mine
We'll never be the same, but fingers crossed she'll still be mine

When you’re looking in the mirror it’s like waiting for water to boil
You won’t ever see yourself change until you walk away
And I walked away

Just hang me out to dry like I left you
I must have burnt the bridge I relied on
I ran straight to the flames

Strip comfort away
Over the counter heart break medication
Realizing I’m not in love
Stuck in the moment again and again
Oh, It’s hard to see you now
It’s tougher than she’s ever known
How do I let you down?

What’s the true cost of caring?
Does it include what you lose?
Standing on the balcony, yea talk about ocean blues

The endless road will take me back to you
We've covered all the bases
How do I let you down?
We're on the same page
Why do I feel miles away?
Trying to dream again
But I look up at mute stars
 
Storms don’t uproot small trees
Quitting while we are ahead
Before distance takes me from you
I don’t want to fade away and I know that will happen
So to save this future I’ll deracinate
To save this, Ill deracinate
Quitting while we are ahead
Before distance takes me from you

Music and Lyrics by Fauer
Mixed by Keenum

Quitting While We Are Ahead

Holding on to what my mind’s become
A vortex of wind spins me around again ‘til I’m numb
‘Til I’m numb

And it overcame
I couldn’t open my mouth
I couldn’t tell them what to fear
Something that I can see
But I’m not strong enough to say a thing, to say a thing
It’s the sounds you make but you don’t know you make
I’ll never make it so just wake me up
I’m slowing down
It’s either water or wind, I start to crawl
Just wake me up again, I’m slowing down
I cannot move an inch, an inch
I wish the depths of my eyes could tell you just how hard I’ve tried

Holding on to what my mind’s become
A vortex of wind spins me around again ‘til I’m numb
Compress my body; I’m content finally
There’s no such thing as a normal day
I just want to go home but there's something more in my way
Close the curtain or close the casket


Thoughts are racings ‘til it’s all out of reach
Oh, and it doesn’t just stop there
Standing by a lake with no reflection
I just want a perspective that’s effective

Oh, but could it be that this is just how it’s
That it’s just how it’s supposed to be?
I fell in love with the way that she sees within
It’s different from all the self-doubt that forces me to run
Oh, it’s been days but my heart doesn’t ache
I wish the depths of my eyes could tell that I do not believe in


Holding on to what my mind’s become
A vortex of wind spins me around again ‘til I’m numb
Compress my body; I’m content finally
There’s no such thing as a normal day
I just want to go home but there's something more in my way
Close the curtain or close, or close the casket

I’m counting, I’m counting on my fingers and miracles until I come back
I’m always looking up and for a way out
Feels like I’ve lost myself
I count up hundreds of mistakes I’ve made
It all adds up to this, they all add up to this
I replay hundreds of past states I’ve been
Why do I live like this?
I just need one wish now, now
I wish that the depths of my eyes could tell you I’m still fighting

Holding on to what my mind’s become
A vortex of wind spins me around again ‘til I’m numb
Compress my body; I’m content finally
There’s no such thing as a normal day
I just want to go home but there’s something more in my way
Close the curtain or close the casket

Oh, and it doesn’t just stop there
Standing by a lake with no reflections
I just want a perspective that’s effective

Music and Lyrics by Fauer
Mixed by Keenum

Hurricane Season

This cycle
Breaking the mirror first out of misunderstanding
Then to cover my eyes from the light at the end of the tunnel

The sensitivity of this balancing act, taxing
Refusing help, it can't be like this all the time
The paradox of drive
When I was conceiving, I called it forward thinking
Useful disengagement
Tell future calf to listen like this:
Turn the whisper into a scream
Sacrifice your drops of ink
And lather on philosophy
Swallow your own key, repeat
But don't purposely mistake the, the outstretched hand for a fist in velvet

For the music, woe is me: one more day would be the death of me
You hate this gift you gave me
For the music, can't you see: every day was spent in misery
I hate this gift you gave me
This gift you gave to me

Strike a match to aid remembering but you tried to burn the memories
An understatement of hyperbole: I’m sorry for leading you on
Waking up desirably to ache
Deprivation is at the heart's schedule for sleep
Distracting me
I’m sorry for leading
When I was conceiving, I called it forward thinking
Useful disengagement
This state of unsettled keeping me like this:
You found yourself but in someone else
These cuts in the paper; I'm running out of ink

For the music, woe is me: one more day would be the death of me
You hate this gift you gave me
For the music, can’t you see: every day was spent in misery
I hate this gift you gave me

This gift you gave to me
No, never in question
Relapsing or withdrawal?
Never in question
Relapsing or cursed to remember everything or learn to live without?

But if I miss a dose
Would it be enough to make me dependent on writing with this pen that doesn’t like to write?
I think it's a different shade of white
Rinse an empty mouthful
Well, which is worth it - to reminisce or just to forget?
Addiction is your best friend when fear takes you over
Consumed by what I was not consuming

I’m attracting the rain
My windows fog without hesitation
My vision in vain
The Auburn sunset is fading
I’m attracting the rain
My windows fog without hesitation
My vision in vain
You filter my inspiration
You filter my inspiration, customize demise

For the music, woe is me: one more day would be the death of me
You hate the gift you gave me
For the music, can’t you see: every day was spent in misery
I hate this gift you gave me
This gift you gave to me

Music and Lyrics by Fauer
Mixed by Keenum

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