My Ex (prod. NextLane Beats x Maxflynn)

beat by Paryo
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod by owenplural

way2high! (prod. Paryo)

beat by daniar x maxflynn
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod by owenplural

life without her

hey! (prod. daniar x maxflynn)

beat by nejdos x 80root
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod by owenplural

doubt you (prod. nejdos x 80root)

beat by jean parker
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod by prodbygalaxy

nopatience4u (prod. jean parker)

endure it (prod. nejdos x 80root)

beat by Yici + Xyn
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod by owenplural

cut her off (prod. Yici x Xyn)

beat by sneezii
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by owen plural

lyrics: hook

they say that i'm dripped out
and i flexed out on my ex one
you want me to love you
but i told you that i'm so done
you only want my cash, why?
our love wasn't real like it was sci-fi

they say that i'm dripped out
and i flexed out on my ex one
you want me to love you
but i told you that i'm so done
you only want my cash, why?
our love wasn't real like it was sci-fi

verse

fire in the room, i'm finding my doom
what can i do? i hop in the coupe
hitting the gas, speed away from my past
just got a flat, now the devil run laps

trapped in your hands, i'm freaking out
just like the rain, i'm falling down
deep in my mind, there's no way out
demons tell me to die, it gets too loud

pre hook

oh, oh oh
devil standing right there
oh, oh oh
he keeps my heart in his lair
oh, oh oh
the fumes are filling the air
oh, oh oh
you killed me in my nightmare

hook 

they say that i'm dripped out
and i flexed out on my ex one
you want me to love you
but i told you that i'm so done
you only want my cash, why?
our love wasn't real like it was sci-fi

they say that i'm dripped out
and i flexed out on my ex one
you want me to love you
but i told you that i'm so done
you only want my cash, why?
our love wasn't real like it was sci-fi

sci-fi (prod. sneezii)

beat by ezy, ayoleybeats, rossgossage
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

hook 

unable to find a girl like you
there aint no way
whenever that you come back around
you play like arcade
but when i look into your eyes
i really wanna stay
yeah youre losing me so much time 
its so simply such a waste

unable to find a girl like you
there aint no way
whenever that you come back around
you play like arcade
but when i look into your eyes
i really wanna stay
yeah youre losing me so much time 
its so simply such a waste

verse 

demons and the devil come back
i hurt for my health
youre chillin in there with the rest
the anxiety that i felt
it kinda shocked me the fact that
youre down up in this hell
so i guess this is final goodbyes
i cant wish you well

your red eyes
feed my mind
my stress rise
high like the sky
tears they fall
fall as i cry
tried to run my life
my demise

i dont even know what to say like no more
so youre leaving now and youre chillin at my front door
the same thing always happen like an encore
a set of flames lighting my head like a smore

pre hook

all this fire summons you when youre up in my head
youre hanging off a cliff of heat yeah you are what i dread
red bright eyes are shining at me, scared of whats ahead
the one i hate but the one that youre part of

hook 

unable to find a girl like you
there aint no way
whenever that you come back around
you play like arcade
but when i look into your eyes
i really wanna stay
yeah youre losing me so much time 
its so simply such a waste

unable to find a girl like you
there aint no way
whenever that you come back around
you play like arcade
but when i look into your eyes
i really wanna stay
yeah youre losing me so much time 
its so simply such a waste

such a waste

such a waste [p. ezy, ayoleybeats, rossgossage]

beat by ezy, ayoleybeats, rossgossage
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

hook

unable to find a girl like you
there aint no way
whenever that you come back around
you play like arcade
but when i look into your eyes
i really wanna stay
yeah youre losing me so much time
its so simply such a waste

unable to find a girl like you
there aint no way
whenever that you come back around
you play like arcade
but when i look into your eyes
i really wanna stay
yeah youre losing me so much time
its so simply such a waste

verse

demons and the devil come back
i hurt for my health
youre chillin in there with the rest
the anxiety that i felt
it kinda shocked me the fact that
youre down up in this hell
so i guess this is final goodbyes
i cant wish you well

your red eyes
feed my mind
my stress rise
high like the sky
tears they fall
fall as i cry
tried to run my life
my demise

i dont even know what to say like no more
so youre leaving now and youre chillin at my front door
the same thing always happen like an encore
a set of flames lighting my head like a smore

pre hook

all this fire summons you when youre up in my head
youre hanging off a cliff of heat yeah you are what i dread
red bright eyes are shining at me, scared of whats ahead
the one i hate but the one that youre part of

hook

unable to find a girl like you
there aint no way
whenever that you come back around
you play like arcade
but when i look into your eyes
i really wanna stay
yeah youre losing me so much time
its so simply such a waste

unable to find a girl like you
there aint no way
whenever that you come back around
you play like arcade
but when i look into your eyes
i really wanna stay
yeah youre losing me so much time
its so simply such a waste

such a waste (sped-up) [p. ezy, ayoleybeats, rossgossage]

beat by perish
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by cal meloblu

lyrics: hook

showing my trust
then she wanna go and fuck it right up
telling me that youre never enough
what the hell did you put in my cup?
put in my cup

my past kinda rough
but its kind of on some personal stuff
hurt me when i was left in the dust
prison in my head i feel like im cuffed
feel like im cuffed

verse

you know me, i need you close
use me for wrong, i say adios
stab me in the back with a spear
all alone in a dungeon near

by, nearby
always stuck in my mind
people all around but i still feel lonely
youre here just to say you are, talk to me

pre hook

what is real love? show me a good glimpse
left me in my misery, done 25 attempts
back in outer space, lose my mind in eclipse
so im gonna be

hook

showing my trust
then she wanna go and fuck it right up
telling me that youre never enough
what the hell did you put in my cup?
put in my cup

my past kinda rough
but its kind of on some personal stuff
hurt me when i was left in the dust
prison in my head i feel like im cuffed
feel like im cuffed

never enough (prod. perish)

beat by jissa, heyylotus
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by owen plural

lyrics: hook

fell too close, now you know how i did ya
done me wrong, dont know why i still love ya
do the most, fuck me up, we gotta save her
lightning hit, felt like you hit me with a laser

did you know that
did you, did you know that
i got blue hearts
tell me how you view that 
did you know that
did you, did you know that 
you spread them rumors
tell me, where the growth at

verse 

you know lately that im falling 
every move i make, you all watching
problems stress you out
come on ill take you shopping
call me sleepy cal 
because i need shocking

the realest ones are out of sight
you fakes are such a bitch
one of us aint feeling right
throw me in fire pit 
everything overanalyzed 
anxietys a bitch
honestly im not surprised 
thats one thing ill admit

pre hook

confused, hard to stay in the moment now
save me, too late you done just broke me down
for the thousandth time

hook 

fell too close, now you know how i did ya
done me wrong, dont know why i still love ya
do the most, fuck me up, we gotta save her
lightning hit, felt like you hit me with a laser

did you know that
did you, did you know that
i got blue hearts
tell me how you view that 
did you know that
did you, did you know that 
you spread them rumors
tell me, where the growth at

know that (prod. jissa x heyylotus)

beat by sky
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by cal meloblu

lyrics: hook

cant stop
thinking about what i could of 
done to block
all the negativity that
teared us up
i should only focus on the present
of a gift shop for you

cant stop
thinking about what i could of 
done to block
all the negativity that
teared us up
i should only focus on the present
of a gift shop for you

verse 

i thoughts our love was pure
my exhaust is tough to endure
rainy days make my faith obscure
most days i need to be reassured 

if you know whats up with me
im stuck in a cage i cant be free
now you know whats up with me
i said what i said just as she leaves

im bleeding im tearing apart
my body just went through a shock 
im feeding the hell in my eyes 
heart raise to the top of the charts

hook

cant stop
thinking about what i could of 
done to block
all the negativity that
teared us up
i should only focus on the present
of a gift shop for you

cant stop
thinking about what i could of 
done to block
all the negativity that
teared us up
i should only focus on the present
of a gift shop for you

the tale of a lost cause

can't stop (prod. sky)

beat by bapop, madreal
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod by cal meloblu

lyrics: hook

it took me a while to get it right, to get it figured out
theyre faking their love, wish me luck, dont wanna be around
couple thousand miles, i promise that im gonna make it out
me and the bags, for the fam im gonna run it up

off the bass line, its a new night
taking trips off to mars, im a fly guy
thoughts in my mind, intertwined
i feel so isolated, hard to see the light

verse 1 

the devil tryna take me over
this is hurting my brain
everything is falling like october
bear it for any longer, i cant

you cant reverse me, dont curse me
demons after me, uh such misery
just wanted you to let me go
i want you to hurt me

pre hook

all in the past, cant remember
all the shit you put me through 
cold hearted, its december
who knew its what you would do

cant forget all the shit, its simply what you did
hard to think that its real, just wanna close eyelids
think about all the problems that i been stuck with
this is whats going on in my life

hook

it took me a while to get it right, to get it figured out
theyre faking their love, wish me luck, dont wanna be around
couple thousand miles, i promise that im gonna make it out
me and the bags, for the fam im gonna run it up

off the bass line, its a new night
taking trips off to mars, im a fly guy
thoughts in my mind, intertwined
i feel so isolated, hard to see the light

verse 2

i dont know what to do
feeling left out, im feeling blue
come see me, cant force you to
only real ones would come through

youre another bitch, what i withdrew
from the conversations we had, boo
she a party animal in the zoo
im on the way like a rendez-vous

pre hook

all in the past, cant remember
all the shit you put me through 
cold hearted, its december
who knew its what you would do

cant forget all the shit, its simply what you did
hard to think that its real, just wanna close eyelids
think about all the problems that i been stuck with
this is whats going on in my life

hook

it took me a while to get it right, to get it figured out
theyre faking their love, wish me luck, dont wanna be around
couple thousand miles, i promise that im gonna make it out
me and the bags, for the fam im gonna run it up

off the bass line, its a new night
taking trips off to mars, im a fly guy
thoughts in my mind, intertwined
i feel so isolated, hard to see the light

figured out (prod. bapop x madreal)

beat by weeley, alyx, juko
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by cal meloblu

lyrics: hook

hopping on the jet, oh oh
looking at you got me feeling so high
with all my stress, oh oh
at the same time i feel my
heartbeat less and less, oh oh
look back in the mirror, see the devil
give me time to reflect, oh oh
demons made me fall for you

hopping on the jet, oh oh
looking at you got me feeling so high
with all my stress, oh oh
at the same time i feel my
heartbeat less and less, oh oh
look back in the mirror, see the devil
give me time to reflect, oh oh
demons made me fall for you

verse

girl it doesnt matter
what you want from me
horns are growing out of you
i pull demons out with ease

i am running faster 
but does it really matter?
demons will catch me anyway
in the flames and the fumes is where i lay

leave me 'lone, let me catch a rhythm
dont let my anxiety get high as the ceiling
all i see is red, the demons come kill 
all this heavy smoke that i am breathing
being stuck in my head is hard to deal with
look up in the sky for help as im reaching
thoughts go one fifty they been speeding
God can you help me? i need some healing

pre hook

im feeling awful
making it to the bottom of the bottles
pour the purple syrup
pouring it like its going on waffles 

im feeling awful
making it to the bottom of the bottle

hook

hopping on the jet, oh oh
looking at you got me feeling so high
with all my stress, oh oh
at the same time i feel my
heartbeat less and less, oh oh
look back in the mirror, see the devil
give me time to reflect, oh oh
demons made me fall for you

hopping on the jet, oh oh
looking at you got me feeling so high
with all my stress, oh oh
at the same time i feel my
heartbeat less and less, oh oh
look back in the mirror, see the devil
give me time to reflect, oh oh
demons made me fall for you

in the mirror (prod. weeley x alyx x juko)

beat by yici, bino beats
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by cal meloblu

lyrics: pre hook

uh, uh
early late mornings thinking
where does it go wrong again
do you miss me?
early late mornings mad at the world
thats my way of defense)

hook

uh, uh
early late mornings out of love
heartbeat crazy intense
i need you baby
worried fate forming as i 
shut down, finally making sense

(oh, uh)
its a late warning that i get
fire what im against
you drive me crazy
blood is not pouring from my heart
i got a hole in my chest

verse 

i got a hold in my chest
if you fuck with me
it is genuinely 
the best feeling in the world
knowing that you are my girl
and then i said

do you think we would be forever lovers?
after all the fights we had with each other
thought she was a real one
i dont wanna feel none
throw in the towel, im done
i just wanna feel numb forever

pre hook

uh, uh
early late mornings thinking
where does it go wrong again
do you miss me?
early late mornings mad at the world
thats my way of defense)

hook

uh, uh
early late mornings out of love
heartbeat crazy intense
i need you baby
worried fate forming as i 
shut down, finally making sense

(oh, uh)
its a late warning that i get
fire what im against
you drive me crazy
blood is not pouring from my heart
i got a hole in my chest

early late mornings (prod. yici x bino beats)

beat by triazo x nash
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

Complicated thinking, understood
It's been fucking with my mental, yeah
Brain in cycle, it's got a heartbeat, yeah
Pay you my time, give me my receipt, yeah

Took all my things, I got nothing left
You did your worst, will be at my best
Smoke until your eyes are looking red
Kinda looks like my ten demons possessed

Bitch, I wanted to tell you something
Might not understand, can you please take my hand?
Drowning in this quicksand, baby
Was kinda hoping you could save me

How in the fuck do you have options?
I really miss when, when we were locked in
Moving along with complete caution
Can't afford my mind going back in eruption

Complicated thinking, understood
It's been fucking with my mental, yeah
Brain in cycle, it's got a heartbeat, yeah
Pay you my time, give me my receipt, yeah

Complicated thinking, understood
It's been fucking with my mental, yeah
Brain in cycle, it's got a heartbeat, yeah
Pay you my time, give me my receipt, yeah

Took all my things, I got nothing left
You did your worst, will be at my best
Smoke until your eyes are looking red
Kinda looks like my ten demons possessed

Praying on my knees nonstop
Monster wait for me in swamps
Never in my picture, get cropped
Now without you I'm on top

With the rainy days, I feel stuck
Too much in the way, brain shock
Make it to the other side is a far walk 
No pressure but the time is limited, frozen clock

Complicated thinking, understood
It's been fucking with my mental, yeah
Brain in cycle, it's got a heartbeat, yeah
Pay you my time, give me my receipt, yeah

Took all my things, I got nothing left
You did your worst, will be at my best
Smoke until your eyes are looking red
Kinda looks like my ten demons possessed

Ten Demons Possessed

10 Demons Possessed

beat by miroow
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

I hate to admit it but I mess you
My mind like a track all my thoughts run around
Think until you panic then it hits you
Heart rate in the sky as you fall and hit the ground

Can't show any trust in the things you
Say so I can never feel the need to stick around
Talking to myself but I'm used to 
It and everything that turn a smile into a frown

I hate to admit it but I mess you
My mind like a track all my thoughts run around
Think until you panic then it hits you
Heart rate in the sky as you fall and hit the ground

Can't show any trust in the things you
Say so I can never feel the need to stick around
Talking to myself but I'm used to 
It and everything that turn a smile into a frown

Running out of time
Every passing hour, the path's full of lava
Wanna give up sometimes
Fly away to Bahamas

I feel you
Yet you're so close, so close

One thing in particular, particular
Nights I think too deep will occur, they will occur
Phone on SOS, don't call my cellular, my cellular
My heart and my head, so dissimilar, dissimilar

Yeah, yeah, yeah

I'm in a cold place, but I burn up, turn up
The AC in the room, I'm getting worked up, I stir up
Negative thoughts in my mind, I refer of
Past situations that come up, they jump up

Seeing what it does to my mental
I look back feeling sentimental
Am I sleeping?
Conscious leaving (woah)
I been screaming
What a feeling (woah)

You get me
You get me (yeah)

I hate to admit it but I mess you
My mind like a track all my thoughts run around
Think until you panic then it hits you
Heart rate in the sky as you fall and hit the ground

Can't show any trust in the things you
Say so I can never feel the need to stick around
Talking to myself but I'm used to 
It and everything that turn a smile into a frown

I hate to admit it but I mess you
My mind like a track all my thoughts run around
Think until you panic then it hits you
Heart rate in the sky as you fall and hit the ground

Can't show any trust in the things you
Say so I can never feel the need to stick around
Talking to myself but I'm used to 
It and everything that turn a smile into a frown

Think Until You Panic

beat by Lordd
written by cal meloblu & yvngxsno
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

Heart pounds in my chest so hard
Might have a hole in it
Hold me by your strings, guitar
My trust, you're throwing it 

Down in the deep, so far
Limits approaching it 
One day we might touch the stars 
Right now opposing it

Heart pounds in my chest so hard
Might have a hole in it
Hold me by your strings, guitar
My trust, you're throwing it 

Down in the deep, so far
Limits approaching it 
One day we might touch the stars 
Right now opposing it

I'm in a shortage
Of energy, poured it on the pavement
Run 'til my body shakes and it gives up
Tired but I'm still anxiously filled up

See you later, now I'm winning
Involved in no more sinning
Plenty downs on my up-bringing 
Call my phone, now left ringing

It's all a fucking mess
Bitch, it's all a mess
Don't let them rewind the time
Don't let them control your mind

Heart pounds in my chest so hard
Might have a hole in it
Hold me by your strings, guitar
My trust, you're throwing it 

Down in the deep, so far
Limits approaching it 
One day we might touch the stars 
Right now opposing it

Heart pounds in my chest so hard
Might have a hole in it
Hold me by your strings, guitar
My trust, you're throwing it 

Down in the deep, so far
Limits approaching it 
One day we might touch the stars 
Right now opposing it

I get high when I'm feeling low
Anxiety's a bitch, I had to let her go
I try and run away but I can't see the road
Never falling victim, I stick to the code

Feel me, baby, this the real me
Roll up, smoke too much 'til I can't see
Empty, why I feel so empty
Memories of you floating so high, let it be

Man, I feel it when I think about this shit up late at night
I can't seem to focus, why it's hard for me to take advice
Think I'm over trying to be the bigger person playing nice
Need some risk up in my life, so I grab that motherfucker
Roll the dice

Heart pounds in my chest so hard
Might have a hole in it
Hold me by your strings, guitar
My trust, you're throwing it 

Down in the deep, so far
Limits approaching it 
One day we might touch the stars 
Right now opposing it

Heart pounds in my chest so hard
Might have a hole in it
Hold me by your strings, guitar
My trust, you're throwing it 

Down in the deep, so far
Limits approaching it 
One day we might touch the stars 
Right now opposing it

Limits (feat. yvngxsno)

beat by bapop x daniel saint
written by cal meloblu 
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

Times when I wanted to pause
My thinking to get across 
All bad days that build exhaust
I know it hurts, but fuck it

Times when I wanted to pause
My thinking to get across
All bad days that build exhaust
I know it hurts, but fuck it

But fuck it, I'm lit up
You bring up my vibe 
I'm kidding, just give up 
You bring up my drive

To keep going
Running back on the days I was closing 
Down and all my self love you would throw it
Way down into the deep, and so now

I notice that you don't try
And I used to wonder why
You found your new perfect guy
I loved you with my full heart

You land a hit on me as I tear up 
At my lowest point, girl
My heart, it split as I'm taking a look
At my mind, too crowded

You found one, bitch, you replaced
Me, now left with nothing

Times when I wanted to pause
My thinking to get across 
All bad days that build exhaust
I know it hurts, but fuck it

Times when I wanted to pause
My thinking to get across
All bad days that build exhaust
I know it hurts, but fuck it

Wanted To Pause

beat by ivand x itsakaibeat
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod by prodkeech

lyrics:

You left me falling baby
I don’t know how to feel right now
I said no probably, maybe
Can’t make up my mind right now on
What to do when the days are rainy
It’s light out wanna go lights out
From head to toe I’m shaking
My thoughts they tell me to write down 

Oh, oh
You got a new fear
Oh, oh
I tell you same here
Oh, oh
Too much space here
Drown in my tears you left me falling

Oh, oh
There’s always rain near
Oh, oh
God told me stay clear
Oh, oh
All in the same year
Realize now what these times are causing 

You left me falling baby
I don’t know how to feel right now
I said no probably, maybe
Can’t make up my mind right now on
What to do when the days are rainy
It’s light out wanna go lights out
From head to toe I’m shaking
My thoughts they tell me to write down 

I’m scared it’ll be 
Used for the worst
The past is a curse
Thinking about it makes it worse

Another cut so deep
Hit me where it hurts
I know it’s not how this works
But for love I’m in a search

I’m in trouble, in trouble 
All these negative thoughts they double, they double
I still find the beauty in the struggle, the struggle
The light will always be at the end of the tunnel, I’m puzzled 
Shit happened so fast

Oh, oh
You got a new fear
Oh, oh
I tell you same here
Oh, oh
Too much space here
Drown in my tears you left me falling

Oh, oh
There’s always rain near
Oh, oh
God told me stay clear
Oh, oh
All in the same year
Realize now what these times are causing

Lights Out

beat by mulak
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod by prodkeech

lyrics:

Got a collection
Of some shitty thoughts
Now in possession
Of my soul I have so 
Many questions
You ask me why I’ve got 
No expression
From you I hide my

Depression
That way we’re not feeling
Any tension 
It’s just another day 
At my discretion 
Because I’m in a sense
Of no direction 
I feel rejected I hate it 

I hate it and now
You wondering how
How I push it aside
Few thousand fucking times 

I’m figuring out
How I’m not crumbling down
I need me some time
To get my thoughts all aligned

All the clouds are so gray ay ay ay
Heavy anxiety what’s the weight eight eight eight
Overthinking every day ay ay ay 
Just the way I am

Got a collection
Of some shitty thoughts
Now in possession
Of my soul I have so 
Many questions
You ask me why I’ve got 
No expression
From you I hide my

Depression
That way we’re not feeling
Any tension 
It’s just another day 
At my discretion 
Because I’m in a sense
Of no direction 
I feel rejected I hate it 

And now you fucking it up for me
Went behind my back so dishonestly
Flooded with trust issues probably
And is filled up to the top constantly

And now you fucking it up for me
Went behind my back so dishonestly
Flooded with trust issues probably
And is filled up to the top

Got a collection
Of some shitty thoughts
Now in possession
Of my soul I have so 
Many questions
You ask me why I’ve got 
No expression
From you I hide my

Depression
That way we’re not feeling
Any tension 
It’s just another day 
At my discretion 
Because I’m in a sense
Of no direction 
I feel rejected I hate it

No Expression

beat by mulak
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

Thoughts, they pushing me away
They make another wave
Hard to swim past
Wishing for a little change
No way to rearrange
All the lows that happened then

I need me some advice
Heart turning into ice
Had a large impact
On all the mental fights
Can you turn please turn the lights
Off I need a bit of space

Now I need a bit of space
You I’m not against 
Monsters switching up the pace
Let me rest

The rest, throw over
Heart rate it lowers
My peace is closer 
See the light now
The light, the solar
My luck a clover
No need for closure
Waking up, and it’s over

Thoughts, they pushing me away
They make another wave
Hard to swim past
Wishing for a little change
No way to rearrange
All the lows that happened then

I need me some advice
Heart turning into ice
Had a large impact
On all the mental fights
Can you turn please turn the lights
Off I need a bit of space

In my head it’s prison
Wishing God can listen
To me
I need
To be
Set free

Thoughts, they pushing me away
They make another wave
Hard to swim past
Wishing for a little change
No way to rearrange
All the lows that happened then

I need me some advice
Heart turning into ice
Had a large impact
On all the mental fights
Can you turn please turn the lights
Off I need a bit of space

Swim Past

beat by love race x phil!
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

(Usually I don’t think this much)
(Not the one to be in a rush)
(I’m on the chase, I’m on the run)
(From the war that has begun)

Usually I don’t think this much
Not the one to be in a rush
In the storm surrounded by my thoughts 

I’m on the chase, I’m on the run
From the war that has begun
The devil wanting me to fucking rot

Rot away
In the middle of the day
I'm locked away

Rot away
Should of walked away
And said not today

Not today I told myself
Hope that you won’t fuck it up
Protecting my mental health
Regardless anxiety coming up

Coming up, I’m falling down, I’m on the ground
Even if I’m talking to myself, no
Give my all to try and fucking calm me down
Still isn’t working 

I’m sinking deep
Drowning now
I notice how tough it is till
I picked me up
Ripping up
All feelings I know of

Usually I don't think this much
Not the one to be in a rush
I notice how tough it is
I'm on the chase, I'm on the run
From the war that has begun
All feelings I know of

Usually I don’t think this much
Not the one to be in a rush
In the storm surrounded by my thoughts 

I’m on the chase, I’m on the run
From the war that has begun
The devil wanting me to fucking rot

Rot away
In the middle of the day
Im locked away

Rot away
Should of walked away
And said not today

Rot Away

beat by jissa x sky
written by cal meloblu & TheHxliday
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

I'm on a moonwalk in space
Fuck out my face with that 
Love money chase
You're insane

So tough to embrace 
Left with no trace on how
My heart intakes
Too much

And now you're my mistake
I'll never change for you
Go up in flames 
You're insane

It's not the same 
Fuck out my face with that
Love money chase
Rest in pain

Fuck all your drama, I don't wanna know
If you really wanna, block my cell and go
Put my faith in Allah a couple years ago
I still come upon a demon trying to fuck my flow 

Demon trying to fuck my flow
Always gonna pull me down below
Would like for me to suffer
But I'm not selling my soul

Lead my thoughts in control
Trusting that God's gonna keep me afloat
Of course I'm landing on a 
Hard time but I'm keeping Him close

I worry about the flurries
That be coming my way, my way
Vision blurry, I'm in a hurry
Take a step back and I retake

I'm on a moonwalk in space
Fuck out my face with that 
Love money chase
You're insane

So tough to embrace 
Left with no trace on how
My heart intakes
Too much

And now you're my mistake
I'll never change for you
Go up in flames 
You're insane

It's not the same 
Fuck out my face with that
Love money chase
Rest in pain

Stay up out my way
Moonwalking, my diamonds glow since sun come up, last day
Now I ain't wanna play, lately I been in this phase
I gotta know what the vision is so I can chase it

I know everything we been through is so amazing 
Time running down on the clock and we running through mazes 
We getting faded, put this in your playlist
Girl, I take ‘em up in a magazine, think I'll make it 

Whenever I look to the sky (sky)
And I wonder why 
And I wonder why (and I wonder why)
Damn, I wonder why

I'm on a moonwalk in space
Fuck out my face with that 
Love money chase
You're insane

So tough to embrace 
Left with no trace on how
My heart intakes
Too much

And now you're my mistake
I'll never change for you
Go up in flames 
You're insane

It's not the same 
Fuck out my face with that
Love money chase
Rest in pain

And I hit rewind
Try to call out for help but 
She declined, I'm not alright
I was on your side
Won't find a new one
It hurts to try, my bro was right

Trust the process, one thing I forget
Overthink regardless, still take it as a threat
You think I got it, there's demons you haven't met
Forget I said it, don't want you to get upset, oh

Moonwalk (feat. TheHxliday)

beat by JEFFUWY & SephGotTheWaves
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

Sinking my heart 
At the bottom of the sea
Been doing my part
Don’t know how it feels now

Never restart
Everything I thought I did wrong
All that we got
Is nothing but the future

Sinking my heart 
At the bottom of the sea
Been doing my part
Don’t know how it feels now

Never restart
Everything I thought I did wrong
All that we got
Is nothing but the future

Notice today
I’m feeling the opposite
Of yesterday 
Emotions scare me away

I feel betrayed
Nobody calls me when I get
Mentally drained
Clouds turn into shitty grey

It’s a dark time
Cause I got a sign
That peace is out of sight
Acting as if I’m fine

Almost like I got struck 
By lightning (oh) 

Running far from
All of my darkest secrets 
And it’s caused from
Thinking bout it too much
What you want from
Me I wanna feel at peace 
But you fuck it up
Demon with the red eyes

Sinking my heart 
At the bottom of the sea
Been doing my part
Don’t know how it feels now

Never restart
Everything I thought I did wrong
All that we got
Is nothing but the future

Sinking my heart 
At the bottom of the sea
Been doing my part
Don’t know how it feels now

Never restart
Everything I thought I did wrong
All that we got
Is nothing but the future

How it Feels Now

beat by jissa
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

I’m in closure
I try to show her
How it feels to be
Stuck in enclosure
Hard to get over
The feelings of a loner

Isolation got the best of me
The best of me
Told me to go 
Rest in peace
I’m losing peace
Anxiety really got
The best of me
The best of me (oh)

It really got the best of me I know it 
Look right past its history
I’ll slow it down
I’ll slow it down (oh)

All thoughts they been fearing me
Hope the devil is now hearing me
He’s up and he’s now steering me 
Far much closer to my fucking misery 
With all this smoke is so hard to see
He’s giving it his all just to see me fail

Fuck you
For turning my life upside down
I’m all alone
Out of breath

I’m in closure
I try to show her
How it feels to be
Stuck in enclosure
Hard to get over
The feelings of a loner

Isolation got the best of me
The best of me
Told me to go 
Rest in peace
I’m losing peace
Anxiety really got
The best of me
The best of me (oh)

Lying in my bed right now
Demons yelling in my head, so loud
So loud inside my space
As close as in my face
Run away fast I’ll win the race
Yet still in slow pace 

I love it when the bad times come by
They make the good times better even though
I think it’s the end but 
The clouds will pass with changing weather

Fuck you
For turning my life upside down
I’m all alone
Out of breath

I’m in closure
I try to show her
How it feels to be
Stuck in enclosure
Hard to get over
The feelings of a loner

Isolation got the best of me
The best of me
Told me to go 
Rest in peace
I’m losing peace
Anxiety really got
The best of me
The best of me (oh)

Best Of Me

beat by BRXDSHXW & ayoley
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

Trapped inside my mind and I hate it
Devil’s now gonna use it against me
Now I wish that I didn’t say it
Near as much as I did in my past

Trapped inside my mind and I hate it
Devil’s now gonna use it against me
Now I wish that I didn’t say it
Near as much as I did in my past

Against me (oh, oh)
You resent me (oh, oh)
Now I feel useless, ruthless 
Angry at you and at the world

I overheard
Death occurred
In my brain tonight

I tried to turn
Still made it worse
Maybe the devils right

Passed you
As I slipped right past you
My heart is glass too

Teared it right apart now
Rotting my ins and outs
Devils in my mind right now
Shouts about how I won’t break out 

Trapped inside my mind and I hate it
Devil’s now gonna use it against me
Now I wish that I didn’t say it
Near as much as I did in my past

Trapped inside my mind and I hate it
Devil’s now gonna use it against me
Now I wish that I didn’t say it
Near as much as I did in my past

Against Me

beat by triazo
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

Stuck in my mind, numb I can’t feel
I didn’t know thoughts got so real
Hurt me again, hearts made of steel
Leave me alone, just let me heal

Stuck in my mind, numb I can’t feel
I didn’t know thoughts got so real
Hurt me again, hearts made of steel
Leave me alone, just let me heal

Throw me inside a volcano
Then once I’m gone, need a halo
Were they by me, better say no
They’re lying again, I sustain hope 

I sustain hope, I’m never sure
I remain low, I’m insecure 
I felt so low, I expected her
To bring me up, didn’t come through

I know you
I don’t know you
I know you
At least I thought I did, back to being

Stuck in my mind, numb I can’t feel
I didn’t know thoughts got so real
Hurt me again, hearts made of steel
Leave me alone, just let me heal

Stuck in my mind, numb I can’t feel
I didn’t know thoughts got so real
Hurt me again, hearts made of steel
Leave me alone, just let me heal

Every night I land at the bottom of
My mind, my mind
Then I realize God is watching up above
At all times, at all times

That’s one thing that I have to remember
That I have to remember
When I’m caught up inside of the centre
Of attention 
A certain section 
And steady progression 
Hurts me
My thoughts are such a burden

Volcano

beat by maldon
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

(I hate you but my heart inflated)

Tell me why things complicated?
I hate you but my heart inflated
All my nightmares are recreated
Monsters in the storm, they all waiting, waiting

They begun with us and I notice how they
Fuck with us cause we showing that they
Get to us now that
Love is done, love is done

Oooh, demons come attack me
Oooh, they took my only heart piece

Gotta change my feelings
Better mindset I’m missing
Bad thoughts I’m thinking 
But I thought the pain was finished 

Tell me why things complicated?
I hate you but my heart inflated
All my nightmares are recreated
Monsters in the storm, they all waiting, waiting

Fuck rainy days, but they say hello
Thoughts, they all drown, minds overflown
Getting pissed off and it starts to show
Tired of this shit, third year in a row

Gotta change my feelings
Better mindset I’m missing
Bad thoughts I’m thinking 
But I thought the pain was finished 

Tell me why things complicated?
I hate you but my heart inflated
All my nightmares are recreated
Monsters in the storm, they all waiting, waiting

Complicated

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