By My Side (prod. TwonTwon)

vibes! (prod. Lxnely Beats)

Best Friend (Prod.by Heavy Keyzz x haze x DVNI)

beat by daniar x maxflynn
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod by owenplural

life without her

hey! (prod. daniar x maxflynn)

beat by nejdos x 80root
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod by owenplural

doubt you (prod. nejdos x 80root)

beat by jean parker
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod by prodbygalaxy

nopatience4u (prod. jean parker)

endure it (prod. nejdos x 80root)

beat by Yici + Xyn
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod by owenplural

cut her off (prod. Yici x Xyn)

beat by ezy, ayoleybeats, rossgossage
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

hook 

unable to find a girl like you
there aint no way
whenever that you come back around
you play like arcade
but when i look into your eyes
i really wanna stay
yeah youre losing me so much time 
its so simply such a waste

unable to find a girl like you
there aint no way
whenever that you come back around
you play like arcade
but when i look into your eyes
i really wanna stay
yeah youre losing me so much time 
its so simply such a waste

verse 

demons and the devil come back
i hurt for my health
youre chillin in there with the rest
the anxiety that i felt
it kinda shocked me the fact that
youre down up in this hell
so i guess this is final goodbyes
i cant wish you well

your red eyes
feed my mind
my stress rise
high like the sky
tears they fall
fall as i cry
tried to run my life
my demise

i dont even know what to say like no more
so youre leaving now and youre chillin at my front door
the same thing always happen like an encore
a set of flames lighting my head like a smore

pre hook

all this fire summons you when youre up in my head
youre hanging off a cliff of heat yeah you are what i dread
red bright eyes are shining at me, scared of whats ahead
the one i hate but the one that youre part of

hook 

unable to find a girl like you
there aint no way
whenever that you come back around
you play like arcade
but when i look into your eyes
i really wanna stay
yeah youre losing me so much time 
its so simply such a waste

unable to find a girl like you
there aint no way
whenever that you come back around
you play like arcade
but when i look into your eyes
i really wanna stay
yeah youre losing me so much time 
its so simply such a waste

such a waste

such a waste [p. ezy, ayoleybeats, rossgossage]

beat by ezy, ayoleybeats, rossgossage
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

hook

unable to find a girl like you
there aint no way
whenever that you come back around
you play like arcade
but when i look into your eyes
i really wanna stay
yeah youre losing me so much time
its so simply such a waste

unable to find a girl like you
there aint no way
whenever that you come back around
you play like arcade
but when i look into your eyes
i really wanna stay
yeah youre losing me so much time
its so simply such a waste

verse

demons and the devil come back
i hurt for my health
youre chillin in there with the rest
the anxiety that i felt
it kinda shocked me the fact that
youre down up in this hell
so i guess this is final goodbyes
i cant wish you well

your red eyes
feed my mind
my stress rise
high like the sky
tears they fall
fall as i cry
tried to run my life
my demise

i dont even know what to say like no more
so youre leaving now and youre chillin at my front door
the same thing always happen like an encore
a set of flames lighting my head like a smore

pre hook

all this fire summons you when youre up in my head
youre hanging off a cliff of heat yeah you are what i dread
red bright eyes are shining at me, scared of whats ahead
the one i hate but the one that youre part of

hook

unable to find a girl like you
there aint no way
whenever that you come back around
you play like arcade
but when i look into your eyes
i really wanna stay
yeah youre losing me so much time
its so simply such a waste

unable to find a girl like you
there aint no way
whenever that you come back around
you play like arcade
but when i look into your eyes
i really wanna stay
yeah youre losing me so much time
its so simply such a waste

such a waste (sped-up) [p. ezy, ayoleybeats, rossgossage]

beat by jissa, heyylotus
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by owen plural

lyrics: hook

fell too close, now you know how i did ya
done me wrong, dont know why i still love ya
do the most, fuck me up, we gotta save her
lightning hit, felt like you hit me with a laser

did you know that
did you, did you know that
i got blue hearts
tell me how you view that 
did you know that
did you, did you know that 
you spread them rumors
tell me, where the growth at

verse 

you know lately that im falling 
every move i make, you all watching
problems stress you out
come on ill take you shopping
call me sleepy cal 
because i need shocking

the realest ones are out of sight
you fakes are such a bitch
one of us aint feeling right
throw me in fire pit 
everything overanalyzed 
anxietys a bitch
honestly im not surprised 
thats one thing ill admit

pre hook

confused, hard to stay in the moment now
save me, too late you done just broke me down
for the thousandth time

hook 

fell too close, now you know how i did ya
done me wrong, dont know why i still love ya
do the most, fuck me up, we gotta save her
lightning hit, felt like you hit me with a laser

did you know that
did you, did you know that
i got blue hearts
tell me how you view that 
did you know that
did you, did you know that 
you spread them rumors
tell me, where the growth at

know that (prod. jissa x heyylotus)

beat by bapop, madreal
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod by cal meloblu

lyrics: hook

it took me a while to get it right, to get it figured out
theyre faking their love, wish me luck, dont wanna be around
couple thousand miles, i promise that im gonna make it out
me and the bags, for the fam im gonna run it up

off the bass line, its a new night
taking trips off to mars, im a fly guy
thoughts in my mind, intertwined
i feel so isolated, hard to see the light

verse 1 

the devil tryna take me over
this is hurting my brain
everything is falling like october
bear it for any longer, i cant

you cant reverse me, dont curse me
demons after me, uh such misery
just wanted you to let me go
i want you to hurt me

pre hook

all in the past, cant remember
all the shit you put me through 
cold hearted, its december
who knew its what you would do

cant forget all the shit, its simply what you did
hard to think that its real, just wanna close eyelids
think about all the problems that i been stuck with
this is whats going on in my life

hook

it took me a while to get it right, to get it figured out
theyre faking their love, wish me luck, dont wanna be around
couple thousand miles, i promise that im gonna make it out
me and the bags, for the fam im gonna run it up

off the bass line, its a new night
taking trips off to mars, im a fly guy
thoughts in my mind, intertwined
i feel so isolated, hard to see the light

verse 2

i dont know what to do
feeling left out, im feeling blue
come see me, cant force you to
only real ones would come through

youre another bitch, what i withdrew
from the conversations we had, boo
she a party animal in the zoo
im on the way like a rendez-vous

pre hook

all in the past, cant remember
all the shit you put me through 
cold hearted, its december
who knew its what you would do

cant forget all the shit, its simply what you did
hard to think that its real, just wanna close eyelids
think about all the problems that i been stuck with
this is whats going on in my life

hook

it took me a while to get it right, to get it figured out
theyre faking their love, wish me luck, dont wanna be around
couple thousand miles, i promise that im gonna make it out
me and the bags, for the fam im gonna run it up

off the bass line, its a new night
taking trips off to mars, im a fly guy
thoughts in my mind, intertwined
i feel so isolated, hard to see the light

the tale of a lost cause

figured out (prod. bapop x madreal)

beat by weeley, alyx, juko
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by cal meloblu

lyrics: hook

hopping on the jet, oh oh
looking at you got me feeling so high
with all my stress, oh oh
at the same time i feel my
heartbeat less and less, oh oh
look back in the mirror, see the devil
give me time to reflect, oh oh
demons made me fall for you

hopping on the jet, oh oh
looking at you got me feeling so high
with all my stress, oh oh
at the same time i feel my
heartbeat less and less, oh oh
look back in the mirror, see the devil
give me time to reflect, oh oh
demons made me fall for you

verse

girl it doesnt matter
what you want from me
horns are growing out of you
i pull demons out with ease

i am running faster 
but does it really matter?
demons will catch me anyway
in the flames and the fumes is where i lay

leave me 'lone, let me catch a rhythm
dont let my anxiety get high as the ceiling
all i see is red, the demons come kill 
all this heavy smoke that i am breathing
being stuck in my head is hard to deal with
look up in the sky for help as im reaching
thoughts go one fifty they been speeding
God can you help me? i need some healing

pre hook

im feeling awful
making it to the bottom of the bottles
pour the purple syrup
pouring it like its going on waffles 

im feeling awful
making it to the bottom of the bottle

hook

hopping on the jet, oh oh
looking at you got me feeling so high
with all my stress, oh oh
at the same time i feel my
heartbeat less and less, oh oh
look back in the mirror, see the devil
give me time to reflect, oh oh
demons made me fall for you

hopping on the jet, oh oh
looking at you got me feeling so high
with all my stress, oh oh
at the same time i feel my
heartbeat less and less, oh oh
look back in the mirror, see the devil
give me time to reflect, oh oh
demons made me fall for you

in the mirror (prod. weeley x alyx x juko)

beat by miroow
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

I hate to admit it but I mess you
My mind like a track all my thoughts run around
Think until you panic then it hits you
Heart rate in the sky as you fall and hit the ground

Can't show any trust in the things you
Say so I can never feel the need to stick around
Talking to myself but I'm used to 
It and everything that turn a smile into a frown

I hate to admit it but I mess you
My mind like a track all my thoughts run around
Think until you panic then it hits you
Heart rate in the sky as you fall and hit the ground

Can't show any trust in the things you
Say so I can never feel the need to stick around
Talking to myself but I'm used to 
It and everything that turn a smile into a frown

Running out of time
Every passing hour, the path's full of lava
Wanna give up sometimes
Fly away to Bahamas

I feel you
Yet you're so close, so close

One thing in particular, particular
Nights I think too deep will occur, they will occur
Phone on SOS, don't call my cellular, my cellular
My heart and my head, so dissimilar, dissimilar

Yeah, yeah, yeah

I'm in a cold place, but I burn up, turn up
The AC in the room, I'm getting worked up, I stir up
Negative thoughts in my mind, I refer of
Past situations that come up, they jump up

Seeing what it does to my mental
I look back feeling sentimental
Am I sleeping?
Conscious leaving (woah)
I been screaming
What a feeling (woah)

You get me
You get me (yeah)

I hate to admit it but I mess you
My mind like a track all my thoughts run around
Think until you panic then it hits you
Heart rate in the sky as you fall and hit the ground

Can't show any trust in the things you
Say so I can never feel the need to stick around
Talking to myself but I'm used to 
It and everything that turn a smile into a frown

I hate to admit it but I mess you
My mind like a track all my thoughts run around
Think until you panic then it hits you
Heart rate in the sky as you fall and hit the ground

Can't show any trust in the things you
Say so I can never feel the need to stick around
Talking to myself but I'm used to 
It and everything that turn a smile into a frown

Think Until You Panic

beat by Lordd
written by cal meloblu & yvngxsno
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

Heart pounds in my chest so hard
Might have a hole in it
Hold me by your strings, guitar
My trust, you're throwing it 

Down in the deep, so far
Limits approaching it 
One day we might touch the stars 
Right now opposing it

Heart pounds in my chest so hard
Might have a hole in it
Hold me by your strings, guitar
My trust, you're throwing it 

Down in the deep, so far
Limits approaching it 
One day we might touch the stars 
Right now opposing it

I'm in a shortage
Of energy, poured it on the pavement
Run 'til my body shakes and it gives up
Tired but I'm still anxiously filled up

See you later, now I'm winning
Involved in no more sinning
Plenty downs on my up-bringing 
Call my phone, now left ringing

It's all a fucking mess
Bitch, it's all a mess
Don't let them rewind the time
Don't let them control your mind

Heart pounds in my chest so hard
Might have a hole in it
Hold me by your strings, guitar
My trust, you're throwing it 

Down in the deep, so far
Limits approaching it 
One day we might touch the stars 
Right now opposing it

Heart pounds in my chest so hard
Might have a hole in it
Hold me by your strings, guitar
My trust, you're throwing it 

Down in the deep, so far
Limits approaching it 
One day we might touch the stars 
Right now opposing it

I get high when I'm feeling low
Anxiety's a bitch, I had to let her go
I try and run away but I can't see the road
Never falling victim, I stick to the code

Feel me, baby, this the real me
Roll up, smoke too much 'til I can't see
Empty, why I feel so empty
Memories of you floating so high, let it be

Man, I feel it when I think about this shit up late at night
I can't seem to focus, why it's hard for me to take advice
Think I'm over trying to be the bigger person playing nice
Need some risk up in my life, so I grab that motherfucker
Roll the dice

Heart pounds in my chest so hard
Might have a hole in it
Hold me by your strings, guitar
My trust, you're throwing it 

Down in the deep, so far
Limits approaching it 
One day we might touch the stars 
Right now opposing it

Heart pounds in my chest so hard
Might have a hole in it
Hold me by your strings, guitar
My trust, you're throwing it 

Down in the deep, so far
Limits approaching it 
One day we might touch the stars 
Right now opposing it

Limits (feat. yvngxsno)

beat by ivand x itsakaibeat
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod by prodkeech

lyrics:

You left me falling baby
I don’t know how to feel right now
I said no probably, maybe
Can’t make up my mind right now on
What to do when the days are rainy
It’s light out wanna go lights out
From head to toe I’m shaking
My thoughts they tell me to write down 

Oh, oh
You got a new fear
Oh, oh
I tell you same here
Oh, oh
Too much space here
Drown in my tears you left me falling

Oh, oh
There’s always rain near
Oh, oh
God told me stay clear
Oh, oh
All in the same year
Realize now what these times are causing 

You left me falling baby
I don’t know how to feel right now
I said no probably, maybe
Can’t make up my mind right now on
What to do when the days are rainy
It’s light out wanna go lights out
From head to toe I’m shaking
My thoughts they tell me to write down 

I’m scared it’ll be 
Used for the worst
The past is a curse
Thinking about it makes it worse

Another cut so deep
Hit me where it hurts
I know it’s not how this works
But for love I’m in a search

I’m in trouble, in trouble 
All these negative thoughts they double, they double
I still find the beauty in the struggle, the struggle
The light will always be at the end of the tunnel, I’m puzzled 
Shit happened so fast

Oh, oh
You got a new fear
Oh, oh
I tell you same here
Oh, oh
Too much space here
Drown in my tears you left me falling

Oh, oh
There’s always rain near
Oh, oh
God told me stay clear
Oh, oh
All in the same year
Realize now what these times are causing

Lights Out

beat by mulak
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod by prodkeech

lyrics:

Got a collection
Of some shitty thoughts
Now in possession
Of my soul I have so 
Many questions
You ask me why I’ve got 
No expression
From you I hide my

Depression
That way we’re not feeling
Any tension 
It’s just another day 
At my discretion 
Because I’m in a sense
Of no direction 
I feel rejected I hate it 

I hate it and now
You wondering how
How I push it aside
Few thousand fucking times 

I’m figuring out
How I’m not crumbling down
I need me some time
To get my thoughts all aligned

All the clouds are so gray ay ay ay
Heavy anxiety what’s the weight eight eight eight
Overthinking every day ay ay ay 
Just the way I am

Got a collection
Of some shitty thoughts
Now in possession
Of my soul I have so 
Many questions
You ask me why I’ve got 
No expression
From you I hide my

Depression
That way we’re not feeling
Any tension 
It’s just another day 
At my discretion 
Because I’m in a sense
Of no direction 
I feel rejected I hate it 

And now you fucking it up for me
Went behind my back so dishonestly
Flooded with trust issues probably
And is filled up to the top constantly

And now you fucking it up for me
Went behind my back so dishonestly
Flooded with trust issues probably
And is filled up to the top

Got a collection
Of some shitty thoughts
Now in possession
Of my soul I have so 
Many questions
You ask me why I’ve got 
No expression
From you I hide my

Depression
That way we’re not feeling
Any tension 
It’s just another day 
At my discretion 
Because I’m in a sense
Of no direction 
I feel rejected I hate it

No Expression

beat by mulak
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

Thoughts, they pushing me away
They make another wave
Hard to swim past
Wishing for a little change
No way to rearrange
All the lows that happened then

I need me some advice
Heart turning into ice
Had a large impact
On all the mental fights
Can you turn please turn the lights
Off I need a bit of space

Now I need a bit of space
You I’m not against 
Monsters switching up the pace
Let me rest

The rest, throw over
Heart rate it lowers
My peace is closer 
See the light now
The light, the solar
My luck a clover
No need for closure
Waking up, and it’s over

Thoughts, they pushing me away
They make another wave
Hard to swim past
Wishing for a little change
No way to rearrange
All the lows that happened then

I need me some advice
Heart turning into ice
Had a large impact
On all the mental fights
Can you turn please turn the lights
Off I need a bit of space

In my head it’s prison
Wishing God can listen
To me
I need
To be
Set free

Thoughts, they pushing me away
They make another wave
Hard to swim past
Wishing for a little change
No way to rearrange
All the lows that happened then

I need me some advice
Heart turning into ice
Had a large impact
On all the mental fights
Can you turn please turn the lights
Off I need a bit of space

Swim Past

beat by love race x phil!
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

(Usually I don’t think this much)
(Not the one to be in a rush)
(I’m on the chase, I’m on the run)
(From the war that has begun)

Usually I don’t think this much
Not the one to be in a rush
In the storm surrounded by my thoughts 

I’m on the chase, I’m on the run
From the war that has begun
The devil wanting me to fucking rot

Rot away
In the middle of the day
I'm locked away

Rot away
Should of walked away
And said not today

Not today I told myself
Hope that you won’t fuck it up
Protecting my mental health
Regardless anxiety coming up

Coming up, I’m falling down, I’m on the ground
Even if I’m talking to myself, no
Give my all to try and fucking calm me down
Still isn’t working 

I’m sinking deep
Drowning now
I notice how tough it is till
I picked me up
Ripping up
All feelings I know of

Usually I don't think this much
Not the one to be in a rush
I notice how tough it is
I'm on the chase, I'm on the run
From the war that has begun
All feelings I know of

Usually I don’t think this much
Not the one to be in a rush
In the storm surrounded by my thoughts 

I’m on the chase, I’m on the run
From the war that has begun
The devil wanting me to fucking rot

Rot away
In the middle of the day
Im locked away

Rot away
Should of walked away
And said not today

Rot Away

beat by jissa x sky
written by cal meloblu & TheHxliday
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

I'm on a moonwalk in space
Fuck out my face with that 
Love money chase
You're insane

So tough to embrace 
Left with no trace on how
My heart intakes
Too much

And now you're my mistake
I'll never change for you
Go up in flames 
You're insane

It's not the same 
Fuck out my face with that
Love money chase
Rest in pain

Fuck all your drama, I don't wanna know
If you really wanna, block my cell and go
Put my faith in Allah a couple years ago
I still come upon a demon trying to fuck my flow 

Demon trying to fuck my flow
Always gonna pull me down below
Would like for me to suffer
But I'm not selling my soul

Lead my thoughts in control
Trusting that God's gonna keep me afloat
Of course I'm landing on a 
Hard time but I'm keeping Him close

I worry about the flurries
That be coming my way, my way
Vision blurry, I'm in a hurry
Take a step back and I retake

I'm on a moonwalk in space
Fuck out my face with that 
Love money chase
You're insane

So tough to embrace 
Left with no trace on how
My heart intakes
Too much

And now you're my mistake
I'll never change for you
Go up in flames 
You're insane

It's not the same 
Fuck out my face with that
Love money chase
Rest in pain

Stay up out my way
Moonwalking, my diamonds glow since sun come up, last day
Now I ain't wanna play, lately I been in this phase
I gotta know what the vision is so I can chase it

I know everything we been through is so amazing 
Time running down on the clock and we running through mazes 
We getting faded, put this in your playlist
Girl, I take ‘em up in a magazine, think I'll make it 

Whenever I look to the sky (sky)
And I wonder why 
And I wonder why (and I wonder why)
Damn, I wonder why

I'm on a moonwalk in space
Fuck out my face with that 
Love money chase
You're insane

So tough to embrace 
Left with no trace on how
My heart intakes
Too much

And now you're my mistake
I'll never change for you
Go up in flames 
You're insane

It's not the same 
Fuck out my face with that
Love money chase
Rest in pain

And I hit rewind
Try to call out for help but 
She declined, I'm not alright
I was on your side
Won't find a new one
It hurts to try, my bro was right

Trust the process, one thing I forget
Overthink regardless, still take it as a threat
You think I got it, there's demons you haven't met
Forget I said it, don't want you to get upset, oh

Moonwalk (feat. TheHxliday)

beat by jissa
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

I’m in closure
I try to show her
How it feels to be
Stuck in enclosure
Hard to get over
The feelings of a loner

Isolation got the best of me
The best of me
Told me to go 
Rest in peace
I’m losing peace
Anxiety really got
The best of me
The best of me (oh)

It really got the best of me I know it 
Look right past its history
I’ll slow it down
I’ll slow it down (oh)

All thoughts they been fearing me
Hope the devil is now hearing me
He’s up and he’s now steering me 
Far much closer to my fucking misery 
With all this smoke is so hard to see
He’s giving it his all just to see me fail

Fuck you
For turning my life upside down
I’m all alone
Out of breath

I’m in closure
I try to show her
How it feels to be
Stuck in enclosure
Hard to get over
The feelings of a loner

Isolation got the best of me
The best of me
Told me to go 
Rest in peace
I’m losing peace
Anxiety really got
The best of me
The best of me (oh)

Lying in my bed right now
Demons yelling in my head, so loud
So loud inside my space
As close as in my face
Run away fast I’ll win the race
Yet still in slow pace 

I love it when the bad times come by
They make the good times better even though
I think it’s the end but 
The clouds will pass with changing weather

Fuck you
For turning my life upside down
I’m all alone
Out of breath

I’m in closure
I try to show her
How it feels to be
Stuck in enclosure
Hard to get over
The feelings of a loner

Isolation got the best of me
The best of me
Told me to go 
Rest in peace
I’m losing peace
Anxiety really got
The best of me
The best of me (oh)

Best Of Me

beat by BRXDSHXW & ayoley
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

Trapped inside my mind and I hate it
Devil’s now gonna use it against me
Now I wish that I didn’t say it
Near as much as I did in my past

Trapped inside my mind and I hate it
Devil’s now gonna use it against me
Now I wish that I didn’t say it
Near as much as I did in my past

Against me (oh, oh)
You resent me (oh, oh)
Now I feel useless, ruthless 
Angry at you and at the world

I overheard
Death occurred
In my brain tonight

I tried to turn
Still made it worse
Maybe the devils right

Passed you
As I slipped right past you
My heart is glass too

Teared it right apart now
Rotting my ins and outs
Devils in my mind right now
Shouts about how I won’t break out 

Trapped inside my mind and I hate it
Devil’s now gonna use it against me
Now I wish that I didn’t say it
Near as much as I did in my past

Trapped inside my mind and I hate it
Devil’s now gonna use it against me
Now I wish that I didn’t say it
Near as much as I did in my past

Against Me

beat by triazo
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

Stuck in my mind, numb I can’t feel
I didn’t know thoughts got so real
Hurt me again, hearts made of steel
Leave me alone, just let me heal

Stuck in my mind, numb I can’t feel
I didn’t know thoughts got so real
Hurt me again, hearts made of steel
Leave me alone, just let me heal

Throw me inside a volcano
Then once I’m gone, need a halo
Were they by me, better say no
They’re lying again, I sustain hope 

I sustain hope, I’m never sure
I remain low, I’m insecure 
I felt so low, I expected her
To bring me up, didn’t come through

I know you
I don’t know you
I know you
At least I thought I did, back to being

Stuck in my mind, numb I can’t feel
I didn’t know thoughts got so real
Hurt me again, hearts made of steel
Leave me alone, just let me heal

Stuck in my mind, numb I can’t feel
I didn’t know thoughts got so real
Hurt me again, hearts made of steel
Leave me alone, just let me heal

Every night I land at the bottom of
My mind, my mind
Then I realize God is watching up above
At all times, at all times

That’s one thing that I have to remember
That I have to remember
When I’m caught up inside of the centre
Of attention 
A certain section 
And steady progression 
Hurts me
My thoughts are such a burden

Volcano

beat by miroow 
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

I guess my anger it can take over
I guess we gotta put a drape over
This mess because the debate is over
We need to figure out the devils whereabouts

I guess my anger it can take over
I guess we gotta put a drape over
This mess because the debate is over
We need to figure out the devils whereabouts

When I come around, I don’t wanna wait
It’s all the devils fault I’m in this mental state
You wanna see me fall, you fill me up with hate
Fighting for it all, in this life don’t wanna stay

I don’t wanna stay now, now
Life I can really do without
Go and chill up in the clouds, clouds
Flying outer space with a frown 

That’s my thinking the first day
Happy to be alive the next day

I can’t remember
The last free feeling in September
I can remember 
Cold nights in December

I guess my anger it can take over
I guess we gotta put a drape over
This mess because the debate is over
We need to figure out the devils whereabouts

I guess my anger it can take over
I guess we gotta put a drape over
This mess because the debate is over
We need to figure out the devils whereabouts

I Guess

beat by jissa x deyflo
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

You matter
I promise
I get sadder
The closer I get 

It’s the same pattern 
I’ll survive it
Then my brain scatters 
Life, I’ll never miss it 

You matter
I promise
I get sadder
The closer I get 

It’s the same pattern 
I’ll survive it
Then my brain scatters 
Life, I’ll never miss it

I am at like 5 percent
My heart it tried it’s best
I wanna throw my head against
Ice, I feel so cold

I know it still hurts 
With my eyes closed
Maybe I’m just dreaming
Or this is how it is in the after life

You’ll go without my love
I’ll fly to the stars above 
No one in my life will take my love
At least God does 

You matter
I promise
I get sadder
The closer I get 

It’s the same pattern 
I’ll survive it
Then my brain scatters 
Life, I’ll never miss it 

You matter
I promise
I get sadder
The closer I get 

It’s the same pattern 
I’ll survive it
Then my brain scatters 
Life, I’ll never miss it

You matter
I promise
I get sadder
The closer I get 

It’s the same pattern 
I’ll survive it
Then my brain scatters 
Life, I’ll never miss it

Same Pattern

beat by miroow
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

If I leave you, I don’t wanna hurt no one
Stopping thinking’s so much easier said than done
Wait a minute, I don’t wanna feed into
The thoughts that kill me, no such thing as a clear view

If I leave you, I don’t wanna hurt no one
Stopping thinking’s so much easier said than done
Wait a minute, I don’t wanna feed into
The thoughts that kill me, no such thing as a clear view

Clear view? My heart needs a change
I turn to the washer and I faint 
I knew stress can heal the pain 
Mind blue, I woke up in the rain 

I withdrew hesitation in my brain
But I knew this shit wouldn’t stay
I know you would stay nothing but the same
Refer to who? Talking to me 

It’s like every night
That I think
My minds in a fight
As I sink

It’s so hard to write 
What I think
Thoughts are all in sight 
And they’re all in sync, they’re all in sync

I need a replacement 
Monsters in the basement 
Stuck in the pavement 
My body shaking

Of course now it’s raining
Hope and energy both draining
I’m patiently waiting cuz

I don’t wanna make you mine
I don’t wanna find the time
I kinda have to leave behind
My past I can’t say goodbye
To, I need the truth
Not some fucking made up story

If I leave you, I don’t wanna hurt no one
Stopping thinking’s so much easier said than done
Wait a minute, I don’t wanna feed into
The thoughts that kill me, no such thing as a clear view

If I leave you, I don’t wanna hurt no one
Stopping thinking’s so much easier said than done
Wait a minute, I don’t wanna feed into
The thoughts that kill me, no such thing as a clear view

Clear view? My heart needs a change
I turn to the washer and I faint 
I knew stress can heal the pain 
Mind blue, I woke up in the rain 

I withdrew hesitation in my brain
But I knew this shit wouldn’t stay
I know you would stay nothing but the same
Refer to who? Talking to me in the rain

The Thoughts That Kill Me

beat by nejdos x prodby.memory
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

Thinking a lot isn’t new to me 
I hate waking up in the morning 
A couple of waves like dual beams 
Are hitting me, my heart deforming

I’m paying the price, a renewal fee
For my heart that’s currently pouring 
Blood and what else that is hurting me
My mind is up next in explosions

Thinking a lot isn’t new to me 
I hate waking up in the morning 
A couple of waves like dual beams 
Are hitting me, my heart deforming

I’m paying the price, a renewal fee
For my heart that’s currently pouring 
Blood and what else that is hurting me
My mind is up next in explosions

I got you
Wishing that was true
How do I get through
To my mind without a clear view

Of all my rough thoughts 
As they all get caught 
In multiple spots 
(Yeah)

I try to connect the dots 
But one thing I forgot
Is my mind, it can’t stop 
(Yeah)

Got my heart back, back
Life is what it lacked, lacked
Thoughts cannot relax, lax 
But it’s all in the past, past

I want to change how I think
Or else I’ll only sink because 

Thinking a lot isn’t new to me 
I hate waking up in the morning 
A couple of waves like dual beams 
Are hitting me, my heart deforming

I’m paying the price, a renewal fee
For my heart that’s currently pouring 
Blood and what else that is hurting me
My mind is up next in explosions

Thinking a lot isn’t new to me 
I hate waking up in the morning 
A couple of waves like dual beams 
Are hitting me, my heart deforming

I’m paying the price, a renewal fee
For my heart that’s currently pouring 
Blood and what else that is hurting me
My mind is up next in explosions

Renewal Fee

beat by perish
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

Turning down my thoughts 
Til I feel an inner loss 
All the devil does is talk
His face will fly across 

Little fucks a little lost 
In space with astronauts 
He wants to get me caught
Up with lies I blocked out

I’ll pray and keep my faith
That my mind will stop
Thinking of a way
Out before I 

Jump out of my seat and fall back asleep, oh oh 
And everything in my chest’s feeling weak, oh oh
It’s a prison in my head, please let me free, oh oh
These thoughts are killing me with a breath increase, oh oh 

Let go, can’t let go
Of the ones that I kept close, though 
Let go, just let go
I’ll be doing myself a favour 

Turning down my thoughts 
Til I feel an inner loss 
All the devil does is talk
His face will fly across 

Little fucks a little lost 
In space with astronauts 
He wants to get me caught
Up with lies I blocked out

Inner Loss

beat by lordd
written by cal meloblu & yvngxsno
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

Chasing a million
Thoughts that will all belong 
Underground until I'm gone
Until I'm gone, gone

Until I'm gone, I just write my songs
Get out of my way now, I gotta move on
Until I'm gone, I just write my songs
Get out of my way now, I gotta move on

I've been running
Far from the building that’s burning
But my chest stings, it’s hurting
As I look down, I'm turning 

Into ashes, adding to the counter of all of my flaws
Told you I was done, baby, I ain’t returning your calls 
Into ashes, at least I'm going out with like all that I want 
So you can love yourself and treat me oh so nonchalant 

Lately, I'm doubting all the choices I've been making
It’s almost impossible to awaken 
The brain that’s in control by the Satan
I'm breaking off 

Seems to me it’s the last time, i can’t even think
Back to when you used to be mine

Now we living separate lives
Never seen you fly, goodbye
Baby, now I'm gone
Memories of a past life 

Chasing a million
Thoughts that will all belong 
Underground until I'm gone
Until I'm gone, gone

Until I'm gone, I just write my songs
Get out of my way now, I gotta move on
Until I'm gone, I just write my songs
Get out of my way now, I gotta move on

Until I'm Gone (feat. yvngxsno)

beat by jissa x sky
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

I’m burning 
And it’s hurting
It’s turning
To me screaming

For help
I need help 
For help
I need help

Did you know I feel suicidal
Thoughts eat my brain out, they feel entitled 
To kill my mind slowly, Cal is my rival
Open my eyes and fight for survival 

I argue with myself with my final
Straw because I hate being psycho
With battles in my head upon arrival 
To this life I hate that put me in a cycle 

Write my thoughts but I broke the pencil 
Scenarios in my head are too eventful 
So smoking weed is my fundamental 
To keep me sane from an accidental 

Panic attack, I 
Been under attack when
Things are a mess
I gotta confess

These demons make me 
See this picture of me 
Falling to pieces 
No, I don’t need this (yeah, yeah, yeah)

To manifest, I pray it won’t happen 
The devil on my side is now shouting
My name as I push him but he gashes 
My skin as its in the stage of burning

I’m burning 
And it’s hurting
It’s turning
To me screaming

For help
I need help 
For help
I need help

Did you know I feel suicidal
Thoughts eat my brain out, they feel entitled 
To kill my mind slowly, Cal is my rival
Open my eyes and fight for survival 

I argue with myself with my final
Straw because I hate being psycho
With battles in my head upon arrival 
To this life I hate that put me in a cycle

Cal Meloblu

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