My Ex (prod. NextLane Beats x Maxflynn)

MY EX (prod. nextlane beats x maxflynn)

beat by siem spark x heyrick
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod by cal meloblu

turn it up (prod. siem spark x heyrick)

TURN1TUP! (prod. siem spark x heyrick)

beat by daniar x maxflynn
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod by owenplural

hey! (prod. daniar x maxflynn)

HEY! (prod. daniar x maxflynn)

beat by nejdos x 80root
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod by owenplural

endure it (prod. nejdos x 80root)

@calmeloblu - ENDURE IT (prod. nejdos x 80root)

beat by Yici + Xyn
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod by owenplural

cut her off (prod. Yici x Xyn)

CUT HER OFF (prod. yici x xyn)

beat by sneezii
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by owen plural

lyrics: hook

they say that i'm dripped out
and i flexed out on my ex one
you want me to love you
but i told you that i'm so done
you only want my cash, why?
our love wasn't real like it was sci-fi

they say that i'm dripped out
and i flexed out on my ex one
you want me to love you
but i told you that i'm so done
you only want my cash, why?
our love wasn't real like it was sci-fi

verse

fire in the room, i'm finding my doom
what can i do? i hop in the coupe
hitting the gas, speed away from my past
just got a flat, now the devil run laps

trapped in your hands, i'm freaking out
just like the rain, i'm falling down
deep in my mind, there's no way out
demons tell me to die, it gets too loud

pre hook

oh, oh oh
devil standing right there
oh, oh oh
he keeps my heart in his lair
oh, oh oh
the fumes are filling the air
oh, oh oh
you killed me in my nightmare

hook 

they say that i'm dripped out
and i flexed out on my ex one
you want me to love you
but i told you that i'm so done
you only want my cash, why?
our love wasn't real like it was sci-fi

they say that i'm dripped out
and i flexed out on my ex one
you want me to love you
but i told you that i'm so done
you only want my cash, why?
our love wasn't real like it was sci-fi

sci-fi (prod. sneezii)

SCI-FI (prod. sneezii)

beat by triazo x nash
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

Complicated thinking, understood
It's been fucking with my mental, yeah
Brain in cycle, it's got a heartbeat, yeah
Pay you my time, give me my receipt, yeah

Took all my things, I got nothing left
You did your worst, will be at my best
Smoke until your eyes are looking red
Kinda looks like my ten demons possessed

Bitch, I wanted to tell you something
Might not understand, can you please take my hand?
Drowning in this quicksand, baby
Was kinda hoping you could save me

How in the fuck do you have options?
I really miss when, when we were locked in
Moving along with complete caution
Can't afford my mind going back in eruption

Complicated thinking, understood
It's been fucking with my mental, yeah
Brain in cycle, it's got a heartbeat, yeah
Pay you my time, give me my receipt, yeah

Complicated thinking, understood
It's been fucking with my mental, yeah
Brain in cycle, it's got a heartbeat, yeah
Pay you my time, give me my receipt, yeah

Took all my things, I got nothing left
You did your worst, will be at my best
Smoke until your eyes are looking red
Kinda looks like my ten demons possessed

Praying on my knees nonstop
Monster wait for me in swamps
Never in my picture, get cropped
Now without you I'm on top

With the rainy days, I feel stuck
Too much in the way, brain shock
Make it to the other side is a far walk 
No pressure but the time is limited, frozen clock

Complicated thinking, understood
It's been fucking with my mental, yeah
Brain in cycle, it's got a heartbeat, yeah
Pay you my time, give me my receipt, yeah

Took all my things, I got nothing left
You did your worst, will be at my best
Smoke until your eyes are looking red
Kinda looks like my ten demons possessed

Ten Demons Possessed

@calmeloblu - TEN DEMONS POSSESSED

beat by Lordd
written by cal meloblu & yvngxsno
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

Heart pounds in my chest so hard
Might have a hole in it
Hold me by your strings, guitar
My trust, you're throwing it 

Down in the deep, so far
Limits approaching it 
One day we might touch the stars 
Right now opposing it

Heart pounds in my chest so hard
Might have a hole in it
Hold me by your strings, guitar
My trust, you're throwing it 

Down in the deep, so far
Limits approaching it 
One day we might touch the stars 
Right now opposing it

I'm in a shortage
Of energy, poured it on the pavement
Run 'til my body shakes and it gives up
Tired but I'm still anxiously filled up

See you later, now I'm winning
Involved in no more sinning
Plenty downs on my up-bringing 
Call my phone, now left ringing

It's all a fucking mess
Bitch, it's all a mess
Don't let them rewind the time
Don't let them control your mind

Heart pounds in my chest so hard
Might have a hole in it
Hold me by your strings, guitar
My trust, you're throwing it 

Down in the deep, so far
Limits approaching it 
One day we might touch the stars 
Right now opposing it

Heart pounds in my chest so hard
Might have a hole in it
Hold me by your strings, guitar
My trust, you're throwing it 

Down in the deep, so far
Limits approaching it 
One day we might touch the stars 
Right now opposing it

I get high when I'm feeling low
Anxiety's a bitch, I had to let her go
I try and run away but I can't see the road
Never falling victim, I stick to the code

Feel me, baby, this the real me
Roll up, smoke too much 'til I can't see
Empty, why I feel so empty
Memories of you floating so high, let it be

Man, I feel it when I think about this shit up late at night
I can't seem to focus, why it's hard for me to take advice
Think I'm over trying to be the bigger person playing nice
Need some risk up in my life, so I grab that motherfucker
Roll the dice

Heart pounds in my chest so hard
Might have a hole in it
Hold me by your strings, guitar
My trust, you're throwing it 

Down in the deep, so far
Limits approaching it 
One day we might touch the stars 
Right now opposing it

Heart pounds in my chest so hard
Might have a hole in it
Hold me by your strings, guitar
My trust, you're throwing it 

Down in the deep, so far
Limits approaching it 
One day we might touch the stars 
Right now opposing it

@calmeloblu & @yvngxsno - LIMITS

beat by mulak
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod by prodkeech

lyrics:

Got a collection of some shitty thoughts, now in possession
Of my soul, I have so many questions
You ask me why I've got no expression
From you I hide my depression

That way we're not feeling any tension
It's just another day at my discretion
Because I'm in a sense of no direction
I feel rejected, I hate it

I hate it and now
You wondering how
How I push it aside
Few thousand fucking times

I'm figuring out
How I'm not crumbling down
I need me some time
To get my thoughts all aligned

All the clouds are so gray-ay-ay-ay
Heavy anxiety what's the weight eight eight eight
Overthinking every day-ay-ay-ay
Just the way I am

Got a collection of some shitty thoughts, now in possession
Of my soul, I have so many questions
You ask me why I've got no expression
From you I hide my depression

That way we're not feeling any tension
It's just another day at my discretion
Because I'm in a sense of no direction
I feel rejected, I hate it

And now you fucking it up for me
Went behind my back so dishonestly
Flooded with trust issues, probably
And is filled up to the top constantly

And now you fucking it up for me
Went behind my back so dishonestly
Flooded with trust issues, probably
And is filled up to the top

Got a collection of some shitty thoughts, now in possession
Of my soul, I have so many questions
You ask me why I've got no expression
From you I hide my depression

That way we're not feeling any tension
It's just another day at my discretion
Because I'm in a sense of no direction
I feel rejected, I hate it

No Expression

@calmeloblu - NO EXPRESSION (prod. mulak)

beat by love race x phil!
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

(Usually I don’t think this much)
(Not the one to be in a rush)
(I’m on the chase, I’m on the run)
(From the war that has begun)

Usually I don’t think this much
Not the one to be in a rush
In the storm surrounded by my thoughts 

I’m on the chase, I’m on the run
From the war that has begun
The devil wanting me to fucking rot

Rot away
In the middle of the day
I'm locked away

Rot away
Should of walked away
And said not today

Not today I told myself
Hope that you won’t fuck it up
Protecting my mental health
Regardless anxiety coming up

Coming up, I’m falling down, I’m on the ground
Even if I’m talking to myself, no
Give my all to try and fucking calm me down
Still isn’t working 

I’m sinking deep
Drowning now
I notice how tough it is till
I picked me up
Ripping up
All feelings I know of

Usually I don't think this much
Not the one to be in a rush
I notice how tough it is
I'm on the chase, I'm on the run
From the war that has begun
All feelings I know of

Usually I don’t think this much
Not the one to be in a rush
In the storm surrounded by my thoughts 

I’m on the chase, I’m on the run
From the war that has begun
The devil wanting me to fucking rot

Rot away
In the middle of the day
Im locked away

Rot away
Should of walked away
And said not today

@calmeloblu - ROT AWAY

beat by jissa x sky
written by cal meloblu & TheHxliday
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

I'm on a moonwalk in space
Fuck out my face with that 
Love money chase
You're insane

So tough to embrace 
Left with no trace on how
My heart intakes
Too much

And now you're my mistake
I'll never change for you
Go up in flames 
You're insane

It's not the same 
Fuck out my face with that
Love money chase
Rest in pain

Fuck all your drama, I don't wanna know
If you really wanna, block my cell and go
Put my faith in Allah a couple years ago
I still come upon a demon trying to fuck my flow 

Demon trying to fuck my flow
Always gonna pull me down below
Would like for me to suffer
But I'm not selling my soul

Lead my thoughts in control
Trusting that God's gonna keep me afloat
Of course I'm landing on a 
Hard time but I'm keeping Him close

I worry about the flurries
That be coming my way, my way
Vision blurry, I'm in a hurry
Take a step back and I retake

I'm on a moonwalk in space
Fuck out my face with that 
Love money chase
You're insane

So tough to embrace 
Left with no trace on how
My heart intakes
Too much

And now you're my mistake
I'll never change for you
Go up in flames 
You're insane

It's not the same 
Fuck out my face with that
Love money chase
Rest in pain

Stay up out my way
Moonwalking, my diamonds glow since sun come up, last day
Now I ain't wanna play, lately I been in this phase
I gotta know what the vision is so I can chase it

I know everything we been through is so amazing 
Time running down on the clock and we running through mazes 
We getting faded, put this in your playlist
Girl, I take ‘em up in a magazine, think I'll make it 

Whenever I look to the sky (sky)
And I wonder why 
And I wonder why (and I wonder why)
Damn, I wonder why

I'm on a moonwalk in space
Fuck out my face with that 
Love money chase
You're insane

So tough to embrace 
Left with no trace on how
My heart intakes
Too much

And now you're my mistake
I'll never change for you
Go up in flames 
You're insane

It's not the same 
Fuck out my face with that
Love money chase
Rest in pain

And I hit rewind
Try to call out for help but 
She declined, I'm not alright
I was on your side
Won't find a new one
It hurts to try, my bro was right

Trust the process, one thing I forget
Overthink regardless, still take it as a threat
You think I got it, there's demons you haven't met
Forget I said it, don't want you to get upset, oh

@calmeloblu & @thehxliday - MOONWALK

beat by jissa
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

I’m in closure
I try to show her
How it feels to be
Stuck in enclosure
Hard to get over
The feelings of a loner

Isolation got the best of me
The best of me
Told me to go 
Rest in peace
I’m losing peace
Anxiety really got
The best of me
The best of me (oh)

It really got the best of me I know it 
Look right past its history
I’ll slow it down
I’ll slow it down (oh)

All thoughts they been fearing me
Hope the devil is now hearing me
He’s up and he’s now steering me 
Far much closer to my fucking misery 
With all this smoke is so hard to see
He’s giving it his all just to see me fail

Fuck you
For turning my life upside down
I’m all alone
Out of breath

I’m in closure
I try to show her
How it feels to be
Stuck in enclosure
Hard to get over
The feelings of a loner

Isolation got the best of me
The best of me
Told me to go 
Rest in peace
I’m losing peace
Anxiety really got
The best of me
The best of me (oh)

Lying in my bed right now
Demons yelling in my head, so loud
So loud inside my space
As close as in my face
Run away fast I’ll win the race
Yet still in slow pace 

I love it when the bad times come by
They make the good times better even though
I think it’s the end but 
The clouds will pass with changing weather

Fuck you
For turning my life upside down
I’m all alone
Out of breath

I’m in closure
I try to show her
How it feels to be
Stuck in enclosure
Hard to get over
The feelings of a loner

Isolation got the best of me
The best of me
Told me to go 
Rest in peace
I’m losing peace
Anxiety really got
The best of me
The best of me (oh)

Best Of Me

@calmeloblu - BEST OF ME (prod. jissa)

beat by BRXDSHXW & ayoley
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

Trapped inside my mind and I hate it
Devil’s now gonna use it against me
Now I wish that I didn’t say it
Near as much as I did in my past

Trapped inside my mind and I hate it
Devil’s now gonna use it against me
Now I wish that I didn’t say it
Near as much as I did in my past

Against me (oh, oh)
You resent me (oh, oh)
Now I feel useless, ruthless 
Angry at you and at the world

I overheard
Death occurred
In my brain tonight

I tried to turn
Still made it worse
Maybe the devils right

Passed you
As I slipped right past you
My heart is glass too

Teared it right apart now
Rotting my ins and outs
Devils in my mind right now
Shouts about how I won’t break out 

Trapped inside my mind and I hate it
Devil’s now gonna use it against me
Now I wish that I didn’t say it
Near as much as I did in my past

Trapped inside my mind and I hate it
Devil’s now gonna use it against me
Now I wish that I didn’t say it
Near as much as I did in my past

Against Me

@calmeloblu - AGAINST ME

beat by miroow x ayoley x heyrick
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

My last wish was when
I thought it was the end
When nothing made sense
Tried calling my friend

Checked if he got my text
Three days it’s been sent 
Times were so intense 
I won’t plot no revenge 

If I was okay, if I was okay
Was in a dark place, as if the clouds grey
If I was okay, if I was okay
No answers to that, I should of prayed

I should of prayed
A bunch more
A bunch more
My chest is sore

I’m taking this pain right now
These thoughts, they’re affecting my health
And my physical, spiritual
Its visible and critical

It’s affecting my breathing
It feels like God is leaving
My stress is increasing
The devil tried to mislead me 

My last wish was when
I thought it was the end
When nothing made sense
Tried calling my friend

Checked if he got my text
Three days it’s been sent 
Times were so intense 
I won’t plot no revenge 

If I was okay, if I was okay
Was in a dark place, as if the clouds grey
If I was okay, if I was okay
No answers to that, I should of prayed

No Revenge

@calmeloblu - NO REVENGE

beat by miroow 
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

I guess my anger it can take over
I guess we gotta put a drape over
This mess because the debate is over
We need to figure out the devils whereabouts

I guess my anger it can take over
I guess we gotta put a drape over
This mess because the debate is over
We need to figure out the devils whereabouts

When I come around, I don’t wanna wait
It’s all the devils fault I’m in this mental state
You wanna see me fall, you fill me up with hate
Fighting for it all, in this life don’t wanna stay

I don’t wanna stay now, now
Life I can really do without
Go and chill up in the clouds, clouds
Flying outer space with a frown 

That’s my thinking the first day
Happy to be alive the next day

I can’t remember
The last free feeling in September
I can remember 
Cold nights in December

I guess my anger it can take over
I guess we gotta put a drape over
This mess because the debate is over
We need to figure out the devils whereabouts

I guess my anger it can take over
I guess we gotta put a drape over
This mess because the debate is over
We need to figure out the devils whereabouts

I Guess

@calmeloblu - I GUESS

beat by ivand & AriaTheProducer
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

Praying next to you
Praying next to you (uh)

Praying next to you
Praying next to you (uh)

Take it, I done break it, uh huh
This life shit, I’ll escape it
No real smiles, I can’t fake this, uh huh
My mind, I can’t save it

Name a problem and I’ll face it, uh huh
There’s nothing I can’t take in
On the inside, anxiety racing, uh huh
But life is what you make it, uh huh

Take it, I done break it, uh huh
This life shit, I’ll escape it
No real smiles, I can’t fake this, uh huh
My mind, I can’t save it

Name a problem and I’ll face it, uh huh
There’s nothing I can’t take in
On the inside, anxiety racing, uh huh
But life is what you make it

I won’t allow
Shit thoughts and doubt
To make it out
I wonder how

To feel at peace
With this energy
Falling on my knees
Heart rate at its peek, I feel so weak

Life is a battle I don’t wanna fight anymore
Anymore, anymore
My peace at the bottom of the sea, so far from the shore
From the shore, from the shore 
My heart and my soul used to set sail on the boat
On the boat, on the boat
Next up on the list, you look for suicidal notes
Suicidal notes, suicidal notes

Take it, I done break it, uh huh
This life shit, I’ll escape it
No real smiles, I can’t fake this, uh huh
My mind, I can’t save it

Name a problem and I’ll face it, uh huh
There’s nothing I can’t take in
On the inside, anxiety racing, uh huh
But life is what you make it, uh huh

Take it, I done break it, uh huh
This life shit, I’ll escape it
No real smiles, I can’t fake this, uh huh
My mind, I can’t save it

Name a problem and I’ll face it, uh huh
There’s nothing I can’t take in
On the inside, anxiety racing, uh huh
But life is what you make it, uh huh

Praying next to you
P-praying next to you (uh)

Praying next to you
Praying next to you (uh)

Real Smiles

@calmeloblu - REAL SMILES

beat by jissa x deyflo
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

You matter
I promise
I get sadder
The closer I get 

It’s the same pattern 
I’ll survive it
Then my brain scatters 
Life, I’ll never miss it 

You matter
I promise
I get sadder
The closer I get 

It’s the same pattern 
I’ll survive it
Then my brain scatters 
Life, I’ll never miss it

I am at like 5 percent
My heart it tried it’s best
I wanna throw my head against
Ice, I feel so cold

I know it still hurts 
With my eyes closed
Maybe I’m just dreaming
Or this is how it is in the after life

You’ll go without my love
I’ll fly to the stars above 
No one in my life will take my love
At least God does 

You matter
I promise
I get sadder
The closer I get 

It’s the same pattern 
I’ll survive it
Then my brain scatters 
Life, I’ll never miss it 

You matter
I promise
I get sadder
The closer I get 

It’s the same pattern 
I’ll survive it
Then my brain scatters 
Life, I’ll never miss it

You matter
I promise
I get sadder
The closer I get 

It’s the same pattern 
I’ll survive it
Then my brain scatters 
Life, I’ll never miss it

Same Pattern

@calmeloblu - SAME PATTERN prod. jissa x deyflo

beat by nejdos x prodby.memory
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

Thinking a lot isn’t new to me 
I hate waking up in the morning 
A couple of waves like dual beams 
Are hitting me, my heart deforming

I’m paying the price, a renewal fee
For my heart that’s currently pouring 
Blood and what else that is hurting me
My mind is up next in explosions

Thinking a lot isn’t new to me 
I hate waking up in the morning 
A couple of waves like dual beams 
Are hitting me, my heart deforming

I’m paying the price, a renewal fee
For my heart that’s currently pouring 
Blood and what else that is hurting me
My mind is up next in explosions

I got you
Wishing that was true
How do I get through
To my mind without a clear view

Of all my rough thoughts 
As they all get caught 
In multiple spots 
(Yeah)

I try to connect the dots 
But one thing I forgot
Is my mind, it can’t stop 
(Yeah)

Got my heart back, back
Life is what it lacked, lacked
Thoughts cannot relax, lax 
But it’s all in the past, past

I want to change how I think
Or else I’ll only sink because 

Thinking a lot isn’t new to me 
I hate waking up in the morning 
A couple of waves like dual beams 
Are hitting me, my heart deforming

I’m paying the price, a renewal fee
For my heart that’s currently pouring 
Blood and what else that is hurting me
My mind is up next in explosions

Thinking a lot isn’t new to me 
I hate waking up in the morning 
A couple of waves like dual beams 
Are hitting me, my heart deforming

I’m paying the price, a renewal fee
For my heart that’s currently pouring 
Blood and what else that is hurting me
My mind is up next in explosions

@calmeloblu - RENEWAL FEE

beat by perish
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

Turning down my thoughts 
Til I feel an inner loss 
All the devil does is talk
His face will fly across 

Little fucks a little lost 
In space with astronauts 
He wants to get me caught
Up with lies I blocked out

I’ll pray and keep my faith
That my mind will stop
Thinking of a way
Out before I 

Jump out of my seat and fall back asleep, oh oh 
And everything in my chest’s feeling weak, oh oh
It’s a prison in my head, please let me free, oh oh
These thoughts are killing me with a breath increase, oh oh 

Let go, can’t let go
Of the ones that I kept close, though 
Let go, just let go
I’ll be doing myself a favour 

Turning down my thoughts 
Til I feel an inner loss 
All the devil does is talk
His face will fly across 

Little fucks a little lost 
In space with astronauts 
He wants to get me caught
Up with lies I blocked out

@calmeloblu - INNER LOSS

beat by bapop 
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

I miss when 
Thoughts would leave me alone
But then again
It wouldn’t hit the same at home 

If I didn’t 
Think a hundred miles a minute 
Think a hundred miles a minute
Think a hundred miles a minute 

Gotta keep my head up, head up
Even when this life kills
You’re fed up, fed up
Anxiety is what fills

You up, you up 
Especially when you sit still 
It’s tearing you up
Tearing you up

Anxiety went up, went up
Full of it, but it won’t spill 
I'm messed up, messed up
Thoughts on the floor left unsealed

I swept up, swept up
But I end up, end up
Swelled up, swelled up
As I stare up, stare up

As I stare up in the sky
My thoughts all realign 
I remember I can die
I hit that with a sigh (die)

I miss when 
Thoughts would leave me alone
But then again
It wouldn’t hit the same at home 

If I didn’t 
Think a hundred miles a minute 
Think a hundred miles a minute
Think a hundred miles a minute 

I miss when 
Thoughts would leave me alone
But then again
It wouldn’t hit the same at home 

If I didn’t 
Think a hundred miles a minute 
Think a hundred miles a minute
Think a hundred miles a minute

Hundred Miles A Minute

@calmeloblu - HUNDRED MILES A MINUTE (prod. bapop)

beat by lordd
written by cal meloblu & yvngxsno
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

Chasing a million
Thoughts that will all belong 
Underground until I'm gone
Until I'm gone, gone

Until I'm gone, I just write my songs
Get out of my way now, I gotta move on
Until I'm gone, I just write my songs
Get out of my way now, I gotta move on

I've been running
Far from the building that’s burning
But my chest stings, it’s hurting
As I look down, I'm turning 

Into ashes, adding to the counter of all of my flaws
Told you I was done, baby, I ain’t returning your calls 
Into ashes, at least I'm going out with like all that I want 
So you can love yourself and treat me oh so nonchalant 

Lately, I'm doubting all the choices I've been making
It’s almost impossible to awaken 
The brain that’s in control by the Satan
I'm breaking off 

Seems to me it’s the last time, i can’t even think
Back to when you used to be mine

Now we living separate lives
Never seen you fly, goodbye
Baby, now I'm gone
Memories of a past life 

Chasing a million
Thoughts that will all belong 
Underground until I'm gone
Until I'm gone, gone

Until I'm gone, I just write my songs
Get out of my way now, I gotta move on
Until I'm gone, I just write my songs
Get out of my way now, I gotta move on

Until I'm Gone (feat. yvngxsno)

@calmeloblu & @yvngxsno - UNTIL I'M GONE

beat by jissa x sky
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

I’m burning 
And it’s hurting
It’s turning
To me screaming

For help
I need help 
For help
I need help

Did you know I feel suicidal
Thoughts eat my brain out, they feel entitled 
To kill my mind slowly, Cal is my rival
Open my eyes and fight for survival 

I argue with myself with my final
Straw because I hate being psycho
With battles in my head upon arrival 
To this life I hate that put me in a cycle 

Write my thoughts but I broke the pencil 
Scenarios in my head are too eventful 
So smoking weed is my fundamental 
To keep me sane from an accidental 

Panic attack, I 
Been under attack when
Things are a mess
I gotta confess

These demons make me 
See this picture of me 
Falling to pieces 
No, I don’t need this (yeah, yeah, yeah)

To manifest, I pray it won’t happen 
The devil on my side is now shouting
My name as I push him but he gashes 
My skin as its in the stage of burning

I’m burning 
And it’s hurting
It’s turning
To me screaming

For help
I need help 
For help
I need help

Did you know I feel suicidal
Thoughts eat my brain out, they feel entitled 
To kill my mind slowly, Cal is my rival
Open my eyes and fight for survival 

I argue with myself with my final
Straw because I hate being psycho
With battles in my head upon arrival 
To this life I hate that put me in a cycle

Fight For Survival

@calmeloblu - FIGHT FOR SURVIVAL prod. jissa x sky

beat by jammy x markmotta x daydreammadeit
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

Take me far from damaging thoughts
Because I’m in surrounded exhaust 
At the same time it’s my favourite spot 
But as always, it comes with a cost 

In a bad position, I can’t commit to
All the fire inside my head but
I promise that there is strength within you
For the obstacles up ahead and

All the betrayal that
Stabbed us in the back 
And everyone who had my back
Left me in the dark

Take me far from damaging thoughts
Because I’m in surrounded exhaust 
At the same time it’s my favourite spot 
But as always, it comes with a cost 

Losing control and I crash
Thoughts have been hitting the gas
Feels like I got 
No fucking choice

Shatter my mind without glass
My thoughts are all grown in the grass 
Feels like I got 
No fucking choice

No choice but to react to
My inner voice 
No choice but to see
Lost love and

All the betrayal that
Stabbed us in the back 
And everyone who had my back
Left me in the dark

Take me far from damaging thoughts
Because I’m in surrounded exhaust 
At the same time it’s my favourite spot 
But as always, it comes with a cost

@calmeloblu - SURROUNDED EXHAUST

beat by jissa
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

Pick yourself right back up
Demons try to catch up
Don’t let them hang you up
Even if you’re scratched up

Louder screams, shattered glass cup
Bloody knees I patched up 
Calling angels for backup
You’ll win against the attacker 

When I’m stuck in my head
Need a new perspective 
Things are pretty tough 
But you’re gonna get through it 

Though it
Even if you feel you’re losing

I ran in flames to get higher 
I thought hell trips were required 
Or was it all my inner desire?
Was the demon’s lies in entire 

Yeah, I’m done with you
Yeah, I never found the truth
Yeah, who do I pursue?
Yeah, I wish I knew

Pick yourself right back up
Demons try to catch up
Don’t let them hang you up
Even if you’re scratched up

Louder screams, shattered glass cup
Bloody knees I patched up 
Calling angels for backup
You’ll win against the attacker

@calmeloblu - SHATTERED GLASS CUP (prod. jissa)

beat by lordd
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

Lash out on me, I can oversee
That you’re overly filled with insecurities 
I’m over these toxic worries 
I’ll find some peace drowning in the polar seas 

Lash out on me, I can oversee
That you’re overly filled with insecurities 
I’m over these toxic worries 
I’ll find some peace drowning in the polar seas 

Calm down, I’m anxious
I’m filled with impatience 
Don’t give up, you’ll make it
Do your best, stay patient

Surrounded by enemies 
They wanna wipe my memory
The devil has control of me
Fuck you and your sympathy 

The moment I sat down
You’ve been bringing me back down
You’re the one who acts out
Making me pass out 

Lash out on me, I can oversee
That you’re overly filled with insecurities 
I’m over these toxic worries 
I’ll find some peace drowning in the polar seas 

Lash out on me, I can oversee
That you’re overly filled with insecurities 
I’m over these toxic worries 
I’ll find some peace drowning in the polar seas

@calmeloblu - FILLED WITH INSECURITIES

beat by jissa x hellion
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

My lungs feel compression
This feeling’s unpleasant 
Anxiety spreading
My palms are both sweating

Face is in redness 
My muscles are stretching
My feelings apparent 
For thoughts I was sharing 
 
The devil is yelling 
The sound is getting 
Louder with stressing
Maybe I should stop caring 

I feel embarrassed 
With cuts that are swelling 
I try to forget it 
As I’m preparing

For you
As I lose a few
Thoughts that keep me confused 

For you
Running low on fuel
Cause you’re driving me so fucking 

Crazy but maybe
Lately you blame me

Out of patience either way
Even when I pray, the sky is grey 
I keep thinking there’s a delay
But I’m exactly where I need to be

My lungs feel compression
This feeling’s unpleasant 
Anxiety spreading
My palms are both sweating

Face is in redness 
My muscles are stretching
My feelings apparent 
For thoughts I was sharing 
 
The devil is yelling 
The sound is getting 
Louder with stressing
Maybe I should stop caring 

I feel embarrassed 
With cuts that are swelling 
I try to forget it 
As I’m preparing

For memories that were my fault
Thinking’s a hassle
The problem’s unraveled 
Monsters hosting the battle 

Terrified in the combat
Wonder where all my tears at
It’s a little bit odd that 
I kind of forgot that 

I stopped showing emotion
Maybe my brain was out in the open 
Vulnerable and my heart is in motion 
As I’m waiting for the final explosion

Out of patience either way
Even when I pray, the sky is grey 
I keep thinking there’s a delay
But I’m exactly where I need to be

My lungs feel compression
This feeling’s unpleasant 
Anxiety spreading
My palms are both sweating

Face is in redness 
My muscles are stretching
My feelings apparent 
For thoughts I was sharing 
 
The devil is yelling 
The sound is getting 
Louder with stressing
Maybe I should stop caring 

I feel embarrassed 
With cuts that are swelling 
I try to forget it 
As I’m preparing for you

Anxiety

@calmeloblu - ANXIETY (prod. jissa x hellion)

beat by miroow x ayoley
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

I tell myself to stop with self-hate 
But there’s too much poison on my plate

I ran into the devil past the gate
My body increased in stress and weight 
This time I made it past day number eight 
I want to leave, the devil calls it fate 

As time goes, I’ll hold
Onto the shattered window
When there’s nothing, no glass shards
To grab, I’ll finally let go

I float in reverse, it gets too hot
In flames I dive
I’ll finally be gone
Was life there for a reason?

Life is a blessing or a curse
It’s how you look at it
I can now see one
A reason to keep going (look)

I ran into the devil past the gate
My body increased in stress and weight 
This time I made it past day number eight 
I want to leave, the devil calls it fate

Past The Gate

@calmeloblu - PAST THE GATE (prod. miroow x ayoley)

beat by whyconor x keymajorbeatz x keyon x macshooter49
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

(Oh, oh)
(Oh, oh)
(Oh, oh)
(Oh, oh)

It’s your loss, I don’t wanna talk to you now
In silence as the demons try and hold me down
I’m breathing fire, trying to touch the water
No worries, I’m drowning all my pain with laughter

It’s your loss, I don’t wanna talk to you now
In silence as the demons try and hold me down
I’m breathing fire, trying to touch the water
No worries, I’m drowning all my pain with laughter

Don’t want you to worry about me 
Yes, you can move on without me 
There’s a burning arm around me 
The devil’s got me in a chokehold 

Don’t fight for my life 
I said it once, I’ll say it twice
It isn’t worth your time
Because I’ll think clear when I die 

Yes, I’m tired of being alive 
I’m faith-deprived, I’ll see you on the other side 

(Oh, oh)
(Oh, oh)
(Oh, oh)
(Oh, oh)

It’s your loss, I don’t wanna talk to you now
In silence as the demons try and hold me down
I’m breathing fire, trying to touch the water
No worries, I’m drowning all my pain with laughter

It’s your loss, I don’t wanna talk to you now
In silence as the demons try and hold me down
I’m breathing fire, trying to touch the water
No worries, I’m drowning all my pain with laughter

Goodbye for a little bit
I’ll see you next to the fire pit
I can’t wait until I don’t exist
Because my thoughts are dangerous 

(Oh, oh)
(Oh, oh)
(Oh, oh)
(Oh, oh)

Touch The Water

@calmeloblu - TOUCH THE WATER

beat by sky
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

I will never wait
For such a fucking waste
Of all this time and space 
But I left a little too late 

The damage is stuck in place
My body lost a lot of weight 
From stress and aches and pain 
You will never change

I feel this way since I don’t know what’s been in my head 
I hear the worst of everything instead of what’s been said 
No matter what I do, I’m always trapped in my head
Guaranteed that I’ll feel alive when I end up dead  

I don’t wanna feel numb, I just need some good thoughts
Where does this hell come from, I’m overwhelmed and forgot 
These nightmares of thoughts are trying their best to spread out 
I’m screaming at the demons to get the fuck out 

I will never wait
For such a fucking waste
Of all this time and space 
But I left a little too late 

The damage is stuck in place
My body lost a lot of weight 
From stress and aches and pain 
You will never change

Too Late

@calmeloblu - TOO LATE (prod. sky)

beat by whyconor x obmus1c
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

In love with the process
Chasing my dreams, chasing my dreams
Over time, I see the progress
Planting the seed, look at all the trees 

In love with the process
Chasing my dreams, chasing my dreams
Over time, I see the progress
Planting the seed, look at all the trees 

Now I feel free, that’s a guarantee 
That’s there’s more to see once you start a fucking dream
Started seeing visions when I was thirteen 
Taking action because I got more to be 

What could I leave
Behind when I 
Die in my sleep 
When faith declines 

When faith declines, I grow stronger 
I’ll never drown in the water 
Even when I feel nights are getting longer
Than ever before, that’s horror 

Stuck on the line, no internet explore
Balance for my life, feeling just like torture 
Had to get all of my thoughts in order
Or it’ll all fall into slaughter 

In love with the process
Chasing my dreams, chasing my dreams
Over time, I see the progress
Planting the seed, look at all the trees 

In love with the process
Chasing my dreams, chasing my dreams
Over time, I see the progress
Planting the seed, look at all the trees

@calmeloblu - WHEN FAITH DECLINES

beat by sky 
written by cal meloblu
vocal prod. by prodkeech

lyrics:

This is my final destination
In hell trying to find my location 
This is my mind’s lost creation 
A deep and dark isolation 

I’ll fall down right away
Hope I’ll land in a better place
No matter all of my prayers 
Fire is where I lay

It’s been years since I faced my fears
I’ll block my ears and every problem disappears

I guess I don’t wanna talk
My mind’s trapped with a diamond lock
The key’s been tossed in a useless box 
That’s now in flames, I’m out of luck 

I don’t know how to fall right back in love
With all the pain and the damage that’s done
They won’t understand that I’m not enough 
Dark thoughts and monsters all come out at once

The peak of all this shit has happened for months 
My mind attacks me as I try to run 
But the edge of the cliff side is standing in front
Of me, I guess I might just have to jump 

This is my final destination
In hell trying to find my location 
This is my mind’s lost creation 
A deep and dark isolation 

I’ll fall down right away
Hope I’ll land in a better place
No matter all of my prayers 
Fire is where I lay

Cal Meloblu

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