never before in my life has it felt exactly like this

featuring:
@ubimusic
@t0rr
@daywaiter
@scooter_boi_musick
@wishlane

produced by:
@wishlane
@bbbbfc
@itstooscar

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actor

2/8

mastered by @st1cksyea

I'm not on the mountain
I don't see my friends when the weathers not friendly
Water like a fountain
Took a lot of tears, but I guess I'm here now
Life's hard, so I find
Life's hard, but I'm fine

Holding on to the hands that tell me to stay on the ground
Holding on so I don't make like god and not fucking exist

I left California
Bestie did some shit that I don't wanna talk about
Could never forget you
Sometimes I laugh to myself about the good times that we had
And its sad
But you get knocked down and you pick yourself back up 
And you move on to the next best thing
And I'm just finding what's best for me
Life's a charm on my necklace
Nicotine for breakfast
Writing-
It's a metric fuck ton
Everybody's got one
Life can be a lil fun (If you want it to)
And I wish you could understand the way
That I perceive the things that bring me joy

Holding on to the hands that tell me to stay on the ground
Holding on
Holding on to my friends and my family, so dear to my heart
Holding on so I don't make like god and not fucking exist

BUY ON BANDCAMP

make like god

they love you, its all right

featuring:
@st1cksyea
@can-of-bliss
@saoirsedream

produced by:
@st1cksyea
@can-of-bliss
@atarax-music
@musicbyrift
@user-607541836

mystery song

3/8

additional prod from @wishlane
mastered by @st1cksyea

Shut up, gate that lizard tongue behind your teeth
If you don't then keep it brief, yeah
What's that in the floor? It's crawling out from beneath
What the fuck's it want from me?
Retract my limbs inside my body and I just don't know what to do
What the fuck is coexisting if I can't be inside the same room as you?
(Huh?)

Well I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
Why your aura is so red n I don't like it
Well I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
Why I hate the shit you say because it don't make sense at all
You're walking 'round, with a crown
Everything is out of bounds
And my world is falling down (Down, down, down)
I wanna shout, wanna shout
Wanna shout, wanna shout
Wanna shout, wanna shout
I wanna shout it aloud

Oh oh oh oh oh oh
First they're fucking sweet bitch
Then they're fucking sour bitch
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
You're a daisy if a flower bitch
Retract my limbs inside my body and I just don't know what to do
What the fuck is coexisting-
(No no no no ah fuck. Why does this always happen to me?)

Well I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
Why your aura is so red n I don't like it
Well I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
Why I hate the shit you say because it don't make sense at all
I get so bent inside
I wanna shout, wanna shout
Wanna shout, wanna shout
Wanna shout, wanna shout
I wanna shout it aloud

(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
Fuck a conversation when it stagnate
I'm jus tryna go around, fuck, get my a- (Don't say that!)
I get so exhausted, people 'round me get me aggravated
I get so aggravated
Damn this bitch got moves and shit
Hustled out of 20 bucks and shit
Just trying to not give a shit (And then you tell me)
And then you tell me I'm wrong when I didn't even ask
And then I take it personally
(But why do you do that?)
(Haha, well)

I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
And I can't help that I get exhausted around the people I love
I think I jus need a little bit of space
But I could also be a little bit more patient
Because I owe that to everyone
Yeah!

(Oh yeah)

shout it ALOUD

The part that made you alive was the part that hurt ⟦ her ⟧. Do you plan on hurting again?

✧･ﾟ:*✦･ﾟ https://lfav.co ･ﾟ✧*: ･ﾟ✦

Vocal contributions and guitar provided by @saoirsedream.
Mixed and mastered by @prodmusa.

⟦ @leastfavorite ⟧

Cover my face in melted plastic
It never portrayed the way I felt
You can pretend that we'll move past it
But I think I need some time to myself now

I never wanted to learn how to fly
You should've known that it would leave me suspended from the rafters
Baby, that's just what you're after

And you can kindle the feeling inside
Don't really know why you tried to suspend your disbelief
I hope that you get some relief after all

⟦ @saoirsedream ⟧

I clung to a concept of a constant for three years
Convinced that I could let you down or else I’d disappear
I pore through the footnotes of a love I thought I knew
'Cause the trust I’d put in asking someone kills the follow-through

Honest, it's OK
We can let it change
No such thing as better 
If we both need different things
Promise, it's OK
I can let it change
I’d rather be your friend than let three years go to waste

Let it change, let it change, let it change
Let it change, let it change, let it change
What doesn't kill you doesn't make you any stronger 
Let it bleed, it's OK, it's OK

⟦ @leastfavorite ⟧

I never wanted to learn how to fly
You should've known that it would leave me suspended from the rafters
Baby, that's just what you're after

And you can kindle the feeling inside
Don't really know why you tried to suspend your disbelief
I hope that you get some relief after all

✧ ✦ ✧

You were the one, you were the one
You broke the glass beneath my feet
You were the one, you were the one
I caught a glimpse, it wasn't me
You were the one, you were the one
You put the wax wings onto me
You were the one, you were the one
You did it all to make me bleed

suspend, featuring saoirse dream.

7/8

mastered by @st1cksyea

Check it

I love your attitude
You keep your door shut and out of the blue you
Step out with fire in your hair
Blood drains from your piercing stare

I lose my mind behind these eyes
And you can never ever ever tell why
I tell you once, I tell you twice
Its fine, its fine

How Capricorn of me
A constant fucking game of hide and seek with
My insides, inside me
And I swear I don't care, haven't I gotten this far

You say you like me because I'm nice
But all these images do not recognize
I'm gonna scream, I'm gonna cry
And through the canyon
Down the alley
Up to uncanny valley
This looks just like me
This face looks just like mine

One day I hope we all explode exactly all at once
Because ripping tape has never been my speed and makes me feel alone
I cried in front of everyone on the last day of senior year
Because loneliness felt like a plague I jus barely managed to escape
And I've been tryna push myself and hold on to the things I have
Because I'm so fucking scared of going back to where I was before
I get so fucking tired from the tiniest of things
I just want love, I just want friendship, but right now its harder than its ever been

(You're not going anywhere if you keep acting like this)

I know there's love all around
And I can't help but feel numb
I have a suit made up of steel and a soul
And inside is just an empty black hole
You've all done so much for me
I appreciate it all
On my good days you crack me out of my shell
And every other day just feels like hell

(Yet another trend rider)

I'm not okay
And I'm staying this way
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
And I'm staying this way
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
And I'm staying this way
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
And I'm staying this way
I'm not okay

(Everything will be alright in the end)

Some Chords/UR NOT GOING ANYWHERE

grrrr x3

featuring:
@saoirsedream
@prodmusa
@can-of-bliss

produced by:
@can-of-bliss
@musicbyrift

TENSIONNN

artwork by @avoidalmond on twitter!!

lyrics:

rattling chains
eosin waste, recolor my heart
haunt the same place

i don't eat for days
carry that weight
high off of the bleeding just to feel sane

what are you talking bout 
i can't hear you over the magic stuck in my head
night light's been flickering out 
i can't catch a break it's all so innate

logging out forever 
i don't really wanna talk right now wanna talk right now 

gilded's not forever 
i don't really wanna act like i know what it feels like

body torn to shreds let the angel numbers guide me
rosary ice me
3s all in the sky but there’s sixes in my eyes
swallowed heart keep it frosty 
absent in living costly 
can you stake my heart

stigmata in my eyes 
prada on the brain
absinthe in my cup 
i've been in a haze for days
days all feel the same
take away the pain, take away the pain
make it go away, make it go away
i just need a break 
meet me in the sky or just meet me in real life
i got three sevens looking down on me
was it all a waste why can't i catch a break
it was all a waste my feelings stay the same

drink until i die
fade away
i got dog blood, i'm a vampire in the night
eat away my pride 
cross my heart and hope to die sometime,
die sometime

purgatory pony

Oh baby, we get irrational
You kissed my nose and made it wet, just like a healthy dog
Oh baby, there's no diagonal
Give it to me straight
When you went in September, baby, I thought maybe
You wanted something new
Cause I know that well before me, you liked more than one
(Did you reserve this room for three?)

I can think a lot about the wrong idea
And you can think a lot about the wrong idea

I can be crazy, it's just a little side effect
An action can faze me, thank god you're keeping me in check
When I come, then you come, and that's what this is all about
Oh you make it worth to work it out

Don't fret, we just like fucking around
With our friends when they come back into town
Don't fret, we just like fucking around
With our friends, and we all deserve to get down
Baby, you can do whatever you want
I got stars in my eyes and they haven't gone away
And I'm doing okay, thank you for asking
Don't you know it's everlasting?

I can think a lot about the wrong idea
And you can think a lot about the wrong idea

I can be crazy, it's just a little side effect
An action can faze me, thank god you're keeping me in check
When I come, then you come, and that's what this is all about
Oh you make it worth to work it out
I can be crazy, it's just a little side effect
An action can faze me, thank god you're keeping me in check
When I come, then you come, and that's what this is all about
Oh you make it worth to work it out

Yeah, he's pretty cool, but
Do you think I'm better?
Yeah, I'm insecure, but
I'm no bed wetter
Yeah, you're into fucking
Yeah, I'm into feeling
Let's explore our pastimes
Let's adjourn the meeting

Best musician you've never heard of

Oh, baby, I can get irrational
Oh, baby, we can make it laughable
Oh, baby, love ain't interchangeable
Forever in love with you

And everybody wants to see us dance
And everybody wants to, oh, oh,

Yeah, you and I can fuck the world
And that should never even be a problem
You know that in the end, I'll always circle back to you
I'll always circle back to you

make like god

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