leaving it up to you_

(fka tbd)

lyrics

am i wasting your time
am i doing something right
im so sorry for troubling you
i'll be sure to work on it more

do you ever get that feeling
where you're never too sure
about whether or not
you have tried to make it up
but you've let it fall apart

is it love when you've given up
watching from afar as you let go
will you remember me as you move on
to those who can love you more

"be yourself"
that's what i've been always told
but never how
i'm probably not the best and that 
i'm too old
to think i'll keep holding onto pride

what's holding me back
that i don't know
i'm falling off track
and it's hard to show
moments fly, and i'm
always looking to the faces that i used to know

is it love when you've given up
watching from afar as you let go
will you remember me as you move on
to those who can love you more

baseball season

Love Line

Libra

@saoirsedream
https://soundcloud.com/saoirsedream/want

saoirse dream - want [evangeline cover]

Bandcamp

again (+remghost)

my best friend

This is probably my last song in a long time

Main guitar is from a tsubi club tweet (https://twitter.com/tsubiclub/status/1516526645938581507)

super-glued to the feeling
that no matter how kind
i will become
how much i wail in regret
it will never ever excuse
my mistakes

when i chat with you i just want to hear you understand
i know my voice was never that pretty
though it might feel like you hold me hostage (all the time)
it might be better this way

oh, i just wanna be held

cant wear myself down for such stupid reasons anymore
youre another me with all the good parts
and mishaps all intact

i want to say it again
my grip isn't something i could fix with something as simple as a sorry

just so terrified of losing everything again 
once i let loose it'll all move apart
like with everyone else whose faces are etched into the back of my eyes
while i stayed nothing but a messed up canvas of their past life

hostage

GEPHYROPHOBIA

@oakscreen, prod in 24h for anv7
piano from @ninthparallel,  guitar from julie k + @jaronsteele

loving love, with oakscreen

2/3

i thought you said id want that
i bet i didnt wanna speak
i guess i didnt like that
nails past my shoulder digging deep
you pull up now
twisting round the wound you carved in me
you said something
you said something to me 
you said something
whispered to me    

blood on your fur coat, leaking from the wound that you gave me
hearing all your words for nobody
vision blurring i dont feel pain, id fall asleep in your arms again
to your lullaby of hurting

claws

refer to q&a below 

what's going on?
- this project is no longer active, and there are no plans to add onto it in the future. current songs will be kept on here for anyone who still wants to listen.
it's been really difficult to try and maintain the alias, while also trying to focus on myself, and problems that i have within my life. i am really sorry to bear the news, but thank you for being a supporter. it really means a lot.

older questions

why do you delete tracks?
- mostly out of impulse, dissatisfaction, both, and more. a lot of these uploads are rarely serious and more in the moment, but if there's a track i like then it stays up

where is this track that you posted?
- gone. it may or may not come back

do you do collabs/production?
- at the moment, no. it's not really something that i'm comfortable doing. although, there may be times but that's likely very rare

can i upload your stuff to youtube for promo, etc?
- sure! as long as you credit this account, even with stuff that's deleted and long gone

leaving it up to you_

canopie

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