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go on to quit demo

you said it’s time for me to grow up 
nothing works, we’ve done enough 
so unplug me from the wall i’m on 
cause i believe once you’re dead you’re gone 

diagnose me i think it’s time 
since i’ve been told i’m not trying 
since you need concrete fact to prove i’m sick 
baby i’m not worth much this is it 

sure at some point, it gets better 
a lot is better than bruises and blood 
i have always chose to be a beggar 
so i’ve never been worthy of love 

i believe in every conspiracy 
i’m attracted to what’s not real 
i don’t think i deserve to be 
my existence isn’t a big deal 

i went from telling stories 
to pleading for help 
what will make you believe 
that i am not holding up well 

sure at some point, it gets better 
a lot is better than bruises and blood 
i have always chose to be a beggar 
so i’ll never be worthy of love 

my body’s been asleep for days 
and i’m not smart enough for the system 
i’ll accept being looked at strange 
and i’m easy to get tired of

unplug me demo

i’ll be what you were to me to someone someday
i heard this summer you’re moving over to santa fe
i hate the person i’ve made myself to be 
and i hate you you’re so much like me 

i’ll rip holes in my paper with the binder rings 
then when it rips out wonder why the worlds against me 
we didn’t need school to know how to travel the world 
but i needed you to know what i’m here for 

he didn’t look at me but i really don’t care about him
i want us to be us again i am fine with every now and then
you’re spending the week in silverton 
they know me now but you know the person i have been

i’m not sure 
what to do with myself when you return 
all i know is it hurts 
but i’m known for needing more  
i need a lot to keep going but this time i won’t get bored 
you’re my favorite kind of pain 
i need you to know that no two love is ever the same 

i’m always in my head but don’t act like you aren’t too 
i know you’re out on some mountain so i’m not expecting anything from you 
i’ll act like you’re listening 
i’ll act like you’re next to me
at this point it’s embarrassing 
the fact i’d give anything 

i’m not sure 
what i was thinking when i let you go 
all i know is it hurts 
now i’m thinking of driving to colorado 
i need a lot to keep going but you are everything i need 
you’re my favorite kind of pain 
i need you to know that no two love is ever the same 
for you i’m a child 
i’d say colorado is worth the miles

silverton

flights delayed demo

but to be honest i have so much hate for you 
and you know if i don’t like it i’ll leave 
i’m tired of being bitter and your buffer too 
but there’s not much more to me

you like my music at night time 
but only then
and i’m sick of doing things on your time 
that’s my time to pretend 

i may be your enemy 
but you are not mine
wondering why it’s hard to breathe 
while there’s mold in the sky 
i cant reach the high shelf 
so i’ll let it fall on top of me
anything to not need your help 
no i’d rather be something you have to burry

i’ll apologize for something i didn’t do 
hoping words can bring us back in time  
hoping i’d get the closure i need from you 
guess i’ll have to settle for “alright”

stay the night 
while the air is unbreathable 
i won’t put up a fight 
you’ll be here even when they got it under control  

i may be your enemy 
but you are not mine
wondering why it’s hard to breathe 
while there’s mold in the sky 
i cant reach the high shelf 
so i’ll let it fall on top of me
anything to not need your help 
no i’d rather be something you have to burry

what we were running from caught up to us 
but i’m still running from my own damn feelings 
but me clearing your lungs would not be enough 
for your words to make me feel like a human being

mold in the sky demo

i think it’s time i stop writing in your name 
i guess i thought yours would be on an adjacent grave 
my whole mission was to see you as a blood line 
i’ll stay quiet so you can hear the rain and sleep fine 

i haven’t said a word but i trust you with the dialogue 
and even though it hurts with you my right place is in the wrong 
i mean yeah i could breathe but i don’t want to wake you up 
who you are to me is not to be discussed
 
i was born to reciprocate 
what you never gave me in the first place 
blood on my hands in front of jurors 
while you’re wearing a forest worth of fur 
so i won’t go look for your red paint
i won’t be a victim to false fate 
take my bones and show my bite marks 
but the right ones will see it as art 

so i’ll pay attention to the beauty see in you 
a gallery i’ve been walking in circles through 
i know you’ll be around until i have an answer 
even if it takes a light in your face or watching you get burned 

i’ll be in the ground until you’re at ease 
i won’t make make a sound 
you need me gone to fine peace  

i was born to reciprocate 
what you never gave me in the first place 
blood on my hands in front of jurors 
while you’re wearing a forest worth of fur 
so i won’t go look for your red paint
i won’t be a victim to false fate 
take my bones and show my bite marks 
but the right ones will see it as art 

so i’ll stay dwelling on the past years 
while you pray on the man you wanna be 
going into everything head first 
you’re not weak to admit that it hurts

untitled demo

they said everything’s bigger in texas 
that explains your ego and my resentment 
and now i’m the bigger person so it’s my duty to admit truth 
i’m taller stronger i am more than you 

and im growing up 
enough to see you’re not that high on everyone’s pedestal 
maybe you’ve had enough 
you’re moving on but don’t make me feel forgettable 

i have nothing to say to you 
when you want all you want but you don’t think you need to hear what you need to 
i’ll be spitting up blood and truth 
meanwhile you just won’t swallow your pride 

you have no right to be proud of me 
since you once let pride create your enemies 
so collect your prize since you “found me” 
i’ve been here this whole time no i’m not your discovery 

every since you told me my smile lines 
showed i was one step closer to dying 
i’ve laughed more than i’ve looked back on
what was a perfect night in 
your eyes were hiding something 
scared of becoming close to nothing next to a woman 

i won’t stay perched on your periphery 
learned you want different things at night and in the morning 
i’ll be a couple blocks down 
your dinner bell it won’t make a sound
no i won’t hear a sound 
and i really don’t wonder where you are now 

i have nothing to say to you 
when you want all you want but you don’t think you need to hear what you need to 
i’ll be spitting up blood and truth all night 
meanwhile you just won’t swallow your pride 
baby it’s about time 
i’m not spitting up tonight 
i won’t be a tide to your moon
i’m no longer tied to you

dinner bell demo

they called your name over the speaker 
it isn’t something i hear often
it’s not your fault you’re a believer 
we’re just two people on one flight to boston 

i’ve been thinking about you way more that i’d like to
but at least i’m writing again 
but i’ll keep on running from my issues 
and just tell people i’ve been traveling 

i’ve been getting real close with your friends 
i hear their stories and picture your smile 
it’s satisfying just knowing where your time is spent 
i’ve been lying, i’m been lying for awhile 

i’ve been trying to reach you from a couple states away 
while simultaneously not saying a word  
it isn’t cause i’ve got nothing to say 
but if i spoke in this room, i don’t think i’d he heard

i’ve been getting real close with your friends 
i hear their stories and picture your smile 
it’s satisfying just knowing where your time is spent 
i’ve been lying, i’m been lying for awhile 

i took you for granted 
now you’re not mine to take 
guess my pedestal was slanted 
i was convincing myself it was fake 

a year of understanding 
an understatement 
you’re far gone 
i’m acting complacent 
we’re only a thought 
if this stays in the basement

one flight to boston demo

mother nature i hate her

i was looking for you on my tv 
but got up when i noticed scratches on the screen 
and cant help but think of what your doing to me 
are you meaning to change the scene? 
are you meaning to do this to me 

i was looking for you in the cushions 
do you want me acting crazy like this 
is it that hard to reply to my message 
history only repeats if you forget it 
but it’s subconscious, i can do this again

once i find something more 
or something that’ll make this house warm
into the night my limbs are sore 
can’t remember when this bed didn’t feel like cardboard 
i will always love the way 
your mouth shapes my name 
but you’ve been saying it with shame
i’ve been wondering as of late 
is this silence or is this space ? 
and are these growing pains 

i was looking for someone to fine peace in
you were looking for someone to hate the world with 
so i’m sorry i didn’t quite make your list 
some things are given to us just to be missed 
you’re meant to be missed 

once i find something more 
or something that makes this house warm
into the night my limbs are sore 
can’t remember when this bed didn’t feel like cardboard 
i will always love the way 
your mouth shapes my name 
but you’ve been saying it with shame
i’ve been wondering as of late 
is this silence or is this space ? 
and are these growing pains 

when i hear about what you’ve been up to 
it’s through the mouths of those i refuse to give my time to 
so what? we’ve changed as people tend to do 
missing you will always be my greatest virtue 
but loving you will always end with solitude

carly winter

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