it was calm and quiet then,
and we talked about everything
from prom night to graduation.
i think about that day so often.

do you think that i looked happy, gazing at
the ground, speaking of the sky?
i tried so hard to not come off too sappy.
i wasted high school wearing a disguise.

i always had to look stronger than i was,
feel less than i felt, but i felt so much.

i don’t want to be the one that you had chosen.
if you took my hand, i still wouldn’t feel right.
just teach me how to no longer be broken
the second someone walks into my life.

still. (demo)

all alone, i wish i’d known the
blue sky, the blue jays soaring by.
creatures, small in size, small eyes
darting forward, forever forward.
ever since you left, days have daintily
flown past, steadfast, overcast.
get me out of this
house. i don’t belong here.
in the morning, i used to
journal everything i felt,
kindly carving words of
love and hope. now i
mumble and mope.
now i see but i don’t.
overhead, clouds shift and
part. a fresh start?
quiet now, i hear the sound. i hear the blue jays, the sun’s
rays. sun for days.


until the greys of the sky
vibrate back into view,
why not just sit here
exuberant
yet still. darting forward, yet

the pond, revisited (demo)

we used to take walks around town,
on days when our homes felt too close
and our arms too thin to carry
the pressure they forced onto us.

i never wanted your shoulders
to fold under the consequence
of the home you inherited,
so i tried lifting them alone.

some days i wish i knew how to
thrust them into a hole somewhere.
some days all i want is substance,
one more chance to prove that i am

stronger than i look.
is this still your number, pal?
i hope it isn’t.

                                        i am
stronger than i look.
is this still your number, pal?

stronger than i look (demo)

the water. it was calm and quiet then.
we walked about, the air around so still.
now years have passed. i’ve not returned again.
these memories aren’t easy ones to kill.
this started in my head, a simple dream,
a wooded house, a single broken kiss.
i couldn’t know how far the fall would be,
determined every shot would always miss.
i want to change the things i always do,
step forward, see the path i need to take,
but frankly, i don’t have the knowledge to,
to learn and grow from all of my mistakes.
i never learned the proper way to grieve
so tell me you’re a thing i can achieve.

no goodbyes (demo)

it's funny
how people change.
i always stay the same.
i've always been the same.

in first grade,
i fell in love for the first time
with a bully
who picked on me.

and in third grade
i fell in love again
i looked her in the eyes
i didn't say a thing
i never say a thing
i always stay the same
i've always been the same

but maybe
it's not that funny
and maybe
i've changed all along
i don't think so

funny

a cover of a song by my good friend tommy (softest). i recorded this at 1:50am during my last night living in my college apartment.

the original: https://soundcloud.com/softets/habitat-demo?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

habitat (softest)

Lyrics:
We stayed up until four in the morning
talking about music and art.
and I couldn’t help but feel connected.
The brains you have combine so well with mine.

So I don’t wanna go to sleep tonight.
I don’t wanna go to sleep tonight.

home.html - demo

experimental little ambient track i made for class :)

Dylan Murawski

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