a song about how much I love my wife thanks for listening

Abombsadam - I feel love 2023

A little bit of introspection, as age becomes more of a weight on me, I suppose.  
It was hard to admit, but cathartic to write.

           Behind the Smile
© Christian Carnucci 2024
Key of C Capo 4 (Transpose to E)

Intro
V1
                                           C
I’ve spent all these many years,
                                           G
locked in battle with my tears.
                                 D
Ever since I was a child,
                                                        G
I’ve learned to mask them with a smile.
 
V2
It’s hard to say this here aloud,
to open up before a crowd.
But it’s not from courage that I muse,
I’ve just got nothing left to lose.

PC 1 (Unresolved)
                       C     Cm                 
I’ve lived my life...disguised, 
            G      G/F#  Em            D       C   
like an artist on a stage, in a tragic play.
        G                               D                            G
Uninvolved, so it wasn’t me, that took the fall.

V3
I’ve learned early to pretend, 
I’d rise above all in the end.
So, all the hurt that I endured,
I found quite easy to ignore.

V4
But now these scars appear to blend,
till it’s hard to tell where each one ends,
and I worry soon I may succumb,
to this callused being I’ve become.

PC 2 (resolved)
It seems I’m not as strong,
as I avidly imagined, all along,
and now I can’t outrun, all the pain, and all the wrong.

Chorus 1
         C                 Em7    Am        Em        D
See behind this smile I seek to hide the truth,
                   G          G/F#            Em           D     C
Cause the illusion soothes the pain and the abuse.
                                          G                          D                        G
Now I could change my ways, but at this age, what ‘s the use.
 
Bridge
Cmaj7                          G          D
Oh, it’s not like I don’t like my life.
Cmaj7                                                 G      D 
cause I’m luckier than most I can’t deny.
Cmaj7                            G         D
but the toll of time has left its mark,
Cmaj7                                           G          D 
and it’s forced me now to finally realize, Oh...
 
Chorus 2
Behind this smile I seek to hide the truth,
cause the illusion soothes the pain and the abuse.
Now I should change my ways, but hell at this age, what ‘s the use

Behind The Smile

Songwriter looking for others to collaborate with.  I'm 50ish, married to the most wonderful woman in the world, and just enjoy making original music. I live in Fort Worth have been luck enough to work with some exceptional musicians.  I am not looking "to make the big time", just looking to have fun and learn as much as I can about songwriting and home recording.  I take this seriously, just not professionally. I have a day job! :)

Behind The Smile

ccarnucci

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