prod. flesh

i know that i've been giving in
at least i'm trying to live with it inside of my head
are you even listening?
i'm sick of all this dissonance inside of my head

should i be grateful for all the things that you did for me?
or should i be hateful for all the things that you did to me?
i haven't been able to trust a word that you've given me
and i just wish you'd let me forget
no i dont wanna end up like this all the time
no end in sight 
try all you like
i won't be letting it get to me
and i know it's been on your mind
it's been on mine
try all you like
i won't be letting it get to me

and i'd be lying if i said it didnt hurt
it hurts
your words
they tear through my heart
and i'd be lying if i said it ever worked
it burned
we learned  
why cant we move on?

it's okay

garden avenue

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2rXUu6tG0y8

backstage (brody + taylor morgan)

music vid https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cdMxIrKfnmo
prod tykun

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

and I just wanna leave it all in the past tense
No one used to hit my phone now it's all mass texts
They try to tell me Josh you can hook up with a bad bitch
and I'm like no she can just stick to using her lovense, fuck sex

And I got nothing to lose and I got nothing to gain
And all this boredom & cluelessness driving me insane
Feel like absolutely nothing when I'm not using my brain 
And I wanna go outside but no one hanging out today

Tired of being lonely no matter where I go
And I wanna move out then I'm like hell no
One little thing will turn me off and it's no longer a goal
I just hope that I will keep on getting stronger I suppose

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

Don't feel like it's real get me out this illusion
How could I find love in my life if i never had a cupid?
And i'm falling to cement so I intentionally get bruises
Nah I'm playing showing pain will make me look too fucking stupid

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

And all these artists around me they tryna make an image
Sorry I'm not with y'all I don't do this all for business
I respect my boundaries and push myself to the limits
After performance I celebrate with a shake, like I'm grimace

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real
Don't feel like it's real get me out this illusion
How could I find love in my life if i never had a cupid?
And i'm falling to cement so I intentionally get bruises
Nah I'm playing showing pain will make me look too fucking stupid

flower field (tykun)

all dis hustle finna pay off if it wasn't for y'all I wouldn't be here.

tarot cards

prod. flesh
master by @notluna

i 
cant go outside
and i dont know why
yeah im growing tired
of cancelling plans
it's only one night
with all of my friends
and i know it's alright to wanna stay but i
feel guilty when i dont even try
to power through and have a good time

i wish that i could be someone else
i wish that i could be someone else
i wish that i could be someone else
i wish that i could be someone that isn't me 
yeah i wish that i could be someone else
i wish that i could be someone else
i wish that i could be someone else
i wish that i could be someone that isn't me so much, oh

edit: I've never had a song perform this well!! shoutout the algorithm gods I'm glad it's resonating w ppl :') should be on Spotify etc in the next few days!!! thank u everyone for all the support it fr means a lot to me <33

i wish that i could be someone else

Fruition w/ hamilton (jolst)

prod @pekarot_161

spent a good chunk of time on this one, i like this one a lot hope u do 2

lyrix

home sweet home
i remember that place
that place we used to stay
when we were oh so innocent
and oh i know
how the time makes way
and we all grow apart
and wish we were our memories

our fortunes grand
our houses taller
it didnt quite work out
just how you wanted
our versions made up
but i prefer this story
if you read between the lines
youll see we have no glory

running out of luck
im not giving up

picture perfect photograph i wish that i could be you
almost smell you when i see you
can i feel you cant get near you
i can see the moments in my head
play them back like they're recorded
go through boxes left unsorted
soul inside a creeky floorboard

its just all the same old shit
is there something i cant see
go from town to town to town
is there just one place for me
wipe the crust out of my eyes
think its been in there a week
sick of telling myself lies
future only looks more bleak

we are on our own
there is no more home
youre on your own
youre on your

im not giving up
im not giving up

home sweet home
i remember that place
that place we used to stay
when we were oh so innocent
and oh i know
how the time makes way
and we all grow apart
and wish we were our memories

home sweet home (prod. pekarot)

s/o @kiddamo
u signed my heart already
so u can stay here
take a pen out baby write ur name here
sitting at my desk fucked up right here
it feels like every other night i travel light years
and i dont wanna be alone
dont stop calling on my phone

frost bite covers my soul
i dont wanna be alone
it gets cold
when ur not at home
but i get so much warmer when u are close
yea it breaks me to pieces n i cant believe it
i dont kno why u always say that im tweaking
i hope im not right cuz then youll end up leaving
dont wanna put u in the past baby girl im speeding
monsters are creeping
i hear the floor boards creeking
tears dry no more weeping

u signed my heart already
so u can stay here
take a pen out baby write ur name here
sitting at my desk fucked up right here
it feels like every other night i travel light years
and i dont wanna be alone
dont stop calling on my phone

i really wouldve died for u tho
damn
i never should of cried for u hoe
so tell me why
why i wasted all of my time
i want to light up
see my past burn aways in the fire
no relief when i respire
thats all that i desire
i hate these people think id rather be a loner
im smoking weed until the end cuz im a stoner
like im saul silver

n she said u should call me when ur sober
but thats not in my plans baby girl
my words just getting slower
ill still be here when ur older
rhinestone love shining like the solar
dont wanna be sad anymore
i stopped smoking
dont hit the dab cart anymore
i dont got no friends anymore
i just drink alone
i dont wanna be here anymore

long gone 2 w/kiddamo (kaydo)

fun lil thang i did w @t33thkicker
hope ya enjoy <3

lyrics:
oh i cannot endorse it no, uh
wait three weeks just to hear from ya babe
no i wait, then i force it oh, no
its an uphill battle to see ur face
then i go, how unfortunate
know you think about torching it
1:03 screen glow from ur portrait, oh
i’ll be ok girl, don’t wait up
cuz my heart ain’t porcelain

ask me somethin
i don’t know what
i don’t think u try
it aint half a street
i don’t move ur feet
i can’t tell u why
this half a man
has seen half the shit
that’ll make u cry
i don’t fuck around
cuz the last i did
i got no reply

i don’t need u im past it
3:30 clock im dashin
eyes on the screen
tryna see what im listening to
i forgot where my cash is
i do not know u we tight knit
nobody got me no vice grip
i got way too many vices
despite this im fightin myselfff

in the back of the party i off myself like its ego death
i don’t speak a word i just shut my mouth and i pass that test
is it hard enough to make every sunrise feel like the end
cuz i feel so stiff when i spend those nights on that cardboard bed

so i cannot endorse it no, uh
wait three weeks just to hear from ya babe
no i wait, then i force it oh, no
its an uphill battle to see ur face
then i go, how unfortunate
know you think about torching it
1:03 screen glow from ur portrait, oh
i’ll be ok girl, don’t wait up
cuz my heart ain’t porcelain

porcelain [mags]

top speed in my nissan sentra w/ nico north (prod. sapjer)

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