outside the party, inside the dream from my ep 'time machine' coming this spring
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outside the party, inside the dream

time machine ep out now: https://cehryl.ffm.to/timemachine

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laundry

need/give me

anything you ask

willow tree

guarantee

swimming pool

sometimes i get so tired

rules

screws

omw2u

bad ballet

with visuals: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0_-sf4DZLEE

LYRICS:
(joke)

the permanent state of transition etc etc.
audio sample from relicradio.com > strange tales 

tunnel vision

download the sounds: cherylchowmusic.bandcamp.com
view the digital booklet: goo.gl/iyHwOJ

we could start a fire
as we pray
for the flames to go higher
in the rain

we could carve our initials
on display
but even skin crumples
and even trees age

oh we shoulda known
oh that we’re both alone
we could melt the ice in the summertime
and it’ll take a while till we realize
everything illuminates tentatively
everything evaporates eventually

that’s not to say it’s not worth it
to make a scene
take love and return it
like they do on silver screens

you can keep the footage
you can keep the change
cause’ the years will come
and our tears will rearrange

oh we shoulda known
oh that we’re both alone
we could melt the ice in the summertime
and it’ll take a while till we realize
everything illuminates tentatively
everything evaporates eventually

what good would it do
to take me with you?
what good would it do
to hold onto you?

chaos theory

download the sounds: cherylchowmusic.bandcamp.com
view the digital booklet: goo.gl/iyHwOJ

save me
save my broken strings
take me
take my only wings
i don’t need to know
i don’t need to know where we’re going
i just need to know
i just need to know the wind’s blowing

crutches, buckets
flushed out and down the drain
riptide, stop signs
so little friends remain
i don’t even know
i don’t even know where i’m going
shuffle through the snow
shuffle till i know the river’s flowing

guess i gotta keep on runnin’, runnin’, runnin’ now
there’s no other way to slow it, slow it, slow it down
my heels are on but my soul is twenty-seven feet off from the ground
so if you catch me divin’
just don’t let me drown

under cover, places they’d never go
lovers, thunder, faces i’ll never hold
i don’t need another road
i don’t need another home to preserve me
you can let me go
if you let me know it deserves me

guess i gotta keep on runnin’, runnin’, runnin’ now
there’s no other way to slow it, slow it, slow it down
my heels are on but my soul is twenty-seven feet off from the ground
so if you catch me divin’
just don’t let me drown

waterproof

wrote this for all my mother figures

download the sounds: cherylchowmusic.bandcamp.com
view the digital booklet: goo.gl/iyHwOJ

tell me all the ways
you can call a place you miss
i swear i saw the cranes
somewhere that we used to live

weak knees
i’m knockin’ on the dining table
weak knees
i’m rockin’ in your dusty cradle
teach me
i’m haunted by your streaks of gray
oh teach me
i’m wanted backwards while i’m on the way

lend me fickle words
sounds i’ve never heard before
over calendars
that i don’t know how to ignore

weak knees
i’m knockin’ on the dining table
weak knees
i’m rockin’ in your dusty cradle
teach me
i’m haunted by your streaks of gray
oh teach me
i’m wanted backwards while i’m on the way

i’ll take your coat for you
i know the stairs are steep
and i’ll fight the clock with you
there is no need to weep

weak knees
i’m knockin’ on the dining table
weak knees
i’m rockin’ in your dusty cradle
teach me
i’m haunted by your streaks of gray
oh teach me
i’m wanted backwards while i’m on the way

weak knees

the words:

shiver down my spine as you walk out
the mirror's broken since you came about
now i don't remember how it is to feel complete

take my eyes for a memory
take my life, take what you need
i'll watch the house burn but i won't watch you leave

flashing forwards the tide is low
crashing waters, i let you go
look what happens when you let love overgrow

arabesque no. 3

i'd rather put my hands in my pockets
than volunteer to soothe your pain
i know that kind of cut heals better
when expectations pull away

how much does it cost to recover?
how many minutes can we take?
if i'd rather put my hands in my pockets
i probably don't feel the same

*i'm cold (cold)
another heap of chills released
it's cold (cold)
another piece of fantasy in smoke (smoke)
all of your symptoms are late into season
your hands are cold
and you've got pockets in your coat.

shadows running through the situation
tossing me with questions at night
you don't need my confrontation
to blow out all the candlelights

bandages are never pretty
the system seems to work one way
even if your heart's made of metal
i promise it will break someday

*i'm sorry i'm cold (cold)
another heap of chills released
it's cold (cold)
another piece of fantasy in smoke (smoke)
all of your symptoms are late into season
your hands are cold
and you've got pockets in your coat.

pockets

(a little song off upcoming EP)


make me swoon
make me sway
with your arms
with your rhythm

let us dance
in the rain
in the war
 in the prison

i see it in your eyes
you’re thrilled, adrenalized
but little little do you know
what’s on my mind

year after year 
after tear after tear
you’re forgiven
all the hurt is erased 
and replaced with our friction

now in this masquerade
let’s drink so i can say
that every little thing you do 
still makes me smile

*let us pour, let us pretend
that we just need each other
what a waste to remove my waist from you
let us sway, so i forget
that you don’t remember
all the ways that your moves could make me blue.

let me go 
let me stay
let me live in oblivion
i’m reminded for a strange sober minute that we shouldn’t

but in this masquerade
i’ll let my heart persuade me
that friction - like this - is hard to find

*let us pour, let us pretend
that we just need each other
what a waste to remove my waist from you
let us sway, so i forget
that you don’t remember
all the ways that your moves could make me blue.

let us pour, let us forget
that we just need each other
what a waste to remove my waist from you
let us sway, so i forget
that you don’t remember
all the ways that your moves could make me blue.

sway

you don't know

WATCH THE VIDEO HERE: https://vimeo.com/184030733
video by jon denton
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so the circuit goes: 
the ride is surreal 
my hand’s on the wheel 
but i don’t have control 

let the illusion slow 
from the edge of my seat 
i’m ready to reach out 

still the circuit goes: 
there’s rust on the steel 
it’s part of the deal 
that they don’t let me go 

am i far too close? 
did my memory retreat? 
did the distance repeat itself? 

*borderline, my eyes are on the prize 
i’m spinning inwards but it feels like otherwise 
so i burn, i spiral 
i burn, like fractals. 

you’ve drained me dry 
it wasn’t part of the plan 
i understand it 
i won’t take what’s not mine 

power’s running low 
i carry the hurt 
from doubting what i deserve 

*borderline, my eyes are on the prize 
i’m spinning inwards but it feels like otherwise 
so i burn, i spiral 
i burn, like fractals 
i burn, i spiral 
i burn, like fractals.

fractals

MUSIC VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pIbemmwh0R0

don’t wake me up,
before the sun goes down -
i see better with my eyes closed.

keep the curtains shut,
keep me blind to your un-love;
it might be better if i don’t know.

don’t wake me up,
it’s too late for love.

don't wake me

did i leave the house without my keys?
forget to pay the electricity?
now i’m running late to work but if i’m running any faster, i might trip

they’ve got fast cars on this road
did i turn off the stove? did i keep the windows closed?
did i tell them that i loved them when we last were on the phone?
cause’ you never know

i know, i know, i’ve checked it twice
i apologize
but i’ve got worries like a tap flooding through my mind
these worries run my life
they keep me occupied
and when i knock on wood i worry that i’ll catch some kind of plague

i’m going crazy
you don’t have to save me.
(i’ll take a U-turn soon)

knock on wood

when you grieved
mourning till the morning without sleep
hollow was your heart, you couldn’t eat
wishing that his death was just a dream

before you know
fifty loving years behind a stone
the bed feels bigger now that you’re alone
wondering how your sorrow only grows
and grows

*what once was gold’s now hard to hold
if these doors ain’t breathing, keep them closed
i’ll surrender to the night
where the ashes of us lie
when it’s time, from time to time
i’ll let our phantoms run my mind.

in my grief
violent, i wrestle with reality
tracing places where we could’ve been
fighting for this death to be a dream
a dream

*what once was gold’s now hard to hold
if these doors ain’t breathing, they must close
i’ll surrender to the night
where the ashes of us lie
when it’s time, from time to time
i’ll let our phantoms run my mind.

phantoms

download here: https://cehryl.bandcamp.com/track/selfish
featuring bass god @alexszotak
artwork by jonny
____________________________
it's not that i don't want to
not that i don't want you close to me
when you're too close, you see
i see your flaws, 
my honesty's betraying you,
betraying me
i'm victimized,
i'm no good with surprises

close, you are perfection
closer blurs the vision
please don't murder your mystery
believe me: you'll never read me
i don't think you need me

truth is, truth is -
i'm selfish, selfish.
what's the use if the truth is
i'm selfish, selfish.

bare feet on broken glass
landslide is coming fast.
but i'll let the moment pass,
'cause no good things ever last

but if you leave,
i will bleed.

truth is, truth is - 
i'm selfish, selfish.
what's the use of the truth if
if i'm selfish, selfish.

it's not that i don't want to
i just don't know how to 
hold you closer when i'm overloaded
with the gravity of possibility
of you letting me bleed,
i'm letting you bleed.

selfish

track 1 from "does this make sense" EP, 
https://soundcloud.com/cehryl/sets/does-this-make-sense-ep
from scratch with kwame @emawk.
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i thought twice
i thought you might need me
thought you'd buy
if i sold my love for free
i guess that unconditional ain't something that your heart could afford
now i'm back to where i was before.

now i'm back to where i was before/where was i before?
but where was i before you?

after before – cehryl + kwame

track 3 from "does this make sense" EP, 
soundcloud.com/cehryl/sets/does-this-make-sense-ep
from scratch with kwame @emawk.
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tryna find me like where you been
tryna find me like a long-lost friend
tryna find me like why'd you leave
and why is it so hard for me to breathe

dying to breathe like there ain't no air
writing(/righting) my wrongs like my notebook cares
tryna write(/right) my story, chase my tale(/tail)
digging through thoughts, hoping there's a feeling down there and all i feel is

*your world spinning, my world spinning, our world spinning, your world spinning, my world spinning, our world spinning, why world spin, great world spin.

tossing and turning in my head
i whine and i yearn for what i don't have
i've got so much blame there's none to spare
i'm looking down but my feet aren't even there

i'm letting my pride spill everywhere
mending cuts that weren't even there
counting the times it wasn't fair
and then i look up and all i see is
all i see is

*your world spinning, my world spinning, our world spinning, your world spinning, my world spinning, our world spinning, why world spin, great world spin.

there's something bout ambition, i mean 
something bout addiction, i mean 
something bout conviction, i mean 
something bout suspicion, i mean 
something bout the feeling that this shit just isn't fiction
i was hoping you would listen
i promise you there's

something bout ambition, i mean 
something bout addiction, i mean 
something bout conviction, i mean 
something bout suspicion, i mean 
something bout the feeling that this shit just isn't fiction
i was hoping you would listen
are you dizzy yet?

**tell me when the lights go out
so i know the switch ain't working
tell me when my time's run out
there's nothing left to do about it

tell me when the lights go out
so i know the switch ain't working
tell me when my life runs out
there's nothing i can do about it

tell me when the lights go out
there's nothing left to do about it.

our world spinning, our world spinning, why world spinning, great world spin.

great world spin – cehryl + kwame

Sitting in Silence ft. BLANDA

you make me wonder with the things you say
you make me feel like i’m just child’s play 
and half the time you make me feel like it’ll be okay
and half the time you’re standing watching me disintegrate

you weigh me sticks and stones, i lie awake
chained in guilt, could it be my mistake?
cause’ half the time you make me feel like it’ll be okay
and half the time you’re going, gone, i’m lost in outer space


well what am i supposed to do
i don’t wanna put it on you
you’ve got my gratitude and 
i don’t know space-time enough to
paint my world for you
i’m running out of blues
if you’re sending signals
well they’re not coming through


i need your gravity, in all totality
i need your push and pull 
black holes have different rules
i’m suspended in the sky
looking down at you and i, 
i see you’re not looking out for me

half the time

FOR MY FRIEND IAN'S FILM【WHITE CRANE】, COVER PHOTO BY JONNY.


 i could run up to the roof
i’ve got nothing much to lose
the party’s loud and draining
the lonely crowd's just waiting
waiting on another
saving grace to come their way.

i'm blinking red and green
thinkin bout you and me
these paper cranes aren't folding
no more hope withholding
i'm holding on to wither
all thats left is bittersweet

you know, lately, i've been on my knees
so you won't hate me
i’m trying hard to please my fate, forsake me
cause' i don't want to take the blame today

you see the damage is overdone 
what the hell have i become
not even strong enough to say it
that we should celebrate this:
all that is remaining –
why are we both raining the same?

it's the same old empty words
same old lessons learned
down the stairs we’ll shatter
cause' we both know it matters
how could we recover,
if we never rediscover us?

but now lately, i've been on my knees
so you won't hate me
i’m trying hard to please my fate, forsake me
cause' i don't want to take the blame today

rooftops

MUSIC VIDEO: https://youtu.be/RG_brbztjJ0
LISTEN ON SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/album/2bDevD3oEsZLLJASqBuDFt?si=zmtUTAKkRQWInqNBtee2cQ
"SLOW MOTION" ALBUM COMING SOON (MAY 2019).

i don't – i don't feel hate
for you and all your bullets
no i never did, never have, and i never will.

it pains – i'm sure it pains
that i let you take the bullet
but i'd never mean to shoot, if it didn't kill.

*i'm a robot, waiting till your love rots, to choke it with a dead knot
you'll never know how i feel (if i feel).
it's a one shot, a murder with no gun shot, i tried to care till i could not
you'll never know how i feel (if i feel).

if i feel anything at all
would you be kind
to come around and tear up all this flesh still fresh
from the days i've left behind me?

but i still get flashes from time to time
i feel fear
that i'm fighting
like it's for the first time.

*i'm a robot, waiting till your love rots, to choke it with a dead knot
you'll never know how i feel (if i feel).
it's a one shot, a murder with no gun shot, i tried to care till i could not
you'll never know how i feel (if i feel).
i'm a robot, waiting till your love rots, to choke it with a dead knot
you'll never know how i feel (if i feel).
it's a one shot, a murder with no gun shot, i tried to care till i could not
you'll never know how i feel (if i feel).

dead knot

Wherever It May Be

Side Effects

stream「MOON EYES」:
https://cehryl.ffm.to/mooneyes-hidenseek

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Moon Eyes - Single

Moon Eyes

stream 'Superbloom' 
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Superbloom - Single

Superbloom

angels (emily) - https://cehryl.ffm.to/angels-emily

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angels (emily)

moon eyes (reprise) feat. brian mantra

philadelphia from my ep 'time machine' coming this spring
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philadelphia

WILLOW TREE ALBUM OUT NOW

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