being my own enemy feat zion (prod dead spyro)

self-prod

ibleedicare - https://soundcloud.com/slaughter-tone-records
epitome - https://soundcloud.com/failure404
xipz - https://soundcloud.com/xipz_sad

Encore w/ IBleedicare, epitomeoffailure & lil XipZ

(prod. boyfifty x sephgotthewaves)
(non-profit song)

when i made this song i was having a really bad day i'm doing better now

lyric video by Austin's room <3 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SELz2Hfj-Ok

lyrics:
and i'm terrified that ima just be another one gone way too fucking soon 
they gon' be typing "rip" in the comments always felt like a no one

felt like i never belonged anywhere in this life i'm living till gone
that's my motive i feel like that i'm gonna be gone sooner than i expected tho 

i don't wanna leave but i cant handle it all this struggling constantly 
i don't know what i'm suppose to do i'm tryna get through the days

i don't wanna think like this i'm tired i'm so anxious and i get so jealous
i'm insecure and i hope to god this rapping helps me get through it all 

cause i don't know what i'm suppose to do anymore i'm tryna process everything
that's going on and i just wanna be happy i never signed up for any of this

i just wan- i just wanna know how it feels like to just to be like any other kid
i just wanna have everything that everyone else has i'm just tired of this shit 

tired of feeling so alone i don't wanna keep on feeling like this i hada record
this verse like so many times cause i couldn't get it fucking right

rip (prod. boyfifty x sephgotthewaves)

produced by https://soundcloud.com/domesticscars

I met her in a fever dream
Inside a place I never seen
I guess that nothing's what it seems 
It's always taken to extremes

I felt too lost in the moment
I'm sorry my expression never shows it
Love I gave you in the past yeah you own it
My love is buried in the ground my condolence 
I swear I thought you were perfect
But it's just another instance occurring
Another memory I made that is blurry
I still remorse and from the fact that you hurt me

And here we go our separate ways
I guess it wasn't just a waste
But I've been trapped inside this cage
I may need some help from you mage

I met her in a fever dream
Inside a place I never seen
I guess that nothing's what it seems 
It's always taken to extremes

Guess I had to take a life lesson
Didn't know it would make my life lessen
It's not always worth the connections
And it's not always worth second guessing 
I just got to go with my instincts
Gotta figure out whatever else is missing
But if you come back that's way too risky
You might go ahead attempt again to trick me

fever dream

music video

fever dream (domesticsoul)

and the truth is
i’m still haunted by my previous actions
you’re never coming back and babe that’s the reaction
and the reality of it all
if i could turn back
the time i’d do it in the quickest heart beat
i’d do it so we’d never have to meet
cause i know you’ll be better off without me

so just forget me
erase the memories
just live your life in perfect harmony no disarray
cause i’ll still be here
amongst it all
i’ll stay alone with pain cause i’ll remember it all yeah

the first time was the worst part
then you brought me back and made me relive everything
i felt the grasp of your hands around my throat
choking my air and almost every single happiness i felt

don’t leave me here to die alone
i’m selfish so you know that i want you right here with me
is it wrong for once to wanna be wanted
you’re far along your path and i’m still here just buried yeah

buried and forgotten (prod. neverforever)

mixed/mastered by me
prod dercept
art @maikyyy_13

lyrics:

im sorry
i know you're sorry too
but i can't really fight it when i know somebody wants to save me
no matter how hard i try

and honestly im tired of all these people tryna break me
i just wanna be the one you're holdin when you say it
terrible nights
yea im terrified
sick of these nights i gotta say goodbye

and i tried to save us, i tried to put it off
but to be honest i just wanted a little more time

so im sorry
i know you're sorry too
but i can't really fight it when i know somebody wants to save me
no matter how hard i try

and you always seem to give me this feelin of comfort
it's incredible, how you feel like a home
and i never imagined
that i could spend, the rest of my life, fallin deeper and deeper into somethin with you
something with you
something with you
i dont wanna fight i just want time with you

and i triiiiied
i tried to get through it by hiding
clearly it's not just bad timing

and im sorry
i know you're sorry too
but i can't really fight it when i know somebody wants to save me
no matter how hard i try

im sorry (dercept)

Kinda knew it from the start
The feelings from my dreams
And how they used to be
To lock me in a cage
I wish that i could be free
Away from these nightmares
That i took along with me
It's getting way too hard

way too hard...

Charmspeaking, i'm liking you
Don't try it, i'm passing through
Won't stop me, i'm loving you
I'm loving you

Charmspeaking, i'm liking you
Don't try it, i'm passing through
Won't phase me, still loving you
Still loving you

The feelings i have are now fantasy
Take me along in the open road
Life is so stressing without you here
Carry me through the passing stars

Stay with me!

By my side, i'll take you around here
The universe is vast, i'll always see the day

Charmspeaking, i'm liking you
Don't try it, i'm passing through
Won't phase me, still loving you
Still loving you

The feelings i have are now fantasy
Take me along in the open road
Life is so stressing without you here
Carry me through the passing stars

charmspeaking

charmspeaking [+ IOF x Polar beats]

bleedin (in the morning) 

featuring zion

produced by dokidokimanic

enjoy! much love

bleedin (in the morning)[feat zion]

Lyrics 


[v3nn]

I don’t think these people understand me 
No one seems to have a problem yeah well I got plenty 
I just need some benjis
Bitch I’m coolin w my bros don’t give a fuck about no show 
I’m faded and reminiscing, times when I was sixteen 
I wonder if they all will miss me 
Probably not they never listened 
I want me some diamonds that glisten 
Fuck these fake friends I swear I won’t miss em 
And when I am up, I’m not even coming back for Christmas 
All the family I’ve known turn their backs 
As a matter of fact 
I can’t think of one person that had my back when I was under attack 
It’s 4:59 I can’t believe it
It’s fuckin 5 am again 
My words are starting to get so sloppy maybe I should just use a pen

I don’t think these people understand me 
No one seems to have a problem yeah well I got plenty 
I just need some benjis, I might cop a belt if that shit says fendi 
Eyyyyuuuhhh
I’m feeling myself, I think I might be in better health 
But there’s still days I wanna kill myself 
And maybe I just need some help 
Eyyyyuuuhhh
Faded everyday I can’t lie 
Sippin on my cup asking myself why


[teej]

Listen to the fable, I hear it talkin
i been fuckin up my life ill take the drugs inside my pocket 
put the chain around my neck i threw the key and locked it
all this sippin i been doin its been heavy on my conscience 
huh
you cant tell me im not cautious
i been lookin out 
im rockin truey with the robins (talkin jeans)
but they dont think that i could do that
everybody fake around me i always knew that 
I been doin everything i can just to prove that
wood falls
Birds chirp i can hear it
Sip the grog 
Sip the grog until you feel it
lucky strike strike in the place of my last night
dont try, cry, price is at the crash site (mw ref)
When i die i hope youll see me in the next life
Dirty things i try to pour inside my sprite
i dont want friends ill be alone cause they dont act right

lucky strike christmas w/ teej [rubbish]

I've been feeling like a prick
Money left to spend
Been a lazy piece of shit
Creeping closer

Twilight Blue
I've been on the edge
I gotta stay busy to keep thoughts out of my head
Swear I'm not neurotic as I switch sides of the bed
Again, here at 4 a.m.
Been doing this for hours think that I'll do it again
I just need a sense of normalcy to combat all this dread
Cause I've got thoughts and expectations on me that I just can't stand
The pressure makes me want to quit but that's not who I am
So I'll just hang on through it all and catch you at the end

draven.fm
why are you always saying something? When all your words just mean nothing? 
So don’t pull up to the function, 
you always trying to cause some fuck shit.

now your hands around my neck. It’s getting hard for me to breathe. 
I know you wanted something, but it isn’t guaranteed 
I know I’m so good to you, but you’re so bad for me 
I’ve been doing fine I finally got some room to breathe 

now you only mad because the shoe fits 
I’m not tryna fight. nah I’m not tryna diss. 
I’ve been doing better I forgot that you exist 
If we do this shit again, then baby, I might call it quits

I Might Call It Quits Deathbed Remix(feat. Twilight Blue, draven.fm)[prod. Twilight Blue]

Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: @idealismus
Mixed & Mastered by: @angelsofsorrows 
Artwork by: Kurama SD & angelsofsorrows 

[Verse 1]
Didn't think I'd be making this song 
Till I found out u were gone 
So much things I wanted to tell u 
That now I'll never get the chance too

[Bridge]
You made me feel like I belonged 
Now all I can do is sing along 
To your old songs

[Verse 2]
It feels like a part of me shattered 
And I haven't found the pieces 
That had scattered across my mind 
The memories hit so hard 
That I can't get out of my own head
I hope you'll rest easy
Up there in heaven

[Chorus]
Sleeping won't make this heartbreak 
Break away from my chest 
Wish I could tell u this again
You inspired me bro
Your impact will last for a long time

[Verse 3]
So much time I wasted 
Now I want those days back 
But the rain always falls down 
Mind races more than a car on a race track

[Chorus 2]
I remember last Febuary 
Like it was yesterday
We would talk in vc all day
Me, You, & Hira
(Fuck I miss it man, I wish you were still here) 
& everyone else
But now that you've passed 
It will never be the same

[Sample from: Kurama SD: sleepwater home reaction]
"I need you in my life
I wants you here with me 
I'm not losing my mind 
I just need you here 
To make everything clear" 

[Outro]
Ya know it's crazy
To think that a year ago
We were all together 
We were having the best times of our lives
But now I'm sitting here 
On a fucking June day
But now you're gone
& it's too late to turn back time 
So goodbye my friend 
Sleepwater or also known as Jude

being my own enemy feat zion (prod dead spyro)

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