Without You

I Don't Believe in god, (featuring Brother Ron)

Screwing it Screwing it Screwing it

Cat Cat Cat Cat Cat Cat Cat Cat Cat Cat

I dont know how 
to feel
about any of it 
anymore 
Anyhow there's nothing left 
Nothing ( nothing ) as I see now
nothing comes with a price

And I'm priced out
And I'm priced out!

Outlaw country, in my mind 
Punk witch-house, on my lips 
I can't tell him about this bind 
Just need to get a grip
I'm afraid to burn 
this last bridge 

But
I'm (i'm) I'm 

starting to get over it

Jesus, is not for free
The fruit is all bruised now
left behind rotting on the tree
(Just like me)

My contact high is gone 
I forgot about 
this one (that one)
that one (this one)
Want to be left alone on the lawn
Just want to bake here in the sun
let my skin blister and burn
till it's all gone 

Help me,  
I (i) I need a match 
I'm (I'm) I'm 
going to burn it all down 
Nowadays it's all up to you
sick of looking at your frown
it’s just what you mean 

About freedom from the nightmare 
Hey, I'm not trying to fit in your lean
Anymore 

I'm (im) I'm going to burn it all down 
(Burn it all down)
This last bridge 



this last bridge

Dear God, I said Maris

I don't care for your face

No one wants to hear it straight
But life's a brawler and now I'm late
When I'm bruised when you're bent
It's got us feeling like pocket lint

Stars are dropping out the sky 
Midnight is screaming feeling pretty spry
Scraping by with no defense at all 
Pulling scabs off these scars to break the fall

I'm done with all the fucking games
Done with chasing echoes, faces and names
Fighting for a spark that's long dead
God bless this ringing in my head


My heart burns like a cigarette
Leaving trails that smell like regret
Ashes fly all up in my eyes 
Shit makes me want to cry

Crossed up wires and broken screens
Trying to make sense of the dreams Communication lost in the night
Screaming for some light 

I'm done with all the fucking games
Done with chasing echoes, faces and names
Fighting for a spark that's long dead
God bless all this ringing in my head

i'm done

Clock ticks shallow 
against a lonely wall 
Eyes, dried up, wide and dragging
Gazing through this thin, and empty call
Vodka burning my throat
and The Last of it, just ran dry 
But the next time, I will do better to
Stall

Trails of dust chase shadows,
on broken shades 
Fuck this stupid, ass, fate 

Skyline blinking through the mist
So fucking high, so fucking pissed 
The Street lights dance 
on the couch 
My eyes closed now as to focus
Leaving me in a sad, reflective, trance

Hold me, Let’s just dance, till it all fades 
Here in this kitchen where bad decisions are made
Foods all gone. It's cold. 
Wishing you stayed
Please let these needy, voices in my head, (just fade)

Staring out onto a wet sidewalk,
while my world spins out (way out)
Laughs and (Screams), Screams,
and (Laughs), blend together
Lost in the haunted, 
echoes of this silly mind
Searching for solace 
I can't find 

Holding you tight while we watch it all, fall apart
Pulling toward this madness, I no longer have a heart
Who needs a drink?

Hold me close, let’s just dance, till it all fades
(Away)
Here in this kitchen where ugly decisions are made
Please pour me another drink 
Let these Voices in my head (so loud) (just fade)
Fade 

just fade

Let's do some of those
'we shouldn't be doing these things', things 
What do you say?
Need to start doing 
Some of those things 
And more of them 

Let's go out and do some more of those
'we shouldn't be Drinking these, things',
Things
Some more of these things 
More and more 
Of those things 
(Just watch me)

Why don't we, 'smoke a lot more of those things we shouldn't be smoking',  things
Oh yeah a whole lot more of those 

Things, we shouldn't be doing 
It's good for the soul
Help you cast a few curses
Forget all about the goal
Break a few off, 
couldn't make things any worses

let's do some of those


Dear people
I hope you're doing great
I'd like to apologize on behalf of the human race

You see
You've drawn the short straw
here in this apartment 
I promise to cancel all my plans
But let's brainstorm here in this closet
Why can't I just walk away from it?

Let's all move into my shed
I don't know who cares?
Not me
I guess
I forget what I said
O, gotta find us a bed
I'm really fucking sick of people
(sick of people)

I hate small talk where I overthink too hard
tired of talking about the weather
You blew it your way
And they said my favourite phrase
"It's not what you think
Cause
That's according to me"


Why can't I just walk away from it?
Why can't they just walk away?
If there's a home
I'll find it
I'm so sick of people
 (sick of people)

Let's all move into my shed
I don't know who cares
Not me I guess
I forget what I said
O, I gotta find this head
a bed
I'm really sick of people
 (sick of people)

Close your eyes and tell me where it is
They ran away with stolen differences
Close your eyes and tell me where
I'm really fucking sick of people 

really sick of people

not your girl


Strangers passing each other completely unaware
Eyes reflecting in this morning glare
In this, City, where five out of seven are wet
Walking through puddles, down sidewalks that just leave me cold, and bare 

No delayed trains
And no heavy rains
Oh 
If there happens to be a God above
Take me back to a life
that was always nice 
Where I never knew his love
Knew love 

I just wanna see your smiling face
In this worn out, old familiar place (Smells like)
Snowflakes, cigarettes and cat shit
I can see that look
And I am really sorry, for all I took
(From you)

And we sat talkin' for a while
Thoughts and words, 
All pretty meaningless now, in a pile
When I left, in the middle of that night
I could see things were never going to be right
Again 

No delayed trains
And no heavy rains
Oh
If there is a God above
Take me back to A  life
Where I never knew his love 

I just wanna see that smile, you never face 
In this smelly, old familiar place
You have no idea what it took
And you never will 
Got above (god above)
Back to A life 
Where I didn't know his love 

this love


Others have diamonds
Cocaine and video games
I feel I'm worth less (less)
then even the clothes I dress (in)
This appendage, yeah, 
Doesn't work like it used to
I guess, I'm grateful
to even be of service
(Great full)

I'm not the first pick afterward
Consider what a saint you'd be
All this worry, and how I deal 
It's aging me fast (fuck)

I wish I was (Wish I was)
Wish I was enough (Wish I was)
Wish I was enough (Wish I was)
Wish I was enough
Wish I was enough

Sleep with me by surprise
It's like fucking payback for all my sins
Pure depression leads to obsessions
But now I'm here losing my damn mind


The hangover it's ringing in my ear
These Bright days are way to long (thanks)
And the sounds they make will not fucking leave me alone (alone)
While he stays in my brain forever
Kept telling him he would break my heart someday 
(Guess it's someday)

I wish I was (Wish I was)
Wish I was enough (Wish I was)
Wish I was enough (Wish I was)
Wish I was enough
Wish I was enough

enough

(In this moment,) Never been so alone
  Life spinning violently out of control 
 (All these things) 
to numb this soul 
In the end just ruined (ruined)
 took, these moments (important)
What a thing (to behold)

 Dizzy head, (don't know which way to go)
Smoking, throwing out, the window, yesterday's,  cigarettes (full of regrets)

 (The race) is definitely over and 
someone else, got away with it 
(Away with it)
Peace of mind , (all I've, ever,) ran for 
(Could not) have gotten any more lost, (or  forgotten) at this 
(Make believe finish line)

(Heard a man once say), 'that he was
homesick, for a place that no longer exists
Thought,( 'nothing more could be that sad')
Those words, (come back now),
 in an incredibly evil twist

(Songs in this head) are so loud (loud)
Like in an over worked old fashioned jukebox 
(Out of time,) sliding and skipping, for an Overaged crowd 
(Can't seem to find a way), to put it all down 
Filled with empty, self-reflective, (non important) Importance 
Hate the idea, of ever (wearing that crown) 

If there were) two choices left, (please)(leave me out,) don't count a vote cast 
 left to this insecure, (selfish mind) it
will choose the wrong way (every time)
(For us)
without a doubt
(Without a doubt)

out of control

Hey, I feel like this is a thank you 
it's really nice, ( being back on this sidewalk)
I missed this view 
Now it's really over
Plain farewell in my wave and middle finger (fuck you)
When you 
Said, (At least things didn't get stale)


So, 
So long Sally
(And) this old block of town
Got a new room (new point of view)
I'm just actin like it's YouTube
(Slipping on) these same shoes
I'm just (dodgin) all the stupid questions
(And all these silly little lessons)
How it feel to learn em twice
(To learn em twice)
Sad my back tires (don't squeal no more
No more)
(Cause that would be cool)
Fuck you bitch, I (got a new point of view)

I was barely (sleeping)
all caught up in my (lonesome)
Haven't had bags in years 
I blame it on the oxytocin
No real need to pack boxes 
You know I was raised (by a family of foxes)

So,
So long Sally
And This old block of town
Got a new room (new point of view)
I'm just actin like it's YouTube
(Going to go ahead) and 
slip on these same shoes
Continue dodgin (all the stupid questions)
And all these (silly little lessons)
How it feel to learn em twice?
(To learn em twice), ( Twice)
(Sad my back tires) don't squeal no more
(No more)
Moving on now
(Hopefully never see you later) 
new point of view

So,
So long Sally 
And this old block of town
Got a new room (new point of view)
(Got a new room)
It was fun while it was (while it was)
(Fuck you bitch)
Got a new room
I messed up the (solitary late night loot)
Got a new (new point of view)
(Move) movin on 
Hopefully, (never see you later)
(Got a new,) new point of view 

(I love it when these streets) stomp all over me
I can say that it was therapy
(Say one less thing) on your tongue
It's funny how you click when your closed up

So,
So long Sally (Bitch)
(So long)
And this old block of town 
(later)

Got a new room (new point of view)
It was fun while it was
(While it was)
Got a new  (new point of view)


p o v

Dcr3 (re-fuckn'= mastered)

This traffic in my head makes me miss our sleepin time 
But I'm takin 
It in 
I completely denied the crime 
Trying to travel, out of this state 
(Of Mind)
doesn't help because you're there with me in my brain
It's an easy hell from where I run away
From here
to a stain (On the mattress)
Memory can't quit your face
And the love of you

I hope you're sleeping 

Hi
Hello, 
Bravò
Yippee- yo
Ride on, 
Head on
Heartache
That's right
Stand off
There's still a little me in me
The me thought,  to be dead
(Now) 
All the summer love and the lightning bugs are clear 
(Still stains)
Still pretty, feeling better again 

I'm confined, trapped in this space 
still be pretty when I'm dead
And gone away 

Must've been the lightning
Thunder with the rain
What was I saying?

I really miss you
Oh
I guess I'll miss you
Oh
How much I miss you
Oh
I just might miss you
(Couldn't take a hint; can you give me one I took the bait)
Oh
How I miss you
Oh
Do I miss you?
Do I miss you? I miss you
Oh
I miss you

Look at me 
 ' The man who sold the world '
Didn't think that I'd ever meet someone that loves me, like me before
Becoming quite unfurled
knew better, 
than looked
 at the score 

So warm
So open yet heavy on his shoulders
Expressive 
Noted for exaggeration
For feeling every feeling 
At the same damn time 

Yeah

Okay
You get it
But 'til the end


But don't fucking keep my colors
In a box
Need to get to sleep now 
Going to try more shots
Don't think I think about you 
(I don't think I ever could)
Don't think 
(Don't know if I ever would)
Don't think (I think about you)
(Don't know if I ever should)
Baby
Baby

I'm touchy with my past
He makes me say "I miss him" more than I ever had

[

i really miss you


Hey it’s me
Your broke-down, orphan 
inner child 
What’s it been like since
A whole week ago 
You got back in that state of mind 
(Trying to be kind)
Don't forget to take the shelf 
And what is left of the elf
Down 
(Down)
Be kind 

Do you still say "forehead" instead of "foreskin" 
 Cleaning up the mess 
time to begin  
Say "I love you" like it's morning
To random people (again)
When you’re parked in (in) 
your  blue darkness 

Everyone says it was better that they, left me (behind)
But I was the only friend you had this whole time (trying to be kind)
Why’d you have to go and get on that merry-go-round 
Now you’re nowhere near me
 lost your love 
Remind us to check the lost and found

Hey it’s me
Your broken heart
What’s it been like since
I was pounding drinks 
in this smoke filled 
dive bar

Do you tell them you don’t have a boyfriend
But you’re going to have a girlfriend
Since they get mad when you don't
Use it like they're warning 

Hey, it's me
Your beat-up ego
Everyone says you belong on this 
Breaking your face, with a kiss 
Didn’t think you’d come back someday, but I did (but I did)
I will knock it off one day 
Don’t you miss the me that didn't mind crying 

hey, it’s me

that chick / I really miss you. (rmx & mashed)


Watching the rain hit the floor
 the cat chased away in fear 
Broken glass under the door warned you to stay clear 

Your pace is fast now believing in the lips (that)
Without even asking he took last night
Don't let those shoes fail you now 
 
Please, when you leave, 
Don't slam, the damn door   
it might really benefit you to try 
to keep 
From 
Losing 
It 

Put the whisper in your pocket
Go on, get on down the road 
Don't wait for fucking daylight 
(Hope your shoes don't fail you now)
Add up what it is to you
Then subtract the time from Midnight 


Forever destined to swim in this stew 
(looks like)
it's a good time to leave be sure next time 
It's good to not believe In any of these crimes

Take care of it, now please just let me dream 
Walking up, then headin home 
No  worries, thank you 
we don't need anything, nothing more to talk about 
We all know now why you live 
In a drought
And this lean, (lean)
 
Getting real tired, of living life according to you and Your nightmare 

already useda fine tooth comb 
No problem I will not slam the 
God damn door 
HOPE TO NEVER SEE YOU LATER 

please and hope

The Point, Yep missed it
Got bad directions 
 my turn after a thousand times
Lost my return by failing to check in

Almost left them like every day 
Tried to leave it all behind but 
bought yesterday's train tickets
(Had to Stay)

First day of the year helps me let go of all of my excuses (and bad decisions)

Drinking, smoking to a new year
all the time that's been wasted
clock has spun around four times
(Plus 20 minutes)
didn't give a good god damn until December, remembered we had no memories of now
(No memory of now)

Put my silly dreams in my back pocket
When I sat down 
watched them all fall  in the toilet 
before I could even strum a note
Didn't try really 
slitting my own throat

In the bathtub with my cell phone
Took advantage of being homeless 
all the time
But never left home

Drinking, smoking to a new year
 all the time that's been wasted
The clock has spun around four times
(And 20 minutes)
didn't give a FUCKIN damn till December
When we remembered we had no memories of now
(No memory of now)
Ha ha, ha ha, Ha ha 

Now December 

No memory of now.......

too a new year

Hope you find the life you crave.
No ghosts left now in your mind to enslave.
Try to be kind, to the next soul you decide to embrace.
This world right now is in a pretty weird place.

You ruined my favorite song (not easy)
Left me alone, naked, right here
I think, this all wrong 

I will Not be,  the girl of your dreams
I am now forever 
Going to be,  your worst damn
Nightmare (nightmare)

Hope you think of me someday
In your secret hideaway
 (Masturbateing) 
Who knows 
Hey, 
These triggers, might bring us together again 
Despite, in the end, they always hated you the most
(Hey)

You broke every part
Tore the shit, 
out of what was left, of my heart
Now I'm done with the fucking tears
Currently busy battling my own fears 

Quite ironic how,  you now are the one hysterically crying, debating, whether too take your own life

Or Not?   
Here's to you, Man!
Cheers
(Cheers)

Hope you think of me someday
In your secret hideaway 
(Masturbateing) 
Who knows (who knows)
 Hey, 
These fucking triggers might bring us together again 
Despite them, always hating you the most (Hey) in the end 
Hey 

I'm done now (now)
Sometimes, it seems, following your heart 
Means losing your mind (mind)
Getting busy now, chasing down my own damn fears 
So, for now, i'm over it, gonna sit down 
and drink these Rainiers
(Done losing) 
Over it 
(Chasing Down My Dreams now) 
The world is in a pretty weird place (weird place) 
Take care 
in the end 
(In the end)


in the end (pretty weird place)

3:26 AM

Damn it man, 
Why only in these moments 
do I view 
to see what it is, all about

4:21 AM
The gravity of it all
pulls me in a drought 
north up in the sky
Bare, unzips itself
seemingly, leaving me to die

5:20 AM

Nope nevermind I figured it out

Something to do 
with a cigarette Ash
And my lighter in your pocket 

6:36 AM

What phase is the moon in
right now?
Is there a particular 
planetary plow?
Can't seem 
to find my center 

That pull really storming 
now becoming 
A state of mind
(Of mind)

7:47 AM

And, if you have no 
real opinion 
 I have no stock in it (really) 
Anyway 
(Anyway)

But, ummm?

but, ummm?

but, ummmm

Dcr34

I'm sorry, Alice 
For all the hurt I have caused
Words can sometimes fail me
I say the same for God
 (striving to make it right)
Everything I have ever let go of 
Feels 
These
Claws


in the cold ass shadows, I wander alone,
Echoes of your voice,  memory of your  moan.
In a Fun house 
(full of smoke and mirrors) 
dancing around this regret,
In this night, that will not end 
Feeding on dried  sweat and tears 
(good judgment) is starting to bend
In 
The
 End

I bet we fuckin forget 

I'm sorry, Alice 
For all the hurt I have caused
Words can sometimes fail me
Same thing for God
 (striving to make it right)
Anything, 
I've, (I've)
Ever
Let go
Of
Feels these Claws



Smoking cigarettes, looking up at a cracked, hollow moon 
my spirit dies,
echoes of your voice,  memory of your  moan.
fallen down and Up against the wall 
climming somber, out of old skin
my mind in disguise. (Just push it all down)

walking the graveyard of all the broken heart's, I've left behind (past deeds,)
(Striving to make it right)
Haunted by whispers, long ago eyes lookin up in tears 
I see your face, this soul it feeds, my dear
(My dear) it feeds
In the  light, my heart's unrest, beats loud 

I, (I), I

CAN'T

SLEEP 

(Lost in the night,) 
 and in your lean 
a cursed quest.  
(Striving to make it right).....


these claws

sick of people

I don't know how to feel  
about any of it anymore

Anyhow there's nothing left 
Nothing (nothing) 
as I now see
nothing comes with a price

And I'm priced out 
And I'm priced out!

Outlaw country, in my mind 
Punk witch-house, on my lips
 I can't tell him about this bind 
Just need to get a grip
I'm afraid to burn
 this last bridge

But I'm (i'm) I'm

Starting to get over it!

Jesus, is not for free
The fruit is all bruised now left behind rotting on the tree

(Just like me)

My contact high is gone 
I forgot about this one
 (that one) This one 
 (this one) 
Want to be left alone on the lawn 
Just want to bake here in the sun
let my skin blister and burn
till it's all gone

Help me,

I (i) I need a match 
I'm (I'm) I'm
going to burn it all down

 Nowadays it's all up to you
 sick of looking at your frown
 it's just what you mean

About freedom from the nightmare
 Hey, I'm not trying to fit in your lean Anymore

I'm (im) I'm
going to burn it all down 
(Burn it all down) 
This last bridge

this is the last bridge


You got me
Givin' up on mankind
The realest I can find
Is this plastic attachment 
I ask her
"Do you love me?"
She says
"Sorry
I don't understand"
But that ain't what I fucking asked you
Alexa

I hate it,  
piss off
'Cause I've seen it all before
If you have a thought
Ignore it
Push it all down 
Smoke it away 
Just 'cause you could
That doesn't mean you should

I don't wanna have to explain
How I'm not insane
(Anymore)
How 
I'm

Really fucking sick of people
The stupid things they say
Maybe I should go
Pack up and leave
Somewhere where it's quiet
Like maybe outer space
Perhaps maybe the Attic
(Number one, you have the bridge)
That way
I don't have to be here

Where did i leave the vodka?
Really fucking sick of people
The stupid things they say
Maybe I should go
Pack up and leave
Somewhere where it's quiet
 maybe outer space
That way
I don't 
have to be here

I don't wanna have to explain
How I'm not insane (anymore)
How 
I'm

You see (you will see)
We're not the same
We're just not the same
I'm the original
You're a copy of a copy
Of a copy of a copy of a copy of a copy
Of a copy of a copy of a copy of a copy

Not a thought in their head
Not a care in this world
Yeah
They're walkin' around like they're normal
But they're not
Piss off 

'Cause the real ones all know it’s not up to them
Cause it's according to me'
And I don't mean contacts
I mean the ones I bought
Like my boy
Alton
 Brown 
Love
 that 
bitch
But I don't hear that from Alexa
(Running out of ideas here)


Really fucking sick of people
The stupid things they say
Maybe I should go
Pack up and leave
It's not up to you
'Cuz it's according to me'
Somewhere where it's quiet
Like maybe outer space
That way
I don't have to be here

(ANYONE seen the vodka?)
Really
sick of people
The stupid things they say
Maybe I should go
Pack up and leave
Somewhere where it's quiet
Like maybe outer space
(Beam me out of This)
That way
I don't have to be here (nope)
[Bridge]
This song is called
 "Really 
fucking 
Sick of 
People"
(Running out of ideas here)

It's about being really sick of people (so sick)
I wrote it because I'm really God damn sick of people
You know when you're really sick of people?
I thought you might relate to it
Because I'm
Fuck (where's the vodka)
Fucking (fuck)

definitely a theme forming

feel as though his views, are shit
and I know she's, been told (been told)
(Best believe)
They know now, it gets hard, (hard),
to just, get on down the road 

Go sit down 
and look at the ground
Sick and tired
of the bold
And that God damn frown 
(Sit down)

Your words all fail now, falling silent somehow still loud
 don't Mean 
a Fucking 
Thing (now)


No whispers left in the air,
empty memories (everywhere)
I said,sit down and please 
Keep your eyes
On
The
Ground 

stay with me 


Floating forever in our stew,
 (lost in time)
walking a fine, line,  and so damn tiered 
(Of repeating your mind)
I wish they could remember 
but lets say it again, 
it's a good idea 
 To not believe in any, of these crimes


Drinking, smoking way to much
Drifting through a haze of dreams, (fading light)  
wandering the night and smacking into walls
holdin onto to dead moments that seem,  
to never disappear 
(Might be time for some balls)

I feel his views, are shit
and I know she's, been told 
(best believe)
They know now, it gets hard,
 to just, get on down the road

Go sit down 
and look at the ground
Sick and tired
of the bold

forever through a fucking haze, 

looking, searching, for a glimpse of days,
where youth just seemed to call
 light meets night and dreams die
I'm facing 
face 
to 
face 
what I cannot hide
(Eyes on the ground).....
What I can not hide
(Face to face)





tuesday

coming to you from the top of the (206). forever fated to pretend,
 all songs for better or worse,
 written by chad (ex. not your girl and dcr3, sacha totally has those)
 all songs mixed and arranged by chad and the kick ass vision at suno. album cover photos by chad, designed by alex. rock on.

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