Without You

I Don't Believe in god, (featuring Brother Ron)

Screwing it Screwing it Screwing it

Cat Cat Cat Cat Cat Cat Cat Cat Cat Cat

I'm not sure. 
 I know I have plans 
on Wednesday and Thursday,  
So it would have to be either 
Tomorrow or Tuesday.  

[Verse]
However,  (HOWEVER)...
I'm kind of apprehensive 
about the whole thing, 
 because, well,  (because) 
WELL, (WELL)  
here's the thing...
 ( just one little thing),

[Chorus]
I, (i) I
am not your girl,  (NOT your girl)
IM NOT YOUR GIRLL
Nor do I have any intention of being
but you keep coming at me
like, ( LIKE), LIKE
a pissed off boyfriend
(NOT having it)
 And I don't do that

[Verse 1]
  I (i) I

DONT

DO 

THAT

(NOT THAT) 

Like,.... (LIKE).....,LIKE.
I (i) don't even tolerate, 
the pissed off boyfriend routine 
(such a routine)
 FROM, MY,  pissed off boyfriend
(SUCH A ROUTINE)
Let ALONE ANYONE ELSE 
(COME ON MAN)
Come on man!

[Verse 2]
And it's like,....(LIKE).....LIKE
The more times you come at me sideways,  
(stop doing that) WHOA-OH!
The less and less ( LESS AND LESS) less and less,
I'm going to want to hang out with you.  (Less, AND less, AND less)

 [Chorus]
I, (i) I
am not your girl,  (NOT your girl).
IM NOT YOUR GIRLL
Nor do I have any intention of being.
But you keep coming at me,
like, ( LIKE), LIKE
a pissed off boyfriend. (NOT having it)
 And I (i] I  don't do that.

[Bridge]
And you have come at me sideways.
More than a couple of times, 
(PLEASE STOP DOING THAT)
So that's why, (THIS IS WHY),
THIS WHY MAN!
The answers to your questions,
are getting fewer (FEWER) and farther (FARTHER) between.  

[Chorus]
I TRIED!  I TRIED! 
I TRIED!   I TRIED!
(I REALLY TRIED) 
I (i) I 
telling you ,
That you don't want any part of this.
 (NO PART OF THIS)
I can already tell, THAT, 
I can tell
you are way TOO to sensitive.
about things ( EVERYTHING)
to ever be able,
to deal with me.  (ME)

[Chorus]
I TRIED!  I TRIED!  I TRIED!
I tried 
(I REALLY TRIED!) 
telling you
that you don't want any part of this.
 (NO PART OF THIS)
I can already tell, THAT, I (i) I
you are way TOO to sensitive
about things 
( EVERYTHING!)
to ever be able,
to deal with me (ME) me

Seriously.  
WHOA-O

I'm not your girl (featuring Sacha)

I dont know how 
to feel
about any of it 
anymore 
Anyhow there's nothing left 
Nothing ( nothing ) as I see now
nothing comes with a price

And I'm priced out
And I'm priced out!

Outlaw country, in my mind 
Punk witch-house, on my lips 
I can't tell him about this bind 
Just need to get a grip
I'm afraid to burn 
this last bridge 

But
I'm (i'm) I'm 

starting to get over it

Jesus, is not for free
The fruit is all bruised now
left behind rotting on the tree
(Just like me)

My contact high is gone 
I forgot about 
this one (that one)
that one (this one)
Want to be left alone on the lawn
Just want to bake here in the sun
let my skin blister and burn
till it's all gone 

Help me,  
I (i) I need a match 
I'm (I'm) I'm 
going to burn it all down 
Nowadays it's all up to you
sick of looking at your frown
it’s just what you mean 

About freedom from the nightmare 
Hey, I'm not trying to fit in your lean
Anymore 

I'm (im) I'm going to burn it all down 
(Burn it all down)
This last bridge 



this last bridge

Dear God, I said Maris

I don't care for your face

No one wants to hear it straight
But life's a brawler and now I'm late
When I'm bruised when you're bent
It's got us feeling like pocket lint

Stars are dropping out the sky 
Midnight is screaming feeling pretty spry
Scraping by with no defense at all 
Pulling scabs off these scars to break the fall

I'm done with all the fucking games
Done with chasing echoes, faces and names
Fighting for a spark that's long dead
God bless this ringing in my head


My heart burns like a cigarette
Leaving trails that smell like regret
Ashes fly all up in my eyes 
Shit makes me want to cry

Crossed up wires and broken screens
Trying to make sense of the dreams Communication lost in the night
Screaming for some light 

I'm done with all the fucking games
Done with chasing echoed, faces and names
Fighting for a spark that's long dead
God bless all this ringing in my head

i'm done

Clock ticks shallow 
against a lonely wall 
Eyes, dried up, wide and dragging
Gazing through this thin, and empty call
Vodka burning my throat
and The Last of it, just ran dry 
But the next time, I will do better to
Stall

Trails of dust chase shadows,
on broken shades 
Fuck this stupid, ass, fate 

Skyline blinking through the mist
So fucking high, so fucking pissed 
The Street lights dance 
on the couch 
My eyes closed now as to focus
Leaving me in a sad, reflective, trance

Hold me, Let’s just dance, till it all fades 
Here in this kitchen where bad decisions are made
Foods all gone. It's cold. 
Wishing you stayed
Please let these needy, voices in my head, (just fade)

Staring out onto a wet sidewalk,
while my world spins out (way out)
Laughs and (Screams), Screams,
and (Laughs), blend together
Lost in the haunted, 
echoes of this silly mind
Searching for solace 
I can't find 

Holding you tight while we watch it all, fall apart
Pulling toward this madness, I no longer have a heart
Who needs a drink?

Hold me close, let’s just dance, till it all fades
(Away)
Here in this kitchen where ugly decisions are made
Please pour me another drink 
Let these Voices in my head (so loud) (just fade)
Fade 

just fade  (#20)

All that we see or seem
Is just a dream within a dream 
All that we see or seem
Is just a dream within a dream 

Was it all ever real?
The way you allowed me to feel 
All the promises you made 
on that cold December day
Washed in time all forgotten 
Time (wasted) time 
Yet I can still feel the grime 
All in a days dream 
All in a days dream 

With you (with you)
There was always cold rain 
Like ice in my bones 
For you I was in love with pain 
Daydreaming of tombstones
You became my escape 
I want to die without you 
The way you made me levitate

Was it all ever real?
The way you allowed me to feel 
All. The promises you made 
on that cold December day
Washed in time all forgotten 
Time (wasted) time 
Yet I can still feel the grime 
All in a days dream 
All in a days dream 

Standing on the sidwalk all alone
Grey skyline blinking through the mist
With just a broken phone
Wasted promises in my gripped fist

Those empty feelings 
I would see in your eyes
They now live in me
All along, with all along 
(With all along)
Your hollow lies 



that chick ('24 rmx)

Let's do some of those
'we shouldn't be doing these things', things 
What do you say?
Need to start doing 
Some of those things 
And more of them 

Let's go out and do some more of those
'we shouldn't be Drinking these, things',
Things
Some more of these things 
More and more 
Of those things 
(Just watch me)

Why don't we, 'smoke a lot more of those things we shouldn't be smoking',  things
Oh yeah a whole lot more of those 

Things, we shouldn't be doing 
It's good for the soul
Help you cast a few curses
Forget all about the goal
Break a few off, 
couldn't make things any worses

let's do some of those

chad sighs


Dear people
I hope you're doing great
I'd like to apologize on behalf of the human race

You see
You've drawn the short straw
here in this apartment 
I promise to cancel all my plans
But let's brainstorm here in this closet
Why can't I just walk away from it?

Let's all move into my shed
I don't know who cares?
Not me
I guess
I forget what I said
O, gotta find us a bed
I'm really fucking sick of people
(sick of people)

I hate small talk where I overthink too hard
tired of talking about the weather
You blew it your way
And they said my favourite phrase
"It's not what you think
Cause
That's according to me"


Why can't I just walk away from it?
Why can't they just walk away?
If there's a home
I'll find it
I'm so sick of people
 (sick of people)

Let's all move into my shed
I don't know who cares
Not me I guess
I forget what I said
O, I gotta find this head
a bed
I'm really sick of people
 (sick of people)

Close your eyes and tell me where it is
They ran away with stolen differences
Close your eyes and tell me where
I'm really fucking sick of people 

really sick of people

not your girl (end of the year rmx)


Strangers passing each other completely unaware
Eyes reflecting in this morning glare
In this, City, where five out of seven are wet
Walking through puddles, down sidewalks that just leave me cold, and bare 

No delayed trains
And no heavy rains
Oh 
If there happens to be a God above
Take me back to a life
that was always nice 
Where I never knew his love
Knew love 

I just wanna see your smiling face
In this worn out, old familiar place (Smells like)
Snowflakes, cigarettes and cat shit
I can see that look
And I am really sorry, for all I took
(From you)

And we sat talkin' for a while
Thoughts and words, 
All pretty meaningless now, in a pile
When I left, in the middle of that night
I could see things were never going to be right
Again 

No delayed trains
And no heavy rains
Oh
If there is a God above
Take me back to A  life
Where I never knew his love 

I just wanna see that smile, you never face 
In this smelly, old familiar place
You have no idea what it took
And you never will 
Got above (god above)
Back to A life 
Where I didn't know his love 

this love (german rmx)


Others have diamonds
Cocaine and video games
I feel I'm worth less (less)
then even the clothes I dress (in)
This appendage, yeah, 
Doesn't work like it used to
I guess, I'm grateful
to even be of service
(Great full)

I'm not the first pick afterward
Consider what a saint you'd be
All this worry, and how I deal 
It's aging me fast (fuck)

I wish I was (Wish I was)
Wish I was enough (Wish I was)
Wish I was enough (Wish I was)
Wish I was enough
Wish I was enough

Sleep with me by surprise
It's like fucking payback for all my sins
Pure depression leads to obsessions
But now I'm here losing my damn mind


The hangover it's ringing in my ear
These Bright days are way to long (thanks)
And the sounds they make will not fucking leave me alone (alone)
While he stays in my brain forever
Kept telling him he would break my heart someday 
(Guess it's someday)

I wish I was (Wish I was)
Wish I was enough (Wish I was)
Wish I was enough (Wish I was)
Wish I was enough
Wish I was enough

enough

(In this moment,) Never been so alone
  Life spinning violently out of control 
 (All these things) 
to numb this soul 
In the end just ruined (ruined)
 took, these moments (important)
What a thing (to behold)

 Dizzy head, (don't know which way to go)
Smoking, throwing out, the window, yesterday's,  cigarettes (full of regrets)

 (The race) is definitely over and 
someone else, got away with it 
(Away with it)
Peace of mind , (all I've, ever,) ran for 
(Could not) have gotten any more lost, (or  forgotten) at this 
(Make believe finish line)

(Heard a man once say), 'that he was
homesick, for a place that no longer exists
Thought,( 'nothing more could be that sad')
Those words, (come back now),
 in an incredibly evil twist

(Songs in this head) are so loud (loud)
Like in an over worked old fashioned jukebox 
(Out of time,) sliding and skipping, for an Overaged crowd 
(Can't seem to find a way), to put it all down 
Filled with empty, self-reflective, (non important) Importance 
Hate the idea, of ever (wearing that crown) 

If there were) two choices left, (please)(leave me out,) don't count a vote cast 
 left to this insecure, (selfish mind) it
will choose the wrong way (every time)
(For us)
without a doubt
(Without a doubt)

out of control

Hey, I feel like this is a thank you 
it's really nice, ( being back on this sidewalk)
I missed this view 
Now it's really over
Plain farewell in my wave and middle finger (fuck you)
When you 
Said, (At least things didn't get stale)


So, 
So long Sally
(And) this old block of town
Got a new room (new point of view)
I'm just actin like it's YouTube
(Slipping on) these same shoes
I'm just (dodgin) all the stupid questions
(And all these silly little lessons)
How it feel to learn em twice
(To learn em twice)
Sad my back tires (don't squeal no more
No more)
(Cause that would be cool)
Fuck you bitch, I (got a new point of view)

I was barely (sleeping)
all caught up in my (lonesome)
Haven't had bags in years 
I blame it on the oxytocin
No real need to pack boxes 
You know I was raised (by a family of foxes)

So,
So long Sally
And This old block of town
Got a new room (new point of view)
I'm just actin like it's YouTube
(Going to go ahead) and 
slip on these same shoes
Continue dodgin (all the stupid questions)
And all these (silly little lessons)
How it feel to learn em twice?
(To learn em twice), ( Twice)
(Sad my back tires) don't squeal no more
(No more)
Moving on now
(Hopefully never see you later) 
new point of view

So,
So long Sally 
And this old block of town
Got a new room (new point of view)
(Got a new room)
It was fun while it was (while it was)
(Fuck you bitch)
Got a new room
I messed up the (solitary late night loot)
Got a new (new point of view)
(Move) movin on 
Hopefully, (never see you later)
(Got a new,) new point of view 

(I love it when these streets) stomp all over me
I can say that it was therapy
(Say one less thing) on your tongue
It's funny how you click when your closed up

So,
So long Sally (Bitch)
(So long)
And this old block of town 
(later)

Got a new room (new point of view)
It was fun while it was
(While it was)
Got a new  (new point of view)


p o v

I don't know how to feel  
about any of it anymore

Anyhow there's nothing left 
Nothing (nothing) 
as I now see
nothing comes with a price

And I'm priced out 
And I'm priced out!

Outlaw country, in my mind 
Punk witch-house, on my lips
 I can't tell him about this bind 
Just need to get a grip
I'm afraid to burn
 this last bridge

But I'm (i'm) I'm

Starting to get over it!

Jesus, is not for free
The fruit is all bruised now left behind rotting on the tree

(Just like me)

My contact high is gone 
I forgot about this one
 (that one) This one 
 (this one) 
Want to be left alone on the lawn 
Just want to bake here in the sun
let my skin blister and burn
till it's all gone

Help me,

I (i) I need a match 
I'm (I'm) I'm
going to burn it all down

 Nowadays it's all up to you
 sick of looking at your frown
 it's just what you mean

About freedom from the nightmare
 Hey, I'm not trying to fit in your lean Anymore

I'm (im) I'm
going to burn it all down 
(Burn it all down) 
This last bridge

this last bridge (rmx 69.69)

3:26 AM

Damn it man, 
Why only in these moments 
do I view 
to see what it is, all about

4:21 AM
The gravity of it all
pulls me in a drought 
north up in the sky
Bare, unzips itself
seemingly, leaving me to die

5:20 AM

Nope nevermind I figured it out

Something to do 
with a cigarette, Ash
And my lighter in your pocket 

6:36 AM

What phase is the moon in
right now?
Is there a particular 
planetary plow?
Can't seem 
to find my center 

That pull really storming 
now becoming 
A state of mind
(Of mind)

7:47 AM

And, if you have no 
real opinion 
 I have no stock in it (really) 
Anyway 
(Anyway)

But, ummm?

ummm?

but, ummm

Dcr3 (re-fuckn'= mastered)



Bought a dream from a thrift store
Down on Pine 
 (in a small stall)
Paid for it all with a smile
(got a deal after all)
Like a true head, with a new lighter, 
I wore that bitch out
(Strutting the sidewalk), done falling down With all these delusions, of grandeur, (cute)
Point of view (could not be any brighter)

Neighbors' whisper in my head
(Don't slow down)
Believe, I'm gonna find us that bed 
Clearly of mind upon the street 
Swapin my worries
for these funky ass beats 

(Disco ball) in my mind, it keeps
Spinning,  Around 

These smokey dreams, love how you get me high 
No more limits I'm just about 
To touch the sky (in time)
In a world now where the stars align
(Living large), no apology
 Absolutely
No fucking reason why 
(Disco ball in my mind, it keeps)
Keeps Spinning around 

Counting my riches in moments 
Not gold
Time's a fucking thief, no choice 
(Cant fight it),  Lettin it unfold
Let's blow this city to pieces 
all of these stories untold
You'll see how, it eases
Just letting go

Even old delusions can be worth the trip
Dance through life, man
On your own crooked ass road
Smash that mirror ball into pieces
(Just dance)

Love these, silly, smokey dreams, 
I love how you get me high
No more limits, I'm just about 
To touch the sky 
(In a world now), where the stars align
Living large ,(no apology)
No reasons why 

(Disco ball in my mind, it keeps)

Disco ball in my mind it keeps

Spinning  (Spinning) around 
(Spinning)
Spinning  (Spinning) around 
(Spinning)

these dreams

Watching the rain smack against 
the floor 
Catch people runnin for their lives
pace is fast 
When we leave, please shut the door
Smoking holding tight 
believing in the lips (that)
he took the night before 
The center of his affection 
 is getting harder to ignore
 

Please, when you leave, 
shut the damn door   
it might really benefit you to
try to keep 
From 
Losing 
It 
 
Put the whisper in your pocket 
Don't wait for the fucking daylight 
Add up what it is to you
Then subtract the time 
from Midnight 

Forever destined to swim in this stew 
(looks like)
it's a good time to leave 
I will be sure to shut, the damn door

Take care of it, please just let me dream 
Pulling up now and then headin home 
No  worries, thank you 
we don't need anything, 
nothing more to talk about 
We all know now why you live 
In a drought
 
Getting real tired, of sleeping 
In, This, Lean (This Lean)
already used
Your fine tooth comb 

please

Dcr3 (WTF rmx)

this last bridge (Xmas remix)


Hey it’s me
Your broke-down, orphan 
inner child 
What’s it been like since
A whole week ago 
You got back in that state of mind 
(Trying to be kind)
Don't forget to take the shelf 
And what is left of the elf
Down 
(Down)
Be kind 

Do you still say "forehead" instead of "foreskin" 
 Cleaning up the mess 
time to begin  
Say "I love you" like it's morning
To random people (again)
When you’re parked in (in) 
your  blue darkness 

Everyone says it was better that they () left me (behind)
But I was the only friend you had this whole time (trying to be kind)
Why’d you have to go and get on that merry-go-round 
Now you’re nowhere near me
 lost your love 
Remind us to check the lost and found

Hey it’s me
Your broken heart
What’s it been like since
I was pounding drinks 
in this smoke filled 
dive bar

Do you tell them you don’t have a boyfriend
But you’re going to have a girlfriend
Since they get mad when you don't
Use it like they're warning 

Hey it's me
Your beat up ego
Everyone says you belong on this 
Breaking your face, with a kiss 
Didn’t think you’d come back someday but I did (but I did)
I will knock it off one day 
Don’t you miss the me that didn’t mind crying
I'm done now
 Tired of trying 

hey, it's me

coming to you from the top of the (206). forever fated to pretend,
 all songs for better or worse,
100% written by chad (ex. not your girl and dcr3, sacha totally has those)
 all songs mixed and arranged by chad and the kick ass vision at suno. album cover photos by chad, designed by alex. rock on.

Popular tracks by abandoned umbrellas