[Intro and Outro: Sun Ra]
prod. Whoarei

Sometimes its just the world against me
Attended the support, been to every assembly
Been assembling up these spirits just the goal they had to send me
Recovered from the loss, but we still feel empty
Sometimes, (305) never thought I’d survive this
By fighting time and writing just trying to describe this
pain they can’t feel, a scar they can’t heal
A star thats revealed by starving, but still
We pushing forward, aint voluntary
Playing cards with myself, call it solitary
While we try to stay afloat losing monetary
Nah we still got our souls in the ones we carry
The ones thats buried, submerged in our hearts
That keep the spirits high when times is too hard
Who miss you the most cause they loved who you are
The goal is not far, it’s penning this memoir for you
Can you hear me?
Can you listen when I’m spitting it
its Nothing but my life and all about just how I’m living it
The love, I’m missing it
The flows, I’m bringing it
Theres nothing they can do to stop me I ain’t quitting shit
But am I going in the right direction
take a look at my impressive imperfections, aw
am i yours yet?
or will i ever be?
or will you forget?
every memory
Freedom lost, took all my demons and defeated them
Pictures of us, made me cry almost deleted them
Bloody days, bathing in feelings I’m left numb
All stemming from the truth that I ran from
Worst pain on my life eight months before
Recording this, explore it in depth a little more
Papa said he sorry but I promised not to cry
Till eight months ago when my dad committed—

A Better Way (prod. whoarei)

PROD BY PROCOPOLIS

OH YEA SOMOS LOS MUDPILERS

MUDPILERS (with Cola Cartel)

Woke up at the crack of dawn just to kick it with you
Heard that you've been hurting, I pray that it don't continue
I know how anxiety feels and this shit ruined me
So I made a vow that today is just for you and me

See, mama explained every detail
So I called you on the phone, but it went to voicemail, shit
Fuck it I'll just pay you a visit
haven't been in a minute and I've been done reminiscing

Tryna see how you living, I've been pushing it later
Always checking on me, I gotta return the favor
Left a note for Mami said that I'll be back in a bit
Threw my nikes on and made my way to your crib

You and her been separated but living across the street
I've been taking you for granted but now I'm back on my feet
So I went to your building, jumped the steps, I arrived
The door was unlocked so I stepped on inside but

The place was empty and your car was in the driveway
I'm thinking is he here? How the fuck he hit the highway?
I yelled, it's Charlie I'm here to surprise you
but no one was home, goddamn it I couldn't find you

Where you at, where you at
Where you at, where you at
I couldn't find you
Where you at, where you at
Where you at, where you at
I couldn't find you
Where you at, where you at
Where you at, where you at
Neither here, nor there, nowhere cause I couldn't find you

You used to work the weekdays, I figured you were out,
Maybe you caught the bus cause you wasn't in the house
Maybe you ain't have the funds now to get more gas
But you're still trying to work to get that paycheck cashed

And as time passed, I think why haven't I stopped by
You're working for the seniors 'cross the street from that aunt I's
I got my bike, fuck it I'll slide and we'll spend time
You know me, I watch your back, cause you got mine

Mental illustrations prompting nostalgia
Riding down the F, reminding me of my childhood
Fast as I can go so I won't be there without ya
Ain't it beautiful? inseparable is our outcome

Outran my chances, I pulled up and parked my ride too
Remember where you worked, down the hall the right side,
Fewer voices speaking, I hope I'm not lied to
The classroom was empty goddamn it, I couldn't

Where you at, where you at
Where you at, where you at

Swear to god I'm tripping, Falling, risen
Nobody calls a difference, it's my fault I'm distant, no
God I'm asking, where the fuck's my father
No one cares to give a fuck to bother

I'm a wreck from worries, apprehension got me
Ima keep looking for you, they could never stop me
I'll ride across the county, is it the store, is it the bank
Is it the bar, is it your car, is it too far, is it a prank

Checked the alleyways, boulevards, burbs and the streets
Looked all across Broward Hung my head in defeat
So I headed back home, passed your place, felt disturbing
Nothing was different but I could swear you was lurking

Part of me missing, see deep inside I was hurting
Why won't you show yourself to your son, I deserve it
Tonight ill go to sleep but these thought's recurring
Today I couldn't find you but Ima keep searching

Where you at where you at
Where you at where you at
I couldn't find you
Where you at where you at
Where you at where you at
Where you at where you at
Where you at where you at
I couldn't find you
Where you at where you at
Where you at where you at
Take my hand
For one last dance
My old friend
I'll never find another you
Take my hand
For one last dance
My old man
I'll never find another you
I'll never find another you
I'll never find another you
I'll never find another you
I'll never find another you
I'll never find another you

I Couldn't Find You

IX. CrisisInCharge
prod. Gold Haze

Go back to sleep

I’m Dancing on a tightrope but I got two left feet
I’m running out of love man its quicker than a heartbeat
I still feel the gravity so now im on the concrete
Lifes a piece of cake but it tastes so bittersweet
i miss the life but I don’t wanna upset the unseen
I don’t want no fucking cake im not even hungry
Counting more problems than im counting more stars
We may have lost the battle but I still have all the scars

call me CrisisInCharge
CrisisInCharge
We never wanna die we just wanna live large
call me CrisisInCharge
CrisisInCharge
We never wanna die we just wanna live large
call me CrisisInCharge
CrisisInCharge
We never wanna die we just wanna live large
call me CrisisInCharge
CrisisInCharge
We never wanna die we never wanna die so

The past scares me more than it ever should
The past hurts me more than you ever could
I gotta jump high but not ever to conclusions
cause I got a lot of problems with only one solution
Jokes still running faster than Sonic toxic
Sorry if I killed you I was just being ironic
Level lower than Leos whisper lies like chaotic
Tick tock jokes dying faster than your promise

call me CrisisInCharge
CrisisInCharge
We never wanna die we just wanna live large
call me CrisisInCharge
CrisisInCharge
We never wanna die we just wanna live large
call me CrisisInCharge
CrisisInCharge
We never wanna die we just wanna live large
call me CrisisInCharge
CrisisInCharge
We never wanna die we never wanna die so 
I’m getting arrested just like if its motherfucking cardiac
Heart attack won’t live to see the goddamn aftermath
Life’s crashing more than the goddamn Skype chat
I’m a maniac I gotta write another paragraph 
This time it’ll be written in tears
Man its Mid 2017 wrap up my last year 
So I Smoke away the fears but when all the smoke clears
Its A toast to my destruction cheers
8 vids one album respect me now
I don’t talk anymore I just dream out loud
And A mind within is a life without
We all know that it ends but do we all know how
Amen, man I’m sorry for all of the pain
I’m sorry for your loss I just tried to entertain
Poision me with your words then drive me insane
And they still won’t understand cause Ill never explain

call me CrisisInCharge
CrisisInCharge
We never wanna die we just wanna live large
call me CrisisInCharge
CrisisInCharge
We never wanna die we just wanna live large
call me CrisisInCharge
CrisisInCharge
We never wanna die we just wanna live large
call me CrisisInCharge
CrisisInCharge
We never wanna die we never wanna die so 

Why has everyone gone to sleep

Why has everyone gone to sleep

CrisisInCharge (prod. gold haze)

A New Era

for aunt marcie and pops
r.i.p
prod. knxledge and whoarei
feat. RJ

lyrics:

Whats life worth in a sentence is the question that I tell her 
she said its too much to explain, chooser can’t be a beggar
Maybe life would still be worth it if my family was together
But none of that’ll shit matter if none of them live forever

On the hood food chain are we just some tadpoles?
Fighting for survival to be put in a glass bowl
but after everything happened and the story got told
Maybe a life is worth saving if they’re being an asshole

Is the key stuck in their flaws? why cant we just lock them out
you see the writing on the walls, why cant they just talk it out
They’ll wait for my applause as soon as im walking out
they tell me the pain that they’ve caused is not what they’re all about

I forgot that they’re human I dont know what I expected
Life’s been moving at 30 miles in one second
ill put my life in your hands on the minute that its threatened
Help me, would you still fight for me all the way up from heaven 
Tell me

my newest problems turn into an old song
ill take fear and depression and ill prove em both wrong
ill sing my way out these stages until they're all gone
i thought my life was over but the show must go on

We’ve been, down for a while need to get better
Separated now but one day we’ll come together
We can never change the past well, um however
Legends may die but their soul lives forever now,

Now life seems too precious after everything I’ve seen
Man I barely gave a fuck until shit happened to me 
Ive been (where you at)
On the streets for too long I forgot how we
Only got one life left and that, it could be
gone tomorrow

So now my worldview is changing
but the earth staying the same and
Im aching for fucking answers
to take me out this disaster
Im taking all of my chances
And praying ill be fine after

All of this blows over
At least ill get closer
To him and his spirit
But he aint here to hear it
But as soon as I get near him
Ill read him all of these lyrics

Another obstacle, how could I get across it
Life means more now ever since my pops lost his

my newest problems’ll turn into an old song
ill take fear and depression and ill prove em both wrong
ill sing my way out these stages until they're all gone
i thought my life was over but the show must go on

We’ve been, down for a while need to get better
Separated now but one day we’ll come together
We can never change the past well, um however
Legends may die but their soul lives forever now,

my newest problems’ll turn into an old song
ill take fear and depression and ill prove em both wrong
ill sing my way out these stages until they're all gone
i thought my life was over but the show must go on

We’ve been, down for a while need to get better
Separated now but one day we’ll come together
We can never change the past well, um however
Legends may die but their soul lives forever now,

third verse lyrics cannot be transcribed

Yours Forever (prod. Knxwledge and whoarei)

prod. by nate b and charlie bett
dedicated to pops.
Friday, August third two thousand eighteen
The day he passed away, the night he couldnt live to see
So what led up to it is the question they ask me 
It’s a long story, if you read it then youd know what I mean

So my dads stuck in rehab cause he had an alcohol addiction
Nearly his entire life it started from one bad desicion
I was wishin it was fiction when he told me bout his condition 
There was nothing I could do but dad just know that you’re forgiven

So he went off to get the help that he was needing 
and a week before the third is the day that he was leaving 
By now, It’s been a couple months since I have last seen him
so excited for him to see me I’ll never forget that feeling

That night I looked at the stars hoping everything goes right
And me and mom hopped in the car once we saw the sunrise
When I saw him, he told me he loved me never thought it’d be the last time
 I told him that I loved him too two tears filled his eyes, sad Thrills.

On the way back I said I missed him so much that I’d never leave him alone
he told me he missed me more but he couldn’t wait to get home
But I couldn’t help but notice that his tone sounded different
He sounded sad and weak but it was too insignificant

Like is it too late for hope, Well It might be for a while
I tried telling him some jokes, But he couldn’t even smile 
momma dropped me off at his place just to spend some time with him 
she was gon make me go home but she knew how much I missed him

he told me he'd never drink again, which was News to me
We spent hours talking and laughing just like how it used to be
he made us dinner, I was so happy he was home again
and whenever I heard his voice it felt like I was 8 years old again

We took a ride around the old neighborhood  reminiscing
Noticing how different things are since the beginning
My dad loved to entertain, he used to do it for a living
we used to have a family,  now all of its disappearing 

he mention hes going through a lot of pain i was surpised
you get out of rehab a couple hours ago right?
he said it still feels like im just trapped inside
it was like a jail cell, i said dont worry you’ll be fine

listen  Charlie just kill me if I ever get the nerve to
Ever try to harm your mom or if I try to Hurt you
I told him your talking crazy I tell him what do you mean
He said these thoughts can lead to actions that I don’t want you to see

But these thoughts don’t exist
How bad is it
you’d have trouble understanding it
Ive had a couple issues if I tell you won’t handle it
Excruciating pain it’s too much to explain 
I don’t want to hurt you charlie don’t worry bout me ill remain

Fine right just like you told me, he started to cry
i told him shit, im here for you, call me any time
He told me its getting late, he teared up telling me goodbye
it told him ill see him soon two tears fell from his eyes, sad thrills

He dropped me off back home that day, last ride I got from my father
its been a couple days since dad and i saw each other
recently mom and dad were hanging out just like when i was younger
seemed like things were getting better but i just sat back and wondered

why he wasnt smiling often
he texted me bout pills hes popping
Meant to stop his depression, but he told me that it was causing
him even more pain, he took several a day
they had different effects on him he said it drove him insane

like one would make him fall asleep, he was afraid hed never wake up
and one would make him stay awake but feel like he cant escape the 
pain that he was going through, these pills were contradictory
and man if he was drinking while taken them hed be history


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Blue Toe

Sad Thrills

curtainfall1

demo
(prod. Swum) (feat. sydney)

dedicated to amrita, ryan, and alex

Everything you are
Everything im not
necessary swear to god I don’t got it

Everything you are
Everything im not
Only way Is turning pain into profit

Everything you are
Everything im not
aint realize what you had till we lost it

Everything you are
Everything im not
Everything you taught I aint forgot it

Destruction cloud my perception
and yesterdays just a reflection
Of misery living through, the blood spilled
from his mental imperfections, uh
 
Stuck in the cut like infection
The wound from the blade,
These feelings won’t fade
Shit everyday contemplating 
bout these Losses all beyond my comprehension
 
Keep the cap locked like I type in uppercase
Smoking till all of the pain evaporates
Sinking feelings bite away at my sanity 
Minute later now my life’s a catastrophe, shit
 
rapping about my dead family 
They treating it as competition
but I put my life behind these bars
Like im stuck inside the prison

Everything you are
Everything im not
necessary swear to god I don’t got it

Everything you are
Everything im not
Only way Is turning pain into profit

Everything you are
Everything im not
aint realize what you had till we lost it

Everything you are
Everything im not
Everything you taught I aint forgot it

curtainfall2 (feat. sidney antorcha)

inspired by 22 Two's by Jay-Z and 22 Offs by Chance

Summer mornings, some are vibing, some are mourning
the past couple years pushed me to the floor and
I’m tryna sell some beauty some can cherish like a florist
Sometimes I feel trapped, in this never ending forest

Some are falling, some are flying, some are soaring 
somersaulting to find some silver lining
Shit I be telling them its all fine when im lying
Sometimes they can tell but they just keep on smiling

Im too extra, someone noticed when they sum up 
the amount of times I doubt myself from sundown all to sunup
voices in my head I gotta yell to shut up, fuck it
still some Pits in my stomach but im still gon reach that summit
 
just on some sativa to feel anesthesia
To not feel shit cause sometimes Im too defeated
Summoning some reasons to pick up some these pieces
I gotta summarize why im feeling like the weakest.      .      .      .      .      .      .      .      .      
some fun throwaway shit i wrote and recorded last night will be taken down in an hour or so

22 Somes

LOOSIE

Wait up with the drop cause it gotta take time
Hit em with the uzi taking xo tour lives
Put your hand higher like im giving hi five
Got a milli styles but they gotta take mine

On they slow decline, blow like dynamite, 
don’t you try, I might break ya spine
Alright shit im fried, I can’t decide
What the fuck im seeing like im hypnotized but like

In the whip we bumping tom Macdonald
Then I crash the whip because I fucking hate tom Macdonald, aye
Do what I gotta
Call dts if they acting too hostile

Sosa on team Fuck do you mean
This ehs and there’s no in between
Speak on the name and we gon intervene
Circle your block and repeat the routine

I know they problem I know they suffering too much
Call up a doctor we gonna clean em just like if we was a toothbrush
Home movie season homie we dreaming just try to your best to excuse us
We is the reason nobody sleeping we don’t gotta introduce us, 

I got the choppa
It sing like Cola
You niggas snakes
You niggas Cobras(woah)

Ayee, Ayee
Less of a limit
Windows I drive in be tinted
Windows you drive in be rented

Woah, Woah
Graduated from CIT
To who you wanna be
Nah nigga you can’t fuck with me

It was our year, all year
Move lil nigga you ain’t from around here
Big Stunna
Big Stunna
Uh I be with Hunnids up in London uh

Uh uh I need me a ghetto model aye
Project runway 
might Get a ring for her
Nah but someday

I know they problem I know they suffering too much
Call up a doctor we gonna clean em just like if we was a toothbrush
Home movie season homie we dreaming just try to your best to excuse us
We is the reason nobody sleeping we don’t gotta introduce us, wait

Trapping outta yuh’s basement huh
Tracking down the down payment yuh
Y’all just gotta be mistaken huh
Kenny and Charl, there’s no replacement aye

I ain’t got no more patience, uh
Brace, we snatching yall bracelet, yuh
Y’all boys actin’ too complacent, uh
Y’all boys actin’ too flagrant, yuh

ayee
Switching it up
I keep it tucked
They giving shots
We double cupped

021
They don’t know nun
Start off the race
relay’s begun

Second to none
Four letters but we stay at the one
uh, Yeah
Kenny on track everyone on the run
Did what we loved when it’s all said and done

Charlie Bett

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