the improvement with every release is crazy

prod joshwa

i dont wanna talk it out
come over to my crib lets fuck it out
have no interest in what ur doing now
ur no better than the other girls i found
then wait
and let's just slow it down
u always act different when he's around
if ur talking shit its going down
if ur talking shit i will rebound

like stop bae
i dont wanna hear you talk
you said it would be okay
cant even wait another day
this oxy gna make me faint
this feeling i just cant explain
ur love just can't reciprocate
how many more days will i tell u i'm okay
just put ur lips on mine
i looked u right into ur eyes
i love it when u can't decide
it hurts me when i have to lie
u said u wanna run away ill be right by your side
remember u were crying in my arms like everynight

(hook)

perfect [+ joshwa]

prod. caves x hero

Lyrics:

[hero]

ah
and i cannot lose what we've got
i'm clinging to threads weaning off
my body and mind start to rot
guess i'll claw out the ground through the rocks
9 years i don't know what we are
i just know i liked what we were
i'm racing you there to the top
in search of all reason there was

[NAVYXOWER]

i cried
while leaving
and now 
im leaking 
my blood out the needle that you left
im so tired of lying to myself and my friends
floating on a cloud
it felt like i was dying when you walked out the house
i made it my mission to keep you 
but i lost it
my anxiety is running like a faucet

hold
my hand
as we walk 
through the open end
of the world
i hope to see you again
when its over ill dream of you my friend
cutting it close
really dont know what to think about it
my body and heart
were going out i feel it happening
what is it worth
continuing life
without you here next to me
ill meet you there 
in the end of it all i cant believe this is happening

[hero]

ah
and i cannot lose what we've got
i'm clinging to threads weaning off
my body and mind start to rot
guess i'll claw out the ground through the rocks
9 years i don't know what we are
i just know i liked what we were
i'm racing you there to the top
in search of all reason there was

and maybe i never will find it
and maybe i never should want to
maybe i miss all the writing
but maybe i'm just missing you

~

AND I CANNOT LOSE WHAT WE'VE GOT
I'M CLINGING TO THREADS WEANING OFF
MY BODY AND MIND START TO ROT
IN SEARCH OF ALL THE REASON THERE WAS

irreplaceable (ft. navyxower)

Production + being an awesome af person - @whos-that-clown
Production - @Prod5head
Lyrics + Vocals + Mixing/Mastering - Alexis LeVay(HeyLee Manzeron)

I wrote this song as a spritual successor/sequel to a song I dropped many years ago. This one is about looking back at life when you're running out of time, and regretting how cruel the life experience was, but also being thankful for just still being alive at all.
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Lyrics:

I’m thinking ‘bout the wasted years
And I’ll watch my life just disappear 

I’m a golden fish in contaminated water
I’m sorry to my Mom, I was not a better daughter
I’ve been shouting at the sky, but I never got an answer
Crippled and decayed from the aggravated cancer
No
I don’t need this toxic bullshit
No
I’ll will live to forget this moment

You’ll never go through what I’ve been through
And it’s something I’d never hope for you
These nightmares I behold are true
Like Christchurch, I will crumble too
Like the hindenburg disaster, I’ll be falling faster
Flatlined, 29, staring down the casket
Imma go down smooth like Primo in a glass(uh)
You’re six feet deep, can’t fix it with a plaster

You think that you’re safe, but you’ll never get a pass(uh)
Life is a skill that’s impossible to master
Death is relaxing, it hits you with that blaster
One moment you’re here, then you’re breathing in your last one
Well, ain’t life a bastard? Ticking down faster
Every single thing you grow to love with never last(uh)
Every single day just gets harder
But I’m still here, poppin’ ass to Nova Garden

I’m a golden fish in contaminated water
I’m sorry to my Mom, I was not a better daughter
I’ve been shouting at the sky, but I never got an answer
Crippled and decayed from the aggravated cancer
No
I don’t need this toxic bullshit
No
I’ll will live to forget this moment

I WILL FORGET THIS MOMENT! | Prod. The Sound Clown + 5head

Lyrics:

enough with character development
done with the lessons
i learned to just parry her
i'm growing up she abandoned her courier
of all types of pain
i think i am a carrier

you ripped the value right out of my soul
my sprite mourns its flesh and bone
in the corner of your room hangs what's left of my ghost
of a final hour i think it holds hope
you're gonna reap what you sow
you'll next wrap my carcass in rope
if you want to be gone so bad then just go
if lust is love to you, love's your subterfuge

but i deserve to know

sayonara
send me a postcard
cuz life's feeling different
and i need assistance
i need a friend who would travel the distance
she's not ever coming back
we're not ever coming back

postcard (hateful)

everything by me

Lyrics:
happy birthday baby
no one else cares lately 
at least thats what u told me im crazy
dont u dare
i do nothing but stare
at the photos our hands
interlocked i cant stand 
why would you say that
now i just cant
couldve gone without knowing 
are u proud cuz its showing
ive already moved on 
cuz you wanted me gone 

its not my fault
i told you id
keep you in my heart
but when u push me away
do u really think I could stay?
I just hope your okay 
okay okay okay
i hope ur in a better place
it sounds so cliche

I shouldve been what she needed
not at all what we wanted
i wonder if you act conceited 
now that im right where you want
 
i feel so pathetic
i always reject it
i got nothing better to do
suffer think of you
wonder what to do
was I wrong about us?
god my head hurts so much
bring it all onto me at once
i just want it done
we both fell out of love  

*You havent changed
You just think you have*

swear i gotta heal all over again
i should hate you atleast thats what you said
hope what you said comes true
dont wanna think of you
you never had a clue
what to do
you'll always think im rude
i never quite got used 
to being alone or loving you

I'm not heartbroken anymore >,<
shoutout Mrs. Shea
shoutout resident evil

happy birthday

lyrics:

What if I made u a promise
To always be faithful and always be honest
Would u have matched me and would u have meant it
I know when u lying girl dont even try it
I take agreement from out of that silence
I hope that know just how serious im about it
If I should die here im haunting the grounds
And If I should die here and taking you off it

What if I went out to work and the shaft had collapsed and I never came back
What I came home at 12 for u thought I would be and u sitting on his lap
Maybe I lift up my axe and I clock in at home just try picturing that
Im getting under his bark and im counting the rings and im eating the fat

Hold up im stepping it back im playing it back now im taking it back nah fuck it
Im tryna see how he works im gonna take him apart and try putting him back
How could u fuck up this home we were lively and warm now u dead in a sack
Fuck it Im burying u by the bridge so u bounce off the boats and fill up with rats

What if I went out to work and the shaft had collapsed and I never came back
What I came home at 12 for u thought I would be and u sitting on his lap
Maybe I lift up my axe and I clock in at home just try picturing that
Im getting under his bark and im counting the rings and im eating the fat

Ive grown tired
My hands rest wired
Tied up
Ive nothing
To regret I love it
So much
Four walls holding
My soul I almost
Threw up
This moment
My rage ceast growing
So much

What if I went out to work and the shaft had collapsed and I never came back
What I came home at 12 for u thought I would be and u sitting on his lap
Maybe I lift up my axe and I clock in at home just try picturing that
Im getting under his bark and im counting the rings and im eating the fat



what if (sorrowbringer)

Lyrics -

If ima fuck it up then shit, let’s do it over supernova stuffed inside this blunt
If there’s a salad in this bitch, no point to do it over lunch
But I can tell you missed the point and damn this roach is almost done 
let’s keep ‘em in rotation so we don’t run out of fun 
As I stand before the barrel of your gun 
All sensations lost my body weakens, I go numb 
It’s like I’ve seen something i know I  shouldn’t have now I’m stuck 
I was comfortable love, haven’t you ruined enough 

I get this sense of neglect right when you enter my mind 
Isn’t it obvious we’ve wasted our time 

Look how i fucked it up again 
Now the memories are ashes in the tray beside my bed 
Shit I took it to the head 
And leaves my conscience feeling fresh 
But that’s never what I get 
Now I don’t know

The Ruiner

produced/mixed by @daywxtch, @siahhenderson
written by @daywxtch, @siahhenderson

samples used:
https://youtu.be/mdZ8wtsSvwI?si=t__x6argNPE23dwL
youtu.be/13-Wn02ESDo?si=ogytjyfWVMSo_Ro0 (pretty much my tag now lol)
(+some audio clips of me and my friends)

lyrics:
[@daywxtch]
you 'gon have to speak up to get away
grip onto a speaker to blow my brain
you don't have to try hard if it's art
everything i make i wanna share 'til it's ours
post it on the cloud 'til i know who i are

i want, i want you now
you know, you know you're proud

i want, i want you now
you know, you know you're proud (OH MY GODD, OH MY GAHHHHH)

the words should've stayed in your mouth
it's fine, cus i don't leave em round
you got me screaming in my car
got a new way to cope with my emotions
what you said stuck in my head like i BOUNCED it
it's to the point where i barely think about it
they just find a way to sneak in between momments
you say everything that come outta my head is SHIT, who would've thought i'd be an artist

(always gotta say something 'bout me)

[@siahhenderson]
who would've thought I'd been an artist
cant be the only way to solve this now
the thought showing art 
it haunts me
I'm never gonna let it 
put me down
staring at the all does it look back
if i give my all will it come back
I'm not sure if i know the world

breakdown see the numbers
reshape through my blunders
sleepwalking
I'm done talkin
too damn cold at the top of the summit
even if it feels impossible
i could never let it go for you

[@daywtch]
i'm steadfast, quick ask, Q&A
baby, i be bumping your tracks, hearing aid
baby, i feel like a new man off these 808's
i got nothing to demand, i just wanna play
everybody makes art just to entertain
i just wanna make art til it's ours

featuring @solrisyours
produced by michael harrison
artwork by @safehavendot

@1axhelini:

i should've known
that it won't work
all the memories we've made
all the things that we've shared
i used to call you a friend
but now i get offended
WHEN I HEAR YOUR NAME
our friendship withered
like a rose in winter
i was laying injured
you just let me bleed

laying all alone
after you left me stranded
say, are you not entertained?
just-
don't call my name
cuz i don't-
NO I DON'T WANT TO-

i don't want to try
i don't want to try
i don't want to try
i don't want to try

it took a lot of strength
to be okay
don't know
what'd you expect?
(what'd you expect?)
wont ever be the same
so don't call my name
cuz i won't be there

i never thought i'd lose you 
with a single word
hope we meet again 
at peace in a different world

@solisyours:

bones fractured, what i’d do to you
made it what you wanted
my body holds it’s weight as i
find you with your fangs out
look at me i’m a waste now
just shut up you’re too loud
i can’t stop this screaming
only watch you as you’re bleeding

axhelini - rose (ft. solr)

prod me

lyrics

bones crack like a freshly lit vase off the cliff
thats okay
cuz u never wanna see my face
u never wanna sit under the rain
i promise that it wont be boring bae
baby
whats wrong? is it smth i did?
at least ur in my arms
ur not in his
theres like a trillion ways to prove my innocence
instead ill wipe the slate clean and rinse

leave my arms open for a little bit
ur hate was so relative
we know that its all not sunshine
tell me why i am so pissed

get me outta here
why she always talk
i think shes cheatin
cause we never call
my heart feels so frozen
it has seen better days
and it has no color
the world around its just so gray

gray

ill get really mad at myself
its both our fault, we both fell
theres no deceit in my eyes
i guess my fates jeopardized

get me outta here
why she always talk
i think shes cheatin
cause we never call
my heart feels so frozen
it has seen better days
and it has no color
the world around its just so gray
i think im in opposition
mind and heart are not positioned
all my songs got repetition
why do people even listen
leave everything else behind
u know two wrongs dont make a right
why wont my wings just take flight
i could soar right through the sky

jeopardize

prod. (hxrxkiller)

dont have money for the good master but hope yall like it <3

lyrics:
tell me how it feels to be distant
ill tell u how it feels to be different
lets match up our scars 
baby pick up the knife
lets see whos gonna
cut the deepest
(oh no)
imma say i hate u cuz
i love u too much
u gonna say u hate me
cuz u wanna move on
im standin up here w ur spit on my face
why u keeping ur mouth away from my name?
(X2)

i wonder if things would be different
if i payed attention to my own interests
instead of bein ignant to the words she was missin
n wonderin if im hittin from the right position

cuz ive been hearing all the whisperin inside of my head
baby i wish you knew how ive been running my thoughts
till my conscious is dead cuz my mind
doesnt like to make sense anymore

tell me how it feels to be distant
ill tell u how it feels to be different
lets match up our scars 
baby pick up the knife
lets see whos gonna
cut the deepest
(oh no)
imma say i hate u cuz
i love u too much
u gonna say u hate me
cuz u wanna move on
im standin up here w ur spit on my face
why u keeping ur mouth away from my name?
(X2)

jeopardize

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