an ode to 2017-2018 :)

I’ve held my tongue for way too long, I don’t know how to fight
But I’m not in the position I was in when we found my mind
I constructed whatever hell I’m in right now
And been stuck in this place for god knows how long now

I’m sorry shit ain’t goin your way, but I promise you I feel worse
I’m sorry that you’re limited by somethin else, but I couldn’t be fucked

It’s all so simple, all so great, it’s all so in front of you right?
It never worked out for me like that (x2)

ay it never worked for me like that (x4)
it’s all so simple

I know I’m apathetic, but I’m stuck inside myself
And all I can do is watch in horror as I wreak-
Everyone I know, they hate me, they don’t know
But one day their true colors will just show

I’m sorry shit ain’t goin your way, but I promise you I feel worse
I’m sorry that you’re limited by somethin else, but I couldn’t be fucked

It’s all so simple, all so great, it’s all so in front of you right?
It never worked out for me like that (x2)

Worse

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Lyrics

I can’t pretend that everything is okay
I’m pulling out my teeth from all the pain and agony 
To try and keep my mind away from everything that keeps me up at night

So I’ll run away and hide my face and Cut my hair
And hope for a better life
But it’s too late for change 
I’m still useless I’m not good at anything 
Except for fucking up

I’m scared of the day I wake up 
And I’m 18
All alone im scared to death can Someone save me
In this world so cold
I hide beneath my sheets
Cause it’s hard to breathe when the monsters lay beneath your feet

And I can’t sleep at night 
When demons haunt my dreams
So come say your goodbyes 
Don’t think I’ll make it pass 
20 something

scared of the day i wake up and I'm 18

I'm scared of the day i wake up and I'm 18 [prod. 93feetofsmoke]

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@sybyr

produced by @prodraccoonz & jconthetrack

feed the earth (ft. CXRPSE + Sybyr) (prod. raccoonz + jconthetrack)

prod. flu5h

i just met you i might know you i dont think  
tour around the fuckin city baby we live life fa free
iss the cat and his new piece lets get right into dis new ink
i dont care about yo past im jus hopin u stay in sync
i never cared about the money bullshit dont mean shit to me
lets get out of these shit places that we call a place of peace
never cared about yo father he dont meant jack shit to me
all he do is look at me
he cant keep a buck on me
i said u funny bitch
u got ur ways i said u cunning bitch
i dont need yo dad money
jus fuckin love me bitch
i dont care if u got hoes
yo loop im stuck in it
we tied in different ways and we just end up right back at this shit

walkin round lookin for ha she swear she like me
u not like me
u cant pretend u like me
i jus felt your bliss
im enticed to it
its been a hot minute since i ever felt just like dis
we stay on the pages of this book we keep on flippin
evil girl she grins
i said ooh lah lah wit a dip in it
u fuckin wit him 
while i keep puppetting deez bitches
we end up back in the sanction that our brains got stuck up in
that our brains got stuck up in

siamese

frostbite - 7xvn

"i sew myself back together"
prod me 
vocals by me
mixed  by me

standin in the closet where my blood trickles down
im in feedback hell i cant get it down
another day procrastinate the pistol in my mouth
i dont even want to die my players maxed out

you sat and watched me crumble to no avail
you burned a fucking hole in my heart i cant heal

standing in the doorway while your blood trickles down
its more than just a heartache
my whole world is spun around
im ugly when im with u 
just as pretty when i miss u
theres nothing that you could do for me to ever forgive you 

standin in the closet where my blood trickles down
im in feedback hell i cant get it down
another day procrastinate the pistol in my mouth
i dont even want to die my players maxed out

you sat and watched me crumble to no avail
you burned a fucking hole in my heart i cant heal

selfsurgeon

delusion, confusion |prod. grayskies

AND I WITNESS THE TREE REACHING INTO THINE OWN TRUNK TO PULL THE DAGGER WHICH SLAYS THE TREE REACHING INTO THINE OWN TRUNK

got a cold steel underbarrel shootin 12 gauge
i ain’t ever gettin locked up can’t keep me in a cage
tweakin off that pack exotic got me feelin strange
double park your ass outside the club n light you like some sage

these pussies soakin up the sun
im runnin round bladed at night i’m tryna get myself some funds
feel my vision gettin blurry offa concoction of drugs
his fuckin block must be a rubiks cube the way it gettin spun

back to my motherfuckin palace
grew offa drugs feelin sumn like alice
big bud puffin till my lips get callous
four white walls get caught in the malice
ugh

every second that i waste another bag i didn’t get
money dancin in my eyelids i been dreamin bout a cheque yeah, ay


put a soul in the tree when i hang ‘em out in the woods
hit up by a junkie faggot he payin me for the goods
me and noah most hated they knowin that we some crooks
the shit i done is historical could read about it in books

i got floki on the rings, 925 into his face i’ll make a rapper start to sing

shouts out to mark would pay me 80 for an 8th
nowadays i debate with the streets will my rent be paid 

backpack is carryin a dagger and some crystals like a sorcerer
kaisal on the beat make me a torturer

INFERNAL NEXUS (KXISAL)

lyrics:

wait for night, the sound
way, don’t know
i’m praying for nothing
nothing at all

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...heavily inspired by quannnic

THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR PATIENCE!
[[HARM.2//SOON]]

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Here comes the red.. 
Here comes the black.. 
Here comes the things that keep on pulling me back 

And it hurts me 
All these thoughts in my head, need a surgery 
To the tip of my tongue is a question 
Will i ever know lessons? 

LIES 
SURROUNDING MY MENTAL REALITY 
CRIES 
AS THE PURITY CRUMBLES INSIDE AND IT DRIES 
EVERYDAY THE DECAY IS BEATIfedefefefdwxfqxsNG AT MY MIND 
I THINK ITS TIME TO RIP MY BODY FROM MY SPINE (higher/faster) 

BABY WE SO CRAZY 
AND ALL OF THE THINGS THAT HAVE MADE ME 
MAYBE WE SHOULD JUST SAY “FUCK” TO THE TRAGEDY OF MY MAKING 
WHY WOULD ANY OF US LIKE TO HAVE BEEN BORN? 
ALL THE PAGES WE SAY WERE ON THEY ARE OFFICIALLY TORN 
IM GONNA LYNCH YOU 
FRENCH YOU 
PUT WHAT I AM WORTH DEEP IN YOU 
I’ll MELT LIKE PLASTIC 
SPASTIC 
IN YOUR STOMACH ACID 
MERGE WITH 
EGGS 
TO FEED YOUR CHILDREN THIS MORNING 
A SIDE OF BREAD 
SOMETHING COLLAPSE 
SHIT KEEPS PULLING ME BACK 

I AM YOUR DEEPEST 
YOUR DARKEST EXPERIENCE 
I KNOW WHAT YOU 
GET OFF TOO 
ITS TIME TO EXPOSE THE TRUTH 
THAT 

I CHANGE MY EMOTIONS 
DEPENDS ON THE POISON 
EFFECTS ALL MY CHOICES 
THE REST IS JUST NOISES 
BUT 
IRONICALLY I MAKE NOISE 
ILL MAKE YOU MY LITTLE TOY 
PULL YOUR HATE FROM MY RIBS 
WHO ELSE IS GONNA GUIDE THESE KIDS? 

When the earth dies and the sun fries 
Who’s gonna guide your kids 

FACE YOUR WORLD 
DONT FACE YOUR FACTS 
IF YOU DECLINE ILL TAKE YOU BACK 
ILL GRAB YOUR NECK NOW WATCH ME CRACK 
ILL PULL OUT EVERY TEETH AND PLAQUE I 

TAKE EVERYTHING THAT YOU THOUGHT OF ME AND THEN I BURN IT 

PICK YOUR POISON

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MEZOFADE [PROD. RIOT_ANGEL]

HARM.2//SOON

@MFNF

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