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Earl Stan - Nightmares

BLOODSTAINS

LSD with Dante X

@rivilin

Lyrics

Were sick of being just used by the ones that we love
Wont you say a quick pray and give our souls to the wind
So light a match in the dark and reach a hand out to me
Losing grip over time this god gave up easily

A drug fucked mess at the alter, no your prays no they don't, don't deceive me
I'm feeling sick from all this pressure, from the ones who say they care
I watched my family be abandoned by the church who said they'd be their
Even my family that my mother used to love, abandoned her when she was in need

I'm sick of being betrayed by a lover, so disgusted am I
I've became resilient to the affection that they deny through their eyes
Where were you when my mother needed help and my brother was so suicidal back then
I was just a kid trying to keep this family together but it wasn't enough

Tainted my blood with some DNA chains
Addiction runs in me genetical fate

My blood is so tainted
I can't help to crave it
I'm drowning in vomit when I be awakened

Abusing myself and I keep coming back
Sophia I'm sorry I left in a flash
I promise I miss you but shit I got issues
I'm trapped in this cycle of booze with a screw loose

I feel like everyday's the same
I say it every song cuz I mean what I say, aye
Like I'm tryna the face pain
But when its coming in the same wave, everyday
I feel just crushed by weight
Its hard to fucking stand up let alone feel okay
I know I feel disdain
At my own life so I fight it every day

I miss your face
The excited gaze
These autumn leaves, ain't feel the same

I lost it all
I gave it up
For a dream, no regrets, but fuck it sucks

I make mistakes
I feel the pain
Associated with me to blame

My life is fucked
Deep rooted mud
God gave it up, and I had enough

Were sick of being just used by the ones that we love
Wont you say a quick pray and give our souls to the wind
So light a match in the dark and reach a hand out to me
Losing grip over time this god gave up easily

Sophia

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$LOTHBOI x Rivilin - Sophia

Thank You For Everything

How do I relive a life again
I dont know if I'll redeem my sins
We lasted like diamonds in the rough
Dark days, nearly lost my head
Hey you have begun to escape this
Pain thats seeping through
With no eyes at my witness
I could end it too

What if I begin to lose
And I'm slowly giving up
When I know its not enough

It's not enough to replace it
This hole inside my chest
When every thought is invasive
Breaking down in my regret
I've been surrounded by faces
Strangers I don't recognize
But nevermind, you were never mine
I think its for the best
I need to let it die

I'm losing it all for you
I've never felt so consumed
The life that we had secure
Was our chance
To be so much more
Hey baby I don't feel so good
Keep saying gave it all I could
If 10 years is before I die
I'd still give you all my time

It's not enough to replace it
This hole inside my chest
When every thought is invasive
Breaking down in my regret
I've been surrounded by faces
Strangers I don't recognize
But nevermind, you were never mine
I think its for the best
I need to let it die

Days Gone ft. Riverkinn

Thank You For Everything

I'm breaking apart as we go
I've never seen down this road
As the cracks are seeping in
Please, help me within
Maybe it's all  over my head
Feeling like this is the darkest of dread
That I cannot escape
Trade my life if I could save you

What have I done, who have I become
Staring right back at the edge of the gun
What if I stay, look the other way
Saving myself at the end of my days
But know, this ain't the end
Fill my heart with love and suspense
Where were you when I tried

cast your stones, they dont hurt
i’m here at the stake where i like to burn

and it seems like a problem
im drinking this solvent
to fight off my demons
though i want to call it
too much of an addict
a sick alcoholic
i live in disease
Because there’s no cure

wounded wasted
hating this basement
the change in your faces
dont tell me i’m pure
i fought angels
through pleasures and mangers
i wanted the dangers
and i was so sure

What have I done, who have I become
Staring right back at the edge of the gun
What if I stay, look the other way
Saving myself at the end of my days
But know, this ain't the end
Fill my heart with love and suspense
Where were you when I tried

Beautiful Disguise ft. s0cliché

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Lyrics:


I, pick myself up

Lose myself cause

I live in irony

Talk too much but...

I feel anxiety

I feel fucked up


What is it you're telling me?

I am not a fan of it

Spoke to the devil and he told me he's not having it

Insanity.

Did it all again and I'm not getting it.



Solopsism slipping in my conscience

Can't feel the endorphins

Get sidetracked into the boredom



I was in the elevator

stare at my reflection

glass broke into shards

began to say my confessions

the lights went dim

I felt the evil in his presence

distorted frequencies

I see him peak in through the crevice.



He asked me for my name and I just stood still

elevator purgatory

I was never fulfilled

Touching my blade, thinking If I'm a person who could kill

It's an option on my list only used for good will


He told me we're not going anywhere without request

my eyes rolled back I had to puff my chest

I could hear them saying my name but I couldn't respond

this elevator trip was lasting way too long.


Now I'm talking to myself

when I'm fucking my health.

and I'm not getting the help

can I really call this wealth?




I say it's not affecting me,

when I got no one next to me

am I being honest

If the devils who's protecting me? 



Puts his hands on my shoulders,

As the elevator goes up,

Make no stops on any floors from 01

The door opens, I never saw the sight of no one.

How can I create and live a life with no love?

VyOk - Elevator (Prod.DISBL1ND x INFELIX)

Since You're Going Away [feat. s0cliché]

Walking on a tightrope in the end
Been looking at the way down from the air
It may be time to ease the pain
Broken stride caught in the rain

Just leave me to die
I let my soul weep
Paralyzed that part of me
Blind eyes that can't see
All the shame within
Dark days are too loud
Uneasy right now

Baby will you stay forever 
Dont rip my heart out
Before it's empty 
Cause you're worth more than life
The shattered glass of mine
Reflect a better time

If I don’t do something right
I may disappear
I’ve been lining up the white
Look in the mirror
I couldn’t see my reflection
My course in need of correction
I’ve been hanging by a thread
Don’t look at me unravel
You’ve been running through my head
I’ve been kicking up gravel
To keep up with you
We made it through the summer
Make no sudden moves
No telling what I might do

Just leave me to die
I let my soul weep
Paralyzed that part of me
Blind eyes that can't see
All the shame within
Dark days are too loud
Uneasy right now

Baby will you stay forever 
Dont rip my heart out
Before it's empty 
Cause you're worth more than life
The shattered glass of mine
Reflect a better time

Ad Nauseam ft. RiverKinn (prod. 52Blu)

My Girlfriend's Got Wires

Come burning

Gustav Ahr's Album

giving girls cocaine w/ lil tracy (prod. horsehead)

Smells Like Teen Spirit | Bass Boosted Remix

Cheers to my mans 
https://soundcloud.com/sepha-joey

Lyrics:

Rivilin
--
there’s something creeping down my bones
I think it’s you cus you’re the only who makes this your home
I don’t wanna know where you are
your drowning at my thoughts, but I think that I know I’m alone

I know I’m something that you discard
just like my father I was never fucking worth it in the end
my skins peeling off my fingertips
I think I’ve had I enough, I know that you wish I was dead
 
twinkle little star
how could I ever reach this far
wont you cut me up
break me down and say I’m all yours

manic depressed in the brain I’m fucked anyway can’t live a day without thinking I’m insane
these walls are breathing all again I see these faces laugh in the end
at me and I think it’s all pretend but deep down they know there alive inside me
breathing, changing, morphing me into something I hate

I can’t take it anymore man I wanna say that I’m ok but I’m not
I’m breaking down on the daily, shaking everyday I feel like I’ve lost
its ok, its ok, I never mattered anyway, just a fucked up in high school
lost where I wanted to be, lost what I wanted to see cause of you

family petitions to get admission into mental hospitals I hate
cause they don’t wanna see me anymore they can’t deal with this manic state
waking up in my bed alone, waking up all again its shown
that I have no faith in you, I don’t have faith in my own soul

where I do go in this journey, where do I turn when the path just always ends
with you and me facing each other turning pages I can’t mend
all these scars there shown deep down in my skin
I feel like, I’ve lost again

SEPHA.
--

Another 9 to the 5 
Another break to the bottle 
Break my pride and throttled
From the dust
Of the drab 

I’m Living for someone else
Im living someone else’s struggle 
Head gains weight and strains 
I’ll take a flight 
From my brain
Medicate - Play ur game

Well
Talk buys time in murder
Escape u then I’ll serve ya
Night sky beats like a war drum
It beats my ears 
In demon hums 
It treats my deer
To forest scum 
Consumed by willing forces
Participate In Clauses 

alarm beats 20 times
Out of speak out of rhyme 
Wake up 
Get to fuck
Another day 
Another grind X2
Fuck.

Bad taste (Ft. SEPHA.)

Lil Peep - R.O.O.T (Peep only)

prod. born hero
🖤Sinna🖤
@sinnagacci
☠️https://www.instagram.com/ihatesinna/
🖤pyrrhic🖤
@dearpyrrhic
☠️www.instagram.com/dearpyrrhic/
lyrics:

Loner (Murder/Suicide P.II) (feat. Sinna)

Contact/Inquiries: chiefkellymusic@gmail.com

Beautiful Disguise ft. s0cliché

Chief Kelly

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