My homie: https://soundcloud.com/uglyfuji
https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

when I touch you my hands they start to shake
you’re quiet now I know im the mistake
you don’t really love me that’s ok
I wish you would have told me instead im just played

im freaking out over my stupid dumb ways
say you don’t care but you still wanna stay
I’m covered in ice but I melt to my waste
the great pretender am I so take

my emotions and my shitty fucking guilt
take a sip of this double cup and fill
this empty void inside my chest fill it with drugs and ill reset
my memories and my emotions as we bury it further down

so punch me in the fucking face
you just take and take and take
hows it feels to scream my name
what the fucks that meant to mean

yeah I love your fucking hate
yeah you’re filled with jealously
yeah cus all you do is just take
what’s left of my memory

-ugly fuji

I’m Wasting away 
I feel like nothin 
I’ve got shit to say 
but I can’t get the words out

Push me away 
Push me away 
Tried to be there for u 
but I don’t think that I should stay 
Push me away 
Kiss on my face 
Tell me was I worth it 
Or should I just be replaced 

Numb the pain With different strains 
I been feeling so fuckin strange 
Out my head I’m out my brain 
Think I need to take a break 
Think the words were all too late 
Im all alone do u relate 
When I’m alone I’m in a state 

Oh

Punch Me In The Fucking Face Ft. Ugly Fuji

Big love to:  https://soundcloud.com/akacarpenter
https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

mentally fucked in my own way devil wanna maintain 
another connection with me so I just cannot sustain
stomaching another fucking lie 
like you pull me into the abyss and smother out my eyes

playing naughts and crosses on my arms to tell if im alive
I don’t really feel the pain so I still question my life
so the devil tells me its just the god that I have to blame
gave me too much self-awareness so I think I am insane

seeing double fucking vision of the knife to my neck yeah
question if I really want to do this but I know that I just won’t
cus im a fucking coward yeah I admit, 
I couldn’t defend my friends, they let go in a fucking minute

tell me have you ever seen a flame extinguish by self-loathing
watch the light go out of their eyes as you know they’re not coping
so we sit in this room, watch the water rise above our necks
yeah I can’t catch my breath yeah I can’t feel a fucking thing

so I detest
about the way you fucking look at me, I feel your eyes burning so deep
and I confess
I couldn’t stand the way you spoke to me so I just cut off and fucking 
left this hell
where you welded shackles yeah all around and now im sinking further down
into myself
im building a wall above around my head so I hope i don’t let you fucking in

- AKA Carpenter

Oh, creep in the skin like an insect
Finding my solace I lay in the nest
and I soar like an albatross, I rest in the air

but im more like a phoenix, come burn me and test if I care
when you're looking your best, they stare,
so you better pose for a photo
I fuck with the voyeurs when they putting bread in my pocket
I'm only complaining the moment it stops

The eyes can weigh heavy like lead vests, be careful please
yeah you stole my heart like a vandal, oh, but you're there for me
I'm lost in myself and I lean on the lamp post, I'm embarrasing
I'm settling now with my fate, I take lemon and ice with the kerosene

Save Us Ft. AKA Carpenter

Impossible 
Dumb fuck 
Why are you love struck ?
Impossible 
Dumb fuck 
Why are you love struck ?
You did it again again 
Fucked it up 
You’re drinking again again 
Yeah you’re fucking it up 

I watch the sunset down 
As I get let down again 
Pick up some really bad habits 
Some might even call me tragic again 

Oh good my mindsets low 
List of my problems grow 
I wouldn’t wanna meet me now 
I don’t blame you for leaving 
Oh yeah to top it all off 
I blame you for my breathing 

I blame you 
The shit you put me through 
Wonder if you’ll put me through it all again

Why’d you come back 
Was it to finish me off 
There’s no pain like that 
The way that you cut me off 
You could’ve aired me
I would’ve called it a night 
You said you loved me 
But then again you do lie girl 

OVERDOSE 
I WANNA FEEL 
ANYTHING 
COMATOSE 
HEADS FUCKED
ON SOME MEMORIES 
AND YET AGAIN 
IM THE ENEMY 

OVERDOSE 
YEAH I WANNA FEEL 
ANYTHING 
NOW IM COMATOSE 
HEADS FUCKED 
ON SOME MEMORIES 
AND YET AGAIN
IM THE ENEMY 

THE SUNSETS DOWN 
AS I GET LET DOWN AGAIN 
PICK UP SOME REALLY BAD HABITS 
SOME MIGHT EVEN CALL ME TRAGIC AGAIN

WATCH AS THE SUNSETS DOWN 
AS I GET LET DOWN AGAIN 
PICK UP SOME REALLY BAD HABITS 
SOME MIGHT EVEN CALL ME TRAGIC AGAIN 

[PART 2]

You say that you got me 
Okay 
When it gets rough 
Why don’t you play 
Your snaky attendance 
You don’t show your face 
I’m fucking falling 
My best mate is calling 
Oh wait 
I’m hiding 
I’m dying 
I’m crying 
I go through the motions 
Holy fucking shit these emotions 
Yeah FUCK
Just leave me alone 
don’t call my phone
The last time you’ll hear me is through a ringtone

Comatose

Butterfly

I'm losing my soul
I'm losing control
I've got nowhere to go
I don't care if I fall

Send help, be quick please
‘Cause it seems that my life is in repeat
I’m waiting for your phone call baby, this silence is driving me crazy
I know that you love that you hate me, I’m too drunk to know that you blamed me
For every problem, every mistake and every time you made my heartbreak
I’m a fool for you, should of known better it was cruel of you
Know we’re done it's through
Crying so hard in the two-door coupe
Will you remember me? Tears in your eyes in my memories
It wasn’t meant to be but, just know I’ll still bleed for you
I'm losing my soul
I'm losing control
I've got nowhere to go
I don't care if I fall

Lately
Feel crazy
Thoughts of you, back to back, got me shaking
Fuck around with a dumb mix I ain't safe b
Self-harm in the form of bliss it amaze it
Dazy
Hazy
I ain’t know where I am wake up achy
Crust up blood on my lip fuck so I take these
Chalk white pills to forget what I can be

Damaged
And frantic
Ya cold heart take advantage
Baby

Manic
You savage
My poor heart you gone damaged

Lately
Soul lost
Glazed eyes
Dead face under bangs baby

Same thoughts
With the same lies
I ain’t want this so I fade, daily

I'm losing my soul
I'm losing control
I've got nowhere to go
I don't care if I fall

Fall (feat SLOTHBOI) prod. sorrowbringer x amalia

A Thousand Hearts (feat. s0cliché)

@rivilin

Lyrics

Yeah, I swear that someone's fucking died in this room
I think it's haunted, I swear it’s haunted yeah
Feeling like there’s eyes just in the corner
They're watching me yeah, it's paranoia always

Feeling like im not worth much to you
It's what you said yeah, but they ignore ya and say that
The stars in the sky yeah they're not for you yeah
Cus they don't suit ya, cus your not perfect, not worthy

But I say fuck them they're all just cunts yeah
I'll build a staircase up and grab the things they denied you from the start
So fuck all of this negativity yeah, 
I don't want to be sad for the fucking rest of my life and you fucking know that

I'll show you that you’re worth just everything yeah
You know that id kill a fucking another just to see that you get home in the end
Cus I don't give a fuck about another
I just want you, yeah, to start the spark of the ember inside

Yeah cus I feel like your just the fucking one yeah 
The fucking one yeah, who puts a smile on my face
Im sick of fucking feeling like im scared yeah
Like im scared yeah but im not gonna waste this fucking  chance

Cus I never fucking thought id ever be happy yeah
I’d be happy yeah, so what the fuck have you just done to me
Cus you just make me want to be alive yeah,
Just believe yeah, I don't feel like I want to die early

What the fuck I'm in a dream
Everything can't be how it seems

This is too good to be true
Man I must've got some screws loose
Lost in my brain
No way this feeling fake

I been fucking happy lately
Just creating in my lane, please
No fucking lames, I just want this feeling safe

So baby don't you play me
Cuz it might just fucking break me
Might just lose my fucking life and take yours on the way b

Sorry, kind of crazy
My trauma fucking made me
A little bit fucked up and now my triggers got me shaking

But do not fucking worry cuz my empathy trump hate, I relate
To the fucking pain, I know we'll find a way
So just hang on to that feeling that I know you stashed away
Its okay baby,  manic, but I understand the pain

Yeah cus I feel like your just the fucking one yeah 
The fucking one yeah, who puts a smile on my face
Im sick of fucking feeling like im scared yeah
Like im scared yeah but im not gonna waste this fucking  chance

Cus I never fucking thought id ever be happy yeah
I’d be happy yeah, so what the fuck have you just done to me
Cus you just make me want to be alive yeah,
Just believe yeah, I don't feel like I want to die early

Mental Scars

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$LOTHBOI x Rivilin - Mental Scars

This is the fist song release off my upcoming album. Enjoy.

Dear Ghost

prod. by skgotthesauce

I'm tired of being jaded
I'm tired of always hating on myself
Still lying where I caved in
Caught in the tide of living hell
Please take my pain
And wash it all away
It's taken all it can from me

With all I am
Burning out again
Will never be enough
I ain't giving up
Against this
We hardly survived
We'll never last forever
Forever

Acquired taste for your deceit
It's left me feeling incomplete
Or maybe I'm just in too deep
I should've known
You were an enеmy to me from the start
Let it go
Thе understatement of you breaking my heart
I swear I'm gonna fold
Guess it ain't in the cards for me
Protecting everything I know
I can't be held responsible
So here we go
Here we go again

With all I am
Burning out again
Will never be enough
I ain't giving up
Against this
We hardly survived
We'll never last forever
Forever

Hollow Point ft. RiverKinn

What the fuck
I'm so nervous for
Shaking like I'm withdrawal percocet
Wonder if I just spoke up would it all turn out that I was getting in my head
Been months
Well and a bunch of years attached
I was in fourth grade just to be exact
In fact by the time we graduated
I figured that I wouldn't ever say shit
Fuck no
What a cruel world its been to me
With no friends to keep
And loose ends that keep on slipping
But back then I didn't worry bout shit other than this
As a young kid
I just went to school
And had and innocent crush I guess I just refused
To go up to her and say how I felt
Because in my mind shes too perfect
Hell I doubt she even notice me
When we spoke I just fumbled
Sounded so dumb so I tried to let it go
By the end of high-school I pretend I didn't know you
Felt embarrassing
Couldn't get a grip
I ran into you in the public
So many times
And whenever I would try to talk
My brain shut down and and my eyes were caught on you

If you hate me
Can you let me know
I can't tell at all I guess I gotta crush
Think it may seem
I'ma mess I know
Should I just move on girl am I outta luck
You look at me
I'm folding
It breaks me down I think I've had enough
If you hate me
Can you let me know
If I fell in love or if I gotta crush

What the fuck
I've had many dates
Never shy when I'm met with a pretty face
But every time that you pass me by I wanna run thru the dry wall cuz I can't get it straight
She a gorgeous girl
I don't know her well
Yeah I'm sure that she got her heart broke before
And I hate that
I wish I could fix it
Going down that roads like driving stick shift
Whoa
High-school sucked
By then it was safe to say that I'd never get a chance
On top of that I was a loser making music while she going out making friends
Grew my hair out long got dreads and became a mess people always give me stares
I had a bad break up with a ex got my shit together and I started taking care
4 years had past it all crossed my mind again
I decided it was time to try again
I hit the dms like hello how you been
I had a couple things I wanna talk about
Then to my surprise I got no reply
And said fuck it its fine put it all behind me
Moving on in life
Didn't think about it
Then she joined the gym that I had been working out at
If god is real then has aligning this
Divine timing
Better call a shaman in
Some how I better get the guts to walk up and say what I wanted
For the longest time
So I breathe take second to collect myself
Light headed and I'm shaking
Just like back in the day when we met but now
I looked at her and I'm saying

Crush

Contact/Inquiries: chiefkellymusic@gmail.com

Hollow Point ft. RiverKinn

Chief Kelly

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