i'll see u in hell

Get out of my mind
Keeping words that hurt inside sometimes 
I heard Everything Is Fine
That’s how I know it’s happening over again 
Push away and call it healing 
Take everything and call it even 
Don’t know a thing and still I’m preaching 
Is it the truth or is it reaching 

I’ll get out of my head 
Maybe I can be in your head instead 
Where I’ll go you could never know 
Brick by brick I’m tearing down the walls

Tear Down (The Walls)

an acoustic version of a new song I’ve been working on
can’t wait to share it !

picking up the fragments of a home
Trying not to shut my eyes
but maybe this time tomorrow 
I’ll take the time to get better
To live a lie or be a dream
Scottie believed in anything 
Brought to life by the ecstasy 
Nothing you say could ever change my mind

And all of a sudden
The birds don’t want to sing
Where are you
Are you down in the dumps
A flower shouldn’t have to grow alone
Where are you
Are you down in the dumps 

I don’t mind the solitude I earned it
Hiding from what I don’t like I’m learning
How to be myself and free finally 
back and forth push to the side the same thoughts
Nothing you say could ever change my mind 

(Where are you)

spicycotton23acoustic - 1/1/22

crawl in by blue grey, ill be awake
who i am (who am i)
who i was (who are you)
trying to be, for you or me
i'll roll by myself again,
Head rush then weep

crawl in by blue grey, ill be awake
who i am (who am i)
who i was (who are you)
trying to be, for you or me

If i am everyone I've met,
I will love myself harder then
Knowing you are inside of me
sweet, sweet company
Caught me slipping in the mud 
microwave me for the road 
take a bite of something good, don't spit
swallow my sentences

crawl in by blue grey (i am everyone)

LYRICS

i dont know what you want
wanna be good at everything,
i dont care, is it wrong 
wanna be more than just someone,
couch surfin
im going, im on the bus,
you dont know what its like
yea, im doing what i want

i dont know what im on 
but im down for anything,
i dont mind, i dont know
would you do it all again 
i dont care at all 
but im lying, im lying 

i dont know what you want
wanna be good at everything
i dont care, is it wrong 
wanting more than just to fuck

couch surfin
im going, im on the bus,
you dont know what its like
yea, im doing what i want

i dont know what im on 
but im down for anything,
i dont mind, i dont know
would you do it all again 
 “i dont care  at all “
but im lying, im lying

couch surfin

somber1.m4a

onurmind(spedup44)

stonepath (demo)

DOINGNOTHING

missfortune

I’ve been feeling lazy
I’ve got this fear I’m aging
It’s coming to pass pretty fast
I’ve been thinking lately 
Just maybe a little too much
All my friends are passing their classes
While I’m hear sitting piling up my absences 
I don’t care at all

okdad

Acoustic Sessions Pt.1

Bummer

Coraline

sometimes I don’t know what to say
will things be different or will they stay the same 
things were going right but now they’re looking lame
I know I don’t need to care
You know how much I really care
You know that I really care 
Keep on going like a whirlpool
I know I’ll drown soon because of you
What do you mean I never tried 
How can you say that
How can you lie
Sometimes I don’t know
Sometimes I don’t talk

WHIRLPOOL

I guess I should stop
Looking out for you
Like I always do
When will you
Start looking out for me too
Instead of leaving me
Staring at my shoes
It's just the way you're glancing at me
Something about you
Just makes me feel guilty for
Liking you
When you're with him

This is a love song for a girl
Who will never know it's about her
I know it's pretty stupid
But I'm much too shy to tell her
She's beaming that smile
All the while
I'm all choked up on my own throat
I guess there is no hope

And we're walking out in the snow
I say I guess I
Should go
And we're talking ‘bout someone else
When we should
Be talking about ourselves
It's the same old situation
You've always got me waiting
Come on dear I think times a wastin'
Before we have to go back inside
And return to our normal lives

#joyagain #iloveu

joy again - looking out for you (cover)

lyrics:
(Vista Joy)
haven't slept in these four days and the pills and drinks keep stocking up 
just like my thoughts and it scares me,
shadows in my dreams, 
i 'm seeking refuge from all these dreams

(CottonMouth)
phantoms in my room make me think of you
when I get too drunk it’s hard to sober up
there’s so many drugs coursing through my system 
there’s too many drugs and I’m gonna miss them 

My life’s a shitty movie but you were my favorite scene
if I go to sleep tonight I hope to see you in my dreams 
When I wake up will you still be right next to me 
Or will you be making breakfast while watching mtv

<3  refuge ft. Vista Joy  <3

this quarantine has been weird for me and for a lot of people. I just wanna dance again so I made this song

lyrics:

I really wanna go out tonight
I don’t really wanna stay inside 
I really wanna lurk at night
do you think you can dance ?
oh no
it goes
something that I’m really not used to
And I know
You want
To see me being myself
But I don’t really know 
I don’t really wanna be alone 

I just wanna go out tonight 
I might get a bite 
If I’m high
But tonight 
Oh I really wanna go 
I don’t wanna stay inside 
Not tonight

tonight alright

A song inspired by my mom. I’m sorry I separate and grow apart

howareyou - 8/6/20, 1.42 AM

im a moose !!!
IG: cottoncoffin
sleep deprived yahoo

cotton mouth

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