taking sun baths, felling like a hunter running my prey

this is about my girlfriend at the time terminating pregnancy with out even considering me or my feelings . Had I been able to at least voice them and she made same decision id probably feel differently and been able to support her decicision regardless 

Uncontrollable pain

Blóðreisn is a sonic incantation from the depths of the ancient North. Inspired by the forgotten rituals of the Norse peoples, this piece invokes the raw energy of blood, earth, and sacred fire.

Carried by heavy, slow percussion struck on animal hides, the music progresses like a funeral march toward an ancient sanctuary. Guttural voices, ritual whispers in Old Norse, and war chants echo through the mist, accompanied by deep horns and reverberating bone flutes.

The fire crackles, the wind howls in the mountains, the spirits sing through men. Blóðreisn is not a simple song: it is a rite of passage. A rise to tribal ecstasy, where lineage, gods, and flesh merge in a final drumbeat.
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Blóðreisn est une incantation sonore venue des profondeurs du Nord ancestral. Inspirée des rituels oubliés des peuples nordiques, cette pièce invoque l'énergie brute du sang, de la terre et du feu sacré.

Portée par des percussions lourdes et lentes frappées sur des peaux d'animaux, la musique progresse telle une marche funèbre vers un sanctuaire ancestral. Voix gutturales, murmures rituels en vieux norrois et chants guerriers résonnent dans la brume, accompagnés de cors profonds et de flûtes en os réverbérantes.

Le feu crépite, le vent hurle dans les montagnes, les esprits chantent à travers les hommes. Blóðreisn n'est pas un simple chant : c'est un rite de passage. Une ascension vers l'extase tribale, où lignage, dieux et chair fusionnent dans un ultime battement de tambour.
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Blóðreisn ist eine klangliche Beschwörung aus den Tiefen des alten Nordens. Inspiriert von den vergessenen Ritualen der nordischen Völker, beschwört dieses Stück die rohe Energie von Blut, Erde und heiligem Feuer.

Getragen von schweren, langsamen Perkussionsschlägen auf Tierhäuten, schreitet die Musik wie ein Trauermarsch zu einem uralten Heiligtum. Kehlige Stimmen, rituelles Flüstern in Altnordisch und Kriegsgesänge hallen durch den Nebel, begleitet von tiefen Hörnern und widerhallenden Knochenflöten.

Das Feuer knistert, der Wind heult in den Bergen, die Geister singen durch die Menschen. Blóðreisn ist kein einfaches Lied: Es ist ein Übergangsritus. Ein Aufstieg zur Stammesekstase, wo Abstammung, Götter und Fleisch in einem letzten Trommelschlag verschmelzen.

Blóðreisn

The Feeling Stays

Shadows and moonlight .mp3

I'LL  WAIT  FOR  YOU

Have you ever felt the world close in?
Where every smile hides what’s within?
There are hands that heal and hands that harm,
But you can’t live locked away from every arm.

You’ve gotta keep your eyes open wide,
Stand your ground, don’t run, don’t hide.
The cruel will try to tear you apart—
Guard your soul, protect your heart.

But never let go of love,
Even when the road feels rough.
Yes, you might bleed, yes, you might fall,
But love’s the greatest fight of all.
Keep it burning, keep it true,
Love’s still waiting for you.

It’s not weakness to let them see,
The cracks and scars that built who you’ll be.
It’s a risk, but it’s worth the pain,
Because nothing grows without the rain.

Fear will whisper, “Turn away,”
But your heart knows it’s the only way.
Don’t let the bitter steal your light—
Some battles are worth the fight.

But never let go of love,
Even when the road feels rough.
Yes, you might bleed, yes, you might fall,
But love’s the greatest fight of all.
Keep it burning, keep it true,
Love’s still waiting for you.

There’s a fire in the brave who try,
Who dare to look the storm in the eye.
And when it breaks, the sun will rise—
Love will be your prize.

Never let go of love,
Even when you’ve had enough.
Yes, you might bleed, yes, you might fall,
But love’s the greatest fight of all.
Hold it close, don’t let it fade,
It’s the reason we were made.

Never Let Go of Love - The Sunrise

This is a raw and uncompromising story about rising from the darkness without help, a map, or a safe path forward. 
The narrator comes from a place where the sun never reaches, where words are kept locked away, shaped by pain and hardships. 
Every line is a scar, every verse an act of survival.

It’s a song about forging your own strength when the world is silent and hostile learning to walk through fire and wearing the burn marks like medals. 
There’s no false glamour here, no pretend allies, just a lone voice that has turned smoke and ash into its own power.

The imagery is dark and powerful: storm clouds moving slowly, truths carved into stone, a name echoing like thunder across the sky. 
The song is both a warning and a triumph and proof that even from the most burned and broken remains, something unshakable can rise.

Enjoy...

Ashes Don´t Cry

Paul Amlehn - Text, vocal, music, editing, mixing, production
Paul Freeman - Vocal, electronic erosions, choir oxidation
Alice Dupree - Vocal
The Hamina Choir - Voices
Brian Eno and Paul Schmidt - Oblique Strategies
Hugo Simberg - Painting

Lyrics:

We do the strangest things
To each other.
We do the strangest things
To each other.

Now
Feel the absence.
Now 
Taste the damage.

I have learned to enjoy
Hurting you
I learned this from you.

You get a sexual thrill
From making me suffer.

Your nervous system
Lights up
Like a pinball machine
When you abuse me.

Now 
Taste the damage.

It hurt.
And because it hurt, it meant something.
And because it meant something, it was beautiful.
And because it was beautiful, it was holy.
And because it was holy, the angels spoke of it.

Wounded Angels

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喉を潤すこと 
誰かと繋がるんだったら

怖がってないで
やってみたらいいさ

なんとかたどりついた
そんなすみかをこしらえて

光を季節に当てて形にして
心の数だけの花に描くね 
そんなときは少しだけ微笑んでみて 
君は歩くサラサラの砂の 上を
 
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空気を吸うこと
役目を果たすこと
君の手を握ってる間に
不安は海に返してた

でもさざなみが打ち寄せるその間に 
実際何も考えてなかったんだ

心の炎を燃やしたい
彼方に青い鳥か火の鳥か

光を季節に当てて形にして
心の数だけの花を集めてた
そんなときは少しだけ微笑んでみて
君は歩けるサラサラの砂の上を


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oh oh

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心の数だけの花を集めてた
そんなときは少しだけ微笑んでみて
君は歩けるサラサラの砂の上を


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そしてたどり着くんだ

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シンプル　バンド　ベース　ツインギター　ドラムス　タイトなリズム　,Rock,Jazz,Country,Classical,Dance,World,Folk,Male vocals 高速リフ

Aura〜blue fire and fire bird〜

Woke up tangled in these sheets again, your laying next to me, 
I watch every breath you breathe 
Memories like whiskey burning slow, emotions I can't forget.  
I told myself I'd walk away, leave the fire where it lay,  
But your voice creeps in like midnight rain, pulling me back to that day


I'm fighting wars inside my head, losing ground with every word unsaid,  
Heart's a prisoner in this endless game, baby, baby, im calling out your name.

  
Oh, tears they surely flow, your arms, they won't let me go,  
Drowning in the waves of what we used to know.  
I'm breaking, shaking, trying to find my way,  
But your hold's like thunderclouds, stealing light from the day.  
Heart is broken, echoing through my soul,  
Tell me how to heal when I'm losing control.
 

Late nights staring at the ceiling cracks, your laughter fades but never dies,  
I built these walls to keep you out, but they crumble with your alibis.  
Promised I'd be stronger now, turn the page and take a bow,  
Yet here I am, replaying scenes, caught in what we could've been.

 
I'm chasing storms that never end, bending rules I can't defend,  
Soul's a battlefield, scarred and torn, wishing I was never born.

 
Oh, tears they surely flow, your arms, they won't let me go,  
Drowning in the waves of what we used to know.  
I'm breaking, shaking, trying to find my way,  
But your hold's like thunderclouds, stealing light from the day.  
Heart is broken, echoing through my soul,  
Tell me how to heal when I'm losing control.

  
Maybe one day I'll rise above, learn to trust and find real love,  
No more chains, no more lies, just me under clearer blue skies.  
But tonight, I'm still here, whispering my fears into the mirror,  
Hoping dawn will set me free, from this shattered symphony.

 
Oh, tears they surely flow (flow), your arms, they won't let me go (let me go),  
Drowning in the waves (in the waves) of what we used to know.  
I'm breaking, shaking (shaking), trying to find my way (find my way),  
But your hold's like thunderclouds stealing light from the day.  
Heart is broken, echoing through my soul (through my soul),  
I'll learn to heal, yeah, and let you go, I'll (let you go), I will (let you go)



Tell Me How To Heal

I loved playing Muzio Clementi's Six Sonatinas when I was a student. I played them very fast and often strayed from the classical style to the dismay of my teacher! I still remember bits of each one. Here I recorded a set of 2 pieces based mostly on the Sonatina in C Major. I recorded them in one session and couldn't make up my mine which parts to take out for one piece. Take a listen to Part 2,also posted,  a remnant of this version. I hope you have fun listening as much as I had creating them!

Jennifer L. Jones
Music Dreams Productions

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