alice

Lyrics:

I looked up my symptoms
It said I was dying but I don’t know
If I trust google
More than my doctor, he’s official

Medical Certificate
Framed and hung on the wall
It shows that you made it
It shows that you made it

But what do I have to show?
For all of these half-filled shows
I can’t tell them apart
It’s tearing me apart

But what do I have to show
For all of these half-filled shows
I don’t want to give up
I don’t know where to go
anymore

Ever since I ghosted my therapist
I’ve been looking up my diagnosis
To see if my symptoms persist
I might consider hypnosis

You can say I’m crazy
You can say I’m rude
But I don’t care,
Have you got some food?

Coz I smoked the biggest blunt
Out the back
The biggest blunt I’ve ever seen

Now I can’t make no eye contact
If you see my cry, it’s a panic attack
Saw your face in a crowded room
But I didn’t have the courage, didn’t have the courage 

To talk to you, can we walk outside?
It’s really loud in here
And I’m sorry, for being a bitch
But I don’t deserve the fear I feel

Every time I see your face
Every time I see my old friends

I don’t know, if they know me anymore

And I’m stealing chords from ppl i hate
and I’m stealing lines from people I like
and I’m starting to learn that people that hurt me
Don’t deserve to have my company 

And I am safe, and I’ll get better
Everyday is an uphill battle
I don’t know where I’ll be tomorrow
I just know I’ll be here today

google is my therapist

just fucking around on garageband for the first time in my life lmao

Lyrics:
Outside, I heard a noise I saw the light
I asked you to come back inside
No need to hide, I’m by your side

I breathe in, count to four,
feels like we’ve been here before
hold for seven and out in eight
you never liked to meditate
My mental health declining fast
Don’t know how to make this last
Ignore my friends, ignore my past
Ignore the calls from mom and dad

Coz it’s all the same
Or am I going insane now
Coz It’s all the same

Alice's Album

outside demo version 1 (iphone)

Lyrics:
I can’t lie, but I don’t know if I can tell the truth
When I wake up, I just want to go back to sleep
But I don’t, coz I know, I just need to do the 
things i need to do for myself

I make my bed, brush my teeth, say hi to my cat
She kept me up all night long, slapping my head
It’s her love language, I’m not mad, it’s okay
I’ll just poke her when she tries to sleep today

Yeah I’m a piece of shit, what of it, I don’t care

They say music pays,
Got nothing to show for
Spent my time inside, hiding, lying on the floor
Wishing I was dead
but I guess I’ll do this instead
I gotta go and get that bread

They say music pays,
Just want something to live for

To live for
to live for
so i can leave this floor

2day (draft unmixed)

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Who u gonna call?

Lyrics and chords:
Capo 3
Am        
E       
F       Fm   
C       E

Hey
Would it be okay
If i just stood next to you
And didn’t say a word
It’s alright,
All is fine
I just can’t figure out
How to get these words right

When you ask me
What I’ve been up to
lately
It’s all so hazy x2

Maybe I’ve been 
wasting my time
Working so hard
Yet falling behind x2

F.     Fm.   
I’m not a bot
That’s just a thought
I got

C.   E.   
Am.  F. 

I would if i could
But I can’t so I won’t x 3

So I won’t 
Say anything
Coz everything sounds embarrassing 
When i try to write or sing
And i could 
Try more
Give it all my attention
So i can finally cut the tension

I would if i could
Well i can, so i will

Saul Goodman

I Think There’s A Ghost in Your Head

Dead in my head
I don’t ever wanna feel again
Oh no

Can’t sleep lately
God knows that I’ve tried
No hope

Can’t think properly
Or speak with our tongues tied
Go slow

You pushed too hard
But I don’t wanna let it go
Explode / Let go

Had a dream we were friends
Until I pushed you away
I can’t take your hits
Mould myself into a better shape
… Loose lips sink ships
That’s what they always say
It’ll never happen anyway
And I don’t wanna feel again

Ba da da
Ba ba
Ba da dada da

Ba da da
Ba ba
Ba da dada da

Ba da da
Ba ba
Ba da dada da

Ba da da
Ba ba
Ba da dada da

Tongue

Gentle touch across
My rough skin
I'm made of spikes
But you let yourself in
Can I offer a hug
You are my medicine
I can't get enough
Of you, you're healing

All of my wounds
They fade with the seasons
The leaves die out
Like the skin we're shedding
I wish you were closer
If I move I might die
A hedgehog's dilemma
Won't you stay for awhile

All curled up but it's never enough
The space between is far too much
And we stay cold until we’re close enough
Afraid to get hurt but what's one more scar?

Turn to face you and your bright eyes
You feel so warm when we collide
All my fears seem to subside
And I could melt to your mirage
Tangled legs like sprawling roots
How good it feels pressed close to you
Skin on skin to keep us glued
With all the things that we could do

A still-life painting in your room
We could try but what's the use
Sunflower stems our limbs let loose
If I'm alive this is the proof

The Hedgehog (and the Sunflower)

I don't wanna wake up
Guess I'll never sleep instead
Taking off my makeup
Running down my head (face) again

How do I know if I'm all right
When do i finally feel alive

Maybe it's the way you call my name
Nothing ever sounds the same
Maybe it's the way you hold my hand
They'd probably never understand

How do i know if i'm all right
When do i finally alive
Hours flying by, always running out of time
When do i get to be alive

You don't want to be alone
And I'm the one you call upon
I don't want to be alone
It's hard when you're the one I want

Everything's a headache
And I can't stand the thought of us
Everything's a headache now
And I can't stand the thought of us

When do I get to be alive

Headache

I fell deep into the bitter sea
Felt so cold, yeah my body went weak
Red alert you say you wanna see me
Got so high till I couldn't think straight
Heart palpitations sweat perspiring
Head gone numb and I couldn't breathe
Party fell dead now you wanna speak
Saw your face now I wanna leave, sorry

It's hard enough for us to be friends
Never got it right, I don't wanna pretend
Wasted years on us, I don't wanna be
Living in a dream, out of reach, makes me wanna scream

Oh no, don't make it look easy
Too close, I can feel you breathing
Hate this, you make me feel useless
I'm not gonna be the one that breaks first

Curse this scene, get me out of here
Too cliche for the hell of it, maybe
The writers just wanna, embarrass me, probably
Script might change, but I wanna quit, way too
… Naive, for my own good, so what now?
Surreptitious and ineloquent
No cares left, think I'm ready to throw up
… Gotta dig a way outta this hole I dug

It's hard enough for us to be friends
Never got it right, I don't wanna pretend
Wasted years on us, I don't wanna be
Living in a dream, out of reach, makes me wanna scream

Oh no, don't make it look easy
Too close, I can feel you breathing
Fuck that, don't tell me you love me
I don't need false hope to believe in

I don't wanna be the one that breaks first

Bitter

Mia

Might sleep in
I'll call in sick
And everything about today 
Is cancelled
Sorry that I promised
That we'd finally get to hang
Holy shit, I've had about
Eight hours of rest
But I'm still tired
Every time
So tired
Thought I'd die 

Just tell me how I'm your favourite egg
So I don't ever have to feel alone again

-jason

inept space cadet
chewing on a cigarette bud
wondering if he will ever quit
but yeah, my bad
i was just really fucking sad
i had the worst damn dream
that i've ever really had
where i'm alone
and i'm not
just waiting for my life to start

it's a part of me i'm working on
still working

sometimes i wish i were dead
but i wish you were here
get me out of my head
sometimes i wish i was gone
thought i was alone
now i'm on my way home
i'm on my way home

your airhead best friend
lit another cigarette
his head is always ringing 
full of habits that he never quit
oh well swell kid
time to learn the violin
add another bullet to your 
brand new bucket list

but it never really mattered
it never really mattered
nothing really matters

Inept Space Cadet

capo 2

Say what’s been happening? I haven’t caught up with the news yet
Catching up, has it been half a year already? yeah
I’ve been struggling to pick up my phone
So I had no idea what’s been going on.

When you moved out of your city/shitty apartment
To a house that you could hide your stuff in
you said ‘Life alone is a life worth living
When you get to have your own kitchen’

I’m scared, to leave my room sometimes
to show my face sometimes,
to leave my house sometimes.

Bite my lip just a little
don’t know if I should talk yet
My cigarette in the middle
but you’re the one that’s coughin
Now we’re both laughing
At the irony of everything
Are we cursed or lucky? x2

I don’t knoww

I’m not good but, I’ll be fine 

In a year’s time, I’ll see you
Drinking boxed wine, in a bathroom
that we both don’t belong in

I’ll hold your hair while you throw up if you hold mine too,
Like no time passed between us, but that’s not true
and you know that I missed you but I don’t know 
if you missed me too

But I don’t mind, cause we stayed up all night
Laughing, talking, catching up
Sometimes feels like just enough

alice

Cmanit