AXAXC – DEREALIZATION (FULL ALBUM)
🧠 A sonic descent into addiction, masculinity, mental collapse, and identity death.
🕳 Trapcore • Deathcore • Nu Metal • Screamo • Ambient Sludgecore

“This cell doesn’t have four walls. It has my face.”

DEREALIZATION isn’t just an album — it’s a mental event. A full-body confrontation with trauma, weed addiction, spiritual despair, fractured masculinity, and the mask of perfection.
It’s about waking up in your own life… and realizing you don’t recognize yourself.

This record is the culmination of every psychological arc from previous AXAXC albums.
Legacy tracks like “Perfect”, “Tongues of Sin”, and the remastered “End of the Line” find new meaning here — not as isolated songs, but as symptoms in a larger mental breakdown.

🧠 THEMATIC ARC:
Tracks 1–5: The high. The mask. The beginning of collapse.

Tracks 6–9: Duality of identity. Cracks in the mirror. Begging to be seen.

Tracks 10–13: Shame, sin, and spiritual erosion.

Tracks 14–17: Total breakdown → false salvation → reluctant acceptance → final breath.

🔁 LEGACY TRACKS [Derealization Cuts]:
- The Nail in the Coffin
- Perfect
- Tongues of Sin
- TABOO [Remastered – Derealization Cut]
- God is a Woman (And She's Ashamed of Me)
- The Devil Said I'm Okay
- End of The Line [Remastered – Derealization Cut]

These were written long ago, but they always belonged here.
This is where their meaning finally lands.

🩸 HIGHLIGHT TRACKS:
I Am Already Dead [Alpha v.1 & Beta v.1]: The breaking point of addiction and the fracturing of self.

- Walking Dead (P1 & P2): A weed high as synthetic salvation — until the crash. 
- Prison: A scream for release from a self-built cage.
- The Mirror Lies: Rage against the curated persona you’ve become.
- God is a Woman(And She's Ashamed Of Me): The shame of spiritual failure and feminine rejection.

💀 AUTHOR’S NOTE:
“I don't want to be here anymore — but I built this version of me for you.
The man made perfect.
The man made empty.”

This is a neurodivergent death spiral in audio form.
If you’ve ever felt broken trying to be strong…
If you’ve ever loved the high more than yourself…
If you’ve ever built a mask so strong you forgot your real face underneath…
This album is your mirror.

🔥 RECOMMENDED IF YOU LIKE:
#Slipknot • #Korn • #SleepToken • #Nothing,Nowhere. • #BreakingBenjamin • #SlaughtertoPrevail • #Loathe • #FallinginReverse

DISTORT. DISTRUST. DESTROY.
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#Deathcore #Trapcore #NuMetal #Screamo #SoundCloudMetal
#NewMusic #EmotionalBreakdown #DarkMusic #Recovery #Trauma

Prison

Blind

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Heaven's Empty and No One's Home were originally a single song, but now they're two songs. How neat.

This one also uses some samples from Picture of Hell, worked well.

No One's Home

We write this to express pain that can’t be put into words.

Our songs are resonance—
the sound of everything falling apart.

This is our little corner of the internet.
And to the 271 souls who feel us,
the 20,000 engaged listeners who keep showing up...

We thank you.

We see you.
We love you.
We’re screaming with you.

— AXAXC
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Her Shadow Died First

Drums rush like panic, but the melody moves slow and wounded. This is the final step: not redemption, but acceptance. He won’t forget. He won’t forgive. But he chooses to keep breathing.

The Quiet Reset

Streetlight Gospel is a faith-filled rock album that tells the story of redemption in real life — not in pews or perfect places, but under flickering streetlights where Jesus shows up in your mess. With gritty guitars, powerful vocals, and testimony-laced lyrics, Kenny Suarez delivers raw, unfiltered worship for those who know grace doesn’t come clean — it comes with scars, sweat, and the fire of transformation.

The Sound of Surrender

break the beast

static crown

painting visions of broken temples and fallen faith

Cathedral of the Lost

Telepathic vision

Beneath the veil where silence lies,
I hear your thought, though lips are still.
A mirror gleams behind the eyes,
An unseen current bends the will.

It is not just sixth feeling,
But an echo alive,
Not a higher revealing,
It’s the shadow that thrives.

Through the storm of minds we’re burning,
Hidden voices intertwine.
Entangled flame, forever yearning,
In your silence, I hear mine.

No chain of sound, no mortal tongue,
Yet soul to soul the bridges rise.
A timeless song is never sung,
But thunder speaks within the skies.

It is not just sixth feeling,
But a path to survive,
Not a crown of concealing,
It’s the river alive.

Through the storm of minds we’re burning,
Hidden voices intertwine.
Entangled flame, forever yearning,
In your silence, I hear mine.

No barrier of flesh,
No fortress of the bone,
Your heartbeat is the mesh,
Where my spirit is known!

Through the storm of minds we’re burning,
Hidden voices intertwine.
Entangled flame, forever yearning,
In your silence, I hear mine.

Boundless stream of thought unspoken,
Through the dark our spirits shine.
From beyond the five awaken,
In your silence, I hear mine.



Lyrics: Alex Maistrov © 
https://soundcloud.com/inferix

Music: Generated with AI

Telepathic Vision

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[Intro]
I fell, I broke, I lost my way…
But the ground taught me how to pray.

[Verse 1]
Every scar a story, written in fire.
Every fall a lesson, pulling me higher.
The silence tried to bury my name,
But the ashes burned louder than shame.

[Pre-Chorus]
Oh, I can feel it rising,
A storm beneath my skin.
My weakness turned to lightning…
This is where I begin.

[Chorus 1]
🔥 Rise! Rise!
From the ashes to the sky.
🔥 Rise! Rise!
With the fire in my eyes.
If I fall, I’ll fall alive—
But I’ll always, always… rise.

[Post-Chorus]
Whoa-oh-oh, rise!
Whoa-oh-oh, rise!

[Verse 2]
I was made of shadows, now I am flame.
The cracks in my body spell out my name.
The dark tried to keep me, but I won’t drown—
I’m louder than thunder, I’ll shake the ground.

[Pre-Chorus 2]
Oh, I can feel it rising,
A storm beneath my skin.
My weakness turned to lightning…
This is where I begin.

[Chorus 2]
🔥 Rise! Rise!
From the ashes to the sky.
🔥 Rise! Rise!
With the fire in my eyes.
If I fall, I’ll fall alive—
But I’ll always, always… rise.

[Bridge]
I was broken…
I was blind…
But I found a reason…
To come alive!

[Final Chorus]
🔥 Rise! Rise!
From the ashes to the sky.
🔥 Rise! Rise!
With the fire in my eyes.
If I fall, I’ll fall alive—
But I’ll always, always… rise!

[Outro]
Whoa-oh-oh, rise!
Whoa-oh-oh, rise!
Always… rise.


Rise

Blood for the blood god
Skulls for the skull throne 

static crown

brother Chris

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