I wish I’d been there when you broke your nose
You explained it all in such broken prose
I would’ve scooped you up in my arms
And protected you from further harm
ah
I’m not writing this to win you back
[Tell me if there’s something I can do to convince you to come home]
Too much time has passed for that
[Nothing I can say to take your tears away]
Now waiting on my phone and time
[Nothing I can do, nothing I can prove]
Is probably how I’m gonna die
ah

Now I feel like you don’t want me in your life
oh
I’ve been feeling like you’ve felt that way a while
oh
I thought that I had finally found a clue
(Turns out I was wrong)
Did I ever know you at all?

For all the strength under my skin
[I been downing bottles quicker, I liked her because she was thicker]
I’m as helpless as I’ve ever been
[But there was a catch—a hook that went down the hatch]
So tell me now are you alone?
[There also was a reason, she was changing like the seasons, I’m winter]
Or happy like you’ve never known
[All along I was wrong]

I feel like you don’t want me in your life
oh
And I’ve been feeling like you’ve felt that way a while
oh
I thought that I had found a clue
(Turns out I was wrong)
Did I ever know you at all?

ah
Turns out I was wrong

Did I Ever Know You At All?

You're Not One of Us

dontOweYouDEMO

NEVER FORGET THIS PAIN:

Cut off my head but I bet that I’ll still run around
Yeah I’ll still cover ground
There’s a shortage of water 
When they’re spreading the fire
And all I got
Cut me to shreds, get upset when you can’t calm down
A slave to the sound of the awful rot

I feel sick and it’s your fault

I can’t adhere to the rules when they’re laid out clear
It’s so windy here
But I’ll use my knees to drive
Like a drone without a hive

I got a smile like latex skin
Stretched thin over my christian devil bones
No one’s home

Lay me over the coals
I turn to dust so slow
I don’t know what’s beneath my soul
But I’ll go that low
So cold and so damn tense 

I’m so cold and so damn tense

Cog in the machine 
Tell me what I mean
I always hear you speak
I can’t tell if you’re listening
Dance around the fences
But still carry the hatchet
I believed in you
Answer what I’m asking
Haven’t heard from you
Why show that you care
Got a brew with a view
I live in a haze
Dance around the fences
But still carry the hatchet
I believed in you
I’m way past asking

It’s just the truth that I’m more used to lies
It’s just the truth that I’m more used to a liar

Used to a liar

Never Forget This Pain

Choriambridal

It’s been a long, long time
Since anyone was mine
It’s been a long, long time

I know I’m all you’ve ever known
I’m not the best thing in your life
Am I love? Or am I only nostalgia?
We mixed together, now the serum is sour

I went out to look but there was nothing to see
A year ago I thought that I was magnified
A bed of crumbs waiting for me
The truth is, I was anesthetized

Draw lines on all your paper
Give shapes their meaning later

Oh yeah
I just pray that the march of time don’t feel too long 
as I’m going on
Ah

Hey
I wanna get back to that feeling
Back to when I said that I would never let her go
But then she walked away
What can I say?
I wanna get back to that feeling even so

It’s always good to make eye contact
With a man that you labeled a reject

The owl’s true nature is betrayal 
Practice your smile
Bite down and make contact
Shot gun introduction 
I’ll let you know that I’ve walked in
just in case there’s a chance that I might 
See her again

I look at everything as a blessing or a curse
But the truth is, everything is both and worse

The worst thing is being ignored
Blast me, at least I’m not bored
From the surface, I confess: I am bullshit but I’m trying my best
I am bullshit but I’m trying my best

Just when you thought it was over
You’re coming back around
Just when you thought you were hopeless 
You’re coming back around 
Man, you’re coming back
I wanna get back to that feeling

choriambridal

Stabikini

Antibody tests and bulletproof vests
Deep within my heart, there’s an urging to worship
The old gods and the way it was before
It ain’t gonna be a song that makes you come back
I know I thought that once or twice

But now that both feet are on this side
Of forever I can finally realize
I say I hate you on my mind
But there is no conviction on each line
I swear I thought that once or twice
A flash in the pan / no cash in my hand
I swear to god I’ll find out what makes a man

What I wouldn’t give for one more late night call
I need another blacked out conversation
Laughing all night, we talked about our dreams
I never realized we’d never make it as “we”
What I wouldn’t give for one more late night tourniquet
What I wouldn’t give to understand all that I don’t get
I watched a man with his hands at his side
Gasping for air, while we took it in stride

Antibody tests and bulletproof vests
Someone explain why I been spending my days
So afraid of such a delicate frame
I hear a voice that told me
“A long days sleep is what you need”
“So grit your teeth and knock out”
“Knock out”

They speak in intermittent words
They say there’s no time for us to be heard
They speak in intermittent words
I think I’ve heard, there’s no time

stabikini

bonsaidea

All she ever wanted was a real song
All I ever did was do you wrong

I used to think I was chosen 
A walking contradiction 
I blamed you for your part in this
But left no questions answered 
I saw you reaching out but I just didn’t know what I know now
So many doors I watched open
Like my life meant something more
But then I lost my way when I fell into space
And I was frozen at every open door
So many doors I watched open
But I just stood there frozen
Man, I just couldn’t walk through
Man, I just stood there frozen

Frozen / I was frozen

What cool island beat is gonna bring you back?
What written lyric, what sampled track?
I always wait too late to abate all your hate

All she ever wanted was a real song
All I ever did was do you wrong
I can’t keep torturing myself
It’s time for me to move on
I gotta learn what I can and then it’s time for something better
I been drowning in a saltwater lake
I been fighting for 100 days
Don’t know how long I’ll have strength to give
But when I think about it
I deserve to live

I got a feeling I’m onto something better
I got a feeling, I got to try
I got a feeling I’m onto something better

(You’re surrounded by your friends
But who cares for you at night?
Before I hold my breath
I would watch the world die)

bonsaidea

Oh
Swallow whole
Reap what you sow but you never know
Why the feelings grow

Shock and awe
I broke my own jaw when the bottom hit the floor
From the state of affairs I first noticed in 2004
￼There’s a tug-of-war inside my mind
It kind of repeats but it doesn’t rhyme
I stay up late just waiting on a sign
But I can’t reign in my wandering eyes￼￼￼￼￼
I’m not gonna be another fish on a hook
I’m not gonna read another goddamn book
￼Pictures / taking pictures
Pictures of you taking pictures of me
And the scenery

Whoa
You can celebrate
Or you can marinate
But don’t mind me, consume all you can take￼￼￼￼￼￼￼￼
In everything that you know
I don’t have time to go slow
But there is one thing that you cannot do
I can’t believe I gotta spell it out for you￼￼￼￼
￼Don’t slip / don’t let yourself think
That I am ever going away

All I want right now is a cigarette
It’s a dream of you like we’ve never met

Like a butterfly overhead that I never even knew was there

Take a walk along that line
Walk down the thin white line
And if you’re feeling blue
￼I’ll do what I can for you
“what’s wrong with him” is what they’ll say￼￼￼￼￼￼￼￼￼
But fuck them it’s ok 
I’ll do what I can for you

Your tears had dried by the time I walked inside
The hardest thing to accept was the end of my best friend
Look in my sickly red eyes and confirm 
You made the right choice to leave them behind

I know you already know 
You made the right choice to leave me behind

deathbedisappear

I always get my hopes up
But you never make a move
And I know that’s all because
You probably didn’t want to

I’m still crying in despair over her
It’s not fair when you can’t pin the hurt
In a rare fit of trying to flirt
With the onslaught on drama that erupts from the earth 
I seceded all peace and 
It’s not fair when you can’t pin the hurt
It’s not fair when I’m trying to take care of the other her but I can’t feel sure



I know you probably thought I’d end on a negative
But I’m busy thinking emotions are relative 

I’m not gonna pry if I’ve overstayed my welcome
I can relate to your troubled mind and then some

You were the only one I slept through the night with
How I wanted a goodbye kiss

Reset the angles and rewire the cables

I’m still crying in despair over her
It’s not fair when you can’t pin the hurt
In a rare fit of trying to flirt
With the onslaught on drama that erupts from the earth 
I seceded all peace and 
It’s not fair when you can’t pin the hurt
It’s not fair when I’m trying to take care of the other her and I can’t feel sure

I know you probably thought we’d end on a negative
But I’m busy thinking emotions are relative
You were the only one I slept through the night with
How I wanted a goodbye kiss

Reset the angles
And rewire the cables

I’m still crying in despair over her
It’s not fair when you can’t pin the hurt
In a rare fit of trying to flirt
With the onslaught on drama that erupts from the earth 
I seceded all peace and 
It’s not fair when you can’t pin the hurt
It’s not fair when I’m trying to take care of the other her but I can’t feel sure

I always get my hopes up
But you never make a move 
And I know that’s all because you probably didn’t want to

In a red shirt just like Papa wore
I saw your head hurt, did the same things I tried before
And when I swore I’d learn the chords, I tried to play the whole thing by ear and lost who I adored

In a red shirt, just like Papa wore
And I lost who I adored
Ahh

Don’t Look at me
Can you believe
After all this I still haven’t learned a thing?
It’s starting to bleed into everything
I’m still writing about the wrong one
Writing about the wrong one

tsunamistake

anemiapathetic

Ahh

Are you serious?

You’re doing a careful dance
but I am stumbling out of control
and I don’t see a difference
You played your hand / you smashed a glass
You have raised the dead
And now I’m on a cliff edge

Oh
I said “we could mess around”
The little witch, looking thick
And she’s gotta run her mouth
I dig all the little sounds 
Trapped inside your pocket
They won’t ever know us now

Short and sweet
What can I do?
I get my hopes up talking to you
You’re the world’s greatest eve 
And that’s saying something
You’re only five-foot-nothing

You already know what you can expect
When you’re dealing with an old soul who’s kind of a prophet

Oh
Chalk it up to thirst
I’ll love you forever, but I gotta love me first
I really waited all that time with out a word
Without a thought / without a voice

Hold the phone
And please don’t call me your own
There’s lines on the table
And this dog’s gotta bone

There was thought-policing
There was rot increasing
But they were not believing
No / they were not believing

You don’t need a savior
I swear / despite the danger
No one can save us from death
And I prefer a small that warms to a big fire that burns
Sort out the mess that we left

The way we were talking, I did the wrong thing
Again and again
Again and again, I thought that I was on track
Again and again, why aren’t you ever coming back?

So let the fest begin
A beggar with baggage

I miss the love I remember 
I miss the music too and it’s tragic how it ended
Despite the magic
A beggar with baggage

anemiapathetic

I write music with the thunder and the rain // I channel what I've plundered and my pain

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