and i wish i could change, but id probably stay the same

In My Head

Kids

melanchole

i don't know anyone, i am

(dream)

Written and recorded Winter 2012 - Summer 2014 by Paul Kintzing. 

Paul Kintzing- words, instruments, singing 

Joined by:
Matthew Sigur - guitar, singing 
Max Wilson - cornet, singing 
Joe Ford - cornet 
Madeleine Hicks - singing

Mixed and mastered by Paul Kintzing.
Photograph of Paul by Paul's Mom.
Inner photograph by Paul Kintzing.
Design, Layout, and Type by Ryan McCardle.

© 2014 Furious Hooves
℗ 2014 German Error Message

German Error Message - Everything Is Scary

In Tongues (Deluxe)

worldstar money (interlude)

it was two in the morning and our housemates were all asleep. arco and i sung a few songs, featuring our sweet rats ellie and niph. the normal shit is at pigeonpit.bandcamp.com

nights like these

Carrie & Lowell

Fourth of July

Talon Of The Hawk

Twin Size Mattress

Vibes

Young

YOUNG

joy again- necromancer

V/A - mono no aware もののあわれ

Format: 2xLP / Digital
Label: PAN
Cat.No: PAN 77
Release Date: 17 March 2017

http://p-a-n.org/

purchase:
site: http://bit.ly/2mQN5AO
bandcamp: http://bit.ly/2n9ToSm

mono no aware (もののあわれ) is the first compilation to be released on PAN, collating unreleased ambient tracks from both new and existing PAN artists.

Featuring Jeff Witscher, Helm, TCF, Yves Tumor, M.E.S.H., Pan Daijing, HVAD, Kareem Lotfy, ADR, Mya Gomez, Sky H1, James K, Oli XL, Bill Kouligas, Flora Yin-Wong, Malibu, and AYYA, the compilation moves through more traditional notions of what is called ’ambient’, to incorporating wider variations that fall under the term.

“Mono no aware”, ‘the pathos of things’, also translates as “an empathy toward things", or "a sensitivity to ephemera”. A term for the awareness of impermanence, or the transience of things. A meditation on mortality and life's transience, ephemerality heightens the appreciation of beauty and sensitivity to their passing. In investigating the passing of time, the boundaries between memory and hallucination become blurred; between fiction and reality. The movement of time transforms into an eternal present.

The album is mastered and cut by Rashad Becker at D&M, featuring photography by Molly Matalon and design by Bill Kouligas. A limited version of 100 copies will be released as a special art edition in collaboration with Mount Analog for the LA Art Book Fair 2017, before going on general release.

mono no aware

3. Yves Tumor - Limerence (PAN 77)

repeat to yourself that they're not really gone
time has proven that fooling yourself into believing
a lie is the most effective way to deal with
things you have no control over

keep listening to the mixtapes they made you
overanalyse every single word you hear
"was this a sign that things were going wrong"
no no, you were the one that cared too hard, not them

stay up every single night staring at your phone
either attempting to gather up the courage to
turn these demons, these constant reminders of
your loneliness into nothing more than a bad dream
or praying just for one second you could feel
the warmth of equally returned love

go out for coffee four times a week by yourself
always bring your notebook, never stop writing
leave little comics and thank you notes with your tip
watch them smile as you get in your car

always talk down on yourself whenever possible
my life is shit because i deserve it, right?
you must have done something real bad
its nearly impossible for you to cry now

avoid your friends for weeks even though
they're the only sense of consistency you have
left in your life, if they really wanted
to see you they'd come, but they won't (who cares?)

allow yourself to lose interest in the things you love
watch as you begin to take a backseat to the
world around you, don't fight it
become a secondary character in your own motion picture

but most importantly drown every single one of
your feelings in old stolen rum, learn to
love the taste of it dripping down your throat
find comfort in the warmth coming from your
stomach, you're drinking bottled love now

you don't need other people to drive away your loneliness
you just needed to find a way to talk to it

and i wish i could change, but id probably stay the same

Chrisy idk