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Better Than I Used to Be

[Intro | hopeful effect]
Hey... 
Have you seen the letter that I gave you? 
No I'm not sure about that.

[Verse 1 | steady build]
I sent you a postal to your dark home,
Look at the message that's flown over.
Just sending the message about you,
The truth is I dont have long it's due.

I have a terrible illness that can't be cured, 
A sickness without you here is to rue.
Just reach over to me and hold me,
I won't be satisfied until I see it free. 

[Guitar Solo 1 | Rifts Exploding] 

[Pre Chorus | loves rising]
This letter will serve a purpose for you,
I'm telling you that your my best friend.
Sending my best wishes over here,
Dont fear the compassion ever.

A written poem to show my gratitude,
I put my best effort into the magnitude.
Only one thing will satisfy this pain, 
The rain in the inks writing prowess.

[Chorus | powerful & repeating]
A written letter is just a trail of emotion, 
Devotions of another is in the writing.
I'm inspired to know why you did this,
Your an important figure In life. 

This is meant to be the letter of pages,
You raised me up to be a right person.
Ink comes from the pages that relay, 
My first letter is to praise you.

[Verse 2 | more calming]
These ink stained hands are hurting badly, 
The pages are now just burning away.
The calm of the storm is turning rye, 
The writting is churning inside out.

I put my whole heart and soul into this, 
This letter needs to be in purest bliss.
I will always bring this letter to you,
No one stops me from it being due.

[Pre Chorus | repeat for cohension] 
This letter will serve a purpose for you,
I'm telling you that your my best friend.
Sending my best wishes over here,
Dont fear the compassion ever.

A written poem to show my gratitude,
I put my best effort into the magnitude.
Only one thing will satisfy this pain, 
The rain in the inks writing prowess.

[Chorus | main hook again]
A written letter is just a trail of emotion, 
Devotions of another is in the writing.
I'm inspired to know why you did this,
Your an important figure In life. 

This is meant to be the letter of pages,
You raised me up to be a right person.
Ink comes from the pages that relay, 
My first letter is to praise you.

[Bridge | breakdown / Glitch FX]
Letters will be shipped to you from my place, 
Remember to get it from the box you raise.
These are my last words to you brother, 
Remember that letters hark another.

[Ending | Fade Out]
Yeah... 
Letters always hark to another, 
But it's for you alone brother.

My First Letter

Life is a chain made of choices.
Every link got a voice in it.
You’re waiting on signs from the sky—
But what if the sign… is you?

You’re in the room but you feel stuck still,
Trapped in the silence that you won’t kill.
No “go,” no “stay,” just spinning wheels,
Afraid to move, afraid to feel.
The clock don’t rush, it waits on you,
But fear talks louder than the truth.
You hum the song of “maybe not,”
But every maybe leaves you lost.

What’s holding on to you so tight?
Is it safety… or just disguise?
If nothing changes, time will ask:
“Why’d you let your future pass?”

Today, you’re choosing your tomorrow,
For the self you dream at night.
Will you stay in borrowed sorrow—
Or walk into your fight?

You’re not weak, you’re just unsure,
But healing knocks on open doors.
Today for tomorrow—
You’re the spark you’re waiting for.

You want a promise, want it clear,
But change don’t whisper in your ear.
It shows up trembling, cold and raw,
And asks: “Will you walk at all?”
What if the fear is just the gate
To something real you’ve yet to face?
And peace is waiting past the ache—
But first, you gotta break.

(You keep sayin’) "I’m waitin’ for a sign, a shift,
some push from the sky, some magic lift.”
But truth is, nothing moves till you do—
the mountain you fear is just part of you.
You pray for clarity,
but ignore the mirror.
You say you’re stuck,
but the door’s way nearer
than you think—it’s cracked, it’s open wide,
but stepping through means killing pride.
You talk ‘bout comfort like it’s peace,
but peace don’t shrink, it releases.
Comfort’s a blanket over rot—
you warm in it, but you forgot…
You forgot what your soul sounds like,
buried it deep under “Not tonight.”
“Not this week,”
“Not while I’m tired,”
But time don’t pause when you’re uninspired.
You scared of failing,
so you stall on purpose.
But every “safe” choice
is still a version
of death—a slow one, masked as calm.
You’re bleeding dreams, but showing palms.
What if no one’s coming to drag you out?
What if it’s you who’s gotta shout—
gotta break, gotta scream,
gotta say: “This ain’t my dream!”
Gotta leave what feels like home
to build a place you’ve never known.
And maybe you fall, maybe you cry,
maybe you fail a hundred times.
But silence never wrote a song.
Stillness never proved fear wrong.
You ain’t broken—just delayed,
caught in shadows that you made.
But even dusk can birth a dawn—
if you decide to carry on.

(Yeah, today) you’re shaping your tomorrow,
Every breath a brushstroke wide.
Will you stay beneath the shadow,
Or step into your light?

The chain is open,
The key is you.
Your future’s waiting,
Say: “I’m coming through.”

(Yeah, today) you’re shaping your tomorrow,
Every breath a brushstroke wide.
Will you stay beneath the shadow,
Or step into your light?

The chain is open,
The key is you.
Your future’s waiting,
Say: “I’m coming through.”

Today for Tomorrow

You taste the venom… ohh  
I taste the venom…  

You taste the venom on my tongue  
I dress in shadows where you run  
You love the chains, you call it fun  
I keep the secrets you’ve begun  

I burn your name across the floor  
You beg for less, I give you more  

Fall into my velvet rage  
Tear the lines across your face  
Darkness sings when I command  
You’ll break like glass inside my hands  

You trace the bruises like a prayer  
I paint devotion everywhere  
You tell me danger makes it fair  
I’ll be the sin you cannot bear  

I burn your name across the floor  
You beg for less, I give you more  

Fall into my velvet rage  
Tear the lines across your face  
Darkness sings when I command  
You’ll break like glass inside my hands  

Whisper low… I own you now  
Breathless screams… you won’t get out  

Fall… fall… into my rage  
Tear… tear… every face  

Fall into my velvet rage  
Tear the lines across your face  
Darkness sings when I command  
You’ll break like glass inside my hands  

You’ll break like glass…  
You’ll break like glass inside my hands…  

Better Than I Used to Be

Citizen Soldier

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