the devil inside of me been putting me in pain for so long and it continues

I know how to Relate to Alot of Songs , cause I had/have nothing but Pain inside and I'm trying Stay strong

Mental illness is not an excuse. Those who struggle with Anxiety, Depression, Schizophrenia, PTSD, OCD or any mental disorder are not pretending to suffer just because they are desperate for attention.  * Read more below

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Lyrics

Shaking hands, cannot catch my breath,
It’s 3am and I’m scared to death,
My darkest side, has come alive…

Can’t hide the hell I live in every day,
You say its just a phase, I’ll be okay,
What you can’t feel, must not be real…

I wear my heart here on my sleeve,
But you can’t see, no one sees….

This is killing me, I can barely breathe,
No one knows what is inside of me,
Too late to fit in, don’t you dare pretend,
You know what it’s like, to watch the world outside,
While you’re buried alive…

Six feet under still no one can hear,
My cry for help falling on deaf ears,
So desperate for, your attention whore…

Tell me why anyone would pretend,
And choose a life they would want to end
And ever feed, this anxiety…

Here on the surface everything seems fine,
But here beneath my skin I’m running out of time…


This is killing me, I can barely breathe,
No one knows what is inside of me,
Too late to fit in, don’t you dare pretend,
You know what it’s like, to watch the world outside,
While you’re buried alive…

Faceless I've been paralyzed, 
But I won’t be silent one more day,
I've come too far to say I'm sorry,
I will live, to tell my story…

This is killing me, I can barely breathe,
No one know, no one knows…
Too late to fit in, don’t you dare pretend,
You know what it’s like, to watch the world outside,
While you’re buried alive…

This is killing me, I can barely breathe,
No one knows, no one knows me…

Buried Alive

Have you ever had someone you love tell you they were considering ending their life? What would you say to them? We've been there. Our new single "Let It Burn," is an open letter to anyone who has ever contemplated suicide.

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Lyrics:

Take my hand and look me in the eye,
There’s still time left…
Cut these chords and kid run for your life….

Maybe you’re broken, maybe you’re shattered,
With no reasons left to try,
But you still have so much, so much worth saving,
That you have left on the inside…

I know you feel like you are worthless, and that your day has come,
The misery eats you alive until you come undone,
You feel like there is nowhere left to call your home tonight,
But you are not alone, this is our time, and I am by your side…

My friend this is do or die!

Hey kid can you hear me?
Don’t you dare pull the trigger and throw it all away,
You have every reason left to stay alive,
All this hell you’ve lived and seen,
Drown it all in gasoline,
And light a match, pull the pin,
You are not, who you’ve been,
The past is just lessons learned,
So light it up, and let it burn…



Never thought that it would come to this,
Who will save you?
Fading fast, now you are cancerous…

I know you feel hopeless, at the end of your rope now,
The fear is eating you alive,
So I’ll be your reason, I’ll be your shelter,
I will not let you say goodbye…

Have you no reason to forget your pain and swear you’ll stay?
If you Kiss it all goodbye, my friend, the world will be a darker place,
I know you’re scared to death, but this is not the time to hide,
You were meant for so much more, I won’t let you leave this world behind…

What will it take to survive?

Hey kid can you hear me?
Don’t you dare pull the trigger and throw it all away,
You have every reason left to stay alive,
All this hell you’ve lived and seen,
Drown it all in gasoline,
And light a match, pull the pin,
You are not, who you’ve been,
The past is just lessons learned,
So light it up, and let it burn…



You will remember the day,
You burn it all to the ground,
I know you’ve heard this before,
But you’ve gotta be strong now,
This is not the end!

Hey kid can you hear me?
Don’t you dare pull the trigger and throw it all away,
You have every reason left to stay alive,
All this hell you’ve lived and seen,
Drown it all in gasoline,
And light a match, pull the pin,
You are not, who you’ve been,
The past is just lessons learned,
So light it up, and let it burn…

Let it Burn,
Let it Burn,
The past is just lessons learned,
So light it up, and let it burn…

Let It Burn

After reading so many heartfelt messages from fans over the past few months, we wished we could somehow stand by the side of every single one of them. Unfortunately, that's not possible, so we wrote a song instead.  For those of you who have reached out to us, this is what we wish to say to you.

©2018 Citizen Soldier. All Rights Reserved
All songs on this channel are copyrighted by law. Any use of Citizen Soldier LLC's content is strictly prohibited unless authorized by Citizen Soldier LLC.

Lyrics:

Have you ever felt lost
 like you don’t matter at all
 like you were born just to be scared

All this fear deep inside 
does it burn to the surface leaving you gasping for air

Now you’re walking alone 
it’s all that you’ve ever known 
so sick of being the one betrayed

If you just take one more chance if you just open your eyes you’ll find the purpose in your pain

Oh I know 
there is purpose in your pain

Do you feel already dead 
like you have no reasons left standing on the edge 
and finally looking down

Like a candle in the night 
fighting just to stay alive 
I know you still can’t see 
but hold onto me 
you will be found

Now the pulse of your heart 
is it just way too heavy 
does the way to the world 
hold you down

Is the world celebrating 
while you’re there suffocating 
no shred of sympathy 
to be found

Now your face down in the dirt you think it’s what you deserve but even when this life is cold

You’ve got to be strong somehow rise from the dust 
your story needs to be told

You will be found 
you will be saved
 just hear me now 
I felt the same 
you will be broken 
but never to pieces 
keep holding on 
there’s always a reason

Found

There’s no personal hell quite like being told what you’re feeling isn’t real.

Recorded, produced, mixed, and mastered by Sahaj Ticotin in Los Angeles, California.
©2019 Citizen Soldier. All Rights Reserved

If These Scars Could Speak

Sometimes life feels so heavy, breaking feels like the only way out.
If you feel like no one can see the weight that you carry, you are not alone.

Recorded and produced by Mitch Davis at Soularium Studios
©2019 Citizen Soldier. All Rights Reserved

Weight of the World

Life can be an uphill battle when you feel you are forever falling short.

Relentless

Never Good Enough

Addiction: disease, or choice?
We need to stop demonizing people and start helping them.

Devil Inside

Victim shaming forces some to keep secrets that can be deadly.

My Little Secret

Living with demons doesn’t make you weak, it proves your strength over them.

Stronger Than My Storm

Never Ending Nightmare

Never Ending Nightmare feat. Kellin Quinn

You are worth so much more than how you feel.

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