Mental illness is not an excuse. Those who struggle with Anxiety, Depression, Schizophrenia, PTSD, OCD or any mental disorder are not pretending to suffer just because they are desperate for attention.  * Read more below

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Lyrics

Shaking hands, cannot catch my breath,
It’s 3am and I’m scared to death,
My darkest side, has come alive…

Can’t hide the hell I live in every day,
You say its just a phase, I’ll be okay,
What you can’t feel, must not be real…

I wear my heart here on my sleeve,
But you can’t see, no one sees….

This is killing me, I can barely breathe,
No one knows what is inside of me,
Too late to fit in, don’t you dare pretend,
You know what it’s like, to watch the world outside,
While you’re buried alive…

Six feet under still no one can hear,
My cry for help falling on deaf ears,
So desperate for, your attention whore…

Tell me why anyone would pretend,
And choose a life they would want to end
And ever feed, this anxiety…

Here on the surface everything seems fine,
But here beneath my skin I’m running out of time…


This is killing me, I can barely breathe,
No one knows what is inside of me,
Too late to fit in, don’t you dare pretend,
You know what it’s like, to watch the world outside,
While you’re buried alive…

Faceless I've been paralyzed, 
But I won’t be silent one more day,
I've come too far to say I'm sorry,
I will live, to tell my story…

This is killing me, I can barely breathe,
No one know, no one knows…
Too late to fit in, don’t you dare pretend,
You know what it’s like, to watch the world outside,
While you’re buried alive…

This is killing me, I can barely breathe,
No one knows, no one knows me…

Buried Alive

After reading so many heartfelt messages from fans over the past few months, we wished we could somehow stand by the side of every single one of them. Unfortunately, that's not possible, so we wrote a song instead.  For those of you who have reached out to us, this is what we wish to say to you.

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Lyrics:

Have you ever felt lost
 like you don’t matter at all
 like you were born just to be scared

All this fear deep inside 
does it burn to the surface leaving you gasping for air

Now you’re walking alone 
it’s all that you’ve ever known 
so sick of being the one betrayed

If you just take one more chance if you just open your eyes you’ll find the purpose in your pain

Oh I know 
there is purpose in your pain

Do you feel already dead 
like you have no reasons left standing on the edge 
and finally looking down

Like a candle in the night 
fighting just to stay alive 
I know you still can’t see 
but hold onto me 
you will be found

Now the pulse of your heart 
is it just way too heavy 
does the way to the world 
hold you down

Is the world celebrating 
while you’re there suffocating 
no shred of sympathy 
to be found

Now your face down in the dirt you think it’s what you deserve but even when this life is cold

You’ve got to be strong somehow rise from the dust 
your story needs to be told

You will be found 
you will be saved
 just hear me now 
I felt the same 
you will be broken 
but never to pieces 
keep holding on 
there’s always a reason

Found

There’s no personal hell quite like being told what you’re feeling isn’t real.

Recorded, produced, mixed, and mastered by Sahaj Ticotin in Los Angeles, California.
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If These Scars Could Speak

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The ones we've loved the most leave the ugliest scars.

Hope It Haunts You

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