From my mind

She loves me, so at least in This dimension, she is mine!  Lyrics written by CJ, instruments and vocals by AI.

In This Dimension, She’s Mine

She may look generic to others, but I see the beautiful sexy woman inside.  Lyrics written by CJ, instruments and vocals created by AI.

Only a Smile and Black Lingerie

She puts on a persona, of Blue Velvet. But I know and love the real girl, my baby.  Lyrics written by CJ,  instruments and vocals created by AI. 

BLUE VELVET

After a loss or heard break, we tell others we are "fine" when it's just a mask we put on... a plastic smile.  Lyrics written by CJ, instruments and vocals created by AI. 

Plastic Smiles

Memories often have emotional "echoes" associated with them, and a new love can change those "echoes".

Echoes

Lyrics

[Verse 1]
My mind won’t turn off,... it’s spinning,... spinning,
A thousand roads,... no beginning,... no ending.
But every turn, every winding line,
Leads me back to you,... every time.

[Chorus]
In the chaos,... of my mind,... I always find you.
In the chaos,... of my mind,... I circle back to you.
Every thought, every line,... it pulls me through.
Every storm, every time,... I’m held by you.
In the chaos,... of my mind,... I always find you.
In the chaos,... of my mind,... I circle back to you.

[Verse 2]
Voices collide,... the noise won’t fade,
Regrets I’ve carried,... mistakes I’ve made.
But through the static,... through the storm inside,
Your name is the one thing,... that survives.

[Chorus]
In the chaos,... of my mind,... I always find you.
In the chaos,... of my mind,... I circle back to you.
Every thought, every line,... it pulls me through.
Every storm, every time,... I’m held by you.
In the chaos,... of my mind,... I always find you.
In the chaos,... of my mind,... I circle back to you.

[Bridge]
Every night ends,... with thoughts,... of you,
Every morning,... starts the same.
My mind won’t turn off,... but you cut through,
You’re the quiet,... in the flames.

[Final Chorus]
In the chaos,... of my mind,... I always find you.
In the chaos,... of my mind,... I circle back to you.
Every thought, every line,... it pulls me through.
Every storm, every time,... I’m held by you.
In the chaos,... of my mind,... I always find you.
In the chaos,... of my mind,... I circle back to you.

[Outro]
Spinning,... spinning,... but you break through…
Drowning,... drowning,... but I rise to you.
In the chaos,... of my mind…
The only truth…
Is you.
Always…
Always,... you.

Chaos of My Mind

"The first contact between two people is not the skin, its the energy."

Before We Ever Touched

Late at night.. alone with just your mind running... 

In The Quiet Hours

Lyrics

**Verse 1**
She snuck into my dreams one night,
Blonde hair shining in the moonlight.
Her sweet smile, it took control,
Now she’s got my heart, she owns my soul.

**Chorus**
Oh Baby, you’re my heart thief,
Sneakin’ through my dreams so sweet.
With every beat, you pull me in,
You’re the melody from within.

**Verse 2**
In the stillness, you slipped inside,
Took my heart, no place to hide.
Now you're all that I see,
Baby, you’ve stolen all from me.

**Chorus**
Oh Baby, you’re my heart thief,
Sneakin’ through my dreams so sweet.
With every beat, you pull me in,
You’re the melody from within.

**Bridge**
You crept in slow, took me by surprise,
Can’t escape the memory of those eyes.
Each night I fall just a little deeper,
Baby, my heart aches a little sweeter.

**Chorus**
Oh Baby, you’re my heart thief,
Sneakin’ through my dreams so sweet.
With every beat, you pull me in,
You’re the melody from within.

**Outro**
Stole my heart, my love,
Now you’re all I dream of.
Baby, you’re my thief, you see,
In my dreams, you set me free. 

Lyrics by CJ, vocals and Instruments created by AI.


Heart Thief

LYRICS
**[Verse 1]**
I wake up, put on my shoes, start another day,
Coffee in hand, I push the hurt away.
In meetings, I joke and keep the mood light,
But inside, my heart's still shattered from the fight.

**[Chorus 1]**
On the outside, I'm a clown, full of jokes and smiles,
But behind this mask, I've been hurting for miles.
Laughing loud, but inside it’s not what it seems,
A broken heart, lost in silent screams.
There's a waterfall of tears behind these eyes...
A waterfall of tears behind these eyes.

**[Verse 2]**
Out with friends, I crack a joke to fit in,
Hiding the sadness, but I’m wearing thin.
They never ask, they just think I’m fine,
But they don’t know the storm that’s in my mind.

**[Chorus 2]**
On the outside, I'm a clown, full of jokes and smiles,
But behind this mask, I've been hurting for miles.
Laughing loud, but inside it’s not what it seems,
A broken heart, lost in silent screams.
There's a waterfall of tears behind these eyes...
A waterfall of tears behind these eyes.

**[Verse 3]**
When I’m alone, the mask starts to fall,
I let the tears spill, but I don’t call.
No one’s around, no one can hear my cry,
A lonely heart, with nowhere to hide.

**[Chorus 3]**
On the outside, I'm a clown, full of jokes and smiles,
But behind this mask, I've been hurting for miles.
Laughing loud, but inside it’s not what it seems,
A broken heart, lost in silent screams.
There's a waterfall of tears behind these eyes...
A waterfall of tears behind these eyes.

**[Outro]**
I keep on pretending, I keep holding tight,
But inside, I’m breaking in the dead of night.
The world sees the clown, they don’t see the pain,
There's a waterfall of tears falling like rain.
No one knows the pain I feel inside,
There's a waterfall of tears behind these eyes... 
A waterfall of tears behind these eyes.

Waterfall of Tears

Lyrics
**Verse 1**
I’m racing down a track no-one can see
Its a rollercoaster I cant leave.
One minute I’m high, the next I’m low
Inside my own mind, where do I go?
Pieces of a heart are pushed aside,
Out of the light, so easy to hide
**Pre-Chorus**
So many thoughts get in the way
The rollercoaster never fades
I keep it cool, I keep it tight
But inside I’m lost in the fight
**Chorus**
Oh the rollercoaster of my mind
Inside is chaos, outside I'm fine
Where’s the love I’m supposed to feel?
How can my heart even heal?
Oh the rollercoaster of my mind
I try to see, but I’m blind
Where do I get off of this ride
And heal from all the pain inside?
**Verse 2**
So many cars on different tracks
each a thought that cant look back
A Hearts broken pieces are what's real
But cars are just thoughts, they don't feel
I’m steering the wheel with all my might
But the tracks are twisted, no end in sight
**Pre-Chorus**
I try to slow, I try to breathe
But I can’t make my mind leave
I keep it cool, I keep it tight
But inside I’m falling out of sight
**Chorus**
Oh the rollercoaster of my mind
Inside is chaos, outside I'm fine
Where’s the love I’m supposed to feel?
How can my heart even heal?
Oh the rollercoaster of my mind
I try to see, but I’m blind
Where do I get off of this ride
And heal from all the pain inside?
**Bridge**
Am I in control, or am I losing it?
Can I find my heart if I just sit?
I struggle so hard to take the wheel
But it feels so real, like I can’t heal
**Chorus**
Oh the rollercoaster of my mind
Inside is chaos, outside I'm fine
Where’s the love I’m supposed to feel?
How can my heart even heal?
Oh the rollercoaster of my mind
I try to see, but I’m blind
Where do I get off of this ride
And heal from all the pain inside?
**Outro**
So when do I get to stop this ride?
When do I let my heart decide?
Can I find love when I can’t unwind?
I’m on a rollercoaster of my mind... 

Lyrics written by CJ, instruments and vocals created with AI.

Rolllercoaster of My Mind

Lyrics

Verse 1
I thought we were something rare
Maybe I just saw what I wanted there
You’d say my name, I’d come undone
Thought maybe I could be the one
But I fell too fast, I fell too hard
Now I’m left holding what’s been scarred
Crushed by longing, crushed by hope —
...love has weight

Pre-Chorus 1
It’s hard to fight when your heart won’t bend,
And all your reason says this pain won’t end

Chorus 1
’Cause love is a BIG word,... love has weight
When it’s not returned, it suffocates
You give it all, you lose your way
When their heart don’t beat the same
Love is a BIG word — love has weight
Crushed by longing, crushed by hope
Love is a BIG word —...
...love has weight

Verse 2
You said you cared, I know that’s true
But not the way I feel for you
It’s strange how hope can twist your mind
Keep rewinding, pressing “find”
And every night I talk to walls
Just to feel like I still have it all
Crushed by longing, crushed by hope —...
...love has weight

Pre-Chorus 2
And I keep learning the hardest way
That loving you won’t change a day

Chorus 2
’Cause love is a BIG word,... love has weight
When it’s not returned, it suffocates
You give it all, you lose your way
When their heart don’t beat the same
Love is a BIG word — love has weight
Crushed by longing, crushed by hope
Love is a BIG word —...
...love has weight

Bridge
It’s hard to breathe when dreams won’t fade
Every thought just calls your name
You move on light, I walk in chains
That’s what unreturned love became
Crushed by longing, crushed by hope — love has weight

Final Chorus / Outro
’Cause love is a BIG word,... love has weight
When it’s not returned, it suffocates
You give it all, you lose your way
When their heart don’t beat the same
Love is a BIG word — love has weight
Crushed by longing, crushed by hope.
Love is a BIG word —...
love... love... has... weight.

Lyrics by CJ, instruments and vocals created by AI.

Love Has Weight

CJ is an amateur lyricist and works with different AI's to create self reflective music and concept exploration.  Exploring loss and love.  Some songs are available to other artists, contact for more details.

From my mind

CJ n AI