can you do a version without these beeps..

The Upload

Original song by Mileena Rayne.
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I still check the doorway like you might walk in
Still talk to the walls like you’re listening
We were bad for each other, that’s clear as day
But I miss you in ways I can’t throw away

I still see your shape in that empty chair
Still reach for your laugh when it isn’t there
We were poison and sugar and not quite fair
Now I sleep every night with your ghost in the air

Every night I unlock that same old door
Kick off my shoes on the same old floor
Bag on the table, keys on the shelf
Say “I’m home” out loud, then catch myself

You’re the bruise that I hide under long sleeves
You’re the high that I miss even when I can’t breathe
You’re the reason I lock up my own heart tight
But I still want your knock in the middle of the night

I still check the doorway like you might walk in
Still talk to the walls like you’re listening
We were bad for each other, that’s clear as day
But I miss you in ways I can’t throw away

I still see your shape in that empty chair
Still reach for your laugh when it isn’t there
We were poison and sugar and not quite fair
Now I sleep every night with your ghost in the air

You’d cook me dinner after nights you crossed the line
Say you “lost control,” swear it’d be the last time
You’d cry in my lap, say you hated who you were
Beg me not to leave, promise you’d be who I deserve

Now I lay on my back, staring straight ahead
Remembering all the things I wished I’d said
Like how love shouldn’t hurt just to feel this deep
How I learned to pretend this was love so I could sleep

We had plans for a dog, maybe two kids
Talked about cities we’d move to, then we never did
Built whole lives out of “one day soon”
Now I’m standing alone in an empty room

I don’t see you in your chair anymore
But I still slide my eyes to that same spot on the floor
Like you’ll be there, look back and say, “Hey”
Ask what I’m doing, and if I ate today

I still check the doorway like you might walk in
Still talk to the walls like you’re listening
We were bad for each other, that’s clear as day
But I miss you in ways I can’t throw away

Poison and Sugar

IN this Podcast I start with a few words on connecting us to the present, in a sort of meditation.. I get into healing from family trauma, working through pain, working through judgement, and responding consciously to politics..

IN the ext podcast I will be talking about stepping into your feminine and how to really be there of other women : )

Connect To Right Now & Let Go of What Was | With all of my Spirit Ep. 1

I'll Do It For You

wrote this over the weeks . what it's about is entirely up to you. Here are the lyrics: 
Pale yellow paints a home
I am, I am aging
Transposed of frail bones
I am, I am aging

Lost in you
Maybe I'm lost in this blue
Take me back to brand new

Pale yellow painted gold
I am, I am maintaining
There's a sky, it's never old
I am, I am aging 

-back to chorus-

Hope you like it. Thought about it a lot

Tainted Youth

faith cover - george michael

singing -maori kinjo
https://www.youtube.com/user/MAnelaK98

Will He -Joji (maori kinjo)

The person referenced in this song is no longer my sunshine but I still wish them the absolute best

i used google and comic sans for this cover art and I AM NOT SORRY FOR IT
i did the uke but @nthnll did the rest MANY THANKS!!!!

Lyrics::
You are my sunshine
My only sunshine
You make me happy, when skies are gray
You'll never know, dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

You are the stars 
In my universe
You light up my world with a single word
And though we're so far, I feel so close
Because when I talk to you, I feel at home

When you come online,
We waste no time
Talk from the early morning, to late at night
Though the time zones differ, that doesn't mean much
Because we have each other and that's enough

We say dumb things
We have some fun
You really make me laugh, you're cute as hell
And though we're different, we feel the same 
You understand me and you don't think I'm lame

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy, when skies are gray
You'll never know, dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

You Were My Twitter Boyfriend(prod. NVTHVN)

Here's a little interstellar love tune about Pluto and the Sun featuring the lovely Ocoenia and the amazing Kyaru. (: 

Spotify Link: https://open.spotify.com/album/3Lu2bjPymJum2SZKTu1tzZ

[People who made this song possible] 
Producer: https://soundcloud.com/therealxavo
Singer: https://soundcloud.com/ocoenia
Rapper: https://soundcloud.com/kyaruok

Ocoenia: 
I'm star-crossed, I'm so lost without you
I'm star-crossed, I want to be with you no matter what the cost

il Westo:
It’s cold here, I’m not near and I need your light
I’m ice and water, you're lava and fire, so damn bright 
nada no prawna, a sauna, Madonna, nirvana, 
not a prima madonna, life to all the fauna yeah
I orbit around you like a record player, thinking about you
I need protective layers so I won’t be burned 
I’m Pluto, you know this, you’re my uno, you show bliss
Too far gone, I feel broken. last time we were together 
was the supernova in space. Queen and Casanova 
exploding stars in this place. you’re the reason for seasons, sunny days 
where I feel sober so let me see your rays until my life’s over yeah

let me see you until it’s all over 
I need you when I’m not feeling sober 
Sun please warm me when I need to spin over 

Ocoenia:
I'm star-crossed, I'm so lost without you
I'm star-crossed, I want to be with you no matter what the cost

Kyaru:
It’s like my orbit is so far from thee 
My rotations skewed, mixing up the emotions that I've been harboring
It’s hard for me knew it was a lost cause
when the black holes stopped bothering me
And started swallowing me alive
If it breathes - it’s bound to die
That’s why in planetary love nobody bats an eye
Stuck viewing from a distance till the end of time
And you’re not by my side
But an afterglow of what we had is burning bright
And i wont let that slide unless i go and mess it up
because of lack of pride, loves back and forth
It’s carried by the tides and on this barren wasteland is where i’ll lie

Ocoenia: 
I'm star-crossed, I'm so lost without you
I'm star-crossed, I want to be with you no matter what the cost

Star-crossed Ft. Ocoenia & Kyaru ⭐💔(Prod. Xavѳ)

track i did with my friend Ten, who was amazing and played the uke, sang their soul out, and wrote this medley. it was so fun getting this together, thank y'all for listening, we both appreciate it

chance medley (w/ Ten!)

This is my first song so forgive me for the horrible quality. 

This song was written about two of my previous relationships (Ah the joys of life)that afterwards, I realised the experiences I went through happened to be the exact same? So yeah I wrote a song about that. It also helped that both their names started with L.

Déjà vu with the L word - Original

Lifeblood - Demo

for my boyfriend :-)

alicia keys cover. I was inspired by rex orange county :'o

no one

Thank you for 1K followers! This song is out in Spotify/Apple music too! 

Producer: https://soundcloud.com/mondayat7am
Rapper: https://soundcloud.com/kyaruok
Singer/Artwork: https://soundcloud.com/ocoenia

Lyrics:
Run it down, where'd my mind go
Done it now, where'd the time go
Picking petals off of daisies
Going ghost like uh Patrick Swayze 
Then I kinda read some useless headline
Then I need to meet a stupid deadline
Asking what's life without a purpose
So I've grasped it's dying inside and on the surface 

What's a friend if they can't talk to you
What's an end if you can't start anew
What's a goal if you can't follow through
What's a soul if you can't follow you 

Maybe I've been tripping because 
I don't really know what my purpose is
It feels like I'm drowning I’ve been going with currents
So it don't seem like I'm hurting
But In reality it hurts more when the dreams reoccurring
I’ve been sleeping where the serpents live, they can wake me up
Worthless, let me drink out of the devil's cup  
I’ve been going in circles until my head erupts
And maybe that makes me crazy but maybe it's not enough
 
What’s the good of a soul if it’s not in use 
What’s the good of a soul if you’re in a noose 
But a soul's a soul no matter how battered or bruised 
Beaten down and broken or confused 

And then I find myself yelling for you one last time
Tell me it’ll be fine
One more time

Spotify

What's a Soul Ft. Kyaru & Ocoenia (Prod. Mon-Day)

mashup of the songs show me love + atlas hands for a school assignment i did last semester
THANK U @pivot1 FOR HELPING W GUITAR

show me lov

I still remember 
when I promised you 
I wouldn't be like the others 
who broke you and told you lies. 
All of the songs 
that made us think of each other. 
Used to smile when I heard them. 
Now I hurry to shut them off. 

But it’s only because I 
don’t think I’ll ever find 
somebody like you. 
It’s a once in a lifetime chance. 
So I won’t even try to find 
somebody like you. 
I won’t waste my time. 
‘Cause you were already mine. 

Thought I got rid of 
all the pictures I had of us 
‘til I realized 
they were all 
still inside my head. 
Three in the morning 
tryna smoke away the pain 
of knowing you’re fast asleep 
while I’m up tryna blame it on you. 

It’s only because I 
don’t think I’ll ever find 
somebody like you. 
I’d be lucky if I came close. 
I'd always dreamed about 
somebody like you. 
I just don't get how 
I only realized now.

I hope you never find 
somebody like me. 
who’ll just keep you to treat you wrong. 
You deserve so much better than 
somebody like me, 
who just can’t see 
when to let you breathe, 
who will up and leave 
and write a song a year after 
about wishing it was how it used to be.

Will He -Joji (maori kinjo)

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