Euphoria!

do you remember, when you were young
everything you did, was just for fun
life was easy, oh so good
never made the effort, when you should

now your dreams, have disappeared
it all turned out, just like i feared
now your schemes , are up in smoke
i hope your words, make you choke

i remember, the lies and deceit
you were a liar and you were a cheat
you never cared, for any one else
everything you did, was just for yourself

now your dreams, have disappeared
it all turned out, just like i feared
now your schemes, are up in smoke
i hope your words, make you choke

Lies and deceit.

you were a soul, never meant for this life.
this world is hard, full of trouble and strife.
you were so sensitive, you took it all to heart.
nobody saw, you were breaking apart.

people like you, don't speak out........people like you, full of doubt.

i saw your sadness, is it the same as mine?
another day, wont it turn out fine?
i saw your face,, i never saw the signs.
i didn't know, it was the end of the line.

people like you, don't make a sound......people like you, quietly drown.

such helpul words, are very hard to find.
i wasn't close to you, i didn't know your mind.
i feel so sad, full of sorrow.
now that i know, there's no tomorrow.

people like you, sensitive soul........people like you, leave a hole.

now that you're gone.......and we know your fate.
many tears at your funeral, but now it's all too late.
we must learn from this, nobody is the same.
we can't carry on like this, we should be full of shame.

people like you, dont make a sound........people like you, quietly drown.
people like you, sensitive soul........people like you, whose life we stole.

Sensitive soul.

this song is sung to love itself, not to a person.

when i was young, with a hopeful heart
so full of love, never been hurt
but that wont come again
love wont be your friend

don't you come back to me
no don't you come back to me

when i was young, so full of trust
i gave my heart, love was a must
but that wont come again
love wont be your friend

don't you come back to me
no don't you come back to me

Love aversion.

this track is about when someone dies and passes over to the spirit world.
where they are welcomed by all the friends and family that passed over before them.    back where they belong amongst their loved ones.

"welcome back my dear friend, back where you belong"
"paradise is here for you, hear the angels song"

"Back where you belong"

The blackest eyes.

Girl from the rain forest.

Galaxy drifter.

Builders of the temple part 3  (the mayan spacegods revisit).

A walk in the forest. (mayan dream)

in a distant solar system, there is a planet unknown to us called kyrak.  it is inhabited by beings way more advanced than us.
they had been attacked many times by another race and the kyrakins had discovered that they were using a black hole as a means of space travel.
after many years of research they developed a weapon that could cause black holes to collapse.  
because of their intense fear and dislike of black holes, they decided to send ships on long range missions to seek out black holes and destroy them!
who knows, when they will come to our galaxy and do the same.

Black hole killer.

i know......you think......i'm strong.
the road....just feels....too long.
i'm sorry, i'm sorry....i'm falling apart.
i'm sorry, i'm sorry....haven't got the heart.

you think that....i should try....much more.
but i'm down....can't get off....the floor.
i'm sorry, i'm sorry....i hide my fears.
i'm sorry, i'm sorry....to see your tears....it's over....it's over.

it's not that....i don't see....your pain.
i'm breaking....i can't take....the strain.
i'm sorry, i'm sorry....i'm going down.
i'm sorry, i'm sorry....please don't frown.

i don't want....to hurt....my best friend.
you must know....this is....the end.
i'm sorry, i'm sorry....please don't cry.
i'm sorry, i'm sorry....can't tell you why....it's over....it's over

repeat verse 1 and 2

she knows that he is not well, but he hasn't told her that he's dying.

It's over.  (song for a dying man)

Inner tranquility.

The promise of better days.

Mountain meadow.

it's day time,    i'm happy,    free again.
the daylight,   is lovely,    no more pain.
out here,    i'm dancing,    sun or rain.

chorus:         then the sun goes down.
                    darkness does surround.
                    hide do not be found.
                    hush don't make a sound.

the summer,    i love it,    the long long days.
my friends come,    to play,    but no one stays.
then daylight,    starts fading,    they're on their way.

chorus

bridge spoken:    every night i hide in this cupboard, afraid to make a sound.
                             sometimes i hear them, they're all around.

they ask me,    why don't you,    escape this place.
there's a man,    he's scary,    with a hideous face.
if i run,    he's faster,    he starts to chase.

chorus

i'm waiting,    for my father,    to return one day.
i'll ask him,    to help me,    to take me away.
until then,    i can only,    hope and pray.

chorus x 2

Fear of ghosts part two (no escape)

Neon city nights.

Freedom fighter.

when i was a boy many years ago, one hot summers day.
my friends and i were walking down, a narrow country road.
feeling dizzy and about to faint, i found myself looking down on us.
my spirit was free and hovering above and that's when i saw the truth.

even though they are joined as one, they can separate.
the secrets of the body and soul, are the key to your ultimate fate...... the key to your ultimate fate.

many people have had one of these, it's called an O.B.E.
when we die and in our body, we will struggle to set ourselves free.
i don't know if we will all succeed, but i know it's possible.
so could it be, how we behave, could decide our life beyond the grave.

even though they are joined as one, they can separate.
the secrets of the body and soul, are the key to your ultimate fate...... the key to your ultimate fate.

The secrets of the body and soul.  (O.B.E)

Alone.

Mayan space gods part 4- stargate realignment.

The creator of all things.

Mayan space gods part 5.  Flying ship of many lights.

Reach out to god.

i was born, in this rainy old town.
sometimes i think, it's getting me down.

i dream of sweet paradise and i think it sounds so nice ......to me. 

to work every day, it's always the same.
daily survival, is the name of the game.

i dream of long sunny days, golden sands and blue water bays....getaways.

friends don't want me, to ever leave.
familiar faces they flatter to deceive.

time is passing day by day, will i go or will i stay.....i can't say.

i have a lovely house and a girl by my side.
dreams will disappear, when two worlds collide.

dreams what are they, not reality, gave them all up for you and me.
dreams what are they, not reality, gave them all up for you and me...now i see.

A life lived. (fading dreams)

the first time i saw you, i was hypnotized.
from that day i knew, had to be by your side.
the smile of salvation, looking back at me.
the face of an angel, come to set me free.

my angel

you are amazing, there's no one like you.
a heart full of love, a soul that's good and true.
even in the darkness, you shine like a guiding star.
one in a million, that's just what you are.

my angel

My angel.

Mayan space gods. part 6 - selective abduction.

there's a lot of people, who wanna get you down.
don't wanna see you smile, just wanna see you frown.
make you look real bad, give you all the blames.
they get all their joy, from twisted mind games.
their vibes are really bitter, their minds are really dark.
never trust a traitor and never trust a narc. 

Never trust a narc.  (narcissist)

times are hard
and you keep crying.
i wanna keep going,
but you've stopped trying.
it tears me apart,
it's breaking my heart.
you're out of range 
and you can't change.

Out of range.

Alone in the silence of space. (on the edge of the universe)

basic copyright on all tracks.
all of the tracks on here are made with a 12 track boss digital recorder.      to make some sounds more spacious such as the main chords and melodies i have to use 2 tracks at the same time. this is why i try to keep my tracks short because i can only use a limited number of sounds. if i use 2 tracks for bass, drums, chords and melody it only leaves me with 4 tracks for effects and secondary melodies. i prefer to record only one sound on the channels allocated as this avoids problems with volume levels.  i'm not a great musician, but i am also not very good with computers, so this is the only way i can demonstrate my musical ideas.  a big thank you to everyone who listens and comments.........and especially those who like.

clive hawkins

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