I DONT WANNA BE MYSELF

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picture in pieces
oh you my hollywood demon
know you got reasons, but my heart still bleeding

I remember you were mine for a minute
spend everyday wishing I'd relive it
said I wouldn't fuck up, I did it
something that I regret now you're missing

It was only me from the start
you were so distant, apart
girl you don't know how far
I would go to save your heart

you don't know nothing
you don't know how I feel about something
making assumptions
I think I got a problem

was it all worth it
I don't know if I really deserve it
and she said she off the bourbon
and I been closing the curtains

picture in pieces
oh you my hollywood demon
know you got reasons
but my heart still bleeding

It was only me from the start
you were so distant, apart
girl you don't know how far
I would go to save your heart

HOLLYWOOD

produced by myself
mixed/mastered by @benjaminrich 

the words:

I know my replies take way too long
I’m overthinking, god I hope it doesn't come off wrong
And baby I been staying up, I can’t rest on these thorns
So over thinking this the end, like what i’m trippin' for

I had a cardiac arrest when i test the feelin'
Said I’m intolerant to compliments, need penicillin
Oh girl I'm trying to forgive and forget back to healin'
It's kinda hard when I love everything that gave you meaning
I had a cardiac arrest when I test the feelin'
Said i’m intolerant to compliments, need penicillin
Oh girl I'm trying to forgive and forget back to healin'
It's kinda hard when I love everything that gave you meaning

Pot holes in all these back roads
They ain't been fixed since october
I guess its time I move over
I'm way too stubborn I told ya
I'm way caught up in the mix
She bring me back down to earth
I cant be falling like this
I know I’m bound to get hurt
Don’t think I’ll ever break even
My ideologies heathen
She said I'll follow your leading
It don't mean nothing to me

I had a cardiac arrest when i test the feelin'
Said I’m intolerant to compliments, need penicillin
Oh girl I'm trying to forgive and forget back to healin'
It's kinda hard when I love everything that gave you meaning

Girl you don't mean it
Seriously got my reasons to believe that you keeping secrets
I'm trippin', thats a problem with me
I really deep it
You could do so much better than me
Find it relieving
That you think I can get any sleep

But I can't and I'd hate to concern you
Should follow the plan, but It's hard when I'm learning
You said I'm enough, is enough really worth it
I know you in love, unconvinced I'm a burden

I know my replies take way too long
I’m overthinking, god I hope it doesn't come off wrong
And baby I been staying up, I can’t rest on these thorns
So over thinking this the end, like what i’m trippin' for

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THORNS

this is the last track

sure know a lot for someone so intermediate
does pulling strings inside the house ever get tedious?
you know I miss it
you know I miss (miss-miss)
you know I feel it
you know I'm scared of interfering it

you know I miss it
you know I (miss-miss-miss)
you know I miss it
you know I (miss-miss-miss)

I can't, can't, (I-I)
I-I-I, I-I
I can't, can't, (I-I)
I-I-I, I-I

[would you] change? 
do it all again
do it all again
change
do it all again,
do it all again

[there's] no way you want to
want to, want to, want to
find something to grip onto
onto, onto, onto
maybe I'm just awful
on off, so unthoughtful
boy I know this ain't you
no way you want to
(what did you do)
no way you want to want to
(what did you do)

[you're] so competent, I can't be making this easier
I burn up all my inhibitions like the meteor
don't say you miss me
don't give me shit (shit-shit)
I had you feeling, I had you feeling off that media

you know I miss it
you know I (miss-miss)
you know I miss it
you know I miss it

[would you] change, do it all again
do it all again
change do it all again
do it all again (I-I-I)

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