the deer in my living room

lyrics: 
She wanna play me like a baritone, lately I've been on my own 
I've been driving 65, to see that smile when i get home,
you don't love me, no you don't, you don't trust me, that's so funny
we lay in bed you on your phone, you got me thinking i was wrong
telling you i love you but you telling me I don't belong
you just want me for the song, you just want me fucking gone

[bridge] no why, you wanna stress me out 
you wanna, you wanna
you wanna, you wanna, kick me out 
you wanna, you wanna 
(goofy noises)
you don't want me here
(more random noises lol)

I've been driving with my windows down, so silent I don't hear a sound
I've been wondering why you kicked me out, I'm do frustrated driving to my house 
I been thinking bout you when I'm by myself, taking drugs that wont help my health, omg I'm thinking I need help, why the hell do you just stress me out, 

omg I need help, laying in bed im just trying to figure out, what did you do to me
I know I'm not the best of me, I just been happier in my dreams, thinkin that you were meant for me, I don't think that were meant to be, you don't care about my feelings

I've been driving with my windows down, so silent I don't hear a sound
I've been wondering why you kicked me out, I'm do frustrated driving to my house 
I been thinking bout you when I'm by myself, taking drugs that wont help my health, omg I'm thinking I need help, why the hell do you just stress me out

I've been driving with my windows down, no I wont ever look around, no I never made a sound, all the good ones come crashing down, no I don't want nobody else, no I really hate myself, I don't know, I don't care, I really hate myself

she wanna play me like a baritone, pop another benzo, said you love me, but you hate me, I'm stuck in a weird zone, I'm so high don't know where to go, I don't got aint nobody else but you, say you love me but you don't, I  guess you got me falling for I lost all my friends for you
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hi i hope you guys like this, february is coming up and it’s a pretty hard month for me, i’ve been really stressed out lately cause of some things that i don’t want to get into detail about here, so the name kinda felt fitting. but this song is about a relationship that i had a while back that gave me a new perspective on things, i hate myself for still thinking about things in the past, but what can i do, ya know.

Stress

im a whole adult now wtf

lyrics-

Don't know where to go
But I don't, I don't love you no
Morphine I fiend, i needed more
6 feet beneath, below your floor

I don't care anymore
Without you, laying down on the floor
I thought you left cause you wanted more 
was my bestie now you is my enemy

(chorus) 
i guess i was wrong, and i guess i was stupid, you got me fucked up
falling behind, oh i wonder why, you think you got me you're 
out of your mind, you're out of your head, 
getting sick and tired of it, when I'm in bed
now I'm falling behind, oh I think we should try again
she said she doesn't fight for him 

she doesn't fight for him, she doesnt fight for him
she will not ride for him, she will not fight for him

no i dont know where i should go
ive been bleeding out on the floor 
in a room full of people that i dont know 

I just got  a new friend hennessey, you the only one
but not the one that wanna get with me, I thought you were done
but you the one that wont forget bout me
I thought we was friends, but normal friend don't wanna get with me

(friends don't wanna get with me) friends don't wanna get with me (friend don't wanna get with me) got to many enemies (wasted all my energy)
(it is the end, angles depressed, girl its my e-e-e-e-e-end)

(chorus 2x)
i guess i was wrong, and i guess i was stupid, you got me fucked up
falling behind, oh i wonder why, you think you got me you're 
out of your mind, you're out of your head, 
getting sick and tired of it, when I'm in bed
now I'm falling behind, oh I think we should try again
she said she doesn't fight for him

target

I don't really like this song that much, but I made it for my mom a little bit ago and just finished it up recently, it kind of just fits cause I'm leaving home soon, I don't even know if she's going to see this.

and yea I know, this sound like the glaive beat, shut up💀

Thanks to @wynko for making the cover art, you're dope <3
Collective- @dotcomgang
Lyrics-

Mama telling me, ill be fine with you out my mind
and she said, love is hard sometimes
you just gotta go learn how to get by, let it go
give it time, I know it hurts sometimes
you cant run, you cant hide, I know you're sad and tired

and my mommy told me move so slowly
if you don't, you might die so slowly
mama know your life's been hard, remember singing with you
8 years old, was playing guitar, remember driving to my dads
with just in the car, I miss the days when we had Jax when we played in the yard, if you want me, that's okay but, if you don't
I guess that's okay too, cause I'm so fucked

Mama I know I'm, not the best son
but there's a lot of things I got to get off my chest
I met a lot of people that made my life a mess 
from Florida to Missouri guess I made a couple of friends
I don't mind it, I've been fighting, all the good times come to an end
I don't mind it, I've been fighting, all the good lives just end in a death

Mama telling me, ill be fine, with you out my mind
and she said, love is hard sometimes
you just gotta go learn how to get by
let it go, give it time
I know it hurt sometimes, you cant run, you cant hide
I know you're sad and tired

Mama told me, better watch my back
cause there's good ones and fake ones everywhere you go
I know I don't say this enough, but I love you
say you love me more, told me I miss you
when you go so far, she said why you gotta go move so far
I'm your only son and your my only mom
I'm really gonna miss you just this time
I don't mind it, I've been fighting 
all the good times come to an end
I don't mind it, I'm misguided
all the good times come to an end

I don't wanna die, but sometimes I be a mess
and sometimes, I'm in my head
you say I'm gonna wind up dead

so I'm, laying down in bed, let head spin I don't rest
go and doze off in my LEDS, I'm thinking how I lost my friends
how the fuck do I know

Mama told me, better watch my back
cause there's good ones and fake ones everywhere you go
I know I don't say this enough, but I love you
say you love me more, told me I miss you
when you go so far, she said why you gotta go move so far
I'm your only son and your my only mom
I'm really gonna miss you just this time
I don't mind it, I've been fighting 
all the good times come to an end
I don't mind it, I'm misguided
all the good times come to an end

-Released With Dotcom-

home

lyrics-

That's my bad,  oh my god 
you saved me from my thoughts
I wake up and now you're gone
I've never felt so lost
That's my bad,  oh my god 
you saved me from my thoughts
I wake up and now you're gone
I've never felt so lost

I guess that I'm lost without you 
but I don't want to go die young
I guess I'm growing older 
but I don't want to live that long
I, I don't
even know if you care about a thing
I guess that I've been so fucked up 
you told me its all up in my head

That's my bad,  oh my god 
you saved me from my thoughts
I wake up and now you're gone
I've never felt so lost
That's my bad,  oh my god 
you saved me from my thoughts
I wake up and now you're gone
I've never felt so lost

I think that I'm gon lose my mind
I just wasted all my time
I think that I'm gon lose my life
ill be dead damn, suicide
and ill be dead damn, not alright
and ill be dead damn say I'm fine

That's my bad,  oh my god 
you saved me from my thoughts
I wake up and now you're gone
I've never felt so lost
That's my bad,  oh my god 
you saved me from my thoughts
I wake up and now you're gone
I've never felt so lost(x2)

young

lyrics

how would you feel
if you were dead right now 
gun to your head
you'll be laying on the ground
you lied to me 
now you wont make a sound 
I've been so quiet 
when she come around
how would you feel 
to be dead right now 

to be dead right now 

breaking my windows 
slashing my tires
I didn't care 
but girl I've been trying
I'm losing my friends 
I'm tired of fighting
I think its the end 
(to be dead right now)

breaking my windows 
slashing my tires 
I'm seeing red
you got a new man 
he bouta be dead
I got no plan 
damn its a mess 
got his blood in my hands
gotta aim for the kill 
now he down on cement 
I've been feeling insane 
cause I'm missing my ex

...

breaking my windows 
slashing my tires 
I didn't care 
but girl I've been trying
I'm losing my friends 
I'm tired of fighting 
I think its the end
to be dead right now

breaking my windows 
slashing my tires 
I didn't care 

gun to your head 
you'll be laying on the ground
you lied to me 
now you wont make a sound
I've been so quiet
when she come around
how would you feel 
to be dead right now 

to be dead right now. 
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this was basically meant to be the third part to my song "red" and "red 2" but I didn't want to name it "red 3" cause I think that's dumb. 

when I was thinking of lyrics to punch in the song kind of took a turn. I started to really think about death and what comes with it... my aunt passed away february 2nd of this year and she was always my biggest supporter. she knew I made music before any of my family did and I always looked forward to showing her my unreleased first. i dont know what happens after death, but i do know she will always be proud of me.. she made sure i knew it.

i love you Aunt Mallory, this one is for you.

trying

smoked way too much before i posted this and now im in my feels

@7ekito
prod @odihu
(clvrrs) cause all my friends they stab my back 
i've been having some heart attacks
look at pictures on my phone 
got me thinking i did wrong
i got knives that'll cut your bone 

when you're dead as shit
 and you're all alone 
no one gives a fuck
aint nobody know
everyone at school 
calling you a hoe

(tek) tired of fightin u know i dont like him
so get em out your life no further discussion 
u jus do whatever u like but i been tryna make it right
n everything u do is out of spite
so u sucking the life out of me 
n something bout you just dont sit right with me
u got no common sense n no decency 
i dont know why it took me so long for you to see 
u dont want me for my soul its not yours to keep 
in my mind you take control youre my nicotine
im scratching for you baby please
dont ever come back to me

when you're dead as shit
 and you're all alone 
no one gives a fuck
aint nobody know
everyone at school 
calling you a hoe
you a dead ass bitch 
but they didn't know
when you're dead as shit
 and you're all alone 
no one gives a fuck
aint nobody know
everyone at school 
calling you a hoe
you a dead ass bitch 
but they didn't know

die w/ tekito

tell me your secrets 
please let them all out 
tell me i'm dreaming 
are you gonna call now 
do i need to call out 
i think i might fall down 
i need to wait
baby i need some patience 

and i lost my heart 
i know that you don't feel whole 
and i got a place that we can go no one knows 
just tell me your secrets, no one gotta know 
i'm all alone, i swear that i'm all alone
i don't pick up the phone, for people that i don't know
but none of my friends, even call me at all 
and that really sucks, cause they don't love me at all
i wanna fuck up her christmas, they don't know me at all 

tell me your secrets 
please let them all out 
tell me i'm dreaming 
are you gonna call now 
do i need to call out 
i think i might fall down 
i need to wait
baby i need some patience 
and i lost my heart 
i know that you don't feel whole 
and i got a place that we can go no one knows 
just tell me your secrets, no one gotta know 
i'm all alone, i swear that i'm all alone

a place no one knows

ain't nobody talk when i make a good song 
but everybody laugh when i make a shitty one
and i hate the way that i talk to my mom 
and i hate the way that i sing in my songs
and i hate my friends cause they all go away 
and i hate my face and how much i weigh
fuck distro kid and how much i pay 

I'm an ugly, stupid asshole, loser
drug addict, dumb bitch abuser
did cocaine off my fucking scooter
i cant get off of my computer
im so pissed i have no humor 
i have way too much fun at hooters
i think i just heard a rumor 
liam is it true you'd hurt her

I'm an ugly, stupid asshole, loser
drug addict, dumb bitch abuser
did cocaine off my fucking scooter
i cant get off of my computer
im an ugly, stupid asshole, loser
drug addict, dumb bitch abuser
did cocaine off my fucking scooter
i cant get off of my computer

oh boy i suck

oh my you've been crying in your bedroom
i tried baby I'm just gonna chase you 
you lied baby I'm just gonna break you 
so cute girl i just wanna taste you

ill go to hell if i die soon
if you die too, promise they wont find you 
 
so cute girl i just wanna taste you 
I'm sick but i just wanna kiss you 
I'm having thoughts wanna hurt you 
i pass you notes in the classroom 
we just had sex in your bedroom 
gonna ruin my life with a tattoo
why do you think that I'm gonna kill you
I'm gonna keep you
i just want to feel you  

oh my you've been crying in your bedroom
i tried baby im just gonna chase you 
you lied baby I'm just gonna break you 
so cute girl i just wanna taste you
I'm sick but i just wanna kiss you 
I'm having thoughts wanna hurt you 
i passed you notes in the classroom
 


keep you

you aint even laughing 
im laughing at you girl 
you dont even know me 
thats why i been capping 
i wont tell the truth to no bitch that I'm clapping 
pull up with a knife 
man im the one thats laughing 

whats the word 
whats the word 
whats the word 
whats the word 
whats the word 
whats the word 
whats the word 
whats the word 
whats the word 
whats the word 
whats the word 
whats the word 
whats the word 
whats the word 
whats the word 

i wont tell the truth to no bitch that im clapping 
pull up with a knife man im the one thats laughing 
i been off a bean
imma kill him if i can
i been off a perc 
whats the problem with that
whats the problem with that
whats the problem with that
whats the problem with that



lmaowtf

standing still while you talk to me
lil American bitch put her trust in me 
 imma break her heart 
I'm gon take her soul 
imma break my neck 
when i drive back home
i swear ill kill that fucking bitch
bitch im coming to your house
this American bitch do you wanna see me now

man i hate your fucking life 
and i hate your shitty dad
and that bitch gon call the cops
man its really not that bad

you ran out of luck 
you lost all my trust 
you the one that fucked 
i dont give a fuck

American bitch do American shit 
she got cuts on her wrist 
she don't care about shit 

 imma break her heart 
I'm gon take her soul 
imma break my neck 
when i drive back home
i swear ill kill that fucking bitch
bitch im coming to your house
this american bitch do you wanna see me now

American bitch do American shit 
she got cuts on her wrist 
she don't care about shit 
American bitch do American shit 
she got cuts on her wrist 
she don't care about shit 
American bitch do American shit 
she got cuts on her wrist 
she don't care about shit 
American bitch do American shit 
she got cuts on her wrist 
she don't care about shit 

american bitch

taking drugs I'm falling out 
promised you I'm cutting down 
promise you id load my rounds
promised you id kill myself 
gotta go and change my tire
fuck my job man i got fired 
fuck that bitch man I'm gon find her 
fuck that bitch man i don't like her 

that bitch gonna kill herself 
she just wanna break her body 
that bitch gonna go through hell 
smoke my blunt up on her body

i don't care about that shit 
i don't care about no hoe
i don't about a thing
as long as you bring me home 

care about my head 
no i don't care about my ex
no i don't care about that bitch
i got a rope around my neck 

i got a rope around my neck

stupid bitch her name is shayla
and my mom said i should date ya
oh my god i fucking hate you 
i know i don't have a chance 
and you fucked up all my plans

i don't care about that shit 
i don't care about no hoe
i just care about my gun
that nobody even knows about 
taking drugs I'm falling out 
promised that I'm cutting down 
promise you id load my rounds
promised you id kill myself 
that bitch so bad it hurt my health

stupid bitch her name is shayla
and my mom said i should date ya
oh my god i fucking hate you 
i know I don't have a chance 
and you fucked up all my plans

all my life
wide awake
all the time
cant escape
cut my eyes
this shit happens all the time 
i cant help the fact 
i wanna smell your breath 
i wanna touch your neck
i wanna fuck you again 

i wanna cut up your body
your in my treasure chest 
i wanna keep you forever but i just know i cant
our little secret my love
i wanna rip you apart 
i wanna make you cum
make you forget how to walk 
make you forget how to talk
our little secret my love

i wanna rip you apart 
our little secret my love
i wanna rip you apart 
our little secret my love
i wanna rip you apart 




our little secret

town

its been forever since the day
that my ass started smoking
no i dont fucking eat
cause it feels like im choking
i killed myself
and now my body bleeding out
on the sofa
aint nobody even care
and no my father dont know yet
my mother walking in
and now she screaming and crying
she dont know why i died yet
she been fighting the silence

i did some drugs
just cause i could try them
i smoked some weed
just to slow the time down
i did some shit
that you wont ever find out
i did some things
that will not ever come out

cause imma kill myself
before im 22
i know my birthdays coming
im turning 20 soon
and imma be all alone
ill fucking sit in my room
im gonna stare at the wall
cause i dont know what to do

ill fucking stare at the wall
ill shove a knife in my chest
i swear ill twist it around
until my body distressed
until my veins start to pop
until my heart wanna stop

its been forever since the day
that my ass started smoking
no i dont fucking eat
cause it feels like im choking
i killed myself
and now my body bleeding out
on the sofa
aint nobody even care
and no my father dont know yet
my mother walking in
and now she screaming and crying
she dont know why i died yet
she been fighting the silence

i did some drugs
just cause i could try them
i smoked some weed
just to slow the time down
i did some shit
that you wont ever find out
i did some things
that will not ever come out

burningclovers (clvrr's)

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