hyperpop

production, mixing and backing vocals by @blackwinterwells

come pick me up i'll pay for gas
there's nowhere that i want to be
and you'll drive fast and i won't ask
to pick the music or the street
and we can talk about whatever and pretend that we won't tell
even pretending to ourselves

u think it's easy where it's darker 
and i like to feel my heart
speed up with my eyes shut
and feel we're doing something we should not
so for a time i spend my life just trying to find out when to stop
just trying to guess when we'll get caught

this place is suffocating
i'll still be here in five years
like i promise i won't through the wind in your ears
but nothing feels as urgent
and these nights are still important
and there's still a lot i haven't put into words yet

every time i feel alive it will feel just like this
i'll get the things u did 
forget the boy i kissed
by the hangar and you'll both be strangers to me

tonight it matters how i'm not a person who u want to see
cause i like to talk about the hospital and go when i don't need it
just to show the world i feel it
i only ever did it once
and it was selfish it was dumb
but i can't bring myself to

hate me for wanting a break
i'll still be here in five years
where i made every mistake
sixteen trying to disappear
for one week and a half
you know it's all an act
cause there's still a lot i haven't put into words yet

hangar

hangar (blackwinterwells)

precious

how could i tell u? [prod. malikai + bailey]

BRING U HOME

Heartbeats/Heartbreaks

sad song 33

Good Ones

Dawn Of Chromatica

Rain On Me (Arca Remix)

halations

srry#

prod by 
@fortuneswan
@thefthproject
notes:// (＾• ω •＾)
i don have much to say 
im vv nervous
big thank to every1 for da support <3
lyrics:
yeah u look so pretty in dat dress 
but i'd look better 
gave u everything i ever had
even my sweater 
mood is always shitty 
like north carolina weather
u say dat u better than my ex
but have you met her?

so

there's this girl named astrid
never knows what's happening
she does whatever all her friends 
wanna do that's without asking
i really don't wanna grow up to be alone
in a mansion
n her friends don't really like her
omg i can't imagine

there's this girl named astrid
never knows what's happening
she does whatever all her friends 
wanna do that's without asking
i really don't wanna grow up to be alone
in a mansion
n her friends don't really like her
omg i can't imagine

tell me "do u reminisce about me or the past"
i was stuck inside my head
should b stuck inside my bag
n u saying all this shit abt
call me this n that
n everything that works for me 
never seems to last

oh
my 
goodness gracious
i've never been good at 
all the cheap flirtations
i feel like a puppet 
controlled animations
i've never been good at
holding conversations

there's this girl named astrid
never knows what's happening
she does whatever all her friends 
wanna do that's without asking
i really don't wanna grow up to be alone
in a mansion
n her friends don't really like her
omg i can't imagine

cypress grove

astrid

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guitar by @ayyitsryo
mixed by me & @nathan_dagum
prod & performed by me:p

lyrics:

〔verse〕
recommended on twitter y u follow my friend
every step i take u always end up haunting my head
we can't even have a conversation
leaving me to think in bed this contemplation

stupid little small boy won't suffice
he jus busy thinking over suicide
and he's watched the sun rise too many times and it's about that time that he'd end his life

〔hook〕
10 bars in his mouth and muffled words
couldn't stop him from getting worse
he lifts his body right from this curse i wish he didn't make it hurt
it's all okay

〔verse〕
and she kiss me the next day ignore for the season
and we go back 2 texting ignore all the reasons
but it never ends up in my favor
i really only hope that u would see me later

sunlight gray skies touch on my head
i would rather spend all of today in bed
why u keep buzzing my phone
i'm busy falling asleep
pretend that nobody home
i'm crying under the sheets

dw abt me
i promise u i'm cool
i'm busy picking debris
i'm leaving u & school
i live inside my head
ur pants beside my bed
hold this glock to my head i go ahead n pull the trigger

〔hook〕
10 bars in his mouth and muffled words
couldn't stop him from getting worse
he lifts his body right from this curse i wish he didn't make it hurt
it's all okay

muffled words (st jimmy + ryo)

waking up early taking naps
no i can’t feel it anymore
laying on my back in the grass
wonder why i feel sore
said she wanna take a step back
but i’ve heard it all before
but i’ve heard it all before
empty only wanting more

she’s a devil
she’s a two timer
she’s a snake
she’s a fucking liar
kiss your neck 
because i’m not a biter
when she left my place i couldn’t find my lighter

i’m still down for you i’m doing my part 
but i can’t fill this gap inside of my heart
and nothing in this world can satisfy me
and i feel so selfish i want your body

but i don’t wanna fuck just wanna kiss you
i just need somebody to continue
crushed up addys placed inside my bedroom
honestly i just don’t see the issue 
just a little blood inside the tissue
i don’t wanna think because i’ll miss you
so i still i got my vices i submit to

selfish

prod me and that dude @ilypelican

looking through my head at everything I've ever done or said
I'm so annoying I hate everything I ever did
don't know why I would even tell you you don't give a shit
I finally understand the reason I don't see you
[HOOK]
you don't listen to me 
life feel like a fucking movie
I'm  thinking of ending things
maybe then you'll say you knew me
you just saying anything
don't know what you meant to me
blood all over everything
I don't want your sympathy
drag me through the dirt saying 
what happened to chivalry
I feel like your secretary
all the shit you give to me
I thought when it happened
wonder why you're picking me
I know why this happened
me and all my misery
[VERSE]
fucked up fucked up 
I get so
you're stuck up you're stuck up 
you don't know
I'm trying so hard to do this on my own
lying I said I'm good alone
stuck here and I'm faking I'm okay
I don't wanna wait another day
feels like they're lying to my face
just cant keep up I'm out of place
I know its temporary 
do it again and again
another January
I don't know how I should spend
tonight yeah more than ever
I feel like this is the end
they said it gets better
I don't know why they pretend
[HOOK]

im thinking of ending things ft 8485 (yurms + pelican)

focus w/ SEBii

guitar by @ayyitsryo
mixed by me & @nathan_dagum
cover art by @kayzelledagum

lyrics:

oh fuck that
i don't wanna talk about a rough patch
and if u don't even wanna give a hug back
then i'm leaving ur bed i'm not returning my head until u tell me what went wrong

grip that
wesson
is it a sight to see
learned my
lesson
my mind is fighting me

step back
listen
die w the centipedes
burn my
tendons
questioning why does she

cry
and i won't hold back
cuz what we have won't last
i can't let go of past
mistakes i
erase lies

so fuck that
idgaf abt a rough patch
u won't even bother j to look back
kiss me on the cheek and give a hug back
miss that

facetime
honestly it feels like u j waste time
every time we talk u make me hate life
every time we don't it makes me hate mine

base my
heart
around every tiny part
i witnessed things when it got too hard
i'm getting calls while i'm in my car
u pierced right thru me with words like darts

ain't nothing wrong w my head
i'm stepping outta ur bed
i'm always thinking bout how this went wrong
pistol packin by the side of my desk
i fill my brain with this lead
so i distract myself and write this song

BORED

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