wide eyes (feat. Jane Remover & juno)

can't fall asleep
i think i just need to eat
i shouldn't go to bed at 3
i should just brush my teeth
i'm sick of dreams
where i feel seventeen
i can't do anything
like just falling asleep

i know it's bad for me
tomorrow i promise i'll
take better care of myself
but its not easy
its not easy

can't fall asleep
i think i just need to eat
i shouldn't go to bed at 3
i should just brush my teeth
i'm sick of dreams
where i feel seventeen
i can't do anything
like fucking fall asleep

i know it's bad for me
tomorrow i promise i'll
take better care of myself
but its not easy

when nobody's watching i
just stay in my head all night

it's 3am
i gotta wake up again
i gotta fake it pretend
like i'm not still asleep
i'm not falling apart
no jumprope in my heart
my body's gonna give out
on me

i know it's bad for me
this make believe
what's truth for you
are lies for me
so i just want autonomy
and i have to be patient

she'd wake up at
a reasonable hour
maybe take a shower
if i could allow her
she'd make herself a meal
and it tastes fine
spent a minute online
make it to work at 9

but she's probably busy
staring at the ceiling
probably isn't feeling
busy doing nothing
she could be productive
maybe even happy
spending time with her friends
smiling and laughing

it's easier said than done
it's easier said than done

how do i block it out in a way
that's more selfish than this?
i don't think such a method exists

i turned to recluse
and self-diffusion
to solve for answers
with synthetic solutions
and swim down
to lows beneath
all the places
that the light couldn't reach

if you
break through
somehow you reach me
get rid of these leeches
eating love for food
leaving selfish isolationist attitude

i want you around me
so badly, so badly
you're chosen family
you kill the bad things
i don't know what to say

all good people are asleep (feat. saoirse dream)

another old song
started in september 2021, finished in october 2022
https://twitter.com/canofblissmusic

Inner dialogue
Down on me all the time, but I don't cry a lot
I get my best ideas when I'm gone
Then I try to remember what the fuck is going on
In my head
It takes me all damn night to wanna go to bed
I keep thinking of everything I could've said
Why did I have to come off like I never meant?

And I try so hard
And nothing's coming out right
And I try so hard

And then I feel defeated
Energy depleted
And I'm bringing myself back down
And then I feel defeated
Nothing got completed
It's time to waste time now

I keep burning out
Not always fully there, I'm drifting in and out
Do people even get the things I talk about?
I don't think so
Maybe my vibe is too bizarre
It's too much effort breaking me out with a crowbar
Maybe the answers to my problems are on Co-Star
I tell myself that I'm not wanted where my friends are
I tell myself that I'm not wanted at all

And I try so hard
And nothing's coming out right
And I try so hard

It's not that I don't wanna talk about it
I don't know how to fucking use my mouth
Then I forget what I was talking about

And then I feel defeated
Energy depleted
And I'm bringing myself back down
And then I feel defeated
I feel defeated
I feel defeated

And I try so hard
And nothing's coming out right
And I try so hard

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defeated

grrrr x3

featuring:
@saoirsedream
@prodmusa
@can-of-bliss

produced by:
@can-of-bliss
@musicbyrift

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@st1cksyea
@trndytrndy
@can-of-bliss

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