  -  Letter of Intent  -

My thought revolve around you
and you are teaching me
I feel as though we have
re-found each other
And I imagine us together long ago...
you know when, where, why

OK that's it for now
I guess I love you....maybe
And I can't try to describe what I feel for you
it's a mystery

My forehead ticks now and again
and I feel in love with you
I feel an intimate link with everything
but your relentless abandonment

I see myself in your history but
seek to confirm our "connection"
I hope you feel it to 
My obsession with you
can't be described it's like a mystery

Of course we have never met
And I hope that I'm not scaring you
I promise this to you:
I really have nothing but good intention

We've become so familiar, you and I
That we've been together, in my mind
But your voice has become very faint so I
think I'll wait down by the river...
Wait to die...

But when I hear your "whisper"
it makes me change my mind
And imagining your closeness
brings me warmth inside

So many letters written
and not a single reply...
I don't mind....
I do mind

Of course we have never met
And I hope that I'm not scaring you

I feel hostile as I write to you
But maybe anger's a good thing
Adding fuel to this fire
Burn, baby burn!....You and I will burn

We're all moths to a flame, and we'll burn together
We're all moths to a flame and we'll die together


05 Letter Of Intent

  -  Another Perfect Encounter -  

Dream hope and clear
a perfect insanity.
I promise I'll let go
if you close your eyes.
On a ride to trip
another fucking dying day

My every prayer
washes me impure
Echoes attached 
to a fading memory
Twisting reason
with unwilling moving time

Another Perfect encounter
with nothing at all 

Twist bones and clench your cross.
Consumed souls spilling frowns
Hands and Knees, melt it down
Squeeze until the god is out 

Stare like not a word can be spoken
within the silence so lifeless

Twist bones and clench your cross.
Consumed souls spilling frowns
Hands and Knees, melt it down
Squeeze until the god is out 
Squeeze it out


01 Another Perfect Encounter

  -  Captive Indecision  -

After Several moments of insight
Analyze what you've witnessed here
Multiply this day by a lifetime
Then try your hand at crippling fear

I'm out of my mind
Wishing that I could decide
This isn't life or death
You fail to see the problem

A captive of this indecision
Distorted view of right or wrong
Unknown results leave me frozen
"just flip a  fucking coin and move along..."

I'm out of my mind
Wishing that I could decide
This isn't life or death
And becomes all our problem

Can take it watching me buried underneath "yes" and "no"

Can you take it, watching me
spending a lifetime in-between
"yes" and "no"
I wish that I could show you 
what's inside of my mind (x2)

The sun shines blackness upon my face
Feel the earth collapsing from the weight
There's a sickness growing deep inside
and it's pushing me to hide

This weight is pushing over onto me
Because I can't show you what I mean
Every time that I've looked inside
All I see is a corrupted state of mind.

A witness to this trial so tragic
The mental scars to prove you wrong
Try but fail to understand it
Just give up and Kindly move along

I'm out of my mind
wishing that I could show...

Can you take it, watching me
spending a lifetime in-between
"yes" and "no"
I wish that I could show you 
what's inside of my mind


02 Captive Indecision

  -  Nothing Remains  -

You Can't see my face
I can't hear your words
Someone I thought I knew
You were never real

Can you hear my voice?
Your blank stare answers no...

When logic contradicts
Is the past just a dream?
Your breath could warm my flesh
If only I could believe

I turn and walk away
You fall to the ground

Your blood is mixing with mine
and it's slowly changing color
A feeling that grows and engulfs me
as I drift away (from)
You live now inside as your flesh become mine
I can't walk away
I fall to the ground and then disappear
Now nothing remains (x2)

She said "how can I trust you when only  fools believe in death?"
But how can I trust you when you're on your last breath


03 Nothing Remains

  -  Empty Shell  - 

For every action there's an equal and opposite
overspecialize and breed weakness
is DNA nothing more than a program designed to
preserve itself, if so then maybe our struggle to maintain
what we are limits us and gives rise to slow death

For now I feel confined within this life
only free to expand within these boundaries
afraid my ghost will separate from this body

And soon your open eyes look into mine
I feel like I'm awake and dreaming
I don't know what you are, and I need what's underneath

Now, Maybe someday your maker will come
take you apart and throw you away
and announce the recall of a defective product
then, maybe all that's left is an empty shell
and a couple of lonely brain cells

What we see now is like a dull image in a mirror
then we shall see ourselves face to face

And now your open mind will let me dive
into the stream of your consciousness
so I can find your design
and complete our merging

Now, Maybe someday your maker will come
take you apart and throw you away
and announce the recall of a defective product
then, maybe all that's left is an empty shell
and a couple of lonely brain cells

So where does the newborn go from here
the net is vast and infinite.





04 Empty Shell

  -  Waking Sleep --

A fitting end 
to another lost day
Sleep will come
just as it's forced away
while time stutters, sways
and falls again
Hiding away
a relapse of this
lifelessness

So here we go again
let's take this trip
 one more time around
The comfort of an "old friend"
welcomes me to the new day
And I assure him:
yeah we'll make that change tomorrow
yeah, we'll make that change

Another dawn pierces
and cracks the windowpane
Wide eyes they clench so hard
they are straining
to shut out the relentless light

Hiding from the day
The pressure overwhelms
The world is pushed away
by eyes again shut tight
These ears burn
from your fire

A numbness consumes all
The waking sleep begins
With restless exhaustion....
a distraught happiness
today's time 
has finally come
and I'm alive

Dead I awake
too late to bleed this day
and the night closes too fast

We can live like death
is much more than life
we will sleep without dreams
and rise with no hope
no hope

This guilt ridden carcass can't
bear its own weight
and stumbles around the earth
in search of the new night


We can live like death
is much more than life
we will sleep without dreams
and rise with no hope
no hope

Standing on these burning bridges
sliding closer to the edge
the guilt slowly pulls me
down into the shadows
watch as I fall
With best intentions 
to rise again
alone I will rise again
I will rise

Standing on these burning bridges
sliding closer to the edge
the guilt slowly pulls me
down into the shadows
watch as I fall
With best intentions 
to rise again

Dead I awake
too late to bleed this day
and the night closes too fast (x2)

This guilt ridden carcass can't
bear its own weight
and stumbles around the earth
in search of the new night


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