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I don't really have a lot of chill for guns. Or anything really. I try to interact with people as little as possible because its usually a mistake. I have a core group of people I don't see a whole lot but we pick up just like we were a few years later. Back in the day, we'd leave each other increasingly unhinged voicemail messages for a laugh. This would be like 02 or whatever. 

Gun culture in the US is gonzo shit. I keep trying to reconcile my love of violence with guns but gun violence is usually pretty boring? It sucks to get shot, you might die. But somehow any damn fool can get their hands on life ending hardware faster than they can get into therapy. Let me touch on the therapy thing in a bit. I've seen the gun fu movies they're ridiculous. I've seen a bunch of those serious soldier bullshit movies too. I'm glad sergeant sucksnuts gets the babe vol 24. But go the old way, blade and bellyfire, that's like riding in the pocket of gods. Capricious ones at best, but every ride has its lows. Plus the phallic symbolism has a certain juvenile appeal. 

And the mental health is the real motherfucker isn't it? There's always people looking for work, feelin down or whatever. Their cut for the bounty of healthcare is awful meager. Especially for folks with mental health issues. Most places you get a gun in your hands 7 days after you declare you wanna buy it. Even less when its just pass a background check that doesn't disclose domestic violence. See a doctor? 3 weeks. But you gotta fill out all this paperwork and you're overwhelmed so you snap and its cops instead of doctors. Then you gotta play the paranoia game because your survival is now dependent on if the police are having a good day or not. It sucks people live like this. 

IDK people play first person shooters would probably disagree but whatever. They get scared when the light tubes and shit come out.  

Back in 02 I'd get yelled at for breaking glass and rolling in it.  Was I an ok person? Probably, I've apologized for most for the stuff I didn't get away with. Even bought lawn furniture replace destroyed ones. Redid a few lawns. You know, wild american shit.  Am I an ok person now? yeah, I lived through me. I don't drink anymore but I know the tab'll come due.

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