Let me take you to a place that you have never been before
Waiting for another drop of blood to hit the fucking floor
And you can't understand cause you're only four
Every little bit of pain inside my brain was dripping red but I sustained
I was only eight when everything from my nightmares went insane and escaped my dreams
I was used to the shouting but I could never get used to the screams
Even today every now and then I lose my edge and I retreat
Deep into a silent corner in my mind and slowly bleed
Because the terror of my memories has vicious teeth
But I'll succeed,
Because I make my own destiny
And I've seen what it's like to be a prisoner of misery
And I won't let that beast detain and eat me
I learned to breath without the help of anybody teaching me
I trust my instincts and I let them take me where they lead
I'm free because of the things those wicked guilty ones taught me
Have respect and pride, and above all else, fucking honesty
I've got to admit, I've avoided this shit, I've just bottled it up, and it's hurt when I did
But the way I'm built, silence isn't an option for me
If I can't say it then you might as well choke me, cause either way, I can't breath
I need freedom from the sins of the kin that involved me
I'll always have love, but I've gotta rise above, I can't
Be held down, by the chains of fate they linked to me
I've gotta stuggle past the place they couldn't grasp, that why they made me strong, I can't
Give up at the place where they slipped because their hands got weak
And I'll succeed,
Because I make my own destiny
And I've seen what it's like to be a prisoner of misery
And I won't let that beast detain and eat me
I've got sharp teeth, and I'll bite when I need to
I know how to hunt, find, fight, defeat, and then eat you
I've become the one you fucking fear when I come and seek you
I was twisted from the beginning, that's why I laugh when I delete you
I'm the boogyman now, that why my name is taboo
Don't piss me off pal, because I'll curse you like fucking voodoo
I'll hit you so hard your bruises will be tattoos
I'm a wolf in sheep skin, I seem righteous but don't let it fool you
All the pain I've build up gave me wisdom, made me real tough
I only fight when it's life or death, so pull that shit, you'll be done
I gave mercy for the last time when I thought I was fighting for love
And that's when I learned that that mistake can get my grave dug

So don't expect mercy from me next time
I've learned my lesson and it'll be different next time
Whatever the challenge, whatever mountain I've gotta climb, I'm positive
That I'll rise above it all and fucking shine
yeah I'll succeed,
Because I make my own destiny
And I've seen what it's like to be a prisoner of misery
And I won't let that beast detain and eat me
yeah I'll succeed,
Because I make my own destiny
And I've seen what it's like to be a prisoner of misery
And I won't let that beast detain and eat me

Destiny

Will you walk away
'Cause your mask is incomplete
And hide your face
Then in disgrace, retreat

You can't escape yourself you know
It's like trying to fly by digging holes

Don't mind the taste
Of poison, bittersweet
It's a race
To get the antidote you need

It all depends on what you know
On what you let go, and what you hold

---
If you can't
Handle it
Maybe you
Should abandon it

But if you can
Then challenge it
Maybe you
Can do it

If you can't
Handle it
Maybe you
Should abandon it

But if you can
Then challenge it
Maybe you
Can do it
---

I believe
There's more than what we know
To being free
That's why I'll trade my body for my soul

~~~
Somehow I've found an answer
Bound inside a thousand cancers
Something missing, that I've found in-
-side the hearts of necromancers
~~~

Look at me
I'm a wretched sight indeed
But what you don't see
Are the soles under my feet

It was my choice to take this road
I've burnt the bridge that leads the way back home

Heat can bring you solace in the cold
So spread your wings and get the hell out of this hole

---
If you can't
Handle it
Maybe you
Should abandon it

But if you can
Then challenge it
Maybe you
Can do it                     x2

If I said
I'll handle it
I'd be a fool
To abandon it

I've got a plan
To challenge it
I won't be a fool
I've gotta do it
..---

Challenge It

Do you remember back high school
When you acted like a king
I sure as hell do
You were an asshole to me

I see you've taken up some habits
Shooting needles, chasing rabbits
I should have pity but I don't
I hope you overdose and choke

	---
Schadenfreude
Your failures, I enjoy 'em
Karmas a bitch
I laugh as she destroys ya
	---

I thought my life was going poorly
As if you were right to be a dick
When I saw you, I almost felt sorry
But then I laughed, cause you're a prick

All of your cloths are stained and tattered
And it looks like you don't own a shower
I should have pity but I don't
Your misery is now my joke

	---
Schadenfreude
Your failures, I enjoy 'em
Karmas a bitch
I laugh as she destroys ya
	---
Schadenfreude
Your failures, I enjoy 'em
Karmas a bitch
I laugh as she destroys ya
        ---

I wanna see you everyday
Sinking lower
Brings a smile to my face
To see you be less than mediocre

I guess it all worked out
You got what you deserved
You're just a miserable lout
Your fate is justly served

	---
Schadenfreude
Your failures, well I enjoyed 'em
Karmas a bitch
And I laugh cause she destroyed ya 
	---
Schadenfreude
Your failures, I enjoy 'em
Karmas a bitch
I laugh as she destroys ya

Schadenfreude (Karmas a Bitch)

Drink the fire
And feel it's poison take a hold
You're now a slave of desire
You can't escape this pyre

Dance, dance in mental flames
Burnt away, forgotten names
Who am I, what is this place
My memory has been erased

Drown in ire
And feel the ashes going cold
You've sold yourself for a lie
You can't escape this time

Dance, dance in mental waves
Washed away, forgotten names
Who am I, what is this place
I can't remember yesterday

Burnt by ice
Caught between enemies of old
You're now caught in a war so dire
You are the bomb at the end of the wire

Slave of Desire

My cover of Good is Good by Sheryl Crow.
Enjoy!

Good is Good - (Sheryl Crow Cover)

I scream because I'm broken hearted                     
A wound she left when she departed
She wanted my forgiveness, you see
But the situation wasn't that easy

She wanted my forgiveness, you see
But the situation wasn't that easy

She left before my dreams came true                     
To see her turn to gold, not blue
She wanted my forgiveness, you see
But the situation wasn't that easy

She wanted my forgiveness, you see
But the situation wasn't that easy
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I'm so sorry mom                                        
I should have been there, I didn't
Know that you'd be gone
I didn't, I wish it

Could have been different, mom                          
And I hope that you knew that I
Never hated you, I was wrong
To not say that I loved you, mom
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I didn't mean to be so heartless                        
I thought the cold would win against the darkness
I couldn't stand to watch her die                       
To watch her kill herself because she wanted to fly

She wanted my forgiveness, you see
For her unintended insanity
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She only wanted me to be there                          
She only wanted to be free
She said she only needed me to love her
I said I'm just not ready...

Then two weeks later...
Then just two weeks later...
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I'm so sorry mom                                        
I should have been there, I didn't
Know that you'd be gone
I didn't, I wish it

Could have been different, mom                          
And I hope that you knew that I
Never hated you, I was wrong
To not say that I loved you, mom

So Sorry, Mom

A phoenix risen from the ashes is a miracle it seems
Until the you realize the bird will die again, and when it screams
It feels the pain, just like the rest of the world
The nightmare it lives is to others a dream

And the girl, she cries tonight
Knowing the pain will reignite
Knowing that life eventually dies, and that the
Phoenix will eventually realize

That life is a flame lit by the desire to be
A part of something that is bigger than
We that wander through the fire thinking
Why it hurts and why we're sinking

Through the ashes of the dying phoenix
Through the ashes of the dying...

"You can knock me down a million times and I'll fly again, you see"
Said the phoenix with resistance to the one it calls the tree
Your boughs will break and rot away
But my wings are bound to spread again

And the girl, she cries tonight
Knowing the pain will reignite
Knowing that light eventually dies, and that the
Phoenix will eventually despise her eyes

'Cause life is a flame lit by the desire to be
A part of something that is bigger than
We that wander through the fire thinking
Why it hurts and why we're sinking

Through the ashes of the dying phoenix
Through the ashes of the dying...

And through the times unseen, when the terror is
Vying for a grasp on the infinite wings,
Of the fire that rises when the darkness is brightest
And though it knows it...

Time is not forever
And there is always an end, so remember
The light of the flame that can never die
Cannot exist if it loses its sight... No...

'Cause life is a flame lit by the desire to be
A part of something that is bigger than
We that wander through the fire thinking
Why it hurts and why we're sinking

Through the ashes of the dying phoenix
Through the ashes of the dying...

Ashes

Cody Darveau - Antifreeze

An interesting riff I came up with inspired by the blazing summer sun

The Heat

Magic Mushrooms

Acoustic guitars, hard rock, and heavy metal come together in an agressive yet elegant torrent of passionate vocals, impactful riffs, and mindbending lyrics.

cody-darveau