later

performed, written, & produced by me @mental
featuring @blxty

[mental]
i could never hate u
doesnt matter what u do
i know that u hate me
usually i hate me too
tired of complaining
but idk what else to do
tired of explaining
every wrong move i choose

feels like ive lost every reason
nobody else to believe in
think ive got too many secrets
so i keep sleeping and dreaming
that once for a change i could feel something else
and it pains me to stay with the cards ive been dealt
i could keep moving forwards and look for some help
but id rather exist with just u and myself <3

[blxty]
so bby tell me what hits harder den my words
i'm sick n tired of explaining so u first
i still cant find it so i cant tell u my worth
so bby would tell me would u feel the same..
if u were hurt
Like wud it work?
wud u find me useful?
or wud i b like dirt?
and maybe it's just a process
One that i can not process
bang my head n the wall
and u wont tell me i lost it
pls jus tell me i lost it

https://open.spotify.com/album/5dkyRFb1yJPEI0MDEtQi8v?si=7obS22PkQE-X6LH4oxsTHA

after you feat blxty

mess 2

lyrical vid: https://youtu.be/1cf2QpMmn8U
ig:
https://instagram.com/megurine_allen/
https://instagram.com/j9nsv3/
mix: @jonsve
aw/edit: @allenafs
lyrics:
a. 
endless sorrow hauntin around me idk where to start
I'll be starin till the end right into the dark
yuh time pass ong just way 2 fast issa distance not a age
I been befalled from the world bred in my mind 
can't rly make a change issa nature
countless souls had filled me up gon burst 
the world is sinkin but I'm more evil they gon fkin kill u if u make it
shoot needles right into my vein remember when I was younger there s nothing 2 fear about
j.
i been here contemplating
bout when its just too late and
i been here overthinking
when will we ever make it
i been running in the dark
just to cover up my heart
make it hurt then make it stop
i been fucking aching
have her carving in a scar
she been tearing me apart
and the worst thing of it all
is what im okay with
she been carving in a scaaaar
twist a knife right through my heaaaaart
she been tearing me apart
so i been running running running in the daaaaaaark

* evry1s beautiful☣/'f u not then pretend 2b✡ * w/ jons [+jurokuneta]

@aimemia @deadat18

mv - https://www.instagram.com/p/CUBgHoRsjtu/

lemme just count my racks
ur just like a heart attack
nd girl i need u bad .. nd girl i need u bad

got no time to waste nymor
ur life stay stuck on bored
im so up no keepin score
life was bettr than b4

life was bettr than b4
girl wtf u do 2 me?
ive been gettin so fcked up 
my life look like the movie scenes

better than b4
u cant tell me that she heaven sent
life was bettr than b4
cause if heaven came then heaven went

im sippin so distant
just losing the vision
i guess i do dis often
wuttt
im so off it
huhh
im so 0ff 1t :/

they can say im fine
of wat u call it?
we can play pretend
n no i nevr nevr rlly
had a friend
words as empty as this bottle 
philosopher like aristotle
n i dont rlly need a model

later

@Cold