Equilibrium

Good Hands

A break from the norm to stretch myself a little.

Sleepless Nights

A Journey Lost

Lyrics:

I spent a lot of time wrapped in my thoughts watching these words I wish I'd lost keep on taunting me they're haunting me 
I wanted to explain I wanted to remain I wanted to be everything you  wanted but I couldn't be just being honest 

I can feel this passion inside me burn like the rhythm of lightening 
I'm just a man but try to understand why I keep bleeding keep on needing keep receding falling out of line like the wind of time blowing yesterday to the end of my life

This is my story
This is my audience 
I live for the glory 
And suffer the tolerance 

This is my failure 
This is my longing
I live for the answers 
And suffer the silence 

Maleficent reticent counterfeit but never innocent I look in the mirror a river running but impotent 
Like a beautiful song in a world full of misery i can't be absolved even if life is a mystery 

I only need when convenient I only bleed when in decadence 
We all have scars that are unseen 
don't go searching for high esteem
I'd be lying if I were to tell the truth because no one wants to believe and lose 
lose everything or nothing lose someone but that's no excuse
The past is the knife stuck in the back of my apathy 
But I realize my true colors aren't black or white just only gray

This is my story
This is my audience 
I live for the glory 
And suffer the tolerance 

This is my failure 
This is my longing
I live for the answers 
And suffer the silence 

I live in freedom but never freedom from consequence or common sense 
Limitless is dangerous but the state of mind is advantageous 
Fundamentally flawed acknowledge the cause
but hit pause let me remember the loss let me discover the flaws
Machinations of my own design keep me shackled and buried under my own decline but it's my time to rise 


Rise

I am trying to include more elements of my musical influences. This is also one of my absolute favorite chord progressions. I hope you enjoy the song as much as I enjoyed creating it!

Jp

Tyrant

This is a song featuring my friend who passed away Daniel Milam. He sang so beautifully and it is such an honor to have recorded him.

Warm Like The Sun (feat. Daniel Milam)

Lyrics:

Forgive and forget 
I'm coming up from underneath 
Forgive and forget
A side of me I can't let free
Forgive and forget 
I'm coming up from underneath 
I'll never forget what all you thought you took from me 

I set a precedent I'm limitless I'm out of control 
I look to breathing in and breathing out just to be whole
Is love the Same as giving up or just the opposite 
you can push me to the edge but i can't promise I'll get over it
a heart of gold I didn't know could weigh you down just like you're bound 
what's the point of innocence if the end you're ambivalent 
You gave me a kiss and i just gave you a smile a 
perfect lie to match the imperfection that will never die

I'm Haunted by your dreams 
I'm breaking at the seams
But I refuse to just give up like all my struggles were for nothing 
I came to far and lost too much to see it all dissolve at once
I admit I stole your peace  
An apology gone unreleased 
The sickness I witness the stillness is vicious 
it's all the same but know my name 

Forgive and forget 
I'm coming up from underneath 
Forgive and forget
A side of me I can't let free
Forgive and forget 
I'm coming up from underneath 
I'll never forget what all you thought you took from me 

Coming at me down and dirty just pretending like you know me 
but a truth is just a lie if you're reality is never ending 
I said that I want it all I took the fall and now I crawl 
On my knees I see what's wrong but maybe I just lack resolve 
This song is my reflection and this melody my weakness 
Im my own creation and I'm the one In pieces 
One more minute one more day to fix what all I didn't say 
Regret is the answer to the question that I always hate 
If I'm the cancer you're the cure
If you're the lover I'm the fool
Twisted conversations lead to ruined lives and force fed lies
I wish I had known how my mistakes could destroy everything 
The past is my undoing but the future is my remedy 

Trapped between the void of what I know and what I'm seeking 
finger on the pulse I feel my heart beat weaken
In my mind I'm a tyrant 
My head screams like a siren 
There's a maniac 
I can't hold back

Forgive and forget 
I'm coming up from underneath 
Forgive and forget
A side of me I can't let free
Forgive and forget 
I'm coming up from underneath 
I'll never forget what all you thought you took from me 

Coming From Underneath

New song I have been working on for a few weeks now. The lyrics mean a lot to me and I am trying to explore a little more vocally. Let me know what you think!

John

Lyrics:

Verse 1

I don’t wanna live my life a shadow in another’s light
I know I deserve what’s mine the good the bad from my design
It’s on the tip of my tongue not the trials that I won or the lies that I’ve spun that can’t be undone
Contradictions but I listen no regrets a revelation

Free the harlot but kill the saint I feel the blood drip through my veins
The silhouette of my death unsaid is the passenger captive in my head
I can take back the words but never the pain 
Try as I might it can never be the same
This ocean will not swallow me a tidal wave of empathy

I sat on my hands just making my demands
Waiting for the world to just give me what I want
But its my choice my fault my gain my loss

Peace and love and satisfaction 
A genesis with no inception
Am I too weak to admit defeat
Or do I pray my soul to keep

No I cant believe all that I’ve done 
I was blind like my eyes saw the sun
But now I see what’s coming 
Can’t avoid it I’ll stop running

Paid a debt I didn’t know ignoring whether friend or foe
When did the pursuit of harmony dissolve into dichotomy?

Verse 2

I’m no more a martyr then the people I’ve made suffer
Counting decades just like hours waiting to discover
That for all those times I blamed someone fearing my reflection
The facts don’t lie I’ve seen through time deceit is deformation

Chasing freedom losing honor I expect what I can’t protect
I’ll never win against myself if history leaves nothing left
I look to the future yet I walk in the past 
I know I need to change but my heart is just the same

 Choices made me the man I’ve become but failures turned me into anyone
An insult to my vanity but maybe that’s just what I need
I sacrificed the light for darkness
Now a flame burns bright regardless
I can’t escape but I won’t remain I lose my fate but restore my name

With only finality in mind I see the beauty
Gravity will never hold me
Tragedy will never take me

Broken mirrors tell no lies break the spell I’m not hypnotized 
Admiration is self serving hide the scarlet but feel it burning


Never Victimless

Verse 1
Another day another replay 
Like a song or a melody stuck with me like it's a felony 
A slave to what's common leaving me wanting in 
a system that feeds on my silence and my due tolerance 
 
You built this kingdom and you built this prison
I thought there was a difference my ignorance is the tension 
That holds my life together controls my hopes for better
Or worse time will tell I suppose I can't know 

I confess I regret I evolve I reset I resolve to keep on fighting the pain to keep on fighting the same 
I saw you drift now watch me collide as I try to avoid all the lies look in my eyes

And see the strength the power the courage I devour 
your fear and your hate your indifference and your fate
You think I’m just a man with bloodshot eyes and open hands
Refusing to acknowledge the sweat and tears I’ve bled for years
 
You’re prey to the safety the familiar of watching others fail
But I’m the anomaly the abstract i broke the veil
Of darkness of light forget your designs
Your masquerades are finished now 
remember this face and recognize me
 
Chorus
Do you bleed? 
Do you feel? 
Do you ache or do you just take?

How can you breathe?
How can you think?
How can you live?
How can you break? 

Recognize this
Recognize Me

Verse 2
I'm finding my conscience in the unconscionable 
You sit on your throne and look down on me like I'm an animal
Your profit is prophesy condemning all that you want from me
Repression in violence digging graves looking for silence
 
Lifetimes spent without regret decades wasted by the day
Ignore your common decency embrace your just hypocrisy 
A story with no hero you're the villain stuck in fantasy
Plead to me I hold the keys but mercy isn't part of me
 
That feeling of helplessness is something you have never known
That longing for fairness is something you don’t have to know
I’m living in your perfect world of chandeliers and souvenirs
Nothing ever lasts except the fear of losing atmosphere
 
Choke on these words just like you strangled me with condescension
Blind to your guilt I can lead you to your absolution
Open your mind open your eyes look to the sky just a goodbye
And recognize this and recognize me
 
Chorus
Do you bleed? 
Do you feel? 
Do you ache or do you just take?

How can you breathe?
How can you think?
How can you live?
How can you break? 

Recognize this
Recognize Me

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