I first recorded this Arthur Russell song nearly 4 years ago. Hated it, scrapped most of the vocals. Still hated it. Fail again, fail better. Here's something I'm satisfied with.

Keeping Up (Arthur Russell Cover)

My love letter to the great musician Arthur Russell. Been working on this one for a long time, with a lot of false starts and stops.

Arthur's Cello

I originally had this planned as a gentle, folksy, keyboard-heavy track. Then, I was playing around with Celtic (DADGAD) tuning and came up with two heavy riffs and the song turned into a Celtic freak disco track about fox hunting and the novel Rogue Male by Geoffrey Household. Enjoy the chaos.

The Holloway

Rewrite of an old song about trying to keep up when the person you're in love with has no interest in slowing down for you.

Never Gonna Catch You

Get Around To It/All-Boy All-Girl (Arthur Russell Cover)

Song I recorded several years ago and decided to release for old time's sake.

Oh Baby (LCD Soundsystem Cover)

I don’t think so, yes I’m sure it isn’t true
I remember everything
The last few years I’ve been out of place
Lost in space with Laika

Lost in space with Laika
Lost in space with Laika

It’s my first day back in the spotlight
I’m feeling self-conscious and strange
Up on stage with the lights in my face
You took a picture with your Leica

Take a picture with your Leica
Take a picture with your Leica

Can you see her up there?
Circling the drain
Can you see her, little Laika?
Take a picture with your Leica

Take a picture with your Leica
Take a picture with your Leica
Lost in space with Laika
Lost in space with Laika

And everything is very quiet
We’re left alone with our thoughts
Laika poses for the cameras
This is her final glamor shot

We don’t understand the rock we live on
We were meant for the stars
Take a picture, it’ll last you longer
Snap the shutter, photoshop the scars

Take a picture with your Leica
Take a picture with your Leica
Lost in space with Laika
We’re lost in space with Laika

Laika/Leica

I'll Still Destroy Myself

A Little Lost (Arthur Russell Cover)

Languid cover of Arthur Russell's 'Let's Go Swimming' I cooked up one sleepless night.

Let's Go Swimming (Arthur Russell Cover)

I'll Still Haunt You When I'm Gone

Can I catch a ride?
Just as far as the Exxon station
I need to buy a pack of cigarettes
It’s been a long, long day

Can I catch a ride?
Just a mile or two down the road
If you can’t, that’s fine
I can wait, I can wait

I’ve been waiting all my life 
To catch a ride
Yes, I’ve been waiting all my life 
To catch a ride

Are you going far?
Everything you own is in the trunk
Road map spread out on the dashboard
Are you running away?

There’s a bruise under your eye
I’m trying not to stare
You can tell me when you’re ready
I can wait, I can wait

We’ve been waiting all our lives 
To catch a ride
Yes, I’ve been waiting all my life 
To catch a ride

Here comes the station
This is the end of the line
You drop me off and drive away
No fare-thee-wells, just a weird goodbye

So I buy a pack of cigarettes
Smoke two and think of you
Now I need to catch a ride back home
But it can wait, it can wait

I’ll keep waiting through the night
To catch a ride
I’ve been waiting all my life 
To catch a ride

Yes, I’ve been waiting all my life 
To catch a ride
We’ve been waiting all our lives
To catch a ride

Catch a Ride

(Re-upload)

I can’t fight this feeling anymore
I’ve forgotten what I’m fighting for
I’m tired of trying to keep you locked away
Once it’s started, you can’t stop it

I can’t put out this raging forest fire
I’ve lost my footing on the highwire
I can’t get the balance right
I fall to pieces every night

I don’t know how it all started
But once it’s started, you can’t stop it

It’s only a matter of where and when
I give up the ghost and just give in
It’s all too much for me to take
I was asleep, now I’m wild awake

Lookout, world, I’m wild awake

Wild Awake

Liars never prosper
Unless they run for office
It’s a song and dance we’ve seen before
Just sweep it out the kitchen door

I just want some peace
I just want to make ends meet
But you went in the wrong direction
Not one for discretion

Now we’re walking through the wilderness
Trying not to taste the bitterness
The taste of defeat
Is this a full retreat?

You wanted the world on its knees
I just wanted to keep it discrete
You’ve won your hard-earned peace
In a Pyrrhic victory

We’re sweeping up the ashes
That used to be a city
You celebrate your conquest
I play along at your behest

All of this destruction
I suppose makes a good distraction
Life among the unforgiven
Beats working for a living

Burying the dead
In a hole a mile wide
No use trying to count the cost
We’ve lost track of what we’ve lost

Among the women weeping
Your smile was kinda creepy
You’ve finally found your peace
In a Pyrrhic victory

Raise the flag over the ruins
You are the king of nothing
For there is nothing left
I wish you nothing but the best

Pyrrhic Victory (Demo)

Reupload 

All the old punk rockers
With their canes and walkers
Talking ‘bout how things have changed 
Since the golden days

Always looking back
Off the beaten track
Saying things were better then
But they can’t remember when

Shoot me with your six-gun
I’ve been shooting off my mouth too much
But it ain’t my fault, all the old punk rockers
Never shut up, never shut up, never shut up
Never shut up

All the old punk rockers
With their castles conquered
Always trying to say
Things were better in their day

Summoning the dead
Through blown-out speakers
Toothless wolves
Washed-up creatures 

Quick to talk shit when they’re just not with it
Looks like the zeitgeist passed you by
Perish the thought
Looks like you’ve lost the plot

Shoot me with your six-gun
I’ve been shooting off my mouth too much
But it ain’t my fault, all the old punk rockers
Never shut up, never shut up, never shut up
Never shut up

All the old punk rockers
Blather on, big talkers
Trying to get their way
But they’ve had their day

All the Old Punk Rockers

All the rage
All the shame
Washed away
In the rain

Are you feeling better, now?
Let it all come rushing out
Are you feeling better, now?
Let the walls come crashing down

I used to cross the line, every time
I’ve left that all behind me, now
It’s in the past, and there it will stay
I try and try to push it all away

All the rage
All the shame
Strike a match
Spark the flame

Are you feeling better, now?
Let it all come rushing out
Are you feeling better, now?
Let the walls come crashing down

Try as I might, I welcome the fire
See how hard I cling to righteous rage
I’m an animal, feral and hostile
Breaking the bottles, pushing the throttle

All the rage
All the shame
What remains
Can’t be made whole again

Does that make it better, now?
Maybe you could show me how
To chase away the rage
Wipe clean the slate and turn the page

All the rage
All the rage
It’s all the rage back home

All the Rage Back Home (Demo)

No One, Nobody, Nothing Can Stop Us Now

I was too cool to be forgotten
But it happened anyway
Left in a cupboard with the odds and ends
To waste away my glory days

I was too real to be a legend
At least they got that right
I’m serving time, I’ve forgotten why
Coverup and say goodnight
Say goodnight

I had my head above the water
I was an iceberg underneath
I’m a cereal box with a prize inside
There’s far more to be seen if you tear into me

Where’s the future I was promised?
You can’t go home anymore
I was waiting on the beach alone
Saw you standing on the opposite shore

I have potential, you said
It’s gonna be alright
Put your fears back in the cupboard
Coverup and say goodnight

I was too cool to be forgotten
They forgot about me, still
Left me lying by the side of the road
Like a fresh piece of roadkill

Maybe I’m looking at it wrong
Maybe it’s a chance to start anew
I’m leading by example now
Maybe this time I’ll show you

I’m on the right track, you said
I’m fleeing from the light
Ready for whatever comes my way
So coverup and say goodnight

Say goodnight

Coverup And Say Goodnight

Something’s out of place
Where’s the smile on your face?
Nothing, not a trace
What an awful waste

Wishing you’d come back
Just as fast as you can
To fall into my arms
To sit at my right hand

Where have you gone?
Where’s the love we once shared?
Know that I’m beside you
Know that I still care

Oh, how the night falls fast
Oh, how the night falls fast
Oh, how the night falls fast
Oh, how the night falls fast

Something’s out of place
Where’s the smile on your face?
Nothing, not a trace
What an awful waste

Night Falls Fast

Hejira

Can’t see the forest through the trees
Can’t see the path ahead of me
Feeling weightless, out of place
My tether's snapped and I’m floating in space

I think I’m losing it
I think I’m losing it again
I think I’m losing it
I think I’m losing it again

I’m walking on a tightrope
Reaching out for a little hope
One wrong step, now I’m in freefall
Prayed to God, but he’s blocked my calls

I’ve tried going to the oracles
Begging them for a miracle
But there’s no room at the inn
I hit the floor as the world starts to spin

I think I’m losing it
I think I’m losing it again
I think I’m losing it
I think I’m losing it again

I think I’m losing it
I think I’m losing it again
I think I’m losing it
I think I’m losing it again

Disappointment comes and goes
I’m lost at sea, trying to stay afloat
Maybe I should just let myself sink
Maybe I should pour myself another little drink

Maybe I should stop staying up all night
Rise bright and early and greet the morning light
Let the sun consume my soul
Let the blue skies swallow me whole

I think I’m losing it
I think I’m losing it again
I think I’m losing it
I think I’m losing it again

I think I’m losing it
I think I’m losing it again
I think I’m losing it
I think I’m losing it again 

I think I’m losing it
I think I’m losing it again
I think I’m losing it
I think I’m losing it again

I think I’m losing it
I think I’m losing it again
I think I’m losing it
I think I’m losing it again 

I think I’m losing it
I think I’m losing it again
I think I’m losing it
I think I’m losing it again 

I think I’m losing it
I think I’m losing it again
I think I’m losing it
I think I’m losing it again

Losing It

They said you never saw it coming
Not until it was too late
Turned your back for just a second
Now disaster is your dinner date

Everything happens for a reason
That’s the tune they’ve been strumming
Keep your eye on the door for trouble
That said, you’ll never see it coming

You’ll never see it coming
A comet falling through the sky
You’ll never see it coming
A bolt from the blue in the dead of night

There’s beauty in your fall from grace
The way the tears run down your face
I know, it’s such a tragedy
But it doesn’t matter much to me

You should’ve seen it coming
Don’t say you were never warned
Best turn tail and start running
You can’t outrun the storm

You’ll never see it coming
A comet falling through the sky
You’ll never see it coming
A bolt from the blue in the dead of night

You’ll never see it coming
A comet falling through the sky
You’ll never see it coming
A bolt from the blue in the dead of night

Never See It Coming

You were born in a blackout
On the edge of the night
And ever since you’ve been chased by the light

When you were young you tried so hard
To play the part, to shift your shape
You threw all your childhood toys away

They branded your palm with a cross
Impossible to hide
Here in the dark, you’ll wear it with pride

You touched my face to trace the scars
To prove I was real
It’s only a blackout, there’ll be time to heal

Someday you’ll find a way to survive
On the edge of the night
You’ll find the darkness fits just right

It gets better if you can believe
These memories will never go away
But maybe someday the scars will fade

You were born in a blackout
This isn’t the end
Everything that falls will someday rise again

Born in a Blackout Pt. II

I hope you’re happy, vicious beast
Just when I thought I’d found some peace
You took the light away from me
I hope you’re happy, vicious beast

I can’t work, I can’t sing
All I want to do is scream
Your hulking form is crushing me
You hiss and growl and gnash your teeth

I thought that you were gone for good
I felt alive, I felt so free
I should’ve known it wouldn’t last
I know you’re stronger than you seem

The medication promised me that you would be eliminated
And for a while I thought it worked
But you’d simply hibernated

You make me want to tear apart 
All the things I’ve fought to save
I thought that I was your master
But it seems I’m still your slave 

I hope you’re happy, vicious beast
I hope you’re happy, vicious beast
I hope you’re happy, vicious beast
I hope you’re happy

Vicious Beast

What’re you waiting for?
What’re you waiting for?
What’re you waiting for?
What’re you waiting for?

What do you expect to fall into your lap?
Do you think that money’s heaven sent?
Hate to break it to you, baby
Sweet dreams won’t pay the rent

So what’re you waiting for?
What’re you waiting for?
What’re you waiting for?
What’re you waiting for?

What’re you waiting for?
What’re you waiting for?
What’re you waiting for?
What’re you waiting for?

Money doesn’t grow on trees
And yet you’re out on the limb
Careful where you put your feet
Your chance of yielding fruit is slim

You say you’re too proud to beg
But here you are down on your knees
Asking for just enough to see you through
Until you reach the land of milk and honey

What’re you waiting for?
What’re you waiting for?
What’re you waiting for?
What’re you waiting for?

What’re you waiting for?
What’re you waiting for?
What’re you waiting for?
What’re you waiting for?

What R U Waiting 4?

Crawl in through the window
Vault over the turnstiles
I’m looking for a reason to smile

Your money’s no good here
You should know that by now
Pull up a chair and stay for a while

Come talk to me
Pick me off the floor
Come talk to me
Break down the door

All this wasted beauty
All these wasted years
Lost track of the hours you’ve been gone

Let the castles crumble
Let the music stop
This time of year the nights are far too long

Why can’t things be simple
Just for once, I’m begging you
There’s too much confusion, chaos rules
 
We act like there’s a reason
For everything that happens
Bu  sometimes Mother Nature is just cruel

Come talk to me
Pick me off the floor
Come talk to me
Break down the door

Come talk to me
Tell me it’ll be alright
Come talk to me
Share a little of your light

Come Talk to Me (Demo)

Day to day
Nothing ever changes
Draw a picture of a face
Cut and paste and rearrange it

My life keeps piling up
I can’t keep it in the closet
I don’t want to wake one day
To find out that I’ve lost it

Blue skies will swallow us
Blue skies will swallow us whole
Blue skies will swallow us
Blue skies will swallow us whole

I stand up straight with open arms
Hoping it will take the bait
It’s only a matter of time
I can wait, yes I can wait

Day to day
The hours just crawl by
Everything is different, now
I couldn’t tell you why

I’m following instructions
But I’m not getting anywhere
Maybe I should’ve read the manual
But what’s the point of splitting hairs?

Blue skies will swallow us
Blue skies will swallow us whole
Blue skies will swallow us
Blue skies will swallow us whole

I stand up straight with open arms
Hoping it will take the bait
It’s only a matter of time
I can wait, yes I can wait

Blue skies will swallow us
Blue skies will swallow us whole
Blue skies will swallow us
Blue skies will swallow us whole

Blue Skies Will Swallow Us

It’s like stepping into traffic
But there’s no reason to panic 
Have a little faith
That things will turn out okay

We could live a normal life
But then we’d never know what it’s like to be alive
This could all end in tears
But where’s the fun without a little fear?

Fall, fall to your knees
And put your faith in me
To see is to believe
It’s the key, the key to everything

It’s like driving blind
Through the fog at night
You don’t know where you’re going
You’re just following a distant light

Is it a will o’wisp
Or an angel with a helping hand?
You’ll never know for sure
Unless you take that chance

Fall, fall to your knees
And put your faith in me
To see is to believe
It’s the key, the key to everything

Fall, fall to your knees
And put your faith in me
To see is to believe
It’s the key, the key to everything

Fall to Your Knees

He may like you if you ask him to
Better ask him to
And if he answers you
Well, then you’ll know

I saw you yesterday in the Carnegie
You were too busy reading to even notice me
I checked out all the books you liked 
So I could read your expression
But even with the answers I’m still afraid to ask

He may like you if you ask him to
Better ask him to
And if he answers you
Well, then you’ll know

And you’ve been on my mind for miles and miles
With your cellist’s hands
Your Arthur Russell smile

He may like you if you as him to

And once it’s gone, it’s gone
So you better ask him soon
One day he won’t come around anymore
And you’ll be sad and blue

Better ask him to
And if he answers you
Well, then you’ll know

He may like you if you like him to

Like You

Black sun, covert star
Tracing the lines of your mastectomy scars
Driving through the roadblock in a stolen car
Threw out the map when we drove too far

Subaru with a leak in the tank
Maxing out withdrawals at the bank
Making our way, climbing up the ranks
Windows down, radio cranked

It’s madness
Simple as that
But if it’s a way out of this place
We’ll take that chance

Black sun, covert star
Pushing the envelope, raising the bar
All we’ve got is a cheap guitar
And we’ve no clue just where we are

Smoke alarm and a panic attack
Nosedive off the beaten track
Swing a hammer, the mirror cracks
Where we’re going, we ain’t never coming back

It’s madness
Or is it art?
In the land of burning billboards it’s a start

It’s madness
But what else is new?
Let me share a little madness with you

I’m not where I’m supposed to be
The walls are closing in on me
I thought I’d have a little more time
But we’re only ten miles from state lines

Black sun, covert star
Buckle up and start the car
Bag of weed and an old guitar
You and me, kid, we’ll go far

Black Sun

Ready or Not

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Everything Is Wonderful (Demo)

New song every week if I’m not feeling a little blue!
‘Wild Awake’ and ‘Shapeshifters’ out now!
Shoutout to all the spambots listening in. You’re the bane of my existence.
Riding the oscillator between hopeful and hopeless.

Connemara

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