lyrics

you took me hostage, i couldnt escape
love was ravaging me and i felt so safe
i was dying on the inside, you brought in some life
i was a pitch black soul and you brought in some light
i saw it in a letter, a special 8 letters
while i was trapped in hell it somehow made me feel better
noticed the rain, thought of you
zombies, rockstars, and notices too

gave you my all and you wanted the receipt
i should've known id only be briefly complete
waded in sorrow just to make sure
that youd see tomorrow and never be hurt
i know youre a lot but that bothered me none
id always listen and never would run
i know im being selfish when i try to persuade you
i know i left once, sorry i betrayed you
i had a dream about you the other day
i never have dreams, i guess you could say
that you were on my mind but thats no surprise
i see you every time i open my eyes
when i wake up, your voice is the first thing i hear
you say "keep it together" when i hold back tears
you arent even near me and youre every-fucking-where
ill send you this song and you wont fucking care
im no good with words anymore, i dont know why
when you need someone talk to, guess ill be that guy
not exactly what i wanted but i want you at your best
i keep thinking about this thing beating in my chest
i still cant recall what it is but its breaking
i dont know why i allow this beating im taking
ive never vented to you cuz you never had the time
but when you needed to, you took up mine
none of what ive said will cause any change
since the time for you to help yourself has yet to be arranged
you wrote about love and how you felt it before
you liked it then but from me you wanted more
i was never enough and never will be
but at least i was me

i am still alive
i wish i wasnt alive
i hope you succeed
im here when youre in need

in the back of my mind theres a safe place
you used to reside there but now theres a free space
say what you will, im too dumb to solve this
i dont want to dissolve this
i dont want to dissolve this

Cooper Fuller