Can’t move on till you let go. 

The moral of the album and life, I couldn’t have made anything else without this album first. It’s always been in the back of my mind to release. I think it wraps up showing who I am and my personality through a gritty underground style sound, fitting the basement theme completely. It’s where I made my first songs, eps, and mixtapes. It’s the final chapter of that saga. All throughout the latter end of middle school and all throughout high school, it all lead to this project. Continuous practice and effort to finally create something that I hold dear to my heart. 

And that’s it. For now…

Under

Just a simple break up song, living in the aftermath. I really liked the guitar loop I found on Splice, and just felt like the vibe would fit perfectly.

Guess Work

Have you ever felt like someone was holding you down and you didn’t know? Ever create like a fake personality around people, like your trying to trick them just to fit in? This is voicing my feelings on how I was in life, trying to fit in with people that I didn’t really like. Changing views and opinions hoping to be liked for it. That way of living is a cancer. 

On the other hand “Could’ve Been” is just thoughts about choices I’ve made and whether or not they were the right ones. I know I constantly think about “what if I did this differently?” Or “said something in this moment?” The past is the past, just got to recognize that.

What You've Done & Could've Been

This was originally apart of a completely different project that fell through, but I still really enjoyed this verse. I know with social media I tend to subconsciously judge my life around someone else’s, which is what the basis of the song is around. I also included some words from one of my best friends at the end, some motivational stuff.

Focus On Me

Waiting, waiting, waiting… 

I hate waiting, if there’s something I want or need to say I’ll do or say it. These are just two examples of how waiting has felt detrimental in my life. There’s lessons in mistakes we make. We grow, we live, we learn.

Waiting

Apparition is a very important track, it’s the start of the more personal side of the album. It’s the through the perspective of an apparition that’s watching over the protagonist who is struggling mentally. Explaining what he’s feeling but also consoling him. Fear, doubt & anxiety is something everyone experiences, it’s what makes us human. Overcoming those troubles is what gives us purpose. #SoInspirational

Apparition

I was planning on writing something for this song but I just loved the way it sounded the way it is. Just a sampled beat acting as an intermission / interlude for the next song.

a haunted intermission

This song was heavily inspired by MF DOOM, (spelled all caps) the beat switch I had made was like two years before the album was finished, I just never knew what to do with it. “Special” plays on the acronym from Fallout 4, except mine is your- 

Stunning 
Personality
Excels
Creativity 
In
All
Levels

Corny? Sure. Either way I had a blast making the song and just doing something I felt was super different. Especially compared to the rest of the album.

Special

Another humble brag, the verse of this song was recorded in one take. It’s kind of a mess listening back to it, but it’s supposed to include the alphabet… Graphemes? Phonemes? The sound of each letter throughout the bars, in a braggy way. Could’ve been better tbh.

Alpha(bet)

Privacy is necessary in my life, I don’t like sharing much and this is just an exaggerated way of saying it lol. Mind your biz biotch.

Rocky CK

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