i guess i fooled you this time
but i know down the line
she's dying to see you

and if i cut through the stencil
break my body in two
i can't see the difference
but i can't speak for you

mountains
traded for desert roads
you said
"we'll just see how it goes"

listen this time x2

always so hard to get through
but there's nothing to chew
i feel like i'm plastic
does that make sense to you?

when will it get easy?
how will it get easy?
"believe me it's true"

i don't have an answer
and i'm lying to you

subcategory

open season - high highs cover

my arms feel so heavy
n i feel like a machine
if i triieeed 
i would die 

cancel everything to lay here
it’s a better use of time
if liiiedddd 
i will cry 

am i irredeemableeee
can i even hear at all

miss you more than i could tell you
i am simply too cliche
if i stayyyyy

am i really evilllll
can i ever hear at allllll
am i irredeemableeeee

irredeemable

i should have a cleaning day
i should wake up with a face
like i’m living in a different way

i should pick up all around the room
i should listen with a different view
i should try and start my life anew 

i’m a caterpillar in defense
my cocoon is wrapped in peppermints 
oh but none this is making sense

if formed myself and did ok
and i started life without delay
well i think i’d last like 7 days 

it’s eating me alive
why can’t i stay inside 
maybe it will get better
but i’ll be me forever

braintrap demo (soooo barebones)

irredeemable first recording ft. my cat moss

i think i would like to buy the coliseum
you think that i’m joking but i’m not
that thing is massive 
and if we wanted we could live inside there
until we die 

i’m sorry i forgot about your birthday
we are like two lobsters in a pot
one day i think we’re gonna live together
but for now this phone calls all we got

and i promise that it’s enough

i am always thinking bout the closest spider
whether a recluse or tarantula 
might be behind my bed or in the pillow 
i will just remind myself it’s probably dead

maybe i’ll grow a little when i’m older
but i think i think i’ll stay this way for good
i’m aging like some kind of little creature 
and i still get scared in my neighborhood

and i wish i could try
i wish i’d try

if that buildings standing 
when i am taller 
i will put my savings into it

start up a business where i’ll be selling
hopes and dreams and bugs and life purposes

the coliseum demo

i know this once had lyrics and i may go back to it. for now have it as is

concrete (2020)

am uploading this because it is always stuck in my head

i feel like digging a big hole in the yard
we have some shovels it wouldn’t be that hard
but the ground is so frozen and it’s too cold to walk
like you told me that one time we talked 

i feel like digging a big hole in the yard
it has nothing to do with the way that you are
i am separate from feeling when i play guitar
and i don’t really care where you are

and in the small chance i did (which would be so obscene) 
i’d be writing this song just to show what i mean
but i cannot explain the complex things i feel 
so i don’t think this is working 
at all

big hole in the yard

winter song from march.. i am now realizing what i was talking about. sometimes i dont know until later

out there its a bright barren wasteland
and i know if i go out its cold
and the people in their houses all dressed up and worried
about the town and the state of the roads
and when the power goes out i can call all my friends
or i wait til the end of the storm
and when the wasteland is saved
and the clocks they all change
ill find out if i still feel the same
ill find out if i still feel the same

winter

feeling bad but not all the time
thought i’d feel like this all my life
i got over it last year
really thought it just disappeared 

but it opened up a new line
i got free i went outside
but this hole i dug won’t fill up
and this feeling won’t scratch off

mmm

but not all the time

you’re gonna be good
in awhile
you’ll put all my stuff in a pile

and i’m scared for you
i know what you do

you can talk to your friends
if you want
i know they care about you 
how could they not 

and im scared for you
i know what you do
when i’m gone

you're gonna be good

jaidyn's shower song

i think maybe the most pathetic song i have written yet. may take it down at some point. enjoy

tried to meet you halfway
step up reply today 
get away from me
come back i can’t breathe

you’re a bullet in a gun
i’m shooting you at anyone
who will listen to me
who will listen to me

cancel all your appointments
i got my license 
let’s just drive around 
let me drive to your house

don’t do anything else
let’s go to alaska
we can get there fast
you’re the one i would ask

when you walked with me
pulled me off the road
sat with you on the edge of my bed
kept a moth for you
on the shelf in my room
it’s still there if you want it
come back for it soon

alaska

Beach Cat

accidental folk song

i am 20
i write songs about whatever you think they're about
mostly voice memos

cori lunn

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