I walked her home, for the last time

remastered 9.21.17

thank you so much for 100k plays

Sample: Turnover - Disintegration

street lights

Lyrics:
Every day I just feel so much, god fuckin dammit i just bleed so much,
I know i plead too much but i need your touch, cause without it I wont be someone


Wake up I wish I was dead, you were there when noone cared,
now my lifes full of despair, shaking and scared, i wasnt prepared,
THESE DEMONS ARE ALL IN MY HEAD


NEVER EXPRESSED, IT'S ALWAYS CONSTRAINED,
THESE THOUGHTS ARE JUST HAUNTING MY BRAIN, I JUST CANT EXPLAIN
All of this pain, going through each and every single one of my veins


The past is done, I cant change that,
I think it's time for me to just face facts,
All red is gone, my heart aches black,
I might just go and blow my brains blank, 


 why cant It just end? 
STOP, STOP IT, JUST GO AWAY, PLEASE!


pain...pain...pain..pain....pain...pain..NOTHING WILL EVER BE THE SAME



I CANT ESCAPE, THIS IS MY FATE, 
WHY CANT THINGS JUST BE SO SIMPLY EXPLAINED,
WHY ARE YOU FADING, FLOATING EVADING, GOING ESCAPING,
YOU KNOW I CANT TAKE IT,
I JUST WANT TO LIVE IN PEACE, I JUST WANNA LIVE WITH EASE,
I JUST WANNA LIVE AND BREATHE, I JUST WANNA LOVE MY QUEEN.


Original beat, Aestral- Miran

Pain (prod. aestral)

Ｉ　ＤＯＮ＇Ｔ　ＴＨＩＮＫ　Ｉ＇Ｍ　ＲＥＡＬ

//私の軌道の悪魔//

i can't thank you guys enough for the endless amount of love & support you've given me since the start. i never thought in a million years we'd be where we're at right now & it's crazy to me that we still continue to grow. it's always been a release for me to let loose on a track & hear what you guys think of it. it's always been for the people & for myself. i love waking up every morning & reading every single comment, every single message, etc. you guys put the biggest fucking smiles on my face & i hope you all know i'm here for you as much as you're here for me. i've struggled with my anxiety & depression for years & to know a lot of you are going through the same things is somewhat comforting. we're in this together. i couldn't do any of this without you guys. we're gonna strive & do great things, i promise. don't let your demons get the best of you. i hope you enjoy this one. i love you

check out the music video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xtv87HVgnpo&t=1s

art by chunniboy
be sure to give him lots of love
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music video

demons in my orbit

prod. @notmorgn

she make me feel alive i thought i died inside 
why do i feel fine everything seems right
she a ghost girl sending shivers down my spine
i only get to see her in the night time

I dont plan to stay so imma go
you've been down this road you know it never gets old 
and we should fuck the pain away till our hearts cold 
till we have no feelings cus we are growing old

you dont plan to stay then you should go
i've been down this road no it never gets old 
and we should fuck the pain away till our hearts cold 
till we have no feelings cus we are growing old

but sometimes life's like that
i don't wanna type back
if im forced to fight back
i'll just a flight back to home
back to the rain to the green and the cold
maybe i've just been home sick
but my home ain't shit
and my brain is a waste
fill it with a full clip
maybe i've just been home sick
but my home ain't shit
and my brain is a waste
fill it with a full clip

she make me feel alive i thought i died inside 
why do i feel fine everything seems right
she a ghost girl sending shivers down my spine
i only get to see her in the night time

I dont plan to stay so imma go
you've been down this road you know it never gets old 
and we should fuck the pain away till our hearts cold 
till we have no feelings cus we are growing old

you dont plan to stay then you should go
i've been down this road no it never gets old 
and we should fuck the pain away till our hearts cold 
till we have no feelings cus we are growing old

i thought i died inside

prod. @notmorgn

all this alcohol does is just dumb my creativity 
but when im sober feel my pain just much more vividly 
and when im with you satisfaction like some symmetry 
u always crossing my mind like i was in the streets
im fucking shaking again
she said i get that
woah shit
i love how she's so understanding 
oh fuck im drunk
i dont think she understands me
its okay ill just shutup and go to plan b
wait what was plan b
cus i forgot that
inspiration yeah u know 
i fuckin lost that
your heart 
oh yeah i fuckin broke that
im so sorry im so sorry
lifes too short 
and everything kills you
u annoy me bitch
dont ask me if i feel you
whats with this petty shit
just hit my phone now
home alone alcohol in my dome now
im fucking shaking again
she said i get that
woah shit
i love how she's so understanding
oh fuck im drunk
i dont think she understands me
its okay ill just shutup and go to plan b
im too fucked yeah i can't even text you
im too anti social spending days up in my bedroom
four loko reappearing in the rest room
i dont really care cus imma go to bed soon
and all this nature all it does is congest me
now all my music all it does is express me
and all this nature all it does is congest me
thats all it does
im fucking shaking again
she said i get that
woah shit
i love how she's so understanding
its okay ill just shutup and go to plan b

oh fuck im drunk

@prodreaper

Art by Beka Nicole

Lyrics

Everyday I wake up same old shit
Same life same thoughts same all black fit
Mom disappointed with the same damn kid
Still broke still sad still real feelings hid

I aint got a job Ima be a fucking bum
Still broke still sad still living with my mom
In the same damn house in the same damn room
With the same damn mind and the same damn veiw

Hate it that I have created this world that I'm in
And I cannot erase it 
Yeah I make music but that's fucking basic
I just wish that I could make myself face it

I'm in despair hmu when I'm not
There aint no pill to fix what I have got
But that smoke chill me out when I am feelin' hot
So I dont give a fuck if my brain gonna rot

Broke is expensive and I cant afford
unknxwn. aint the person that you should adore
Everynight when I write I just fall to the floor
Then the carpet just soaks up my tears even more

I'm a sad piece of shit
I aint gone never gone get me a bitch
I aint gone never gone feel any bliss
If I took my life I dont think I'd be missed

We all been raised to think money is real
To the point where people would even kill
Aint gonna lie to be honest I will
Hate seein' mail and all of it is bills

I'm in despair hmu when I'm not
There aint no pill to fix what I have got
But that smoke chill me out when I am feelin' hot
So I dont give a fuck if my brain gonna rot

unknxwn. - Despair

I'm too busy in despair.

spotify.

i'm too busy in despair: part 1 | Produced by reaper

@xam @itsyungvan @lilrodger

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1c9HI3TRRmxnR0nafNgs6i
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/im-sorry-feat-yung-van-single/1464245907
YouTube: https://youtu.be/gcre0V8UAhU

[Intro]
I’ve been thinking why i keep waking up
I wanna sleep i’ve had enough
I don’t wanna do this anymore

[Verse 1: XAM]
Stuck inside this mind of mine
There is no escaping this
Am I wasting my time?
What do I live for, why am I alive?

I’m lonely but I’m not alone
Don’t worry when I’m on my own
I’m not gonna lock the door
I don’t do that no more
One day I wanna grow old

I’m sorry
From the bottom of heart
I should kill myself today
And come back to life
And start again

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I’m sorry for the choices that I’ve made
I hate myself and I’m ashamed
I’m sorry for the things that I have said
It wasn't me, it was the voices in my head

[Bridge]
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry

[Verse 2: Yung Van]
You've got me feeling like a lost cause
For everything I said
I'd rather hang inside my living room
Because I'm better off dead

And now I know why
You had to leave me all alone again
Because I didn't know how
To treat you like a queen and not a friend

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I’m sorry for the choices that I’ve made
I hate myself and I’m ashamed
I’m sorry for the things that I have said
It wasn't me, it was the voices in my head

I'M SORRY (feat. Yung Van) [Prod. RODGER]

i will forever regret the life you gave

listen to my friend @le_play </3

shaun, for you

yøu used tø be my little angel (ft. le play) [prød. cøzy]

if i die baby (prod. reaper)

prod. @notmorgn
featuring @guardinmusic

(guccihighwaters)
she said I look upset but girl 
there’s passion in this frown
cus i think i am obsessed with the all the 
love when your around
why they want smoke with me
not a stoner
when she’s not here im a loner
she too bad you can’t clone her
i live for her im a donor

i’d rather be ghost this season
disconnected i don’t like the feeling
thoughts ricochet with the walls and the ceiling
my chest so tight i can’t even feel my breathing

(guardin)
i'll stop breathing 
lie awake in the night fight the feeling 
fuck love i'm a mess for a reason 
six feet in the dirt for the season
i don't like this
life without the hue of your iris
erase your face embedded in my eyelids
patience paints the face of the silent 

sorry i'm not coming down 
elevated all around 
my conscience thinks i'm falling out
of grip i ripped the bong & now i'm

(guardin and guccihighwaters)
stoned beyond belief i know 
i fucked it up it goes to show 
that i get high when i feel low
please pick me up & take me home

(guccihighwaters)
i’d rather be ghost this season
disconnected i don’t like the feeling
thoughts ricochet with the walls and the ceiling
my chest so tight i can’t even feel my breathing

rather be a ghost (feat. guardin)

It's Whatever

Lyrics: You said one day it would work out 🏋️‍♀️ 
I guess I feel a little worse now
I Won’t stay in bed she won’t come out
Okay I feel a little worse now 

I thought you were unattainable 
But we’re just unsustainable 
I barely made it through summer..
These days our days are numbered 

Cause winter’s cold and I am weak 
But I won’t call so we won’t speak 
Cause I don’t care if you can’t sleep 
And you don’t care at all

Cause I won’t break and you won’t bend 
Or even try to let me in 
So you get high and I pretend 
We’ll make it through the fall 

 I quit talking bout my old life left it in my dreams ,
Now Everything is perfect I’m where I want to be 
Why does it always feel like the joke is still on me?
Got, everything I wanted but nothing that I need

You said one day it would work out 
I hope one day you get let down 
To crash the car with no seatbelt 
So you know exactly how I felt 
This cul de sac has got memories 
I hate the way that you see me 
 10/17 I will confess
I FUCKED UP AGAIN, WHAT I DO BEST 

CAUSE YOU WONT TEACH AND I WONT LEARN 
AND YOU’VE GOT NOWHERE ELSE TO TURN
So LIGHT THIS BRIDGE AND WATCH IT BURN 
LIKE IT WAS NEVER THERE 

 Then FIND YOUR NEXT AND I’LL FIND MINE
I HEAR HIS HAPPENS ALL THE TIME
LIVE YOUR LIFE AND I’LL BE FINE 
I’ll ACT LIKE I DONT CARE


I quit talking bout my old life left it in my dreams ,
Now Everything is perfect I’m where I want to be 
Why does it always feel like the joke is still on me?
You’re everything I wanted but nothing that I need 
 
I mean.. honestly the way you feel about music is the way i feel about alcohol..

It’s whatever... 
whatever...

Make It Through Fall

feat. @softhert
prod. @softhert & @notmorgn

(guccihighwaters)
i got toxins running through my veins
keeping me alive but also eating at my brain
maybe i’m the one that fucked it up but girl you changed 
and i’m looking down the barrel when you aim

this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

(Ȿoftheart)
you a keepsake
imma keep you safe
imma hold on
till my bones break
i stay by my lonely 
most my homies out of state
i saw one the other day 
gotta say shit aint the same
dont know what you did to me
only hurts more when she tell me 
that she misses me
im just hers to you 
and your just his to me
save me pull me up and out my misery

(guccihighwaters)
we can’t fight forever
one of us is gonna fall
i’ll make sure it’s not you
keep you safe at all cost
i’ll make it all up
i’ll throw up my guts
if it means i’ll get a touch
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)

(Ȿoftheart)
dont wanna hide anymore
dont wanna lie anymore
so sick of fighting
i don't wanna try anymore
so two faced
so double sided i swallow my pride every time that we talk
then send me off
you left a void in my life
and this music the only way i can fill up 
all the silence inside of my room
okay i'm gone
get what you want ill play dead
wont stop until ive made it
same shit
inside im screaming for help outside i dont say shit
save it
wish i could erase it
couldn't face it
uncomplacent

(guccihighwaters & Ȿoftheart)
this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face

(guccihighwaters)
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

all my fault (feat. Softheart)

LYRICS: https://genius.com/Softheart-and-guccihighwaters-too-much-lyrics

huge thanks to the homie
@guccihighwaters

instrumentation by: @noahwalker
mixing/mastering by: softheart
production by: softheart, vowl.

free download

Too Much (feat. guccihighwaters)

"I gave you everything you ever wanted but you ended up closing the door" - van

SuiSai: @sushisai
Mix/Master: @demxntia
Prod by: @tothegood
Artwork: @suicideoutside (on twitter)

I am performing in LA, July 24th. You can get tickets here: https://www.songkick.com/concerts/38254179-pink-cig-at-1720?utm_source=8123&utm_medium=partner&utm_content=fb4a0d1b9180ab41a80f71c5bea1fa9b&utm_campaign=entity

"When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai”

Lyrics-

When you say me you love me, it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I’m crying on the concrete. I don’t have strength to get up off the floor 

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again 

Crashing down on my parade
You let me love till you were bored of the game 
Open hearts and shoddy flames
You let me burn in the love that we made 

SuiSai- 
That touch of yours left cinders
Trails of your heart set a flame
Lit like embers
Of our past
Screeching stop sounds like thunder
You were my lightning
Filled my clouds with your patterns
Made the world disappear 
liked it better
Then you left me here
To the forces of the weather
Cause the cold fronts near
But I swear id never let it
Change the way that I feel

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai (Prod. Tothegood)

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“sleeping beauty” - øut nøw 🥀
a new chapter... if you listen, thank you 💙

yøu used tø be my little angel (ft. le play) [prød. cøzy]

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