glass

prod: @breakwait
sample: @stinger_beats
mixed/mastered: @breakwait
written: @breakwait
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lyrics: 
don't give me a chance, I'll fuck it up
i ruined your plans, i know it now
if i tried to repent, i'd fail at it
cus' no matter how hard i try
i have no remorse for this

i think i had too much to drink
i can't remember your body
i'm shitty to everybody
sorry, i don't know what got a hold of me
maybe it was a monster
maybe it was a monster
baby put a hole in me, i can't live like this no more
i can't live like this no more

wake me up at 6:00am, cus' you know i don't ever wake
gotta be responsible but that's not in my DNA
baby please don't hate me, didn't mean to lie to you
don't take it personal, i did it for drugs and booze
but i don't know why
do i hate me, do i hate life?
i'm tryna poison you with my mind
is this working?, oh, baby is it working?!

i don't think it's working
but anyway
i love you with my whole soul
wouldn't trade you for the world

well.. maybe

wolf//sheep

wolfsheep

and i'm asking you for help
cos i feel so helpless
i don't know what to do
all of this feels brand new
to me

there's the factory where i was made 
its somewhere hidden in a dark place
brush off the cobwebs, i see my face
when daylight hits, i'll fade away

i tell myself they'll open a door
yeah that's the law
and if i die, that's a flaw
human design, was it worth it?
yeah i'm alive, i ain’t worth shit

and i won’t tell you what you mean to me
you were a part of my dream
and you were switching teams 
everybody want a part of me
but is it hard to see, i’m breaking down at the seams

dissociate in my room
that’s why my life the same shade
and i’ve got nothing to prove
when everyday is the same
if i can’t relate to you
then was this really for me?
for me, yeah

i tell myself they'll open a door
yeah that's the law
and if i die, that's a flaw
human design, was it worth it?
yeah i'm alive, i ain’t worth shit

i tell myself that i’m the one to blame
and i’m the reason everybody changed
regardless yeah my life feels the same
i think that i’m going insane
human design
life online
face on a screen, where’s the time been?
i can’t remember
i can’t remember

i tell myself they'll open a door
sink to the floor
and if i die, that's a flaw
human design, was it worth it?
yeah i'm alive, i ain’t worth shit
i tell myself they'll open a door
sink to the floor
and if i die, that's a flaw
human design, was it worth it?
yeah i'm alive, i ain’t worth shit

i ain’t worth shit
no i aint
no i aint
no i aint worth shit
no one wants me
im a liar
and it haunts me

they tore off all of my limbs
locked me in places that i’ve never been
and if i broke out, id rather sink than swim
yeah maybe that’s why
its been why its been

human design

almanac

[pre-chorus]
and lately i've been feeling the moment
surfing the dopamine
it's you since the first day
going home think of you the whole day
its you in my mind, girl it's you in my mind all day

[chorus]
that girl will be the end of me one day
or that girl could just prolly end up with me
that girl with glasses who shows up late
short hair and her bangs that could make my day

soft girl, tell me why are you still lonely?,
no girl can make me feel just like this
although girl you're romantically hopeless
you're good girl got the patience enough to wait.

soft girl

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produced by @swazyhq

lyrics:

the blossoms always sprung
locked in ur bedroom in the spring
hide so they won’t find us
cry while i take the bus home

i tried to write it all down
so i could get it all out
i tripped and dropped all of my pages
fly away as i fall down

get back up i don’t know how
the rain on my window sounds so loud
lately i’ve been sleeping to ignore it 
face down in the front yard while it’s pouring 

cause i can’t afford the time that i’m stealing
late night while i’m staring at the ceiling
is it real or just a feeling
can anybody hear me

i never took care of myself 
you saw and you would always try to help
no one tried quite like you did
but i’m not something you can fix

now i see the whole time i was sick
you always stayed right by my side but that’s not a way to live 
i don’t wanna make u cry cause it’s nothing that u did 
i’m just sorry that u tried i was living out a lie

i always hid it all under the surface
i should’ve called it off u don’t deserve this 
but how could i stop us from falling we were perfect 
we couldn’t help but give it all swear we were burning

i’m sorry swear i didn’t try to call u
my finger slipped while i was tryna change the volume 
i know i’m in the wrong, shoulda made it stop but i went too long
now i never wanna hear that shit again, i hate all my songs 

now im back got me thinking of the past what i did wrong
come in last all the chances that i had, call this shit off
got me sad, all the times i let you down got me pissed off
wrote it down, swear i’m gonna drown in the list of

i cant look back, swear i’m doing what i have to do
i lost my track, really thought that things would last with you
hiding when i go out, crying in the bathroom
you don’t ever slow down, life is flying pst you

im sorry that u tried (p. swazy*)

If I Had You

PRODUCED MIXED AND MASTERED BY ZURYA "july" STARR 


LYRICS: 
(I mean my heart's beating, my heart's beating, my hands are shaking, my hands are shaking
but I'm still shooting, and I'm still getting the headshots, it's like boom, headshot, boom
headshot, boom)

Prepare for it today

Asthmatic, yet you never give me room to breathe, two steps and it shifted onto my knees
You know I've never been one to plead, but this called for desperate  measures
Your dull remarks to me are keen, my hands covered up by the end of my sleeve
so I couldn't get a grip on your reality so,
Can you tell me what it is?
Can you tell me who I am?
(Tell me)
Why I feel like shit, it's only 10am
I, I never thought the day I'd be a backup plan


I wish I didn't think of it so constantly
I think I jinxed it all, I fucked it up subconsciously
And now I'm falling apart
It's getting harder not to say goodbye
You look at me like I'm the reason
why you, cry at night
You taste just like cyanide
Now I can't feel my eyes, no
You smell just like Hi-C
I don't think you like me, you're pissed
Don't you fight me on this (love)
Bitch you fiesty
You look way better in my white tee huh
And it's blue too
How you feel to have songs about you on YouTube
Your face in my room just by the bluetooth
I clench my teeth so you don't get through, and it's too true
I've been stuck since day one, on your free trial since salem
Maybe I'll get in if I pay 'em, maybe I'll get in if I pay you

One mil', shit, your scent's in my lungs still
You make me feel like I just took the wrong pill
My infatuation's gone off scale, can we improve our soft skills
I've only ever seen the surface, aerial view of frothed milk
Do you remember, early November, I would hold your hand We'd talked about favorite kinds of weather, your time in Japan
My apogee in disguise, our peak seem so damn far
We ended things in December, I missed the rise of fall

(The future belongs to those who prepare for it today)

One, two, three, four

It was all for you
Oh, it was all for you
Oh, it was all for you
It was all, it was all, yeah

It was all for you
Oh, it was all for you
Oh, it was all for you
It was all
It was my fault

It's just your game, huh
All these hurdles to realize it wasn't the same love
Took a minute to realize it, I gave into my vices
Shook your hand, you sanitized it. I was air-headed, so long I had to raise my prices, damn
If life a movie, wish it were Pokemon so it could star you,
But you antagonize me when I can make you a starr too
Know a cool place with a nice view and a bestie who do tattoos and i-

I never thought that it could end up like this

And It was all for you
It was all for you
(it was all for you)
It was all for you (oh)
It was all
Nothing that you ever do (it was all for you)
Will ever make me stop loving (and it was all for you)

Mmm It was all for you

I'll take my favorite memory-

acquiesce

prod + written: thms.
circa. 2020
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burnt horizons, made of sun lust
but im still reaching
please don’t fault me
cause im trying to be something that im not

i still can't breathe I need your air
you're what keeps me alive its not fair
im still here
im still here

im just scared I'm not what you need baby
but you know what I mean when I say this
its not fair
its so real
yeah I swear

staring at the skyline
when I'm alone nothing feels right
you're the only thing on my mind
transitive thoughts in the moonlight

but who am I to say?
I just wanna feel okay.
that night replays in my brain
I just couldn't find the words to say.

who I am to feel so out of place?
you're the only thing that I daydream of;
is this fate?

//its so real, yeah I swear
//i feel you, you're right there

cause I'm reeling in this rose tint
it's the color of our facet
our minds together, so not passive an'
I just need your lips to feel whole again

i still can't breathe I need your air
you're what keeps me alive its not fair

//its so real, yeah I swear
//i feel you, you're right there

and where was i

prod. + written by thms. x
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So it it my fault
that this is what isn't
do we have live in past tense?
this doesn't feel like it matters to you

Can you live with indifference?
I flew too close to the sun
It's a shame you won't visit
I knew you'd just turn to run

I'll free fall forever
cause nothing can really matter
I can't see the clouds up here
but nothing seems real either

so don't even bother
my lines disconnected often
these fallacies yeah they can kill
it's hard when there's nothing to feel

//why do you hate me?
//please don’t replace me
//don't know what I would do here
//without your gravity next to me

//oh, yeah so please
//come find me

//i just wanna hold your hand again
//one look in your brown eyes
//I'll fold oh man
//I'll be right there till the end

so don't try to win me over
I'll go 108 without October
boy these lies, yeah they'll boil over

but im lost in calling

I can't think without bawling

but nothing seems with wrong with me
can't help but chase broken dreams
like sunsets but the sky keeps falling  

I'll free fall forever
cause nothing can really matter
I can't see the clouds up here
but nothing seems real either

so don't even bother
my lines disconnected often
these fallacies yeah they can kill
it's hard when there's nothing to feel

//find another in a looking glass
//don't think you'll find this time will pass
//here and there wont ease the pain, for fact
//trips to paris wont you square this up and ship it back 

//trips like this are a blast of past
//and februarys winter cold is coming fast
//i don’t know how you feel but this
//isn't something that I can outlast 

man cant relate to a clear head
was it something I said?
man cant relate to a clear head
must be something I said

lost in emotion
cant translate your okays
That’s why they say that 
You're so two faced

False traps
And my emotionally loose states
Cant wait because you cause
Me too lose, can't breathe 

I cant be nothing
im all that ive got
these feelings so empty
guess they'll just rot

I'll live in his envy
Of all that we're not
Burned bridges wont hold up
The weight of our thoughts

This isn't the story 
but its what i got
Im writing our ending
Cross you out the plot

I'm falling, no rushing
to put you at the top
and rightfully so
im all that im not 

every path on the turnpike feels nice
but bright headlights in the back blind my eyes
no sense in driving thru nights
cause feelings they'll leave with the light

it's torture to know that you're fine
cause the scars that you left they burn bright
and i know that it all ends in time

Freefall

freefall

color and sound means everything to me. 
ily <3

soft girl

Monteclair

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