never less

dont know how to feel so i feel none
dont know how to deal so i still run
dont know how you steal and you still want
does it ever heal or has she won
doesnt it just seem so funny
million dollar dreams like I sleep on money
never get to sleep cause my heart keep drumming
then she went and walked out so i keep on running

and im running til i trip,
hitting every wall and they're all made out of brick
sitting on my lonely when i sip
in and out of sleep like can i get a grip
can i get a minute just to gather all my thoughts up
never saw the hurdles that were hurtling towards us
knew it from the jump that you never could support us
million dollar dreams saying you can not afford us
and i cant afford shit
barely eating lunch i can barely buy chips
spend a couple thousand every month on the whip
then i cant buy gas so im sat like this
stuck here over thinking and my thoughts wont die down
wonder who would care if i died now
think im in too deep and i might drown
how long can i hold my breath ima find out

how long can i hold my breath
should i face this or face my death
writing down thoughts and they dont make sense
i just wanna get outside my head
where the grass seems green whereas mines all dead
i dont got no team no its all just dec
man its all on me and im just so stressed
so i try just breathe but i still dont

dont know how to feel so i feel none
dont know how to deal so i still run
dont know how you steal and you still want
does it ever heal or has she won
doesnt it just seem so funny
million dollar dreams like I sleep on money
never get to sleep cause my heart keep drumming
then she went and walked out so i keep on running

prod. heyrick

running

gaslight

im just not ready to be done now
think about it sun up til the sun down
being with you is my drug i
guess this shit here is the come down
hungover, nowhere i can run now
just sober, hung up put the phone down
stress while i carry my thoughts around and round
this empty ghost town
i cant help but see your face,
its every time in every place
it hurts to send you on your way
but please dont ask ill be okay
...you know thats a lie
but dont you stress those hazel eyes
ima come and pick you up when the time is right
girl let me know, just text me when you're

ready

im just not ready will i ever be
i dont want another minute as a memory
wanna live it right now with you here
reminisce on all the promises you said to me
with unsaid words sat on your lips
your voice my favorite melody
i miss your touch i miss your kiss
i miss your everything

ready

swim

this just aint quite how we planned it
i guess that this is the end
it feels like you're from a different planet
i could feel it in the air

take me way back to day one
way before we chatted on the lake front
before i offered you my pink hoodie
just for you to end up with my gray one
before i sent that meme to you
because i messaged and you'd say none
wish i knew what you'd mean to me
and i could still be saved but
now its way too late
sit here and i think about it day by day
wish we had another chance, trade my place
i got too many things stacked on my plate
i was on my way to your heart but i tripped
reached for your hand but you cant get a grip
held on tight through the pain til we slipped
i was getting back up if youd wait for a bit then we
couldve really been great
and i know for a fact that you know that its fate
if you ever hear this know i have no hate
it just hurts how you made it all seem so fake
when it felt so real, never sealed our deal
scared to be in love but could feel the appeal
you're the one who spun my heart on the wheel
now its in my hands tryna heal
now its in my hands
now its on my shelf
i dont feel so grand
i dont feel myself
i dont see no point in this
i cant act, i care
all these thoughts of you are just poisonous
your fumes cloud my air

this just aint quite how we planned it
i guess that this is the end
it feels like you're from a different planet
i could feel it in the air

i could feel it in the air
held you in my arms but you never were there i wanna
run my fingers through your burgundy hair man
howd it turn to what we'd never repair i gotta
tune out all the times that we made
places that we used to go will never be the same
i cant even sleep without seeing your face
i deleted all our pictures but they're burned into my brain
and it sucks that your pay back's what it would cost cause
you moved on too fast and im lost
is what it is, it was what it was
i just wish I knew how you felt and we talked but
damn, now you're blaming me
you were feeling stuck and never came to me
i wonder if you have any regrets and you would change some things
or if hes everything you'd pray he'd be
ashamedly i sit patiently
its pain to me knowing you wont wait for me
it takes rain for the grass to grow but the forecast's snow,
so i roam as i rake the leaves
its late this evening, rays from the day's receeding
race straight to the lakes you and i would scheme and
make dates on the dates we had made for weeks
on those dates in the days we couldnt wait to link
we couldnt wait to link
up late talking in place of sleep
so ironic now how the only place we speak
is in the dreams on the nights i can get to sleep but
the what ifs arent fair
i wonder if you wonder what im doing out there i
doubt i cross your mind but i swear
some nights i can feel you say my name in the air

this just aint quite how we planned it
i guess that this is the end
it feels like you're from a different planet
i could feel it in the air

prod. HYPRWRLD

you'll never be forgetting me
i know you gon remember me
tell me what forever means
you'll never be forgetting me

every day dragging on 
i been lost
and she saying i been gone
and she saying i been
and every day im hanging on
i been lost yeah
save me ive been lost yeah
save me ive been lost yeah

i been lost what you mean you're relieved you saw me?
no i aint gonna hear you out you aint done nothin for me
fuck your stories, fuck your warnings
ima do me now
where were you at when i been down
claiming your innocence while you holding that gun you been aiming at me now
you cant even look at me now
thought for a second we could figure things out
said you wouldnt leave with a finger on the trigger
when you put me in the dirt you aint digging me out
onto better things now, being something that we never been
new dude every week where the wedding ring
bury your head itll help for now but we both know you wont ever be

you'll never be forgetting me
i know you gon remember me
tell me what forever means
you'll never be forgetting me

every day dragging on 
i been lost
and she saying i been gone
and she saying i been
and every day im hanging on
i been lost yeah
save me ive been lost yeah
save me ive been lost yeah

lost

are you ever coming back to me
my thoughts still orbit you its more than gravity
what a beautiful catastrophe
like a supernova something just collapsed in me
its just the way it has to be
you showed me all the stars and now its astrophe
avoid me like an allergy
i know you're bad for me, my beautiful catastrophe

when you're giving me that attitude
i know that you're concerned on top of everything you have to do
but you know im never mad at you
breaks my heart our roads went down different avenues
remember parking at the summit
maccas in the bag and finding branches in the rubbish
laughing til we couldnt breathe and choking on the nuggets
know your presence is a gift it didnt take me long to love it
and i was loving it like maccas with a strawberry shake
or taco bell lets get some food and post up by the lake
man everytime i reminisce i know my heart will break
i feel the halves break into shards and i just start to ache
i start to hate the way the universe pulled us apart
you showed me stars within the dark and just for that regard
you'll always have a special place reserved inside my heart
until forever comes ill think of you and to myself ill ask

are you ever coming back to me
my thoughts still orbit you its more than gravity
what a beautiful catastrophe
like a supernova something just collapsed in me
its just the way it has to be
you showed me all the stars and now its astrophe
avoid me like an allergy
i know you're bad for me, my beautiful catastrophe

prod. autrioly

beautiful catastrophe

shes exotic but we're toxic
yeah we got sick drowning these narcotics
grabbing on my neck im hypoxic
we're meant to be something but its not this
but its not this
i give her my heart and she mocks it
she dont believe in love she agnostic
dont know how it got this toxic

dont know how it got this toxic,
lost it way up in the pent getting offset
aw shit i dont wanna vent but i got shit
weighing on my chest like i got tits
drop this weight, got a lot to say,
shawty did me dirty then she dug my grave
put a nail in the coffin so i cant escape
im the skeleton her closet just cant contain
my remains rot while her mind decays
2 corpses died in vain
putting in a shift at the graveyard my domain
ima have to dig deep before i rise again now 
i dont have the time for that
ima die again before my life elapse
you could hit my line but you wont ever get replies
and i wont ever change my mind until i collapse

shes exotic but we're toxic
yeah we got sick drowning these narcotics
grabbing on my neck im hypoxic
we're meant to be something but its not this
but its not this
i give her my heart and she mocks it
she dont believe in love she agnostic
dont know how it got this toxic

prod. by fukkfaith x damon xtc

toxic

swami x clouds, - high state

figured this would be the best prelude into the LP.

new song next week, full LP "sleepwalker" v v soon <3 

shares are more than appreciated

Produced by J Patterns:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC2kUgASY0uNE11EKdzGpZ4Q

son of death

ya

produced by yusei
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC2UL6SD7NG6fnvDXB36r7Nw

thorns (interlude)

this track is very old.
I never wanted to release it but it contains too much to let disappear in my hard drive
enjoy <3

produced by xrtravulous
https://www.youtube.com/user/Xtravulous

Lyrics:

[verse one]

if we fight,
i don't know if i can handle it,
another night,
just me and the beat with some cannabis
my thoughts control my life,
i'm trying to grow but the universe is adamant
i'm inadequate, i've had it and i'm bound to quit,
i'm drowning (shit)
and noone's around for me to sit down with this,
i'm being pounded with:
my past, my future, and right now (i think)
the flower's bringing me power
in the sourest of sour,
lost in the void; devoured
like my sanity, i'm not proud of
who i've been and who i've trusted
dead at the core, they only seeing the crust
and thinking i'm fine, i am i'm above it
the way that these cunts just keep kicking me but
i'm still in a rut, feeling so numb
i'm bleeding a lot, spilling my thoughts
i can't deal with them, lost,
up in the clouds where heaven once was
remembering back when you said i was fun,
meeting your parents your friends and your heart,
you're breaking my walls but you're building me up,
filling my cup,
thinking i'm finally feeling it (uh)

its like your essence is a drug
and i can't seem to get enough.

so if we fight

[verse two]

so i confessed to you my feelings,
the reasons i've been sealed
and all the demons that i deal with
you told me that you've seen it,
how i've been when we're all speaking,
how i stay quiet, trying to fight it,
but on the inside i'm tied and i'm screaming
now my whole life it just feels like a dream,
things i've been seeing i ain't really see
everything i've been feeling i ain't even need
i need to find me and be what i can be
you see
i'd just been broken when we met.
but you already knew that.
so that's what i don't get.
how you start to neglect and just stop sending texts,
you only be hitting me up for the sex,
you came in and broke down my walls,
made a mess of the mess i had swept to the back of my head
you know i'm depressed.
anxious as fuck, every day is a test, not getting to rest,
you say you'll be there but you're hittin' my friends
everyday i would spend in my bed while i vent
with a panic attack and a pain in my chest
you're getting real close to my closest of friends 
but you both say it's nothing and i was just stressed
so i keep to myself but it's getting intense
like i can't lose you both, you're all i have left.
i'm watching you both hanging out with me less..
+ then i found out you had sex

if we [bonus track]

pussy shit

produced by yusei
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC2UL6SD7NG6fnvDXB36r7Nw

open up

prod. lucid
https://www.youtube.com/user/Lucid437


lucid dreaming but I'm never in control
stupid reasons as to why I gotta go
and through the seasons I've been fighting through the snow
finding pieces of the me I used to know

but
the old me's been lost in a storm,
shot down then respawned; not bound to the laws,
never down to conform, sent down with a cause:
let sound be the walls of the mountain endorsed by the flow
I'm ready to see where I go
heavy but keeping afloat
everyone's keen when you blow
effort is easily deemed as the key and I know 
but it's so fucking hard to get up out of bed
I've been wrestling with all the beasts in my head
is there peace in the end or is breathing the death of me
ceasing to rest when I'm feeling a melody
keeping up barely
I'm tired as fuck
I can't get no luck
I just keep telling myself to remember myself
in the end everything'll be sussed
but I'm stuck here

having lucid dreams but I'm never in control
with these stupid reasons as to why I gotta go
and through the seasons I've been fighting through the snow
finding pieces of the me I used to know

but
the old me's been cast away,
passing J's like I'll never pass away.
half awake, after the darkness fades
I last the day parked in a darker place
and masking pain I turn into a basket case
I can't contain nothing off the shardonay
so pardon me, a part of me that I've been mastering
might be a little bit impartial with
the partying,
spark up a couple things
I'm up, but then I'm asking what if I could be
at the top, it's tough ain't no arguing,
i've been lost in a storm since the start of me
it's hard to be what you want
but I don't think that I'm ever gon' stop,
if I can't sleep then I get up and walk
until I fall asleep and run into a wall

(now I gotta fuckin')
find another way around
if it's up or I'm going back down,
I won't ever back down.
Like an addict that hasn't had his hit in hours
I just took a rip now the planet is ours 
the plan of attack is to not
a mattress is all that I want
me and lucid beats will be having lucid dreams
don't wake me until it gets hot

having lucid dreams but I'm never in control
with these stupid reasons as to why I gotta go
and through the seasons I've been fighting through the snow
finding pieces of the me I used to know

having lucid dreams but I'm never in control
with these stupid reasons as to why I gotta go
and through the seasons I've been fighting through the snow
finding pieces of the me I used to know

sleepwalker

lil freestyle, enjoy xx

produced by yusei
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC2UL6SD7NG6fnvDXB36r7Nw

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